haha hi guys
this is a little awkward… haha hi all sorry for disappearing 0__o. I’m living in Seoul on an exchange right now &. my language courses don’t leave me much time for anything else — 25 hours a week + other assignments and classes! but if anyone would like to talk or write on discord, please feel welcome to add me on discord: bee#5931
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this is a little awkward… haha hi all sorry for disappearing 0__o. I’m living in Seoul on an exchange right now &. my language courses don’t leave me much time for anything else — 25 hours a week + other assignments and classes! but if anyone would like to talk or write on discord, please feel welcome to add me on discord: bee#5931
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* send META + a word , a name , or phrase and i will write a head canon based off of this !!!
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the first night in a new place is different & difficult. he knows this, but it doesn't remove his nightly anxiety. he knocks on her bedroom door & then steps back. " mom ... can i come in? "
SUNNY CALIFORNIA, all beaches &. dreams made of eternal june and july. it's what she'd been promised by catalogues of lenora hills: hopes of new beginnings and blissful abstraction. anything, it seems, would be better than another day in hawkins, another day in the house with lights that still flickered in the corners of her gaze, nights where she swore she could feel a breeze ghost her shoulders, begging her to check the old hole in the living room wall. there's something there, her head would scream, only quieted by routine checks to assure that her boy wasn't reaching out, crying for help.
california, an escape -- but only in the mind of a heartbroken, disillusioned &. pained woman; a mother looking only for her children's safety.
perhaps this was her icarus moment, new house still cold &. smelling of fresh paint, citrus cleaning supplies, and nothing like their one-story home in indiana.
❛ sure, baby, ❜ a whispered response to will's quiet voice. already, joyce is making room on her too-large, too-empty bed -- comforter still stiff from its plastic encasing.
❛ here, come sit with me... can't sleep? it's not quite as warm as we thought it'd be. ❜ despite her own anxieties, the sinking realization that everything is still wrong, joyce remains quiet, calm. it's for his sake, will and jonathan. it always will be.
@07rolled
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apologies for inactivity bc i'm getting ready to move to korea in t-19 days...... but i will drop my discord here for mutuals, either to chat or write !
bumblebees#3495
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apologies for inactivity bc i'm getting ready to move to korea in t-19 days...... but i will drop my discord here for mutuals, either to chat or write !
bumblebees#3495
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anya's post about cali made me think about moving in general and how homes / families have such distinct smells -- how the byers home in hawkins was their home. smelled like joyce's favorite cigarettes and slightly-burnt cookies. vanilla or cinnamon air fresheners, brown sugar and lemon... and in california, it smells empty. sterile and unwelcoming and joyce tries her best, tries her best to make california home but never to mimic hawkins. that was the whole reason they left -- to escape hawkins and the horrors of the past years.
but that isn't all that hawkins is, because it was home, once. and california never smells the same.
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she's brought a casserole.
steaming hot, pyrex dish still warm to the touch and aluminum-foiled top begging to be peeled open. it's a casserole, and joyce accepts it despite her worn features, despite the way her hands tremble and legs feel like they'll crumble beneath her because it's karen's casserole. it's karen, who she'd waited for outside of hawkins high school nearly every day, practically jumping out of her skin with something to share because she listens and she laughs — and when karen smiles, joyce is sure that angels walk among the earth's grounds and landed, somehow, in the passenger seat of her car in hawkins, indiana. karen, who'd let her stay the night when she could no longer pretend that everything with lonnie would be okay, that he was just having a rough day and joyce must've done something to annoy him, that she should've stayed quiet or come home earlier or scrubbed the counters to even more pristine condition.
she brought a casserole — from karen, to joyce, and it's never just a casserole, just a cake, just leftovers from some dinner that ted's insisted on hosting at the wheeler residence. it's brushes of fingertips and lingering gazes while exchanging gifts ; memories of whispers under summer stars and promises that fade but never disappear. it's understanding — shared understanding and bittersweet smiles that never spoil. karen brought a casserole and joyce knows she will stay in the doorway, politely — but she's there, kind and smiling like joyce remembers.
bathing in her smile brings a blue moon, august fireflies and september rains. in karen's sunshine - smile, joyce is calm.
