Chasing Shadows
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Football Player!Ellie x Classy fem!reader
Synopsis: Haunted by past mistakes and paralyzed by the feeling of being vulnerable, Ellie finds herself determined to win you back. Finding it hard to possibly feel a genuine liking to you, what was once just a bet turned into something more. Following you to a summer camp, will you be finally forgive her and open your heart once more?
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PART I: PART II: PART III
The street was bathed in the soft glows of the street lights, illuminating the face of the person who betrayed you tonight. You shook your head in disappointment, eyes brimming with hot, wet tears from a mixture of sadness and anger.
âPleaseâŚâ Ellieâs voice quivered, lips trembling as she tried walking towards you. But you immediately retracted, one foot stepping backward, making Ellie stop in her tracks. âLet me explain.â She says in a tone with what you believed was regret. If she can even feel something like that.
âWhat for?â You spat, face growing scorn. âYou won, Ellie! You fucking won the bet. Itâs done. Youâre the king, again. And I bet youâll enjoy your throne after you wake up, and I hope you do. I hope every time you try celebrating your victory, youâll think of the person who only showed you nothing but genuine feelings even though everyone warned her not to do so.â You wiped your tears harshly.
Ellie sighed, trying to keep her tears at bay, not wanting to show what she truly felt inside. Sorrow. Pain. Darkness. âLet me make it up to you, YnâŚâ
You repeatedly shook your head, âHavenât you done enough, Ellie?!â
âI want to fix things with you, please!â She begged, wanting to hold both of your hands and kneel in front of you. But she couldnât. She couldnât go near you, you wouldnât let her.
âWas that part of the bet too?â
âNo, no!â Ellie blinked rapidly. âI like youâŚâ She admitted, eyes beating loudly. This was the first time sheâd ever say it, and itâd almost feel so good vocalizing it in the air if it werenât for this ugly situation you two were in.
âHow do you expect me to believe that?â Your jaw clenched, internally scolding your heart for still fluttering at her words. You turned around, walking away immediately. Your footsteps echo through the pavement, and you can hear Ellie calling out for you.
âWait!â Ellie called out, voice trembling with emotion that you couldnât decipher. âJust at least let me drive you home, please!â
Just as was Ellie trying to reach for your arm, you harshly stopped and looked back at her. Meeting her glassy eyes with a pair of angry ones. âTry to follow me, or Iâll never talk to you again!â You shouted before continuing with your tracks.
Ellie felt like her whole world was crumbling in front of her as she walked you away. She felt like her heart was ripping into pieces as she stared at your shaking shoulders, while your hands were wiping away the tears from your eyes.
For once, Ellie felt hopeless.
With each step you take, Ellie can feel her heart shattering into a million pieces, unable to pick them up. The weight of your absence lies upon her shoulder, making it for her difficult to even move a limb.
She watched you call someone else on the phone, crying. You were so close, yet so far from her touch. A sinking feeling washed over her, and a deep realization filled her thoughts: that you are not going to be by her side again. And how can she function when youâre the one who gives her the motivation to wake up every day?
A figure walked out of the car in front of you, approaching you. Ellie watched as the girl gently ran her hands on your hair, trying to soothe your feelings. You wept, however, but she held you gently. Soothing your feelings with words she couldnât hear.
You walked inside the car, leaving Ellieâs line of vision. The girl you were with looked where Ellie was, finding in her in a pitiful state that Abby couldnât even tell that this was the same person who ruled the field with such confidence and pride just a few hours ago. The two locked gaze for a minute before Abby decided to walk inside, ignoring the watchful eyes piercing through her back.
As the car left Ellieâs vision, her shoulders dropped. Knees buckling and falling into the ground. She looked down, finally letting the tears that she held on for too long.
And so she cried, for what seemed like forever.
Ellie might have won the game, but her kingdom was nothing but a hollow shell, devoid of warmth and light you brought into her life.
âI knew it was too good to be true.â You overhear Nora in a frustrated tone.
Your brows knit together, forming deep lines on your forehead as you grumble. Your head was aching, and your eyes felt tired and puffy from crying last night. You, however, tried standing up slowly, not having the energy. You opened the door of the guest room, eyes falling on the two figures standing in Abbyâs apartmentâs kitchen.
âYou should not say anything mean to her. Sheâs in pain.â Abby says in a hushed voice.
âI know but-â
âWhat are you two doing?â You asked, startling Nora and Abby.
âJust talking,â Nora said, walking up to you.
âAre you okay?â Abby asked, her voice filled with deep concern as she sat you on her couch.
âYeah, just a little groggy.â You cleared your throat. âWhat were you talking about?â
Nora and Abby shared looks, the blonde shaking her head, telling her friend not to say something. But the girl only crossed her arms in front of her chest, ignoring Abbyâs gaze.
