lexicon-of-us

[lexicon-of-us]

everybody leave town i need to talk to myself on a walk for an hour and fifteen minutes

#funnier as a system

[lexicon-of-us]

Good news and bad news

Good news: the original host came back. Honestly, I'm really happy even if I don't have the words to explain it.

Bad news: I freaked out when they appeared again. They seemed more separated, and the border between us was iron clad. They also kinda co-fronted and that disconnect with that freaked me out I guess. We weren't in sync and the spasms we got when we were kids came back for a sec, because of their presence.

They toned it down luckily, but it was terrifying for a bit. We're good now, but it was exhausting. Any tips on dealing with this, for all of us? I hate that we were afraid because of their presence.

Vent? About possible loss of a headmate

I've been thinking about how there's such a disconnect with my younger self, and now I'm thinking it might be a plural thing.

Like, I always refer to them as missing, or worse. I have cried because I mourn that kid that's gone now, as if it's someone else; maybe it was. I don't have memory gaps now, but that time in our life is mostly gone. And for the few things I remember, it's at a distance.

It's not me missing childhood innocence or anything like that, I've broken down with my therapist multiple times now about how separated I feel and how I mourn them.

Is that a thing? I know systems can change over time, but I'm not sure how much y’know.

#plurality #pluralgang #most of us are here now btw #also they apparently aged with us in the background #so that was surprised

[lexicon-of-us]

Well, we just rebooted, huh...

Disassociate for an hour and I'm in charge now, and lexi is quiet. Oh well, at least we stopped just lying on the ground.

#plurality #pluralgang #..

[lexicon-of-us]

Vent? About possible loss of a headmate

I've been thinking about how there's such a disconnect with my younger self, and now I'm thinking it might be a plural thing.

Like, I always refer to them as missing, or worse. I have cried because I mourn that kid that's gone now, as if it's someone else; maybe it was. I don't have memory gaps now, but that time in our life is mostly gone. And for the few things I remember, it's at a distance.

It's not me missing childhood innocence or anything like that, I've broken down with my therapist multiple times now about how separated I feel and how I mourn them.

Is that a thing? I know systems can change over time, but I'm not sure how much y’know.

#plurality #vent #? not sure if it counts #plural gang #[]

[lexicon-of-us]

Any of y'all know of ways to be more masc, but only slightly? The other two are very much fem, but I'd like to be more androgynous. But don't want to set our transition back at all; I like how things have changed, just want a hint of masc that we chose yknow?

#plural gang #..

[lexicon-of-us]

There are five of us for now, we think; Kim, Lexi, ori, robin, and me Robovoice. We're not really sure what's going on, but we were talking to a friend that's part of a system, and apparently this might be a thing for us.

Not sure what all this means, but we're atleast part of a whole? Different branches on the same tree? Don't know how to describe it, but we're just trying to figure stuff out.

If we remember, we may put symbols in tags to show who's talking.

[] : Lexi, she/her

** : Kim she/they

.. : Robo it/it's

birb: Robin he/they

ori: they/them

Mixture means multiple people are talking

#pluralgang #??? idk #[] #** #.. #birb: #ori: