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I cant believe this tweet is how I find out

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Creature party

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You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#thanks mom!

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things to include in a letter to your overseas pen-pal

that one sticker you were saving

pressed flowers from a walk around your neighborhood

book quotes that made you laugh

paint swatches of colors that remind you of them

the local time of sunrise and sunset 

poems and movie quotes

meaningful song lyrics

polaroids of your desk space, or the view out of your window

cutouts of sheet music you used to play

phrases in your native language with translations

magazine cutouts

pages of old books folded into a small envelope

a secret about your hometown

newspaper clippings from the day of writing

coins from your country 

maps or drawings of your city

recounts of strangers you saw

teabag of your favorite tea

colorful stamps

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Hey can we queers please remember that the rural queer experience has unique challenges thanks

#my private spreadsheet of affirming providers and trans friwndly places #make sure everyone knows that you don't tell just anyone about these places

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who is the first david you think of when you hear the name david

#the guy that played the secret chord

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(i Will go back to everlasting haitus if that GFM slows down too much btw, seeing it to its goal ASAP is my primary focus right now)

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Your straight male friends after two beers: "Hgey man can I smell your hair"

Your friend with the haunted shamisen: [plucks a baleful chord of ill portent]

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"Surely Californians aren't that weird about Yoga."

One time my mom quit on the first day of a yoga class because the instructor told everyone to "connect your essence to the native American ghosts"

#blease leave the ghosts alone they don't want your fuckinh essence

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Artifact found in glovebox. Circa 2000 AD, Late American petro-empire civilization. perhaps used in religious rituals

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the cursed armor you can never take off once you put it on stays ON during sex. due to the aforementioned curse.

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Somehow so elegant and so strange at the same time

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saw a grown woman on tiktok snidely calling gen z the christopher columbus generation bc someone’s fifteen year old son ‘thought he’d discovered weezer’. newsflash every generation finds out about the music of the previous generation at some point it comes free with being fifteen. being annoying about music also comes free with being fifteen. a kid saying yeah i’ve just found this band nirvana have you ever heard of them should be a thing of joy