âAbout last night,â Nora answered.
You looked away, eyes squinting at the blinding light illuminating from the windows. âWhat about it?â
âI knew she wasnât good for you. Why donât you listen to me?â Nora exhaled frustratingly. âIâve never seen you so devastated, Y/n. Itâs deeply concerning.â
âNora pleaseâŚâ You begged, wanting to drop the topic.
âWhy would you think that she wouldnât do something to you? Sheâs a deceitful Casanova! I thought you were smart, Y/n.â
âThatâs enough!â Abby stood up, lightly pushing Nora away.
Your eyes prickled with tears, looking at her with bitterness across your face. You faced her, standing up abruptly. âWere you happy that you were right? Was that it, Nora?!â
âHey,â Abby went in the middle, breaking off the starting fight.
âFuck, yes, I am! I hope youâd fucking listen for me once!â
âWell then, congratulations! Thank you, Nora, for rubbing my mistakes all over my face. I hope it feels so good to be an all-knowing bitch!â You screamed, grabbing your bag at the coffee table and walking out the door fast. You heard Abby going after you, but you ran inside the elevator quickly, ignoring the looks of disgust and concern on the faces of the people beside you as they looked at your state: hair and clothes being a mess, with a tired face, alcohol reeking body, and a pair of bare feet.
âWhat the actual shitâŚ?â An old man shook his head at you disapprovingly, making you even break down into a fit of tears.
The scented candles you once put on to relax your brains filled your nose, its lavender scent calming your nerves as the steam of hot water streaming down your body, enveloping you in a warm hug. With each droplet falling into every inch of your skin, you wished that it could also wash away the bitterness and resentment that clung to your heart.
Hours had already passed by as you stepped inside the shower, but you remained lost in your thoughts â filling your brain once again with a haze pure of anger and sadness. You tried shaking it off, lightly pulling down your hair as you desperately wanted to forget her stupid face. But your brain couldnât stop imagining the event last night, how stupidly good she looked, how you stupidly kissed her, and stupidly fell for her antics. Despite everything, you couldnât stop thinking about how you couldnât fully hate her.
Your love for her weighed more than what she has done. But still, you couldnât bring yourself to easily forgive her.
You sighed, plopping down on the bed after the long bath you took, not caring what time or what day was it. Abby got you covered. She texted you once you got to your apartment, saying that you shouldnât come to the school today and just get some rest. She also apologized for Noraâs behavior and you scoffed at that. She shouldnât be the one doing that, sheâs not at fault. But, oh, well, Nora wouldnât apologize. Itâll hurt her pride.
You didnât respond, but Abby texted you once again, saying that Nora made you an excuse letter, saying that you were sick for the day. Abby thought that it was her way of saying Iâm sorry, and you just sighed.
She also updated you once she gave it to Mrs. Garcia, catching Ellieâs figure slouched down her chair, head resting on her arms that were laid out on her desk. Itâs as if Ellie was in a trance, she says, just staring at the empty chair beside her that was supposed to be your seat. Abby also caught her curious glance at her figure, asking you if she probably recognized her but you couldnât tell her the exact answer. You were confused, too.
You buried your head in your pillows, staring at the ceiling. You can imagine how pitiful Ellie looks, and for once, youâd offer millions just to hear her thoughts.
Ellie immediately threw herself on the couch in her shared apartment with Dina, feeling the exhaustion penetrating to the very core of her being, leaving her feeling drained and depleted â both mentally and physically. She buried her face in the soft plush of the pillows, sighing heavily. She didnât tell anyone about what happened between you two, and she very much ignored every single one of her teammates, not wanting to feel like the total sore loser. Especially with Dina who has been telling her not to do this since the day she knew about the bet. Ellie could imagine how she would scold her for hurting you. And maybe she deserves it.
Dina, who was sitting on the floor of the living room, glanced at Ellie while different art materials were sprawled out at the coffee table, including her laptop. âWhat was that?â She asked, brow-raising up before going back to what she was doing.
âNothing.â Ellie lied, heart racing at the thought of telling Dina where she went wrong.
âNo, not nothing. Stop lying to me and tell me everything.â Her brows knitted, getting frustrated at the hand-made card she was designing. Ellie remained silent, and Dina had to pinch her lightly.
âOw! Fine!â Ellie sat up, soothing her leg. âY/n knew about the bet after we kissed.â
Dina stopped cutting the paper and looked at Ellie with pure disbelief, âWhat?!â She exclaimed, and Ellie only gazed down her lap, fiddling with her fingers, not wanting to see the disappointment on her face. âI knew this wouldnât go well!â
Ellie sighed once again, âShe wonât forgive me.â
âHell, yeah. You played with her feelings, Els. Thatâs not fair.â She shook her head repeatedly. âSheâs a nice girl, she doesnât deserve it.â
âI know,â Ellie answers, almost in a whisper. Feeling the guilt consuming her once again. Her chest tightened as if her heart were squeezing, making it difficult to breathe.
