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It's crazy how trauma causes you to push people away when all you ever wanted is to be loved.

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rb to make a trans person feel loved 💕

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Libraries with a sense of humour.

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LMFAOOOOO THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME

someone please give ig user coenffl that blue tick for the love of god, even jooheon got his already

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ATEEZ Reaction to: You loving to hear them moan

A/N: This was not requested but I just got this idea. Mainly because I think it's hot when guys moan. Might have gone more out with this than I have in a while.. oops... Anyways... hope you guys enjoy! As usual gifs aren't mine and credits to the rightful owners! x

Seonghwa

Seonghwa was a little surprised when he heard you say that, but it didn't come out of the blue either. He noticed that you always clawed at his back whenever he let some of his own moans out, just like you're doing now. He smirks softly as he slows down his pace, almost coming to a halt as he looks you in the eyes.

"I already thought you liked them, but I'm glad you told me." He says, brushing your hair out of your face as he leans down to kiss you.

You tangle your fingers in his hair as you pull him impossibly closer, making Seonghwa smile against your lips. When you tug a little harder on the strands he can't stop himself from letting out a groan. Feeling you clench around him in response.

"Fuck you really love it when I do that, huh?"

You quickly nod your head before going back to kissing him. Seonghwa responds eagerly as he continues moving his hips, slowly picking up pace again until you pull away from his lips, throwing your head back against the pillow as your nails scratch down his back.

Seonghwa lets out a low grunt as he continues slamming his hips against yours, bringing you closer to your highs.

Hongjoong

Hongjoong wasn't quiet during sex, but he was definitely holding back his moans. Because he wanted to hear you since it really turns him on, little did he know that it was the same for you.

"Please don't hold back your moans, Joong." He looks up at you, his eyebrows furrowed as he takes in your words.

"But I want to hear you." He says, lacing his fingers with yours as he brings your hand to his lips, pressing a soft kiss against the back of it.

"I want to hear you too." You whisper softly, afraid of his reaction. It's then that it clicks in Hongjoong's head. A smug smirk spreads across his face as he raises his eyebrows playfully.

"Ah really? You like to hear me, hm?"

You nod your head as you try to look anywhere but his eyes. Hongjoong is having none of it and tilts your face so you're looking directly at him.

"Eyes on me baby. Let me show you how good you make me feel."

He crashes his lips against yours as he continues thrusting inside of you, making both of you moan in the kiss.

Yunho

Yunho is a sweetheart but can also be a teasing little shit when he wants to be. Yunho was never quiet during sex, always letting out low grunts that sound incredibly hot, but he still tried to hold back his own moans so he'd be able to hear you. When he discovers that you actually get off on hearing him moan he starts to use it against you.

Yunho stops holding back his moans when you have sex, letting his head fall back against the pillows as a low grunt escapes his lips. He instantly feels you clench around him and a proud smirk spreads across his face.

"You really like hearing me baby, don't you?"

You rest your hands on his chest as you lean in closer, so your noses are almost touching. You nod softly as you feel Yunho's hands on your hips, holding you down as he thrust up into you.

You throw your head back as a loud moan escapes your lips, Yunho does the same as he continues snapping his hips against yours.

Deep grunts escaping every time he does so, feeling you clench around him as you wrap your arms around his neck.

"Fuck Yunho you sound so hot."

A teasing smirk spreads across his face as he brings you down enough to kiss you, holding you close as he brings you over the edge.

Yeosang

You always loved hearing Yeosang's deep voice, but in certain situations it had a different effect on you. Yeosang took notice of this and one night when the two of you were having sex and he let out a loud moan, he instantly felt you clench around him. He stopped moving as he let out a low chuckle, looking at you with a smug expression on his face.

"Why did you stop?"

Yeosang rests both hands on either side of your head, effectively caging you in as he leans down, stopping just above your face. That same smug expression still plastered on his face.

"I didn't know you liked to hear me moan, baby."

You feel your cheeks heat up at his words as you try to look everywhere but his eyes. Which is easier said than done when he's literally above you. Yeosang grins at your shyness and leans down to press a kiss against your lips.

"It's okay sweetheart. I really like hearing you moan too."

He pulls back just enough to snap his hips against yours, making you dig your nails into his shoulders. Yeosang lets out a loud moan as he looks you in the eyes. His intense stare only bringing you closer to your high.

