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It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

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Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

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I’ve set this to reblog a few times just because. It’s only once a day so!

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

Keep reading

[lets-have-a-mediocre-time]

Update

It’s been like. Four years since I touched this blog.

And a lot has changed.

I’ve fully accepted and realized my identity as a queer man. I had to drop out of school due to my health. I’m slowly pursuing my education. I have a solid place to live and I can afford takeout sometimes!

Things are far from perfect. I still struggle with being suicidal more often than not. I’m struggling to get therapy. I’m struggling to get my medications in order. There’s a really loud mouse in my wall.

But it’s all... manageable now. I’m 19 now. I’m getting my GED this fall, and I’m going to be learning to drive.

Sometimes I still feel hopeless, like nothing will ever change, but. Looking back on this blog... things have gotten so much better, for me and my fmaily

When I was using this blog the most I was at one of the worst times in my life. I was losing relatives. I became homeless. Everything was falling apart around me. Hell: I was having some of my first psychotic symptoms.

But this blog really was a brightspot in all of this. And so were the friends I made along the way.

Undertale, in a lot of ways, saved me. Really, it did.

For one. It taught me I like to write.

Before this, the only time I’d ever written was when my groomer wanted me to write for him. He wanted me to write smut. Horrible things between adults and kids. I was his personal erotica generator. That was my only experience with writing before this.

But then I made this blog. Then I tried out writing for myself.

And it freed me.

Still, this blog has a lot of bad memories attached to it, so I’m not going to be coming back. Nor am I going to delete it. I’m making a compromise. I’m taking the stuff I want to keep for the sake of it, I’m editing pages to reflect this, and then I’m leaving this here.

As a memorial to what freed me. Old and embarrassing though it may be.

Thank you to all of you.

If you’d like to follow my new, personal blog, please DM me.

#personal #announcement #tw suicide ment #tw grooming

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Random Rambling

Nothing bad this time, just wanted to share!

Also if you’re afraid of bugs, avoid this!

I went to a bug farm/insect research place with a friend, so she could take a bunch of photos for her photography album.

She’s still editing them, but expect a bunch of awesome butterfly photos from a real life butterfly garden sometime soon!

Anyway, she just sent me a collage of photos documenting the progression from me holding a giant locust all calmly to it climbing on my back (slightly freaked) and then when it tried to go down into my pants and I screamed.

Also met a rainbow stag beetle. He was actually rainbow and very pretty! A handsome boy who loves rotten bananas. 

Also I met a hissing cockroach named Frank who ate chocolate off my hand.

And a bright pink tarantula named Blanche.

I had a lot of fun, and I managed to choke down my fear of insects enough to hold some really pretty bugs! Like an orchid praying mantis that jumped off my finger and attacked my shoe laces viciously.

#personal #mod post #tw insects