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#BASICALLY #bain tag ; tba.

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highkey url change.

#gotta alter much of the backstory too so whoops #ooc : yikes.

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T - B:  Bain Jamieson - b: 1292 ( mum / dad ), Bain Jamieson - b: 1292 ( mum / dad ), James Wallace ne Macduff - b: 1288 ( dad ), Maria Angelica Jamieson-Wallace - b: 1446 ( daughter ), Irvine Jamieson-Morningstar - b: 1802 ( son ), James Jamieson-Wallace II - b: 1802 - 1802 ( son ; died at birth ).

#tbt #because sm has changed since i was last here #names included

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Although I dislike much about grrms writing. I'd like to thank him and Suzanne colins for introducing me to first pov writing.

I just fits me tbh. I can't imagine writing another way. It's a shame that tumblr doesn't really accept it. :/

#📱post

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#s. morgan / jade. #s. morgan / james. #nsfw

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#( musings. ) ⛧ #Morgan is such a lying bitch tbh

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though this blog is 100% just for morgan. i am willing to write the other people in his life if people are interested. but i won’t be making full on pages for them other than character tags.

#ooc : yikes.

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Gemma Arterton photographed for Harper’s Bazaar UK, January 2020, by Richard Phibbs

#c. ( maria angelica jamieson-wallace. ) ⛧

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I always figured there was enough going on down here, I never needed to look elsewhere. 

#( aesthetic. ) ⛧

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     You can’t get to ᴛ ʜ ᴇ ᴍ unless you get through ᴍ ᴇ . 

#morgan about their bbys tbh #( musings. ) ⛧

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* 𝙼𝙾𝙳𝙴𝚁𝙽 𝙿𝙾𝙿 𝚂𝙾𝙽𝙶𝚂 𝚁𝙿 𝙼𝙴𝙼𝙴.

taken from all pop songs (mostly 2018 - 2019) from various artists. feel free to change any pronouns or sentence structure according to your muse’s preferences.

❝   lately i’ve been thinking, i want you to be happier.   ❞

❝   only for a minute, i want to change my mind.   ❞

❝   i wanna raise your spirits.   ❞

❝   i want to see you smile, but know that means i’ll have to leave.   ❞

❝   the image of you with someone is eating me up inside.   ❞

❝   we’ve run our course. we pretended we’re okay.   ❞

❝   this just don’t feel right to me.   ❞

❝   when the morning comes, we will see what we’ve become.   ❞

❝   it’s been seven minutes now since i’ve lost my way.   ❞

❝   it doesn’t seem that long but my whole world’s changed.   ❞

❝   it’s been seven minutes since i’ve lost the girl of my dreams.   ❞

❝   now i sink a little deeper, think a little clearer.   ❞

❝   is it too late to turn around? i’m already halfway out of town.   ❞

❝   i know how i let you down.   ❞

❝   i finally figure it out: i forgot to love you.   ❞

❝   radio’s playing song for me and you.   ❞

❝   how the hell did i end up losing you?   ❞

❝   if i came back now, would you still be there?   ❞

❝   if i come around, would you even care?   ❞

❝   i’m so tired of love songs.   ❞

❝   just wanna go home.   ❞

❝   i’m trying my best to meet somebody.   ❞

❝   everybody’s falling in love to our song.   ❞

❝   i’m killing my lonely nights with strangers.   ❞

❝   when they leave, i go back to our song.   ❞

❝   it hurts like heaven.   ❞

❝   can’t unmiss you, and i need you now.   ❞

❝   hush my dear, it’s been a difficult year.   ❞

❝   terrors don’t prey on innocent victims.   ❞

❝   trust me, darling.   ❞

❝   it’s been a loveless year.   ❞

❝   i’m a man of three fears: integrity, faith, and crocodile tears.   ❞

❝   look me in the eyes, tell me what you see.   ❞

❝   i wish i could make your heart believe.   ❞

❝   i’m a bad liar.   ❞

❝   now you know; you’re free to go.   ❞

❝   did all my dreams never mean one thing?   ❞

❝   i take my gun to the enemy’s side.   ❞

❝   i cannot hold my tongue, you gave me much to say.   ❞

❝   lying on the beach, in the middle of december.   ❞

❝   i’m thinking you’re too cool to even remember my face, my hair, my eyes, my lips and my name.   ❞