Dina sighed, âYou must face the consequences of your actions, Ellie. I wonât nag you with all of your shitty decisions in life but I do hope that youâll reflect on what youâve done.â Dina looked up at her, meeting her green eyes. âYou donât have to be the same cruel, heartless person everyone believed you to be. Maybe it is hard to admit that you like somebody, and I understand that your feelings might get mixed up and fight with your mind. But thatâs what the heart wants, deep inside, thatâs what you want, and burying it with the ugly thoughts that you shouldnât fall in love with someone else because youâre you, wouldnât do well. Do you understand me?â
Ellie nodded reluctantly.
âNow help me with the invitations and I might give you one.â Dina pats the space beside her, and Ellie canât help but smile lightly before sitting down on the floor too.
âWhatâs this for?â She asked, wanting to touch the freshly made one but Dina swatted her hand immediately.
âItâs for this yearâs camping trip. Itâll be held next week when the break starts. Itâll be exclusive only to those who attended last yearâs camp, and those whom the camp councils will choose who attend. And since Iâm this yearâs head committee of the arts committee, I am the one in charge of the making of the invitations.â She explained.
âWill Y/n be there?â
Dina sighed, âYes. She always is.â
âIf I help you⌠can I get an invite?â Ellie looked at her expectantly, eyes widening with a small light of hope flicking around her mind.
âFine. Only if youâll be good.â
Ellie almost squealed in glee, immediately gathering the things she would need to make another card. She copied Dinaâs work, and with so much skill that it looked better than the one her friend made.
Ellie would do everything she could to make amends, even if it meant making a hundred batches of handmade invitations until midnight.
Ellie couldnât even lift a limb today, and Dina basically had to pull her away from her bed just so sheâd get up. It was an important day, as all of the students who participated and won the universityâs national-wide intramurals were going to get recognized in front of everyone. The Rising Phoenixesâ were the highlight of this year, bagging the 6th win of the womenâs football team, and will be going to compete internationally.
But Ellie couldnât handle the humiliation she had been feeling at herself. Sure, her friends didnât know what happened, and everyone still thinks highly of her, but Ellie couldnât go in front of the stage knowing that you would be there. Ellie tried calling in sick, but her coach wouldnât let her not to attend the recognition, knowing that it would be just as important to him as it was to Ellie.
Ellie stood in the middle of the stage, accepting the huge medal that purely recognized her skills and abilities. She tried to get that smug smile on her face, posing for the pictures. And you watched, trying to hide behind the people in front of you, not wanting Ellie to know that you were there. Still silently supporting her even when she did you dirty.
You sighed, excusing yourself as you tried to get away from the swarm of people trying to desperately get in front, admiring the players. Ellieâs heart raced as she craned her neck, her eyes scanning the crowd in search of you. She wanted to get out of this place or else sheâll get suffocated. So she politely excused herself, declining a girl who wanted to get a picture with her.
Ellie needed to find you, to redeem herself after that night, but you seemed like sand â always slipping out of her fingers.
Her breath hitched as she saw a familiar figure, walking through the busy hallway. Ellieâs footsteps rang through the tiled floors as she hurried after you, her heart busting in her chest as longing grew quickly inside her. With each desperate stride to come get you, Ellie silently cursed as you pushed yourself at the swarm of people, making it hard for her to spot you.
âWait!â She yelled, making other people look her way. âY/n, please, just listen to me!â She exclaimed, small tears started forming at the corners of her eyes.
Your throat hurts as you pretend not to hear her voice calling out to you. The once hurried walks almost turn into running. You wanted to get away from her. You donât trust yourself in front of her. You knew that if you were left in a room with Ellie, no matter what she did, she could just tell you that she loves you and youâll come running back in her arms.
âPlease!â Ellie cried out, voice filled with anguish. âI need to talk to you!â
But you remain out of her reach, just always a few steps ahead. Ellieâs heart sank as she realized that you could probably hear her, you just didnât want to talk to her, you didnât want to listen to her explanations and apologies.
âHey, man, thatâs alright.â Jesse came beside her, wrapping his hands over her shoulders, gently tugging Ellie away from the crowd.
The girl couldnât even fight back, she just let Jesse take her wherever he went as her vision blurred, tears started falling down her shirt. Her mind is full of despair. Thoughts of wanting to just catch you, even just for a couple of minutes, and sheâll try to make up for whatever shitty thing she has done to you. But now, as she walked with her head down while a huge medal was sitting around her neck, she felt like a loser more than ever.
