loversj0y

[loversj0y]

Take care of yourself, I'm sorry to see you leave, but I 1,000% understand

thank you <3

i hope everyone takes care of themselves too, especially in light of the news. its not an easy thing to learn how manipulated you’ve been so i hope everyone extends kindness onto themselves and onto others in the community who are struggling

[loversj0y]

hello

im leaving this blog up as an archive of my past work even though i no longer wish to support that man in anyway. as a victim of DV, i find myself horrified to learn that a man i looked up to as a comfort in times i was struggling with these issues was perpetuating the same cycle of hurt i struggle with. it goes without saying that i am fully in support of shelby, and i think she is insanely brave and strong and courageous for being able to speak up. i want to thank her. not just for sharing her story and letting other victims feel seen, but also for shedding light on how truly vile this man is.

while i always knew that i never truly knew who wilbur was, and most of my works were simply using his face and name as some sort of claim to the person i wished to find and wished to see, it is still so horrifying to find out how someone i thought would be safe is an abuser.

i am still struggling with it if i am being honest because there was so much he did that helped me get through some of the worst times in my life. regardless i dont want to stand here and appear as though i support someone who is so vile.

even though i have barely used this blog for a long time now, i still felt making my stance clear was important.

if you want to follow me/support my work/just talk to me, i just set up a new blog @marstarion which i will likely use to talk a lot about my current hyperfixation (astarion from balders gate) though whether or not i write anything will be dependent as ive become a very busy person. if you just want to find me, @redwisterias is my main kind of spam blog.

i wish you all well, and i thank you all so much for the support you have given me. and remember to be kind to yourselves. and most of all, remember to support victims.

goodbye from loversj0y, hope you all enjoyed your time here

[loversj0y]

Mars!!!!!! Helo

I’m here to give headcanons (?)

saw this in some fanart—

If revivebur spends too long standing still outdoors, grass begins to grow on his feet, which begin to sink into the soil. The earth misses him, it wants him back

I also believe he would not be able to handle flirting. I’m talking old-fashioned Victorian flirting: showing up at his house (Phil’s house, we all know the man is a squatter) with flowers, writing him poetry, kissing him on the back of the hand— you know. it’s the one kind of flirting that would be most effective because he doesn’t know how to react to it. He can’t get his guard up on time, so he’s just left flabbergasted. Absolutely bamboozled, mouth open, eyes wide, completely stunned. The first time at least. not that all the following times go any smoother for him—

And I think he’d be a sucker for that old fashioned stuff. The dramatic bitch he is

i love these!!

i love the interpretation that the earth tries to claim him back its so interesting to think about and its so cool

also he definitely wouldn’t be able to handle that proper kind of flirting. like steamy flirting he can put up a guard but properly sweet flirting? windows start up noise in his brain

#mar answers #listenheresweaty :3

[loversj0y]

Totally understand. Actually kinda same. Distractions help sometimes. But I hope you feel better. Thank you for letting me tell you some hc's and then saying your own interpretations

distractions do really help sometimes, especially given that i was in public for a while so crying in public is not my favorite to do. thank you for sharing your hcs and helping distract me <3

#mar answers #anon :3

[loversj0y]

Oh why were you crying I'm sorry are you okay and don't apologize for not responding right away

im just going through some very intense family shit at the moment and its. rough to say the least. ive been trying to distract myself from it which is why ive been a bit more active today

#mar answers #anon :3

[loversj0y]

Biiiiiig same. I go on rants about hc's/characters/creators/DSMP/QSMP all the time to my partner. And the other day they said I'm their favorite source of information because they don't watch by themselves

(sorry for long wait reply i started crying again lol)

no literally i once sat my parents down and explained like. all of lmanburgs lore to them because id been making references to it and they were getting steadily concerned about this apparent country i spoke about as if it was real

#mar answers #anon :3

[loversj0y]

Youuuuuuu. Yes you understand. I love all of them so much (I love c and cc Wilbur in general)

i do i really do

(i have gone on autistic rants about cwilbur so many times he owns my brain and i am not normal about him)

#mar answers #anon :3

[loversj0y]

A few I have, and I don't know if any of these are canon, they are to me, but all the Wil's have a bit of PTSD, also I think maybe all of them sorta do but I really only think about Ghostbur, have non verbal episodes

oh yeah they all have ptsd but they definitely all react differently

i think lmanbur is very like. breathing exercises, holding himself, self isolation response

ghostbur definitely is the type to have nonverbal episodes, but also would likely not understand why he’s having these episodes and it would distress him badly

revivebur is the most like. anger response or total fear response. most episodes, he has to go punch something or go on a run or do something violent to get the urge out of his head. but if its about his time on the train station? thats the quiet, chest-clenching type of fear where he feels stunned like he csnt move

#mar talks #anon :3

[loversj0y]

that is so fucking precious and sweet and i am kissing you rifht now (if u are ok with it, if not i am hugging you so much rn)

pst

tell me ur fav wilbur headcanons to distract me from my big sad pleased

#kiwi :3

[loversj0y]

Like cWil and all his characters hc's?

yes, can be with any bur as well :3

#mar answers #anon :3

[loversj0y]

pst

tell me ur fav wilbur headcanons to distract me from my big sad pleased

#mar talks

[loversj0y]

you’re the sweetest person alive actually -vienna

you are biased

#mar answers #vienna :3

[loversj0y]

pink

how have a tricked so many of you into thinking i an a friendly creature i am a trickster god in the making

#mar answers #merakiwi :3 #this is a silly thank u

[loversj0y]

i miss everyone how are you all doing

#mar talks

[loversj0y]

Blue yellow pink x3

-lotus (lurking from main haha)

we are in a constant state of haunt (i love haunting)

my existence is debunked so sorry ! sorry to everyone who thought otherwise

… screams into the void

#mar answers #lotus :3

[loversj0y]

assign your mutuals a vibe

[loversj0y]

would you kill me if i asked nicely