lowlyghosty

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ninjago characters: h-

fandom: mmm yes slurp. tasty legos. those abs tho i 😏 😏 😫 😫 💦 💦 💦 i am so attracted to plastic yellow i cannot function

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Zane: How would you rate your pain?

Cole: Zero stars.

Zane:

Cole: Do not recommend.

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Jay: (kicks the "G" off the graveyard sign)

Jay: Let's get this party started

Morro: No-

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Officer: Sir, I was informed that you have pot in your vehicle.

Kai, pulling out a flowerpot: Oh, you mean this?

Officer: Oh. my mistake, what are you growing?

Kai: Weed.

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Kai, giving a speech: Giving thanks for what we have shouldn’t be exclusive to holidays or friends and family gatherings.

Nya: He’s doing well so far.

Jay: Mhm.

Kai: It’s an every day thing, all year round.

Zane: He’s right.

Kai: Ya know what I mean? Every day, 265 days a year!

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Kai: We need to talk.

Morro: That has never been true.

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Lloyd: Name a more iconic duo then my fear of abandonment and my instinct to self isolate. I'll wait.

Nya: Us

Lloyd, choking up: ...okay.

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Its amazing how I constantly seek out book recommendations when there’s a whole pile waiting to be read.

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Around here we support slackers, cheaters, underachievers, and, especially, burnouts

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babygirl you are strange and offputting

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i am so delusional but like i know whats going on

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The hundreds of players participating in this tournament… there’s one experience they all share. That’s losing. No one makes it this far without tasting defeat.

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I don't punch bugs but my boyfriend is 6'7" and 220lbs so I'll call him to get the bugs and he walks in and does his best new york gangster voice (he's British) and goes "is that guy bothering you, toots?" and then puts them in a cup

if men arent like this theyre worthless

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a cat: *touches me with its small hand* me: *eyes tearing up* thank you

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the reason i like staying up late so much is because between the hours of 1am-5am, the world is quiet and no one expects anything from me. i could stare at my wall for 4 hours and there would be no consequences. it’s so silent and calm. i love it

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idk why im writing this but i just feel the need to let this out somewhere.

so, starting from tomorrow, i'll be having my exams. and its still not decided whether they will be online or face to face. we'll get to know today. and honestly, im not prepared. its been almost two years since i've given actual exams and this time around, i have absolutely no motivation to study. i've tried so many techniques and everything, i tried to take part in that 50 days of productivity challenge, and gave up a week in, i made planners and organizers and whatnot but i just cant get myself to study.

in the beginning, i kept telling myself that i would study later, that i have a month, a week left. now i have less than 24 hours and ive been praying so so much that we get the announcement that the exams will be online. the thing is, i've always been an over-achiever in my academics and this time, i feel like im not half as prepared as i should be and the thought is eating me alive. i woke up at 4 am with the intention to study but have actually focused for 20 minutes max. i dont know what i'll do if they announce that the exams are going to be held face to face. and its like, i have all these expectations to fulfill. expectation of my mom, my family and even myself. i doubt i'll be able to look at myself in the mirror if i dont get the high scores i usually get, and thats not to add what my mother will think.

this is the first time exams have really got to me. yes, i've kinda procrastinated sometimes, but deadlines and expectations always had me finish whatever i had to do even if it was 11pm and an hour before the deadline. now i just dont have it in me. maybe its the laziness, or the stress or both. but i just cant. its almost 10 am rn and i have my last class in half an hour before exam season officially starts. at this point, even the anxiety has wore off and im left with this strange feeling of nothing. like, i'd feel nothing if i just closed my computer right now and just...went to sleep. but obviously it'd all catch up when im giving my exam. the exam is in exactly 23 hours and i dont know what to do. and its math for god's sake.

now im really sorry for venting out here like i am, but i dont know what to do. right now all the students are just waiting for the government's decisions, and i should be studying regardless of whether they'll be online or not. bu everything seems to be slipping from my fingertips. and there's just so much material to cover. hell, i've forgotten topics i was sure i'd know and dont even get me started on the ones i didnt attend lectures to. its just all so...not me. normally, i'd never miss lectures, or be behind on school work, or even worry about exams for that matter. but these aren't normal times and i feel so screwed.