Everything after that seemed like a blur. Ellieâs stare was blank as her head rested at Jesseâs car window, just gazing around the scenery with a heavy heart. Ellie vowed to herself not to stop trying. She had to earn your forgiveness, no matter how hard it is.
âI told Dina you were safe with me, and weâre just in our usual hangout place,â Jesse says, sitting at the cold concrete floor of an abandoned beach house. âLuckily, I still have a stock of beers in my car.â Jesse offered her one.
âThanks, man,â Ellie says, looking at the beach in front of her.
âIâve never seen you like that before.â
âYeah, I was surprised as well,â Ellie answered, immediately emptying the first can of beer. She reached out at the box, opening another can.
âDina told me everything and all I can say wasâŚâ Jesse clicked his tongue, lightly shaking his head.
âYeah, I know, Iâm a shitty person.â Ellie nods to herself.
âNah, I think youâre just a normal person who makes a mistake. I mean, youâre just scared, and I do understand why you did what you did. However, it does not mean that itâs right.â
âScared?â Ellie scoffed, looking at Jesse.
âWhat? Did I say something incorrect?â Jesse raised his pointer finger at Ellieâs face.
âYes, man, I think youâre perfectly wrong,â Ellie answered, raising hers, too.
âAdmit it or not, Els, only a cowardly person would do such thing like that,â Jesse says in a serious tone. âAccepting a bet to kiss a girl even if hurting another personâs feelings just to win and for what? Just to make everyone respect you since youâre their captain? Just say it, Ellie. That being a Casanova just shields you from what you truly are because deep inside youâre scared of being vulnerable with someone else.â
Ellieâs jaw clenched, still looking at her friend with knitted brows. She wanted to quip back and say something mean to him, but she knew that Jesse was right.
âYou couldnât fix everything if you canât even proudly tell that you like Y/n. If youâre going to live yourself trying to hide from everyone about what you truly felt, then you truly wonât change, and Y/n wonât forgive you.â
Ellie sighed, looking down at her lap. Her brain started swirling as she thought about everything. âI guess I just always have to prove myself to everyone. That I can do everything, and no one could hinder that. Iâm their captain, and so I should be the one whoâs always in control. Not the other way around.â She emptied her second one, immediately opening up the other. She took a deep breath, closing her eyes. âI stayed away from affection because I was surrounded by people who think that loving someone was a weakness.â
âThatâs not true at all.â Jesse defended. âI think being able to freely admit to someone that you love them was a sign of true bravery. Admitting that you were willing to risk everything for them isnât weak.â Jesse put a hand on Ellieâs shoulder, looking straight into her eyes. âYou are not weak.â
Ellieâs face softened, glancing away.
She sighed, how she wished that the ocean could swallow her whole. Maybe the crashing waves could mimic her troubling emotions. Maybe then she wouldnât feel lost and alone.
The school year had ended, and the warm sun bathed your apartment in a golden glow. The humidity has been high, sucking all of your energy one by one as doing such simple tasks will have you drenched in sweat. So, here you are, lying on your couch, enjoying your freedom as you stare at the movie on the television, your thoughts flying away.
Abby was out for today, having been running errands that her dad specifically asked her to do. She hated it, going from city to city to talk to someone, get some confidential files, and so on. But, knowing her dad, Abby couldnât do anything but comply. Besides, her overflowing allowance was his only way of shutting her up.
You and Nora were good now. Two days after your fight, she had been texting to talk to you, putting her pride aside. But you knew Abby had to firmly ask her to apologize to you before she did. You understand her concerns, knowing that sheâs just an overprotective friend for you. Itâs just that she did that in such a bad way, opening some opportunities for a misunderstanding â which you two had just done. However, you already accepted her apology, making her vow not to do it anymore.
And with Ellie, you did not know what to do. Itâs been almost two weeks since that night happened, and the wound is still fresh as that day. You blocked her from everything, not wanting her presence to loom over you. But, itâs not effective as you still couldnât stop thinking of her. You canât get her out of your head, images of her face come flashing into your mind, haunting you in your dreams. You tried drowning your thoughts, distracting yourself by reading books, watching movies, and putting your headphones on 24/7, but the sounds of her screams and pleads for you came echoing to your ears no matter what, consuming you whole.
You sighed heavily, trying to focus on the scene on the television to escape everything when a sudden knock came on your door. Surprised and skeptical, you made your way to answer it. Abby was coming this afternoon, but you figured out it wasnât her because she has your apartment keys.
Opening the door, you found Dina standing on your doorstep, offering a warm smile at you.
âHey!â She greeted. âI hope Iâm not interrupting you,â She said sheepishly.