San

Listen. We all know San can't keep quiet, but he'd still try sometimes. He gets off on hearing you moan so therefor he tries to hold back his own sounds. When you notice him doing just that you pull his hair to get him out from the crook of your neck, your action causing San to let out a involuntarily loud moan. His cheeks turn a soft shade of pink as he looks up at you, feeling your wall clenching around him as he connects the dots.

His flustered expression makes place for a smug one as he smirks at you. "That's why you don't want me to hold back my moans. Does my baby get turned on by hearing me?"

Your eyes widen at his words as it's now your turn to be flustered. San chuckles at your expression as he hovers above you. That same smug smirk still evident on his face.

"Don't be embarrassed Y/N. Now I know how to make this feel even better."

You raise your eyebrow at his words until you feel him slamming his hips into yours at a fast pace, loud grunts escaping his lips as he places one hand next to your head, the other holding your hip tightly as his eyes bore into yours. The eye contact only making you get to your high faster.

Mingi

Mingi wouldn't be very good at being quiet in the first place, which was something you liked. You just never realized how much he was holding back his own sounds of pleasure whenever you two had sex. Because when you blow him he's a lot more vocal than he is during sex, which confuses you. So when you're having sex and notice him biting down on his bottom lip to prevent him from moaning, you stop him.

Mingi looks at you with confusion written all over his face as he stops thrusting into you. "Why did you do that?"

You wrap your arms around his neck as you pull him closer to you, brushing his hair out of his face as you lean in to press a soft kiss against his lips. "Because I want to hear you too."

"Really?"

You nod softly as you smile when you see him doing the same. "Okay, I just hope the neighbors won't complain tomorrow."

You want to laugh at his words but don't even have the chance to do that since he snaps his hips against yours, letting out a deep grunt as he closes his eyes in pleasure.

Wooyoung

listen, we know Wooyoung is loud and a tease. So expect that from him when he finds out just how much you like to hear him. He stops what he's doing and pulls back enough to be able to look at you, wiggling his eyebrows as he's smirking at you.

"Ah really? It turns you on, hm?"

You want to slap that smug smirk off of his face but instead just roll your eyes at your boyfriend. Wooyoung chuckles at your expression as he leans down enough to whisper in your ear, his hot breath tickling the sensitive skin of your neck.

"Well, maybe I should be even louder then, hm? Let the whole apartment complex know how well we fuck."

"Wooyoung!"

He laughs as he sees your flustered expression, quickly hiding your face behind your hands as you feel your cheeks heat up. Wooyoung chuckles as he pries your hands away from your face, looking at you with that same smug smirk.

"There's nothing to be embarrassed about baby."

"Can we stop talking about this and please continue?" You ask, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him down for a kiss.

Wooyoung eagerly returns the kiss as his hips start moving again, soon slamming against your own at a fast pace. Loud moans escaping your lips as Wooyoung grunts lowly, bringing you closer to the edge.

Jongho

Jongho would be so flustered when he first found out you like hearing him moan when you have sex. He always loved to hear how good he's making you feel and it didn't even cross his mind that it might be the same for you. So one day when the two of you are having sex he decides to stop holding back his moans. What he didn't expect however was for you to react the way you do.

As soon as he lets out a moan he feels you clench around him, his eyes growing wide momentarily as he realizes just how big the effect is on you. He lets out a soft chuckle as he feels his confidence rising.

"Y/N, why didn't you tell me just how much you like to hear me? If I had known this sooner I would have stopped holding back my moans a long time ago."

You don't even have the chance to response because Jongho continues thrusting into you at a fast pace, making you throw your head back against the pillow as you dig your nails into your boyfriend's shoulders. Jongho groans in response as he feels you clenching around him.

"Fuck baby I'm not gonna last long if you keep doing that."

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KIHYUN PLEASE

killing me now, baby, baby

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This woman is dangerous

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take these pictures of San because he makes me go 💫💫💫

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Hello im so bored

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GUYS WHY IS THIS SUDDENLY BLOWING UP SMSMDMDMDMDMD THANK YOU 🌸 I APPRECIATE IT

Always Be With You - Choi San

Song Request: Always Be With You by Standing Egg

Requested by: @8liralik-armin-albumu

Genre: PURE FLUFF AND ROMANCE

A/n: This song got me all romantic!!!!!! Ahhh, it reminded me of the silent support that comes from a lover. A lover who supports their beloved one from the shadows, silently and fully. I hope you like it 💕 (and I chose flute cuz I play flute and it is a naive and beautiful instrument in my opinion, just like y/n)

“San, I don’t wanna go.” You told him while lying in bed together, the day after your dinner, cuddling.