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cara buono... you understand
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“ i love you . ” <3
THE THING ABOUT MOTHERHOOD is that it includes mistakes, inherently. poorly - phrased apologies and lapses in judgments, quiet apologies over morning coffee and eggs.
i love you, and i'm sorry.
i love you, and it won't change.
and when the world comes crashing down, all of dark skies and stars snuffed out like candle flames, it is she, mother : soothing tender hearts, easing shaking hands.
it should've been her, holding jonathan and coaxing him to eat breakfast, steadying him with blankets and embraces — staying awake until the crack of dawn to make sure he slept.
son should not be mother, and yet : she had not been there for him the week that will disappeared.
never once does she regret the dogged, frantic search for will : holding onto bizarre clues and persisting in the face of so - called crazy. it is never love that she regrets, never fierce instinct : but rather, lack of.
❛ i should've been there for you. ❜ — olive branch extended, voice hushed, still marked with all the intensity she's known for. ❛ when will disappeared, i mean. you're my baby, too. i-- i should've been a better mom. helped you be... be a kid for longer. ❜
shaky inhale and she wraps her arms around his shoulders, hands interlocked in a tight embrace of days and weeks and months and years of apologies that fester in her chest, die in her throat.
❛ i love you, too, jonathan. more than you'll ever know. ❜
@hawkinsfreak ﹠ found family prompts
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college dropout joyce… she went in the first place because she thought it was what she should do &. after all, her classmates all seemed to be pursuing further education &. she’d rather die than stay stuck in hawkins for the rest of her life. but it’s not what it seemed, the deadlines and pressure are too much —— she hates the stuffy pretentiousness of the english literature department and her personal relationships ( read: current roommate, karen wheeler ) are falling to pieces.
a year and a half and she’s out, moving back to hawkins because she craves the old comfort she used to desperately want to escape. back working at melvald’s, dodging questions about why she’s back &. instead dedicating herself to trying to fix her life through kindness to those in her life. even those who don’t deserve it.
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i definitely did not forget my password to this account.... not at All..
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getting to inbox and drafts soon i just have not had a day off in forever 💔
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WHAT TRAGIC HORROR CHARACTER TROPE ARE YOU ?
the werewolf : there's something inside a werewolf that's sharp, thorns and barbs coiling up in tight knots of vine even on their best days. halfway through a conversation, you'll forget your happiness and the pain comes back in a flash. you never meant to, but the sharpness has done harm on your behalf. it's defensive. it's leftover artillery from a battle you spent so long fighting that it still doesn't feel like it's truly over, does it? you want so badly to be soft. to take the hand that you are offered instead of baring your teeth. and it might be hard to believe, but you are soft. you're the softest one out there. it'll just take a while to untangle those vines enough to know that very little is often life-or-death, and not everything touches to hurt.
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okay i caved
i have a twitter for writing but you all make an ic twitter sound so fun
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i have a twitter for writing but you all make an ic twitter sound so fun
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what kind of "i love you" are you?
love you! : it's the "i love you" we use every time we finish up a call with our mom, every time we want to offer our friends a bit of encouragement, the welcome home kiss on the cheek we give our lover every day. it's sending them pictures you know they'll laugh at, buying them strange little nothings that you know they'll like. it's having their bagel order memorized and setting their birthday as your password. somehow, their name weaves its way into almost every funny story you share with others. it's brief, casual, it's a habit. we aren't even aware we do it. it says that love is cradled lightly in your heart, generously given, spilling out into the world unbeknownst to you, making up the web of delicate threads that hold us all together.
tagged: stolen!
tagging: everyone <3
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