You immediately shook your head, âNo, not really. I was just watching a movie. Come inside!â You opened your door widely, and she stepped in. âDo you want anything? Itâs hot outside, Iâm surprised you can handle the heat.â
âAny cold drink would be fine, and yes, I donât have a choice but to do this.â Dina chuckled, following you to the kitchen, and sitting at the barstool as she watched you make a juice.
âWhat for?â
Dina opened her bag, getting an invitation letter for you. Your eyes dropped to the small piece of paper she slid as you offered Dina the drink which she gratefully accepted.
âOh, I didnât know itâll be too soon.â You said, opening the letter.
âYeah, the council thought itâd be fun to hold a camp a week after the school had ended. Most of the campers liked to travel in May, and so we decided to hold it in April.â Dina sipped at the juice, looking at you. âHow are you? I mean,â She sighed. âI know what happened.â
You cleared your throat, inhaling sharply. It had slipped your mind that Dina is Ellieâs best friend, and she knew everything. Humiliation ran through your face, looking away. âItâs embarrassingâŚâ You admitted.
âI know, sweetie.â Dina placed her hand on top of yours. âI knew about the bet, and I was actually about to tell you everything that night but Ellie butted in. Iâve been warning her since the very first time but sheâs persistent on doing it. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs not your fault.â You shook your head, trying your best not to cry. âItâs mine. I shouldâve known better than falling for her.â
âOh, Y/nâŚâ Dina whispered.
You smiled at her through bloodshot eyes, âIâm gonna be at camp. Itâll be a nice distraction from her.â
Dina hissed, âActually⌠Ellieâs gonna be there too.â
Your brows knitted. âWhat?â
âShe figured youâd be there.â Dina sighed heavily. âItâs fine if you wonât accept the invite, okay? Iâll just vouch for you-â
âNo, no, no.â You shake your head, not wanting to cause Dina any more trouble. âItâs fine. I can just⌠ignore her.â
âAre you sure?â Dina asked, hesitantly.
âIâll accompany her there.â Abby suddenly butted in, her presence making you two in shock. Abby flashed Dina a boyish smile before extending her hand, âIâm Abby Anderson.â
âOh yeah, I knew your father.â Dina smiled. âIâm Dina.â
You looked at Abby, âWhat are you saying? Your dad wonât agree.â
âHe will. He promised that this was the last time heâd given me a task. Iâm a free woman now.â She gestured both of her hands in the air. âSo,â Abby looked at Dina. âCould I get an invitation? Iâm just gonna keep an eye out for my idol Ellie.â
You and Dina exchanged glances.
The sun dipped low on the horizon as you hopped off the bus, scanning your eyes through the scenery in front of you. Nostalgia hit you as you smelled the fresh breeze of the campsite, a place where you spent every year of your summer. You started smiling to yourself, trying to calm your wild heart as the thought of spending the whole week with Ellie started forming.
A small touch at your back made you flinch, pulling you back to reality as Abbyâs tall frame stood over you, blocking the rays of the sun.
âIâve never been into any campsites. Ever.â Abby says gleefully, being amazed at every single thing from the scenery during the bus ride, and here in the camp.
âThatâs because you are very rich and you spend your summers in Greece or whatever,â You said.
Abby looked at you, offended. âIâm not very rich!â She argued.
âYes you are, sweetie, you grew up having a Lamborghini for your school service.â You placed your hand on her shoulder, nose crinkly as you tried not to smile.
At the distance, far from your consciousness, you didnât know that Ellie was at one of the picnic tables in the distance, trying to ignore the girls who started sitting beside her and trying to flirt with her as she only looked your way. Her eyes darkened, and her jaw tensed as she followed your figure walking beside your friend, Abby, to your respective shared cabin.
Her fist clenched, the weight of guilt and regret tugging down on her like a suffocating blanket. She had messed up, she knew that, but seeing you smiling and laughing with another girl only served to deepen her sense of shame and loneliness.
The lunch continued at the campsiteâs central meeting house, where Joan, gladly thanked every camper for participating in this yearâs camp. Dina welcomed you and Abby, gesturing to you where she was seated.
Jesse nodded at you, absolutely devouring the piece of croissant on his table. Where he got that when the buffet wasnât even started, you didnât know, nor did not bother to ask. Unfortunately, you and Abby were seated in front of Ellie, who was already looking at you intently. Her eyes screamed with frustration and irritation for no one knows what. Her ringed fingers were clasped together at the table, and you gave her a tight-lipped smile, not wanting to stir any trouble and trying to keep it civil.
You looked at Joan, trying to avoid even glancing at Ellie's face.
She looks so good.
How can she make a simple black shirt that good? And oh, not to mention how her tattoos were fully exposed, whilst her auburn hair was in a half-up bun. You mentally scolded yourself for the fluttering feeling in your stomach, muttering curses under your breath.