“I know baby, but you have to.”

“Why would I? I can go on my education here.”

It was a nice, cloudy and rainy afternoon. You two were lying in your bed. Your head was on his chest, he kissed your hair while playing with its strings.

“You know I will never stop loving you..” he mumbled.

“But I’m scared..”

“I know baby, but it will be so much better for you to use this chance. I mean, you have so many classmates and no one got the invitation for that art school except you..”

“But what if I can’t keep up with the students there. That school is one of the biggest ones. Am I enough? Will I ever be enough?”

“Don’t worry, y/n. I believe in you. You’ll be able to create amazing things with them. You’ve impressed me with your skills, you’ve impressed them with your skills.. You’ll be able to impress anyone. You’re more than enough, don’t worry baby. I will always be here, supporting you.”

“But what if we fall apart?”

“I’ll still support you.”

“Do you promise me?”

“Yes, I promise.”

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You were invited to one of the biggest art schools in world. You were studying music and were very good at playing flute. Of course your talent for it didn’t go unnoticed. When one of your professors told you that you were invited to that college, you literally jumped out of happiness. Your family accepted this news with so much joy and excitement. They even threw a small party for you that afternoon. It was like a fairytale until you realized.. This might’ve meant the end of your 3-year relationship with San. You totally forgot to tell him since he was busy that day and you two hadn’t texted since that morning. It suddenly dawned on you. How would he react? What were you going to do? How were you going to tell him?

You decided to call him over that night and talk to him face to face. You prepared a dinner for two and a nice ambience, and waited for him to come. When finally the door bell rang, you took a deep breath and prayed all Gods for talking to him to be easy.

“Hi babe!” He handed you a single white rose before stepping in. He knew it’s meaning and he always loved to call you his white rose. Instead of the classic red rose, he loved to give you white ones as they symbolized purity, innocence and sympathy. You were as tender and elegant as an angel for him and he always loved to see you with white colored things.

“Hi, welcome baby. Thank you for the rose, it’s beautiful..”

“Not more than you.” He smiled while hugging you and kissing your forehead.

“Are you hungry? Let’s eat. I prepared everything you like.”

“Let’s eat then, thank you.”

You were mostly silent during the dinner and it didn’t go unnoticed by San. He still waited for you to finish eating and tell him yourself.

“San.. I have something I need to tell you.”

“I can see,baby. What is it?”

“Umm, I- I got an invitation for a college in Germany. An art school. One of the best ones..”

“WHAT- OH WOW Y/N!!!! I ALWAYS KNEW YOU WERE SO TALENTED AH I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!! ARE WE CELEBRATING THAT?? YOU SHOULD’VE TOLD ME SOONER I WOULD’VE BROUGHT A GIFT!! Ah I’m so proud of you!”

He stood up from his chair and hugged you tightly.

“I love you so much, I’m so happy! You made me so proud!!” He mumbled in your ear after kissing your hair.

“But, I won’t go..”

He pulled himself back.

“What? Why? Why baby?? What’s the problem ?”

“I realized if.. If I go.. You and I won’t be able to see each other for a long time. I just don’t wanna do this.”

“Y/n! Stop being ridiculous! Do you want me to get mad? Of course you’ll accept that invitation! Of course you’ll go! Do you really think I can sit here and be with you happily, knowing that I caused you to miss such a chance? Have you not learn anything about me? Baby.. I know it will be hard but please.. How can I go on with my life knowing that I caused such a thing? I promise I will always support you even when you’re away! I promise I will be with you even when you’re away!! I will never stop loving you, please don’t decline that invitation. I’ll be fine, please think about your own future..”

“But..”

“There’s no ‘but’, y/n.. Please.. If you stay I will never forgive myself.”

“Will we be okay?”

“Yes.. I promise we will.”

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Now that he knew you would accept the invitation even though you say you don’t want to, San was aware that this was one of your last afternoons together.

