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Jim Hodges at the Walker Art Center

Untitled (one day it all comes true), 2013

denim fabric, thread

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Pressed flower collage of a comet moth, by Helen Ahpornsiri

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James Baldwin.

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Danaë by Jean-Baptiste Regnault (18th Century)

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oh they know they're that bitch

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it is extremely fucked though how much of mainstream feminism has become “it’s sexist to criticize girls for anything” meanwhile the transmisogynists have run away with “my sacred divine womb makes me a victim to the ever-probing phallus of male dominated society” and it’s like. we still haven’t even freed the nipple

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was really mad that the couches in the lobby at my work got removed :( then I remembered that most days I open there's someone sleeping on them, meaning someone reported that to housekeeping and their "solution" was to remove the couches entirely?? I was pissed about it, then noticed this sign today

the removal of comfort in public spaces to 'deter' homeless people impacts everyone

edit: just to be clear, housekeeping didn't put up the sign, no one knows who did. it's since been removed

#there's very little public seating in my hometown because of this

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gripping my thighs with my nails about this

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🎶Do the hustle🎶

going

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I think at some point in time we need to sit down and start explaining to artist who want to make a career out of art that there are FAR more options than just "living off of commissions" and "posting my art online and praying I get paid for it".

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✧.* resolution *.✧

I decided this year I wouldn't make resolutions in December for the very start of the year. I said I'd let the year settle in first and see what it needed.

In terms of my inner critic, I've already failed. I had to ask for extra time on my thesis due to some pretty bad personal problems. I've gained a bunch of weight over the past year or so. I haven't made any art or done any other college work yet.

I feel pretty defeated. The weight thing especially gets me down, surprise surprise, afab body and all. I'm pretty short so it shows up quickly on me.

Here's the thing. Weight gain is fine and natural. It's just that, personally speaking, the last time I was this weight was the worst decade of my life. I was depressed, anxious, and my world was falling apart. I still have hormonal and mental health issues from it. So whether because of that or not, I don't like how this weight feels on my body. Whatever about the look, the feeling is bad. I feel physically weak and easily tired.

However, I'm also conscious that the aforementioned anxiety and hormone problems have kept me indoors a lot. I was resorting to emotional eating very often. That, combined with an overall pretty sedentary lifestyle, is why I'm here. Not a moral failing. It's just how it works.

So my resolution isn't to go and lose a bunch of weight and get a """""beach body""""". My resolution is to participate in the world more, and participate in my emotions too. That does include horrific, all-encompassing, oh-god-I'm-going-to-pass-out-in-Tesco fear.

But hey. In a deeply practical but not at all dismissive way, if there's something up with me that I would pass out in a Tesco, I probably need to know that. Sitting in my room festering and watching the world go by won't solve anything. I might lose weight, I might not. I might go on progesterone and see if that helps. Ultimately, I just want to be in the world again. Biking and running and strolling and staying out for hours and hours. Feeling strong and healthy and safe in a real way, not through little artifical controls. Then whatever is just a protective layer can fall away, and whatever is left, I can work on accepting.

#lilith ag labhairt #tw: weight #tw: weight discussion #body issues #perfectionism eh #I waNNa Be WheRe thE PEopLE ArE #happy new year my dears

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☽ ALSO!! ☾

Found an affordable glassblowing intro that I am 100% definitely going to try and go for!!! Now it's a) midsemester b) in the north and c) expensive, but one does wonder ☉-☉ An early birthday present combined with some savings could just do it. However I will need to start lifting weights to be fully ready...

#lilith ag labhairt #dude i love glass so much #and i want to try glassblowing so bad #so far i just do kilnwork and cold work #but if i could glassblow and flamework??? #I'd be in my final form babey

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Hekate is known as a protector of entryways, borders, and crossroads. She is also a Cthonic (underworld) goddess who exists on the peripheries of the pantheon, and teaches witches like Circe and Medea their magical crafts. Therefore, she has darker associations with death, the underworld, the moon, magic spells, and spirits.

In Hesiod’s Theogany, Hecate is the daughter of Titans Perses and Asteria. For defeating the giant Pergamon in the Gigantomauchy (epic battle between Olympians and Giants), Hekate is the only Titan to retain her powers under the rule of Zeus, who gives Hecate a share of earth, heaven and sea.

One of the most famous myths involving Hecate is Hades’ abduction of Demeter’s daughter, Persephone. Hekate assists Demeter in the underworld by leading the way with torchlight, and later becomes an attendant to Persephone. Hecate’s sacred animal ally is a black dog, said to be Hecuba, Queen of Troy, who was reincarnated by Hekate after suicide. Another sacred animal servant is the Polecat (weasel), who was the handmaiden Galinthias punished for a deception involving the birth of Hercules.

  Around the 5th century B.C.E. we see the first sculptural totem figures portraying Hekate in the triple body form surrounding a central column. These votive statues for the protection of travelers would be placed at crossroads with each figure facing a different path.

Hekate is associated with a variety of frightening Daimones (minor divinities or spirits which could be good or evil.) the Empusae was a shapeshifting specter with the body of a woman, and one leg of brass and the other of a donkey, with hopes of devouring a traveler. The Lamia was originally a vengeful Libyan serpentine woman who devoured children, but later was seen to take the form of attractive, voluptuous woman who would seduce a traveler and feast on their fresh blood. The Mormo was another phantom bogeyman said to be sent out by Hekate to nibble on misbehaving children. 

Thanks again for everyone's suggestions. Hope you like the final painting! Please share it if possible. Xoxo

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❈ thesis ❈

So my thesis is due next week, and I'm actually kind of enjoying it now. Honestly, researching witchcraft and the witch hunt has really done it for me. I love the theology and sociology of it all and I just hope I can do it justice. I'm one of those people who struggles with seeing college assignments as just assignments

#lilith ag labhairt #also if you couldn't tell i'm seething over ai art

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why is this formatted like "hey girlie1!! <3" mlm copy

#but iris #my studies #lilith ag labhairt