Abby leaned into you, whispering in your ear. âWhat is wrong with you?â
âNothing.â You hushed her.
Ellie watched the interaction in front of her. Her heart sank a little as she looked at how close Abby was to you â something that she couldnât do.
You intently listened to Joan who was explaining the rules of the capture the flag, especially to those young campers who couldnât help filling the meeting house with anticipation and excited cheers and chatters for their team. You, Abby, Ellie, and Jesse were assigned to Dinaâs team, and Ellie couldnât stop feeling a small light of hope to have an opportunity to talk to you.
The lunch quickly ended, and everyone was given an hour to get their teamâs respective shirts at the tent and to make the team leader strategies to win the game.
Abby excused herself to go to the bathroom quickly, and Ellie found herself walking behind you, her heart pounding in her chest as your familiar perfume filled her nose. Her heart warmed with such longing and desperation, but she couldnât find the right words and the courage to speak up.
You, however, were fully aware of her presence behind you. You spent many times with Ellie that you can even recognize her shadow. You tried calming your beating heart as you carefully watched your steps going inside the tent, knowing that she was just right behind you.
You took an abrupt stop from walking, making Ellieâs chest bump into your back.
âOh, sorry.â You quickly apologized, feeling embarrassed.
âItâs fine,â Ellie answered softly, scratching the back of her head.
You grabbed the red shirt, indicating the color of your team, and Ellie did so. As she was about to open her mouth to say something, Abby immediately appeared behind your back.
âDina says we should now go under the large oak tree.â Abby pointed, cutting the potential conversation between you and Ellie, and you did not know whether to feel relieved or sad.
Frustration boiled beneath Ellieâs skin as she clenched her fists, her nails digging through her palms so hard. She could feel getting annoyed at the presence of the newcomer, her madness bubbling through her heart, threatening to spill at any moment. But as Dina gathered her team, she couldnât do anything about it, and mentally advised herself not to let her emotions get over her.
With a deep breath, Ellie pushed down all of her anger and frustration. She vowed to herself that she would make things right, and no one could stop her from doing so.
Not Natalie.
Not even the gods.
And definitely not Abby.
The soft rustling of the wind against the leaves somehow made you at ease. After the game started, you tried to quickly make your way to the forest, knowing that this area wouldnât be covered by the game. Not wanting anyone to catch you, you quickly ran away, hiding in the bushes as everyone made their way where each otherâs flag was.
Abby, bless her, didnât even notice that you werenât by her side since she was overly enthusiastic with the game as she hadnât even played it before. And so there she was, running and defending herself as she tried to make her way to the opponentâs flag, enjoying every bit of it.
The familiar forest enveloped you in its embrace, providing a small sense of comfort as you sat on one of the tall trees. You sighed, ears perked up to hear the birds singing, knowing that you were not all alone.
The weight of holding the burden of being a plaything fell slumped on your shoulders, dragging you whole. You bit yourself, trying to face the dilemma of forgiving Ellie. If you choose to give her another chance, youâll betray yourself. But if you choose to ignore her, youâll betray your heart.
So what would you do?
Lost in your thoughts, you sighed, massaging your temples while your eyes were tightly shut. The ache in your heart was refusing to go, memories of you and Ellie came running down your thoughts. Unbeknownst to you, Ellie had been searching for your presence, her heart was deep with longing and regret.
A soft crackle of the leaves made your train of thoughts stop, abruptly standing. But before you could even lift a limb, Ellie appeared in the woods.
Your eyes widen, wanting to get away from her as soon as possible. And Ellie noticed how you were alarmed by her, a small pang in her heart as she watched you scramble to your feet. Trying, but failing to go away as she was blocking your way.
âPlease⌠I want to talk to you.â Ellie said, almost in a whisper. She maintained to keep her distance, not wanting to scare you into running away.
âFor what, Ellie?â You said, dejected. âWasnât that enough? Why canât you leave me alone.â
âI canât!â She exclaimed, a lump forming in her throat as she tried not to cry. âI like you, Y/n.â
You laughed with no humor. Despite feeling an ache in your chest, your heart beats wildly against it. Tears started streaming down your face, breaking Ellieâs heart into pieces. âAnd how could I believe that? You lied to me not even once!â
âIâm sorry,â Ellie says, voice trembling. âIâm so so sorry. Please just give me another chance to make things right. Iâll prove to you that I do like you.â
You did not answer. You couldnât bring your eyes to look at her gaze. You canât. Itâll break you more than youâll ever know. Countless of doubts started forming in your mind, not trusting the words coming from her lips. Uncertainty gnawed on your mind, clouding your thoughts and poisoning your judgment.
