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this too shall pass

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korra did things to 14 year old me

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I do believe in the power of sitting in your car just a little longer before heading inside, lying upside down on the couch, cloud gazing well into adulthood, taking the time to learn something new, humility, recollecting your dreams, pressing something warm against your belly, small talk w strangers, odes to romance, a lit candle on your countertop while you cook, having a sense of humor about life

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to endure this pain is to have loved which is never a bad thing to endure this pain is to have loved which is never a bad thing to endure this pain is to have loved which is never a bad thing to endure this pain is to have loved which is never a bad thing 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

#tryna stay grateful for every part of the human experience but getting ur heart broken so hard the planet tilts & having to #go on like nothing's wrong has gotta be pretty fucking low down on the list

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I don’t care about it at all (I have carried its weight around like a rock on my chest since the very day it happened)

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Andreas Feininger, Helicopter Taking off at Night, 1949

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having friends is so cool like here’s a person i love soooo much and i get to make inside jokes w them and make them laugh and be there for them when they’re sad and share in their suffering as well as their joy. what a beautiful and sacred thing. friendship is holy

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how did i let myself become so horrifically pathetically in love with a guy who turned me down over a year ago i'm such a moron. like i've really sat here & let him break my heart over & over just because he's nice to me & likes touching me & having sex with me sometimes . . but in my defence how am i supposed to get over him when he's so sweet & smart & patient & understanding & he tips his head back when he laughs & always smells like laundry & puts sugar in his hot chocolate & can't sit still & tries so so hard & cares so much & knows just what to say & tells me i'm amazing & rubs my back & hugs me from behind when i'm sad & lets me keep his clothes & hold his hand when i have a panic attack & gets me water & he knows how to belong everywhere in the world & reads entire books to try to understand me better & his arms are the safest place i've ever been & being touched by him is like being water kissed by sunlight like 😐😐 god really said i crafted an angel out of my spare sunshine & i'm sending him to you & you get to touch him & be loved by him but you don't get to keep him & he was never really yours to begin with & now you just have to move on with your life like anything else could ever compare & figure out how to be just friends & watch him move on when you've felt the warmth of his affection & been so close to being his & you know what it feels like to have his hands & his mouth everywhere & drift off in his arms & the only place you know where to live is his lap & with his hand in yours but you can never go back there & sometimes it will feel okay because he's still your best friend & he'll pick you up & spin you around & play with your hair & say all the same reassuring words & be funny & charming & lovely but then sometimes the distance will drown you & you'll sob yourself to sleep & when he's there you'll have to hold back your tears & know that your hurt is hurting him but have no way of stopping it & not know how to live & what to do with your hands & who to run to when the one you used to run to is right there but just out of reach & only ever gonna get further & further away from you & will find someone to hold who he feels something real for & will leave with her someday & not you & you just have to be okay with it all & pretend like the hurt & the jealousy aren't making your heart bruise like a piece of fruit he picked up for a while but decided he didn't want after all 🫶🫶🫶

#handling the situationship breakup v well #it'll be ok in the end but goddamn !!! i sure am suffering the consequences of my actions 😃 at least the dick was crazy <3 #sorry for using cringy poetic comparisons to express my feelings. it'll happen again #speaking of. stay tuned to see if i beat the urge to wait for the next time he wants me like a dog with a bird at his door #i need to unwrap myself from his finger #if not for me then for our friendship #if we go on the way we have been all this aching is gonna turn into resentment & i don't want that — he's too important to me #but i think he's serious this time anyway #there's peace in my pain ig 🤙 #the back & forth was good when it was good but it was making us hurt each other #at least this is just one hurt to get used to #& hurting him so much is the last thing on this earth i ever wanna do again. so hopefully this will help w that #& maybe someday i can love him the way he wants w no red strings attached #tldr i <3 being dramatic. goodnight ⭐😴 #hope i dream of the alternate reality where he loves me back. ik it's out there #or maybe a visit would just hurt more. idk #i like it here anyway. even when it hurts & even when i forget how to. this is my life & i wanna see how it turns out #hope we look back & laugh at how foolish i was & how i feared i'd never find anything better than this. i'm only 20 after all #but if this really is it (unlikely) (but if it is) at least i got to lie in the sunlight for a little #just have to deal w the sunburn now

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putting this out as a feeler: does anyone want me forever

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I just want to get dicked down again =/

#iconic post & also real

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for 2024:

read a lot and read everything

film and art and music are what builds ur soul

be outside

love and romance will not come to you any quicker if you are focused on it constantly

possessions don't improve things

movement does improve things

university is <4 years of the rest of your life - make the most of it

find the pleasure in hard work

lose the pleasure in scrolling

creation is essential

joy, love & intelligence are the tenets of life

stagnation isn't inevitable. no person is in a fixed state. you can always change

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*opens a Rothko painting like a door and leaves through it*

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girl are you ok you’ve been seeing a lot of intimacy in everyday objects and mundane situations

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one of my grandparents’ kittens taking a nap inside a toy truck

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hey man I found a piece of your soul stuck in the text messages of old friends you don’t speak to anymore. do you want it back

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🐚 seashells pngs!!