But all alone, his blood runs thin (and doubt... doubt comes in)
a fitzsimmons hadestown AU
read below // read A03
thank you to @the-nerdy-stjarna for the help with this one <3
The meanest dog you'll ever meet
He ain't the hound dog in the street
He bares some teeth and tears some skin
But, brother, that's the worst of him
The dog you really got to dread
Is the one that howls inside your head
It's him whose howling drives men mad
And a mind to its undoing
He looked at the King of Hell, unable to believe what he had been told.
That he - that they - could leave.
As long as they trusted each other.
As long as they believed in one another.
As long as he didn't turn back.
It would be hard, the hardest thing that either of them would ever do.
He would have to trust that this wasn't a trap.
He would have to trust that she would be there, only a footfall behind him.
She would have to trust that he knew the way.
She would have to trust that he wouldn't turn.
It would take the two of them to get through this.
But he was going to do it - they were going to do this.
Like they did everything.
Together.
Because... because he could do this.
Of course, he could.
He had walked into Hell to save her. To bring her back.
And that was what he was going to do.
For the King of Hell saw him as an equal. Worthy of this task. This test. This trial.
And he wasn’t going to show him that he was any less.
He wasn't going to prove that he was the weak musician everyone believed him to be.
No.
He was going to show the god that he was just as important, just as worthy. He was going to show him that a mere mortal could be as strong and as powerful as one who was immortal.
And when the King of Hell extended his hand, Fitz took it. The grasp was firm and the shake was powerful. Before his journey, he would have been intimated by this. Would have felt threatened by this.
But now - now it felt as though the god was wishing him luck, telling him that he could do this.
And he could.
***
He didn’t hear her. Not anymore.
When they had first started their walk, he could hear her behind him.
Reassuring him. Providing words of comfort. She was there behind him. She would always be there with him, for him. Whatever came next, they would face together.
They were a team after all.
That it was always like he said, she had been beside him the whole damn time.
Except this time she was behind him.
Was she?
She was. Of course, she was. Where else would she be?
She's not there.
She had to be there. She was there.
There was nowhere else she could be.
But he couldn’t hear her.
And he couldn’t see her.
Turn around. Turn around and check that she is there.
To see her would be to curse her.
To lose her forever.
So he continued, head down, pushing the doubts from his mind, but with every step that he took, it got darker, it got colder, it got harder.
It shouldn’t be like this.
They were leaving the world of the dead behind.
They were returning to the world of the living.
It shouldn’t be getting darker.
It shouldn’t be getting colder.
It shouldn't be getting harder.
But it was.
And he couldn’t hear her.
Not anymore.
She’s not there
He couldn’t see her.
But you can. All you have to do is turn around. Turn around and you can see her again.
He didn’t - he couldn’t - he WOULDN'T - turn. She was there.
Was she?
He knew it.
But was she?
She would always be there. She would always be there for him - with him. No matter what.
Why would she be?
She told him - she promised him she would be there.
She told you she wouldn't leave you once upon a time and she did.
They were a team. That no matter what they faced, they would face it together. And he was going to do this.
For them.
For her.
You have failed her once before.
Yes. He had failed her before. but not this time. This time was going to be different.
Why would you be any different this time?
Because it was going to be. It had to be different.
It won’t be different. She deserves better. Better than you.
He closed his eyes, shaking his head.
He had to ignore those thoughts and had to keep going.
They can offer her that - he can offer her that. Not you. Never you.
Jemma was counting on him.
So many others were counting on him.
And he couldn’t - he wouldn’t - fail.
Not again
Never again.
But you will. You will always fail her.
And walking on, continuing on with this task - this hell - he had been asked to do and knowing hoping that Jemma was still there was the only thing that he could do.
She’s not there.
She’s not there.
She’s not there.
And he had to check.
He had to turn to see if she was there because if she wasn’t there…
No! He couldn’t!
But you can.
Turning would mean losing her.
How can you lose her if she’s not there?
Closing his eyes, he took a breath. Then another one then a third before opening his eyes once more and taking a step.
Then another step.
Then another…
Then an…
Then…
He turned.
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S1 E20 Agents of Shield 10th Anniversary
10 years ago today we…
Saw Maria Hill make another cameo!
Watched the rest of the team discover the truth about Ward. (I can’t take Fitz’s confused/heartbroken expression in this scene!)
Felt our hearts break as Fitz lashes out at the confirmation who Ward really is. (This was just so sad! They were just starting to become a family!)
Sat on the edge of our seats as Skye decides to let Ward live. (Yeah, that’s gonna come back to haunt her.)
Chuckled at this funny scene!
Are left with our jaws dropped, again, as we discovered who was behind TAHITI.
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