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i got some immune deficiency taken care of which helped w me gaining weight cuz logically i know i was too thin lol. i was @ the doc yesterday gettin blood taken and 2 of the nurses were talkin abt how cute i am and i overheard and it made my week lol it was so sweet!

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around jan/feb i was only 110 lbs (and im 5′6 now?) but now im up to 117 or so and i feel............ terrible tbh. rly heavy and nasty. im sure part of it is cuz of how im nervous tht the extra weight is making me look more feminine or somethin

so im low key tryin to lose it but just get down to like 115 i’ll be comfortable there i think

plus when i get these nasty boobs off maybe thtll help me get down to there loli think it might actually based on what research ive done abt boobs my size hahaha damn

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o fuck i totally forgot i had a bf for like 4 months tht turned out to be a real creep so tht was fun

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wow i have not posted on here in over a year yikes... kinda 4got abt it. i dont wanna write all abt everything tht happened so here are just lil reminders for myself

i was in my new class for ~a year and a half and i just got moved back to my original class cuz the new teacher for the other class had it out 4 me cuz the kids liked me more than her lol

i still really want top surgery! but i already had my consultation and now i need to get my letter from my therapist and BAM top surgery time. im a lil annoyed by the surgeon but i mean as long as he does the surgery idc basically haha

i still love my job lol and it turns out i DO have to work in the summer :( but it is what it is. summer camp is way better than the school year so whatevs. i was with the 2s and 3s from the new class and i loved it. idk where im gonna be this year but i love the 2s and 3s so i hope im w tht age group the class doesnt rly matter to me as much (i would prefer it to be w the from the classes i was w last summer or the kids im w now) i just rly dont wanna be w older kids lol. i love nap!

they switched me out of nap cuz of tht teacher’s grudge but these 2 devil kids wont sleep w/o me (j and a) so i still spend like 30 min in there anyway until they fall asleep cuz otherwise they keep every other kid awake

im thinkin abt staying until the next school year (2018-2019) and leaving after summer camp. the place is so damn disorganized tho and rly like... exploitative so i kinda wanna leave sooner. i am looking for other jobs rn but this one isnt the worst as far as jobs go so yea im in no real rush

im still studying for actuarial exam p.... im just scared to take the test again lol. i actually havent studied in like 2.5 weeks cuz im feeling burnt out but i almost wanna start studying again so i’ll give it a couple more days

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh i currently got caught up criminal minds cuz i love mgg..... and i love monk too ive seen almost every ep but i kinda wanna get them on dvd so we (my whole fam loves monk) can for real watch every ep in order. i havent seen the last 2 tho cuz im scared to see the end for some reason

i dont rly watch anime anymore... not any thts currently being released anyway. me and luke have been working on zatch bell but he isnt home much so we are only on ep 27 or somethin of like 125 lol

uhhh thts all for now bye bye

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in other news: ive l8ly been just.... lovin boys so hard core.... i just love em.... im so gay !!!!

i rly rly want top surgery NOW !!!

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im so ready 2 go back to work lol.... thank god thursday was a snow day so i only ended up missing 2 days of work this week.... and 2 last week.... yikes ! i miss my kiddos!!!!

mostly the ones not in my class lol cuz i see them a lot less 2 begin with

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I HAD THE FLU FOR A FULL WEEK LMFAO LIKE 7 DAYS THT SUCKED!!!!

it was like 4 days of just like... being dizzy and a low fever... then 1 day where i was fine but i threw up from the tamaflu lol so i had 2 leave work early.... then 1 day of work as usual just.... cough-y.... then i woke up the next day at 3 am w/ a 103 degree fever and was miserable for 2 days... was ok yesterday... and today im at like 70% w/o tylenol and 95% with tylenol

LOVE IT !!! im finally able to get on the comp after 4 days of bein near death lmao

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on a more personal note rather than just work junk:

ive been good lol im savin up $$$ so i can pay for top surgery by myself. im aiming for gettin it done this summer cuz i wont have work and can just CHILL !!!

im a lil nervous about like my name change and gender marker change and all tht wrt work  cuz idk i know so many parents now and i dont want them 2 be upset? or think im creepy or somethin.... cuz my work is ALL GIRLS and only the (brand new) head bossman is a guy. so yea... most ppl just call me my last name now tho instead of “ms. lastname” cuz it just doesnt fit me lol. the kids alternate b/w ms and mr tbh and like sometimes the parents are like OMG NO STOP! but i rly rly RLY dont care haha

and speakin of my name... i kinda had one all picked out (arden reed lastname) tht my roommates helped me pick out cuz my parents werent havin it but... now i kinda wanna use the male version of my first name? idk ive grown to like it lol so it would be alan reed (but idk how i wanna spell alan! alan? allen?) i kinda like allen and i would hav ppl call me allie cuz im way to femme to pull off a manly name like allen lolol. or i could do arden allen? cuz my current initials are AAW so it would keep them the same which i like

ive also rly am feeling going on T now a days..... i want tht body fat redistribution........ and deeper voice.....

whaaaaaaaaaatevr........ honestly work just complicates my life cuz i dont want kids to not recognize me when my voice changes?? cuz i love them so much... i wouldnt wanna start over again u kno.... like i could but i dont want 2... plus my last name would be the same obviously so...

i might just wait for name shit and T until after i quit just 4 ease. i was thinkin about staying until after the 2017-2018 school yr anyways so like only a year from now which i can handle. ive already been waitin my whole life !!!!!

