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i was cuddling with my boyfriend last night when his shoulder started tensing up (like he was readjusting or gently pushing me off) and when i asked him if he was okay or needed me to move or something he went “no you’re fine, i was just imagining myself pulling a large rope. i didn’t even realize my shoulder was doing that lmao” then refused to elaborate and i have never been as attracted to him as i was in that moment.

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It’s so funny going from Neil’s asexual pov to jeans definitely NOT asexual pov

Neil: Kevin is tall and has a tattoo

Jean: pretty boy with a soft smile and beautiful green eyes

Neil: Renee is a women and has hair

Jean: a force of hope and beauty, an anomaly in a world that’s ugly and bleak. She is the sun.

Neil: Jeremy is the captain of the Trojans and he smiles a lot for some reason

Jean: his bleach blonde hair frames his tanned freckled skin, his broad shoulders and tiny waist give way to his thicc thighs and ass

But also the reverse

Neil: Andrews strong unwavering frame and honey colored eyes

Jean: the tiny goalkeeper

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this came to me in a vision

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nothing sexier than that picture with the italian players on top of eachother after the win and the english ones going through the 5 stages of grief in the back

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Obnoxious little junkie

Yet we still love him 🧡

Robbin took this picture

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Shoutout to Jonathan Sims, wanted for two murders and currently couch surfing on his ex's couch

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let's rest for a minute

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John used all his simussy in that line

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Sorry I’ve been sick as hell have mullet Gerry as consolation

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Gerry my beloved 🖤

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'I am Jean Moreau. I belong to the Moriyamas. I will endure. I will endure. I will endure.'

Not that accurate to the book, but I had pretty bad headaches for the last few days so I only managed to draw sth simple 😓

Might draw that scene again as a full piece when I feel like it ✨️

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Yeah, sure I’ll keep drawing Gerry and I’ll be so normal about it

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I'm having an amazing time picturing Neil at the sunshine court instead of Jean. like the probbing questions, the unrelenting demand for explanations and getting down to their feelings, Neil would have run Day One. and obviously Jean on the Foxes would have been a complete disaster.

the difference between Jean and Neil is that Jean is a stray dog who needs attention and love and Neil is a feral cat that will only stay around if u pretend to ignore him

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neil in aftg can pass off as like… Almost borderline semi-normal kid who’s found himself in insane circumstances when rlly all he wants to do is play a crazy sport because he looks at andrew’s problems and kevin’s lack of spine and riko’s entire existence and he does believe he’s almost borderline semi-normal. just a paranoid liar bc his dad wants to murder him. then u see him from an outsider’s pov and he’s damn near psychotic arranging a hit on someone while on a lunch date with his gangster uncle and the guy who taped his skin back together after continuous torture not even a year ago and he does it without breaking a sweat while stringing up a series of lies to feed to the FBI. character or ALL time

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my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

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terms that jean uses for neil in the sunshine court:

tiny bastard

tedious malcontent

abominable cockroach

wayward child

rabid little Fox

wretched little runaway

ignorant child

miserable wretch