littlegraycatx

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Kitten queen ...Cat puke Woman #HotTopic yay

Eurghhhhhh

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I wanna kiss ur mouth and I wanna go swimming and I wanna do a lotta things ok? I wanna wear a princess dress. N then stain it bcus princesses can b messy too and the world needs 2 know that. Play with my hair. Plz

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i want to hold & i want to be held- i am a tiny dusty thing- i am a doll sitting in ur closet that u talked to when u were small and she doesn't know what to do with the body that she's been given or the heart she's been given or anything she's been given because she's never been given anything before right now right this second

she will just take & take

i just take & take

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my video

#film #Youtube

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I miss my Mom n I miss God 2

Sad Face.

sighhhhhhhh

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supernova girl

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black hair.. it's swimming in my head ;P

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i’m just a kid ;(

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2/26/24 - 4th day at rehab and i feel Just OK. not really sure. hope it goes uphill.. i will run with everything in me. i will catch on fire and by the time someone comes to rescue me i’ll have already rescued myself. look down into the ashes and see a baby bird. i came to rehab because i wasn't doing that bad but then suddenly everybody started trying to kill themselves. if i didn't leave when i did i'd be trapped in the fire with everybody else, i wouldn't have flown away. rahhhhh

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On my way! to rehab xx

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feb 20 2024

I was named after a flower. A violet. We both do well in bright, indirect light, and may wilt when overwatered. We require consistent care and attention, and will stick around forever if you’ll let us. 

I remember being a toddler and seeing these flowers for the first time. They were so beautiful I just had to put them in my mouth and eat them. I had a theory that this was the luxury snack of Pixie Hollow. I thought I would sprout wings one day and fly away. I laid in the grass, feeling myself get enveloped by the earth, purple petals of hope melting in my mouth. Sweetness bloomed in my esophagus, travelling down to my stomach. I could never get enough of it, even now. 

As humans, we will last forever. Eternity is in our hands. We are living in a never ending terrarium, and we don’t know how far we can go yet. The limit does not exist. The whole world is always reusing and recycling, adapting to the new and letting go of the old. We cover each others footprints with our own. We are an entire ecosystem made up of the proof of the past’s existence. My twin brother and I at six years old will be memorialized forever, our hair tangled up in a birds nest in our old neighborhood. I hope the hatchlings are warm enough. I hope my hair suffices. A girl I loved once told me she wanted to go somewhere empty. I told her there’s no such thing as an empty space. The void fills it in, and the void is a creature in itself. She laughed and said she just wanted to dance with me, somewhere nobody could see. Don’t worry, she said. We can leave room in between us. Just in case something else wants to come. I swear I could see the dust swaying along, in the silence of it all.

There are four oceans on our planet. They are our lifeline, our saving grace. When the tide is high, our heartbeats follow along. It’s a reminder of the fact that we are all so alive, we are all so beautiful, just like these oceans. There is so much violence and so much love at the same time beneath the surface, and above the surface as well. It’s only natural. Our bodies are the same wherever we bleed, and the fluids attract sharks and other creatures, with no discrimination of who we are, or the life we’ve lived. We are alive, and that’s it. It would take the rest of time to make sense of it all. Maybe searching for meaning will be our downfall. When we search for meaning, it gets harder to believe in anything at all. If there is anything at all we should believe in, it should be the Earth. She’s been here longer than any of us, and that should be enough. 

My name is Violet. Faith, Modesty, Innocence. These are all things that I, we, the flower and I, are supposed to represent. I will grow my own garden one day, and I will call these plants my daughters. I will watch Animal Planet, and I will hold on so tightly to everyone I know. I will lean against the universe and feel uncertain and okay about what is inevitably ahead. The moon will rise over and over again, and we will create and inhale and exhale and start all over. Our bodies will expand and contract, and our souls will grow sprouts in the soil. I don’t think I ever digested those violets. I am still ripe with love.

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2/12/24 - ed tw.. cassie ainsworth destroyed lives and then built them right back up again

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Come Over & We Can Hang Out on thr floor

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1/22/24 - i've been going crazy and don't know what to do about it. i've been wanting to write but writing is impossible. i don't have anything to say anymore. i want to go back in time and somehow fix everything. i think i just want to die for something. anything. i'll be my own country, and the opposing side too. just let me go some time soon, and let my death feel noble and meaningful. drop a gold medal in my grave. thanks

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12/11/23 - horse zine pt 1

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12/11/23 - horse zine pt 2

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barbara kruger

untitled (questions) , 1989