❝   your confidence is what i want.   ❞

❝   i’m loud ‘cause maybe you’re the one.    ❞

❝   i know i talk too much.   ❞

❝   i’m sweating bullets; nervous that you’d push away.   ❞

❝   so give me your two lips, and maybe i’ll shut up.   ❞

❝   you’re dressing all black in the middle of summer.   ❞

❝   you’re smoother than you think.   ❞

❝   your arms wrapped in leather - makes me want you forever.   ❞

❝   i cannot break this habit: pure anxiety.   ❞

❝   maybe i’ll just slow it down.   ❞

❝   i ain’t no stupid barbie doll.   ❞

❝   well, there you go again: telling me where i belong.   ❞

❝   you think i’m empty? i’m not.   ❞

❝   i’m a babe, i’m a boss, and i’m making these money.   ❞

❝   you won’t be so confident when i’m crushing you from the top.   ❞

❝   i can flip like a switch, and i cut like a blade.   ❞

❝   you call me, all friendly. telling me how much you miss me.   ❞

❝   go find somebody who would listen.   ❞

❝   i cut you off. i don’t need your love.   ❞

❝   you can try all you want but your time is up.   ❞

❝   save it, get gone, shut up.   ❞

❝   if you think i care about you now… well, i don’t give a fuck.   ❞

❝   this world can hurt you. it cuts you deep and leave a scar.   ❞

❝   things fall apart, but nothing breaks like a heart.   ❞

❝   we got all night to fall in love, and just like that we fall apart.   ❞

❝   nothing’s going to save us now.   ❞

❝   yeah, i just wanna drink tequila with my friends.   ❞

❝   the more i read it, the more i take offence.   ❞

❝   i post pictures of myself because i’m lonely.   ❞

❝   i just want this shit to end.   ❞

❝   i’m talking to myself - shit. now they think i’m crazy.   ❞

❝   found you when your heart was broken.   ❞

❝   i was afraid to leave you on your own.   ❞

❝   i said i’ll catch you if you fall.   ❞

❝   tell me how’s it feel sitting up there? feeling so high but you’re too far away to hold me.   ❞

❝   if they laugh, then fuck them all.   ❞

❝   does it ever get lonely?   ❞

❝   i’m eleven minutes away, and i’ve missed you all day.   ❞

❝   why aren’t you here?   ❞

❝   yeah, i’ve seen you in my head every fuckin’ day since i left.   ❞

❝   all i want is your head on my chest.   ❞

❝   tell me what you need, i can make you more than what you are.   ❞

❝   call me stupid, call me sad - you’re the best i’ve ever had.   ❞

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Miles McMillan for Karl Lagerfeld S/S 15 Men’s Lookbook (x)

#c. ( morgan harvey. ) ⛧

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me: i only ship with chemistry

also me:

#Lmao me

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morgan teaching at hogwarts.

i can’t even imagine.

it’s just the worst wild ride.

#ooc : yikes.

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if you’ve dared to follow this blog then you’ll know there is a lot of gender play on this blog. first of all i wanted to pick male and female fc that could be considered similar in appearance. because why wouldn’t you? and if you’ve seen mia in stoker….then, well, you’ll see how she fits morgan perfectly in time.

anyway, morgan is a born male. 100%. he is born in the late 8th century as the vikings are invaded england. he is born on a very small island in the outer hebrides of scotland called iona. it’s so far out you can see ireland on a good day.  it’s also considered to be the place where Christianity was born in scotland in the 6th century. by the time morgan is born as bain the island is heavily religious.

