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this picture is so funny to me like the faggot radiating off this image is so warm i could heat my home… he literally went to home depot and bought the finest grade finnish wood 1x12 that cost at least $15 and then put it in a tiny plastic bag…. camp

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Everyone start licking!!! We can save him!!

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AMBER HEARD Shape Magazine (2018)

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these pictures have the same wasted energy

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There has not been a single month in the last five years where I haven't thought about this video

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Garlic 2 (Stone sculpture) Mary Eiland

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My current plan to recover from my mental and emotional existence is to just go so deep into being insane that I'll come out sane on the other side. Being a chronic people pleaser plagued with impostor syndrome stretched me too thin, and that leash simply snapped and I am now a completely untethered, unapologetic vermin.

Fuck having impostor syndrome, if I'm not entitled to be here they should've barred the doors better. If I'm doing everything wrong because of imaginary rules that nobody told me about, that's their problem, you should have made your confusing system more idiot-proof.

I'm not here to please everyone and do everything right. I'm here to make bad art, chew on furniture, make people laugh, cook awful food and look at pretty landscapes, and piss off the people who don't want me to exist. If I have an unseen infinite debt somewhere that I can never pay back, I'm going to keep running that tab until I die. I'm alive purely because the universe is shit at pest control.

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the more people i work with the more my hope for any and all of them is that they will simply be and appreciate who they are at a given time. our differences are good! they’re the stuff of life! the instinct we’ve been trained in to pathologize the idiosyncratic ways we experience the world and the self is so damaging and perverse. normal doesn’t exist and constructed norms are a trap. you’re a creature, weird, flesh, improbable, in a galaxy in a universe! there is really, really nothing to “fix” about who you are

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The spectacle around the Depp trial is being called a large-scale backlash to the MeToo movement, and I don’t disagree — but this is uniquely terrifying because I don’t think the mainstream MeToo movement was ever actually materially effective in the first place. In Walter Benjamin’s essay The Work of Art in the Age of Mechanical Reproduction, he writes that an oppressive structure “sees its salvation” in allowing the masses to express themselves freely in lieu of granting them their rights. Similarly, the mainstream MeToo movement offered temporary catharsis in place of systemic change; Hollywood play-acted a revolution so that its men could keep up their abuse unscathed. There is something phenomenally painful in watching a material backlash erupt in response to a movement that was never allowed to be anything more than aesthetic. Now that the state of discourse has moved forward without bringing women’s material conditions with it, men like Johnny Depp are able to benefit from violent systemic misogyny while posturing themselves as radical, anti-establishment activists. Recent events are not so much a pendulum swing as they are a pendulum being repeatedly beaten in one direction for fear it might one day gain a centimetre of ground.

-Rayne Fisher-Quann, "who's afraid of amber heard? abuse, aesthetics, and assigning deviance to difficult women"