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Rewatching Given has made me feel emotions again.

I love everyone in this series and the story and just I can talk about them forever

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well, well, well, if it isn’t the feelings i’ve been trying to avoid 

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The lack of tattoos on my body is highly upsetting.

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damn people really go out on saturdays and have fun thats wild

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“Finally” is pronounced ‘final-E’ but “Finale” is pronounced ‘Fi-nally’

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I am insecure and sensitive and I ruin everything I love

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Adonis, tr. Khaled Mattawa from, “Body.” [ID in alt text]

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there’s a void in my heart that nothing can fill

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“My life is made up of ‘I’m sorry’. I feel like I have to apologize to people, to things, to life itself. It’s like, ‘I’m sorry to be here’. I don’t want to disturb anyone.”

— Yohji Yamamoto

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I can't see a future for myself and that scares me

I haven't taken my meds in over a year I want to be loved for me, not the sedated version of me

Me/Jordyne:

It seems like the worlds smiling without me

Should morals be dictated by fear of punishment?

They all had opinions of how the serial killer should be killed, and seemed to feel pity for his victims. I felt nothing, once again. I acted like I had a bit of an opinion but I really didn't. It felt the same as hearing what was for breakfast.

Why do you look like you just killed something?

I feel repulsed by my own body which somehow seems to be oozing germs, when there really isn't anything there. I wanna skin myself., claw my skin up and scrub underneath it so I'm clean. This is what it means to be sick, means to be constantly obsessed.

I love books that are

They just don't give out lobotamies like they used to anymore

(I'll say it to your face. Go fuck yourself.)

I've never felt romantically or sexually attracted to anyone before. I don't feel anything, including those things.

My Number One Man: Evangelos Kosmos

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That's okay. In taking the highest dose of medication they're allowed to give out and it's still not working

Alyssa/Aisha: Eyes scorched out & Beheaded

Charlize:

Hilise:

Kiera: Beheaded

Evienrose/Eve: Suicide by drinking poison

Louise:

Athanasia: Executed by hanging

Aria Roscente:

(Florentia):

Cayena:

Jayna:

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Nausea

1. Penelope & Callisto

2. Eris & Anakin

3. Ruby & Izek

4. Bianca & Zachary

5. Charlize & Dylan

6. Aria & Asher

7. Leticia & Erden

8. Olivia & Ian

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Vivi & Ahin / Ayesha & Hades / Cassia & Zester / Hilise & Axion / Lily & Vlad / Lariette & Ian /

1. Aria Roscente

2. Astelle Leston

3. Bianca De Arno

4. Cayena Hill

5. Charlize Ronan

6. Cassia Greze

7. Eris Misérian

8. Fiona Green

9. Hilise Inoaden

10. Kiera Parvis

11. Leticia Grey Halstead

12. Medea Solon

13. Penelope Eckart

14. Rudbeckia De Borgia

15. Roxana Agriche

16. Serena White

17. Soru

18. Tatiana Cartier

19. Verta Alberhart

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I felt myself in a solitude so frightful that I contemplated suicide. What held me back was the idea that no one, absolutely no one, would be moved by my death, that I would be even more alone in death than in life.

Jean Paul Sartre, Nausea

Notes from Underground

Novella by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

I'm Thinking of Ending Things Novel by Iain Reid

House of Leaves Novel by Mark Z. Danielewski

The Butterfly Garden Book by Dot Hutchison

S. by Doug Dorst and JJ Abrams

This book is not a suicide note. Ten days after Edouard Leve handed in the manuscript of Suicide to his publisher in 2007, he hanged himself in his apartment. He was 42. Two years after Jean Amery's On Suicide was published in 1976, the author took an overdose of sleeping pills. He was 65. ... 

Notes on Suicide

Book by Simon Critchley

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1 vegan yellow onion, vegan ground beef, chili powder, (oregano dried), paprika, unsweetened almond milk, vegan broth, rotini pasta, shredded vegan cheddar cheese,

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You can justify anything if you do it poetically enough.

...You can only subject people to anguish who have a conscience. You can only punish people who have hopes to frustrate or attachments to sever; who worry what you think of them. You can really only punish people who are already a little bit good.

These were good people and they had been good to us and we had therefore had a good time. To conclude otherwise was frightening, raising the specter of some unnameable quantity without which we could not abide, but which we could not summon on demand, least of all by proceeding in virtuous accordance with an established formula.