morgan is also born into a very patriarchal society (aren’t we all), but he doesn’t fit the typical male role. he doesn’t care for fighting much or hunting, taking part in wrestling, log throwing etc. instead he spends most of him time alone in the woods listening to invisible voices, climbing trees, investigating the properties of plants he finds. he also has rather slender facial feature that could be called feminine, hence why i have chosen miles (left) as his main fc for now.

gender doesn’t really become an issue until he’s left alone immortal at the age of 24. he has no money, no title, and is not formerly educated. yeah, he could use magic to give himself money. but he’d still be alone. james has left him. bridgette is a cat….and so, after developing a fascination with noble ladies, their clothes and their lives. he takes a leap at changing himself into a woman through magic. he quickly discovers that life as a woman in the 9th century is fucking shit but he also enjoys being a woman at the same time. it’s strange and confuses him for the longest time. and whereas his experience as a penniless highlander man gets him nothing. his experience as a penniless highlander woman with a bs backstory eventually helps him climb a social ladder to becoming a lords mistress. things are going great for a while. with the lord fully seduced and adoring, morgan moves on to the mans wife who is exceptionally beautiful. they begin sleeping together also. morgan develops feelings for the wife, but is ultimately using her and her husband for financial dependence. the ultimate kicker is when morgan eventually falls pregnant. they don’t enjoy it. but they still enjoy being a woman. a miscarriage is induced through a poisonous herb and it leaves morgan traumatised for a long time because of so much blood loss. they almost die. morgan leaves well alone becoming a woman again for a long time after that. he almost fears it. the experience of being a woman leaves him with an understanding of woman’s suffering and how his own mother suffered muchly during her life. morgan does eventually give birth successfully three times later on.

morgan sees this other part of him as his stronger side??? if that makes sense. he sees his femininity as strength more than masculinity. and the more they embrace this feminine side, the more it begins to show. as the world modernises, morgan wears heels even when in male form, make up, jewelry, ultimately deciding that there was nothing ever wrong with him. feudal society was the thing that was wrong. telling him that he looked too girly and wasn’t manly enough. but even in modern society he still sees the suffering of people who are different and are ridiculed for it. morgan has the luxury of magic, others don’t.

morgan is a very complex being riddled with many negatives and positives. he identifies with his birth gender but also enjoys aspects of womanhood as much as he dislikes aspects of manhood. he has the option of being either or neither since he is not constrained by mortal means. so i consider morgan to be genderqueer and genderfluid.

#( headcanon. ) ⛧ #i need to reblog this more

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BOLD any which apply to your muse ! feel free to add to the list !     REPOST;  DON’T REBLOG.

[ COLORS ]     red.   brown.   orange.   yellow.  green.   blue.  purple.   pink.  black.  white.  teal.  silver. gold.   grey.   lilac.   metallic. matte.  royal blue.   strawberry red.  charcoal grey.  forest green.   apple red.   violet. navy blue.   crimson.  cream.   mint green.  bubblegum pink.  sky blue.   pale jade.  magenta.

[ ELEMENTS ]     fire.   ice.   water.   air.   earth.  rain.  snow.   wind.   moon.   stars.  sun.   heat.   cold.   steam.   frost.  lightning.   sunlight.   moonlight.  dawn.  dusk. twilight.  midnight.  sunrise.  sunset.  dewdrops.   time.   aether.

[ WEAPONS ]    fists.   legs. sword.   dagger.  spear.   bow & arrow.   hammer.   shield.   poison.   guns.   axes.   throwing axes.   whips.  knives.  throwing knives.  pepper sprays.   tasers.  machine guns.   slingshots.   katanas.   maces.   staves.   wands.   powers.   magical items.  magic.   rocks.   mud balls.   claws.   teeth.   stealth.   strategy.   words.