“Yes, I promise I will keep supporting you even if we fall apart one day.”

“Thank you San. You’re always so understanding and so kind to me. I don’t know what would’ve I done if I were in your shoes.”

“You would’ve done the same, baby.”

He tightened his arms around you.

It was a nice afternoon after all..

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Finally it was the day of your flight. Everyone was there including your family, friends and San. Everyone was happy, smiling. Well, everyone but San. You could see the sadness in his eyes he tried so hard to hide. You believed if you looked at your reflection you could’ve seen the same expression on your face. One by one you hugged everyone leaving San last. When it was his turn, you hugged him so tightly, he laughed slowly but there was something missing in his laugh. The actual joy.. It was missing. You knew it was hard for him too even though he never showed you until that moment.

“San,” you whispered in his ear, “be happy.”

“You be happy too” he whispered back, taking your hair’s smell in one last time.

“I probably won’t be able to come here in this year..” you said.

“I know.”

“San,” you pulled yourself back, and looked in his eyes.

“I want you to be happy with whoever you want.”

“Y/n,” he laughed “you’re being ridiculous again. You know I only want you.”

“I know.. Just wanted to let you know it’s okay for me.”

You kissed him one last time before leaving for your plane. When you turned back to look at all of your beloved ones, you saw San’s back. He was also walking, but to the opposite direction of yours. You took a deep breath and finally left that place.

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It was a long flight and a tiring one for you. Once you landed, you let everyone know that you arrived safely. And then-

Then you blocked San from all of your social media, you blocked his number,too.

You believed it was the best for both of you. You knew it would be hard for you without san but it would’ve been harder if you tried to keep your relationship going while you’re away. It would hurt both of you. Whenever San saw a couple, he would’ve thought about you and would’ve felt miserable. You knew it, because it was the same for you too. So blocking him out of your life would be letting him find someone to be with him forever and it also would be letting yourself to adapt the new place better. That was what you thought, at least..

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It had been four years since you left San. Of course the common friends tried to talk to you about it, they tried to tell you about San’s condition in the first year but you never listened. You never turned back to your country for four years, both because of the lack of money and because of San. And it was over like that. Now that you turned back to there for the first time as the main fluttist of an academy’s orchestra, you reminded of San immediately.

It didn’t matter how hard you tried to convince the chef to take another fluttist instead of you, he insisted on taking you and there you were. At the backstage of a theater trying to calm yourself down.

“I will always support you even if we fall apart.”

San’s voice echoed in your ears. Would he support you after so many years? Your mom told you about the posters of the recital and she told you that your name was written in big characters. The posters were everywhere in the city. She told you that all of your friends called her and congratulated her after calling you. She didn’t say anything about San. But he must’ve seen it by now, you thought to yourself.

“Okay, is everyone ready? Let’s go!”

After hearing your chef’s voice, every voice disappeared for you except for your heartbeat.

Would he be there?

Would he support you?

Would he be there for you still after so many years?

You got on stage, reverenced kindly and got your position on stage. You saw every one of your friends clapping crazily, you saw your family with big smiles on their face. But that was all.

He wasn’t there.

You smiled shortly to your friends and family before starting the piece.

It was the first time your hands trembled that much on stage.

It was the fist time your hearth clenched this much.

You closed your eyes and focused on your instrument trying not to mess up with metronome.

First piece ended perfectly. You heard applauses everywhere. It took you a while to bring yourself to open your eyes.

And you saw him as soon as you opened your eyes.

Clapping slowly with a broken smile on his face, there he was.

Applausing from afar.

Away from all of your friends and family..

He was standing there alone.

He suddenly became the only thing you could see in that big theater salon.

You could hardly pick up what he mouthed you.

“Amazing, I love you.”

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omg hi i just wanted to drop by and say hi <3 hru ??

Omg hellooooouuuu,, im fine,, hbu??? 💕

#asks #shoyotime 💕 #the way i can’t use my anime acc as the main one...

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NVM I FOUND THEM WOW 💕💕

omg.......

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Omg WHAT IS THIS PERSON’S NAME DOES THIS PERSON HAVE A YOUTUBE ACC OR WHAT IS THIS SONG’S NAME

omg.......

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i’m the only thing preventing the mailman and the vacuum from killing my entire family