When you pushed me in the water, I swam I had to go my whole life learning, so that I wouldn't drown. You said you treated me like shit cause I deserved it When really you were just miserable with yourself

I let you

Cause I'm taking back my power,

Rico Nasty - Smack a Bitch

My Favourite Badass Girl's: Carter, Sloan,

Sloan D'Aboville: the Jefa of the Spanish mafia / La Jefa of the Spanish Mafia / evil, unforgiving and cold

Point of Menace : Sloan D'Aboville : the Jefa of the Spanish Mafia - evil, unforgiving and cold

Carter [ON HOLD] : Carter Knight : Leader of the Devil's Reapers (Mafia) -

Sinners like us don't find forgiveness in a church no more

This for my people going through depression This for the kids who never felt affection This for the kids whose parents don't accept them Saying they love everyone else except them

It seems like the worlds smiling without me

(God) (The Dream)

Why does my throat burn when I drink energy drinks?

If this happens to you, caffeine could be a culprit. "Caffeine relaxes esophageal sphincter, which allows acid to come up in the throat,"

2. You’re peeing orange

Urine that is dark yellow or orange is a telltale sign of dehydration. "Coffee is actually a diuretic that can lead to dehydration by increasing the amount you urinate so you lose too much body fluids," says Amy Gross, MPH, RD, CDN and a clinical dietician at New York Presbyterian Hospital. Caffeine usually doesn’t trigger dehydration until after you’ve had about 500 mg, so you should be safe if you stick to a cup or two of coffee a day.

"They love without measure those whom they will soon hate without reason."

It is not that [the sociopath] fails to grasp the difference between good and bad; it is that the distinction fails to limit their behavior.

Should our morals be dictated by fear of punishment?

I didn't think I'd make it to 12. I'm turning 18 this year.

Hearing words of love sounded like a record on repeat. You loved me, but I didn't love you.

Most days, it feels like I'm eating my own heart

I thought I needed to get worse before I could get better

Mother's often have nowhere to put their rage. More times than not, it gets directed towards their daughters, because they are a clear image of what they could've been. An unmoulded version they could make into something to feel as if they have accomplished something themselves.

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The truth is cruel. The people we love don't really love us back.

I cannot understand this feeling, and there's no way to explain it

Unless you are constantly exposed to a certain amount of pain, you will be afraid of it

Sometimes I wonder if there's something waiting for me in life. If maybe I'll wake up one day and suddenly want to live it.

You can't save me, and I'm afraid I'll drag you down with me

The side of me that was lovely, the side of me that cared about others. It made me sick to think that it was all a lie.

My mother tells me "Don't bleed on my floor," but she's constantly cutting me.

You told me you loved me my whole life, yet I never felt a thing

When the only emotion you ever showed me was anger, I welcomed it with open arms. I wanted you to feel something for me, even if all that was is rage.

In your eyes, what do I look like? Am I as bad as I make myself seem?

I had nowhere to put this sadness, so it turned into anger

A lifetime of sadness turns a person angry

I sat with my sadness long enough, until it became anger

Just because someone has it worse, doesn't mean you don't have it bad

I'm sorry that I broke your heart because I didn't know love

I'm sorry that I broke your heart because I didn't feel know love myself

I'm sorry that I broke your heart because I didn't know how yo love

I can't feel like others do so I end up hurting them by my bluntness ))

Thing Called Love

Not Sober

Rainstorm tixzystcks

Happy Face

Holy Molly

Famous Hoes

First Place

Virtual)) blue Balenciaga))

Robbin Hood

Hold Me While You Wait

Be Alright

Waves

I'm sorry that I broke your heart because I couldn't feel love in mine

Mafia Boss Female Lead's: Sloan D'Aboville (Point of Menace : RuStYtAbLeS) Carter Knight (Carter : Rachel1Levy)

Mafia Boss Male Lead's: Evangelos Kosmos [Gigi] (Serendipity & Sovereignty)

Medea Solon : ESTJ

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Unable to perceive the shape of you, I find you all around me

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I'm drowning here and you're describing the water

It's nothing catastrophic but I'm barely hanging on

I wonder how much of this is real and how much I've fabricated to excuse my own behavior

You're gonna have to learn to live with this

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late

Blaine Larsen - How Do You Get That Lonely

Another Life

Eternally Yours

Voices

Masterpiece

Disguise

I Hate Everything About You

(Everybody Sells Cocaine)

Fallen Angel

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“You never get over it. But you get to where it doesn’t bother you so much.”

— Unknown

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Sorry, I haven’t been myself

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