[ MATERIALS ]   gold.   silver.   copper.   platinum.   titanium.   rose gold.   diamonds.   pearls.   rubies.   sapphires.   emeralds.  amethyst.   metal.   iron.   rust.   steel.   glass. wood.   porcelain.   paper.  wool.   fur.  lace.   leather.  silk.   velvet.   denim.  linen.   cotton.  charcoal.  clay.   stone.   asphalt.   brick.   marble.   dust.  glitter.   blood.  dirt.   mud.   smoke.   ash.   shadow.  carbonate.   rubber.   synthetics.   ribbon.

[ NATURE ]   grass.   leaves.   trees.   bark.   roses.   daisies.   sunflowers.   tulips. lavender petals.   seeds.  hay.   sand.   rocks.  roots.   flowers.   fungi.  ocean.   river.  frozen lake.  meadow.   valley.   forest.   desert.   tundra.   savanna.   rain forest.   caves.  underwater.   beach.   waves.  space. clouds.  mountains.   snow.   mist.   pond.

[ ANIMALS ]     lions.   wolves.   foxes.  eagles.   owls.  falcons.   hawks.   swans.   snakes.   turtles.   ducks.   bugs.   spiders.   birds.   dove.   seagulls.   whales.   dolphins.   fish.   sharks.   horses.   cats.   dogs.   bunnies.   penguins.   praying mantises.   crows.    ravens.   mice.   lizards.   werewolves.   scorpions.   unicorns.   pegasi.   dragons.   ladybugs.   scarabs.   chickens.   magpies.

[ FOODS / DRINKS ]     sugar. salt.   candy.   bubblegum.  wine.  champagne.   hard liquor.  vodka.   beer.   coffee. sake.  tea.  spices.   herbs.   apple.   orange.   lemon.  cherry.   strawberry. watermelon.   vegetables.   fruits.  meat.   fish.  pies.  desserts.   chocolate.   cream.   caramel.   berries.   nuts.  cinnamon.  burgers.  burritos.  pizza.   ambrosia.   eggs.   milk.   bird.   insects.   omelette.  cake.  honey.

[ HOBBIES ]     music.   art.   watercolors.   gardening.  smithing.   sculpting.  painting.   sketching.   fighting (sparring).  writing.   composing.   cooking.   baking.  sewing.   training. dancing.   acting.   singing.   martial arts.  self-defense.   war tactics. electronics.   technology.  cameras.  video cameras.   video games.   computer.   phone.   movies.   theater.   libraries.   books.   magazines.   cds.   records.   vinyls.   cassettes.   piano.   strings.   violin.   guitar.   electronic guitar.   bass guitar.   harmonica.   harp.   woodwinds.   brass.   flute.   bells.   exploring.   playing cards.   poker chips.   chess.  dice.   motorcycle riding.  eating.  sleeping.  climbing.   running.   jogging.   parkour.   studying.

[ MISC ]     balloons.   bubbles.   cityscape.   light.  dark. candles.   growth.   decay.  war. peace. money.  power. percussion.   clocks.   photos.   mirrors.  lighters.   pets.   diary.   journal.   fairy lights. madness.  sanity.   sadness.   realism.  happiness.  optimism.  pessimism.   loneliness. family. friends.  clan. assistants.  co-workers.   enemies.  loyalty.  smoking.  drugs.  kindness.   love.  hugs.   kisses.   spring.  summer.   autumn. winter.  farmland. countryside.  suburban.  village.  mischief. stability. lies.  truth.

tagged by: none tagging:  @withinycu​  ;  @aelernil​  ;  @vqndekamp​  ;  @victoryforged​  ;  @pevensees​  ;  @melnchly​  ;  @messianique​

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"trust me darling"

@aelernil

trust is a steep expectation, especially when you can count the amount of people you’ve trusted in the past on your hands and toes. it’s an act of faith. something else that morgan had always been short on, faith. the only reliable person in their life thus far was the king of hell himself. he always came through one way or another. could bain be as he ?  only time might tell.

“  oh, bain, bain, bain born with the same name. i’m gunna need more than jus’ yer word, laddie. gimme a blood promise an’ then we can start talkin’ about trust.  “

#aelernil #:)))))