âI donât know, EllieâŚâ You whispered, your gaze is on the floor. âI want to believe you but I justâŚâ You trailed off, shaking your head. âI donât know if I could trust you again.â
Tears welled in Ellieâs eyes, blurring her line of vision. The huge weight of your words came crashing down on her, breaking every inch of her body. She hoped she could find the energy to run after you, beg for your forgiveness once again. But faced with the reality, Ellie knew she had to respect your decision. She shouldnât dictate what you should and should not do. Ellie hurt you, and if it was the consequences of her actions that Dina was talking about, then sheâll gladly face it.
She just hoped that youâd still be there when she changed.
Maybe.
Tension was thick as Ellie remained to keep her distance away from you. Realizing that thereâs nothing she can do in the meantime, she wanted to give you some space. Itâs the least she can do for you, knowing that what she did broke you in many ways she could ever imagine. Ellieâs heart ached as she took a glance at your puffy face, evidence of how shitty she truly was.
The breakfast were held outside the meeting house, a long table were set up by the camp counselors, providing a very-well decorated table and chairs with different sets of vases with colorful flowers. Dina were as busy as ever, but she couldnât ignore the slump face of Ellie as she was fixing the chairs.
She didnât comment on that, even when you and Abby decided to sit at the other side of the table, far away from Ellie. She noted how quiet her friend was, fully knowing that something happened last night. Dina has an idea, but she couldnât bring herself to ask Ellie or you, not wanting to stir any more conflicts.
âYou alright?â Dina asked softly while everyone was done with their meal. Grabbing a garbage bag, she started picking up the paper plates, and the disposable cups and plastics.
âRough day.â Ellie only answered with a rugged voice, helping her friend out.
âAbby,â Dina called, making the blonde girl look at her with raised brows.
âYeah?â She asked from the distance, and Ellie tried not to furrow her brows, getting annoyed even by the tone of her voice.
âCan you and Ellie get the garbage bags and throw them at the disposal?â Dina kindly asked, making Ellieâs head turn at her harshly.
âWhat? Why her?â She asked, annoyance evident in her tone and expression.
âNo problem!â Abby beamed.
Dina widened her eyes at Ellie, giving her a warning look. The auburn-haired girl muttered curses under her breath, knowing that she couldnât do anything about it or Dina would kick her out of the camp whenever she wanted to.
You casually went to Dina, offering her a tight-lipped smile as you helped her clean the area that she was cleaning.
âWould they be friends?â Dina asked, glancing at Ellie and Abbyâs backs.
You chuckled, shaking your head. âAbby idolizes Ellie, I donât know about her though.â
Dina smiled, falling silent for a minute. âAre you okay?â
âStill living. Thatâs what matters, right?â You joked.
âWhatâs on your mind?â Dina asked, placing a gentle hand on your shoulder.
âIâŚâ You shut your eyes, shaking your head. âI donât know if I could trust her again, you know. She told me she likes me. But I donât know if I could believe that.â
âYou could choose not to, Y/n. You could choose to ignore Ellie if you want. Do you?â
âNo,â You whispered. âFunny thing is⌠I canât do it. Ignoring her would mean hurting myself more. But forgiving her that fast would mean that Iâm weak.â
âNo, youâre not.â Dina held both of your hands, squeezing it gently. âForgiving doesnât mean you are forgetting or excusing her actions. You can do it slowly, let her gain your trust once again, and see if it will work. I have known Ellie since we were kids, and I can tell you how much she truly regrets what she did to you. Did you know she helped me make the invitations until 2:00 in the morning?â
âReally?â You smiled despite the tears threatening to fall from your eyes.
âYeah, she did. I never saw her that dedicated in my life until you came. Y/n, she likes you. Truly.â
You stared at Dina for too long, nibbling your bottom lip. âOh yeah?â
âWhatâs up with you and Y/n?â Abby asked Ellie, tailing her as she dumped the garbage bag forcefully at the pit.
âNone of your fucking business.â Ellie glared at her.
âWoah, woah,â Abby said, raising her hands in the air. âWhat did I do? Why are you pissed?â
âExist,â Ellie answered sternly. âListen, dude, why donât you go away? You already have Y/n, what more could you possibly want from me?â
Abbyâs brows furrowed, âI donâtâ Oh wait, you think me and Y/n were together? Is that why youâre so mad?â
Ellie muttered a curse under her breath.
âOh, yes, you did.â Abby giggled but stopped when Ellie shot her a piercing glare. âWeâre not together. Weâre friends.â
âFriends, huh?â Ellie scoffed.
âWaitâ why are you the one whoâs getting mad at me? Thatâs supposed to be the other way around! You hurt my friend, Ellie. And even though I was your super fangirl, nothing about what you did to Y/n was right.â
Ellie stopped in her tracks, almost dropping the garbage bag she was holding. Her jaw clenched as she listened to what the blonde girl was talking about, setting aside her annoyance at her for just a couple of minutes.
