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[luckyyluka]

i have yet to share this with anybody else or on any other platform, but i'm finally accepting that i need help.

lately, i've been at an all time low. starting with the physical health part, i've suddenly developed daily chronic headaches and it's been messing with me SO bad i feel like i'm going insane.

mentally, i've

been going literal weeks without taking care of myself. i haven't been able to eat more than half a meal a day without my stomach getting queasy, even if it's healthy food and not take out.

i've been dissociating so bad that things literally start going in slow motion when i start moving around. sometimes i get this pounding ambiance sound almost in my ears and everything is just fuzzy. derealization/depersonalization has me so fucked up i feel almost as if i'm suffocating sometimes.

emotionally, i'm fine for the most part? in a way? like i'm not actively sad. but i can tell i'm depressed because i don't even talk to my friends online through voice calls anymore, and usually i can atleast keep that up.

i didnt realize how bad any of this was until just tonight. i thought it was just my usual bullishit , bpd daily grind once again, yk? but this... it's so much heavier and i can't handle it anymore.

i'm so truly sorry for how little i've written and how many requests i've promised and just haven't even started on. i want to write so bad, believe me. but right now i just don't even have the energy to live. idk if i'll ever get around to writing again, and i'm sorry. but when things get better, if they ever actually do, then expect to be tagged in the latest response to a request you've ever seen lol

anyways. yeah, i'm sorry. idk what else to say. i just cant do this (existing) anymore

#tw // depression #i'm struggling lol #i'm sorry #derealization #depersonalization #chronic headaches #bpd #epilepsy #help #if you have any experience or advice please send it :(

[luckyyluka]

how to find time to write when you're hyperfixated on not one but TWO things

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for april fools we’re deleting this entire site sayonara you weeaboo shits

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i just started hsm the series and i can see how ricky has bpd

THANK YOU ‼️‼️‼️ spreading the ricky bowen bpd agenda!!!!!

#ricky bowen #high school musical the musical the series fanfic #hsmtmts #ricky bowen has bpd #ricky bowen headcanon #bpd headcanon

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and now im hyperfixated on minecraft 🫠🫠🫠🫠

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its ok man its basically totally normal for two regular friends to jerk eachother off everbody does it dude its all good its not even gay its normal

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lip bite. lip bite.

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Music video when, Djo?

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watched the new smosh fnaf video and had two AMAZING ideas for oneshots...

shayne - HURT/COMFORT. the way he IMMEDIATELY stopped and was like Oh my god are you okay? when he noticed amanda was crying 😭😭 i know that's just called being a decent human being but it was SO sweet and i'm such a sucker for hurt/comfort that i immediately was like I NEED.

for the spencer one, i'm gonna keep that a secret bc i think it'd work FANTASTIC for the spencer req i got. so keep an eye out for that soon ;)

love you guys! see you soon with new story updates ❤️‍🩹 (who knows... there might be an update for blake and ricky too... they've missed u guys 🤭🤭)

#smosh #smosh fanfic #smosh fanfiction #shayne topp #spencer agnew #smosh fnaf #second chance #🤫🤫🤫 #updates!

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If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

#still working on the red queen series tbh #i'm almost halfway done with the last book though!! #War Storm by Victoria Aveyard

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this is phenomenal

I made another set of these. I have a few others too, i just don't know how to tag them here yet, but u can find them on my page! :))

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why do mermaids wear seashells on their boobs

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spencer reid who writes about you in every single letter he sends to his mom, so even if she never meets you, she feels like she knows you.

spencer reid who rambles about you to anyone who will listen, gaining the nickname 'romeo' from derek because of how much he talks about you.

spencer reid who talks about you so much that random baristas across the country know your zodiac sign (he doesn't believe in them, but he knows you do) and that you hate black coffee but love sweet coffee (just like him).

spencer reid who memorized the exact shade of your eyes the moment he met you because he wanted to be able to correctly depict the color in his letters to his mom.

spencer reid who loves you so much that he feels the whole world should.

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I WILL UPDATE MY AO3 SOON AND I WILL START WRITING THOSE REQUESTS AND I WILL CONTINUE WORKING ON SECOND CHANCE IT WILL HAPPEN VERY SOON

#i might be going insane!!!!

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heyyy. could you do a shayne topp imagine. the plot is totally up to you. sorry if this is annoying

not annoying at all!! i'd love to work on something for shayne. i've got one other req lined up, so i'll get to yours as soon as that one is done :)