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i kinda wish i could say the kids names but i feel weird abt it and i would fuk up all the fake names lmfao maybe i could do last names? who knows... maybe i’ll figure somethin out....... OH FIRST LETTER OF FIRST NAME ! 

so fav fav kid: S

3yr old: Z

5yr old: P

(for my last post obviously lol)

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AGAIN long time no post.......... ive been keepin up the 7.5 hr a day thing but i asked to get changed and they said i would be moved out of the 3:30-6 by february 1st-ish.......... so thts soon! im lookin forward to more energy tbh but im gonna miss my daycare kids :^(

they switched me from my old class to a new one and my current daycare room is w my old class !!!! so i get to love on them again so im rly gonna miss it

im gonna tell them tht if a bunch of ppl call out or s/t id be willing to come fill in so they have an extra body!!~~~ this way its kinda best of both worlds

so my fav kid (i have a lot but this kid is like... super fav) is literally so cute all the time. he just turned 5! and im not even in his class but he (his parents lol) gave me a christmas gift anyway cuz he loves me so much!!! (ive given him a darth vader keychain and a bracelet but ive given like 10000 kids bracelets lol) (i dont rly place value in my possessions so i just give them away if im asked lol and her rly wanted it so whatever) (mine was real beat up and broken tho so i gave him a new one lol it was like $3 so nbd)

im kinda excited 2 work 5 hrs a day... maybe i’ll ask to stay 1 extra hour at the end? so like 8-2 instead of 8-1 but i dunno

i got 2 groupies in my new class who are 3 and 5 and omg they are ALWAYS fightin over holding my hand??? like i have 2.... its ok.... but i normally let only the 3 yr old hang off of me cuz he’s younger and a 5 yr old should be more ~independent~. the 5 yr old is little tho so hes real easy to pick up and stuff but..... they dont like u pickin kids up too much. not tht i rly do. only when theyre cryin or im givin them a big hug

im endin this post with this: fuck trump

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i think the other teacher assistant in my class quit or somethin lolol now i gotta pick up Da Slack v_v im still a n00b !!! i dont kno shit !!!

i had 2 stay an extra hour and 15 min 2day cuz of it and my break became only 1.75 hrs instead of 2.5 >:^0 

im so tired

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long time no post................... lol..................as for work.... i now work 37.5 hrs a week  lol.... 7.5 a day....8-1 and then 3:30-6....................... its kinda tiring but the weekend recharges me (+ yoi on wed and haikyuu on fri keeps me goin)

4 general life updates.............. I BEAT POKEMON MOON (at least beat the elite 4 + champion lol)................ i love gladion and ilima soooo much.... so much.... and mimikyuu is too much for me...what a good lad....

uhhh what else..... i love yuri on ice..... other than work and pokemon and sleeping i dont do much lolol

i rly need to start studying for my actuarial test but like... im so tired from work all the time lol

my parents want me 2 talk to the boss lady at work and get either my hours reduced or like changed so i get out earlier (so like 8-3:30 would give me still 7.5 hrs a day but id get out so early i could nap and then study after) but idk ive only been there a month so im kinda nervous abt it....im thinkin tht maybe b4 break i can be like “listen..... i cant rly study w these hours.... is there any way i can re-arrange them or something??” so they can work it out over winter break..... and i’ll offer to keep my usual hours until they can figure somethin else out even if it takes longer than just break 2 do it..... which’ll probably help them out a bit..... UGH so annoying

its rough cuz i rly love my class tht im in from 8-1 and then my daycare class has this girl who loooves me and i ddont wanna ditch her !!! plus im the cleaner for tht class so idk who would do it !!! and i dont wanna make ppl work more than they have 2.....yea  i just love my 2 groups of kids tht i work with..

also i like the $ i make from 37 hrs a week lol. even if they move me to just those 5 hrs from 8-1 its only 25 hrs a week so like 500 every 2 weeks minus taxes.... so like $400ish... maybe even only 300 lol.... and rn i get ~600 w taxes removed.... honestly it doesn’t matter cuz i live at home and im just working to not be bored but still... i like tht $$$ GAAAAAAH

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i got moved to working 6 hours a day lolol idk if its because they like me or just bcuz im around and willing 2 work more haha. i work from 12-6 now ! so i can still wake up at 10 like normal which im very excited about... my only issue is tht i get hungry at like 3ish or 4 and idk if im even allowed to eat somethin

(on friday i stole a teddy graham from a kids snack) (not rly stole... he was done and i was throwing it out and took 1 hahahah)

im gonna bring a lil snack anyways but yea. i also have /no idea/ where im supposed to put my coat??? im also bringing a backpack cuz i wanna bring halloween stickers and have a place 4 my food... and maybe my glasses in case my contacts annoy me or s/t... i guess i’ll find out where i can put stuff when i show up w/ it tomorrow lmaooooo UGH

2morrow im gonna see if my mentor person (the girl im shadowing) if i can do the cleaning so i can get used to it..... then maybe on tuesday i’ll change some diapers lmfao.... maybe i’ll change one tomorrow if i gotta

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i kinda hoped i wouldnt get the job tho so then i could sulk and be jobless for like another month lmfao but im also excited..... the job i super wanted tho i interviewed @ yesterday but didnt get it :^/ but tht was WAY more work.... 11:30-6:30 5 days a week and NO BENEFITS even tho its 35 hrs a week >:^0 but that had lil babies like 3 months old which i would love lol but OH WELL !

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im employed ! i work at a daycare now lolol im actually super pumped..... i love kids. plus i only gotta work 4 hrs a day 5 days a week hehe..... and i dont have to go till 2:30!!!! dream job....... so many forms tho.....................

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my new whiny personal blog lolol so excited 2 complain abt things here :^)