âI was the one who pushed her to befriend you. You should be grateful to me,â Abby threw the garbage beside her. âShe believed in you, Ellie, just like what she does to everyone. Y/n is a great person and I didnât know why you just took her for granted.â
Ellie slowly dropped the thing she was holding. She gulped as she made sense of what Abby was saying.
âI know,â Ellie agreed. âIâm a dick. Donât worry, Iâll stop chasing her for now.â
Abbyâs head whipped at Ellieâs direction, âNow when did I say that you should do that?â
âShould I not?â Ellie asked, puzzled.
âNo. Just one little push, okay? Just show Y/n that youâre sincere. Canât you do that?â
âI can,â Ellie nodded, mostly to herself.
âAlright.â Abby smiled, patting her hand on Ellieâs exposed shoulder with the tank top she was wearing. Unbeknownst to the auburn haired girl, Abby smeared dirt on it.
Ellieâs nose flared as she fakes a gag at the smell, âFuck you, blondie!â She yelled, eliciting a loud laugh from Abby, echoing through the forest-clad area.
The crackling flames over the bonfire perfectly illuminated the different faces of the group who were gathered around it. The adults decided to sneak over to do a spontaneous midnight activity and snacks, bringing different snacks, candies, and even alcohol that they hid from their luggage. Even the camp counselors were around, and some of them came up with the idea to call everyone to come out when the kids were already fast asleep.
You found yourself sitting in front of Ellie, giving you the perfect view of her face, the flickering lights casting a shadow on her face, making her green eyes pop as she watched the dancing flames, seemingly lost in thoughts. She did not even notice that Dina had sat on her left side, along with Jesse who was already opening a bag of chips. She did not even move when a girl you were not familiar with started sitting dangerously close to her, the proximity making your left brow arch slowly. The sad girl elbowed her friend, whispering something in her as she kept glancing at Ellie, a blush creeping on her cheeks.
âOh, my god, weâre going to grill marshmallows just like what I watched in the movies,â Abby leaned in to whisper at your ear, excitement filling her voice as she clapped lightly.
You were about to say something, when someone yelled to play a game. Clapping his hand to gather everyoneâs attention, he started to speak.
âIâm so happy to see old and new faces here in camp. Iâm Luke, the vice counselor. A pleasure to meet all of you.â He says. âWeâll go crazy tonight, everyone. Letâs open the booze!â
Everyone yelled in excitement, popping the bottles simultaneously. Everyone started filling the massive container with blocks of ice, different candies, and of course, different mixes of alcohol to create the perfect drink for the night.
âWhy donât we play the game of truth or dare?â The girl beside Ellie suggested, a mischievous glint forming in her eyes as she took a glance at Ellie. The bottle spun, its neck pointing in Ellieâs direction.
âOh, fun!â Another girl says, an eager smile forming around the corners of her lips. âTruth or dare?â
âTruth,â Ellie answered sternly.
âBoring!â She laughed flirtatiously, making your brows knit. It did not take long for Ellie to notice that your face started growing in pure annoyance, something that she picked up on for being with you for so long. Something inside her stirred, making her sit straight as she tried to ignore your gaze that was boring into hers. Ellie tried to remain looking at the girl who was talking to her, not wanting to lock eyes with you for a moment. âSo tell me, Ellie, do you like someone?â
Everyone said âoohâ in unison, waiting expectantly for her answer. Ellie remained silent, her eyes locking with yours for a moment before you looked away, your expression guarded but your heart started beating too fast.
Ellie sighed, taking the hint that you did not want to be involved with her. âCan I just take a drink?â She asks, and everyone laughs, pouring her cup fully.
âNow thatâs not boring!â The girl beside her exclaimed, feeling hopeful that she would have a chance on the girl.
You gulped, seemingly puzzled at what you are currently feeling right now. Perhaps, were you disappointed at her answer? Why does a small part of you want for her to express how much she likes you? Even though you made it clear last night that you donât want her presence near you.
Dina looked at you and she gave you a tight-lipped smile, and you were unsure what that meant.
âWas it just me or did those two girls want to bang Ellie?â Abby asked, looking at them with a curious stare.
âJust shut up, Abs.â You rolled your eyes before taking a huge sip on your cup. The bitterness of the alcohol drew a sharp line on your throat, eliciting a small groan out of you.
The game continued, the dares becoming increasingly daring as the night wore on. But when the bottleâs neck finally landed on the girl sitting beside Ellie, her friend wasted no time in daring her to kiss the person in the group that she found attractive.
With a sly grin, the girl continued to lean towards Ellie. Ellie panicked, taking a glance at you, and was met with a glare from your eyes. She physically recoiled, her tattooed hand pushing her chest to keep her away. Everyone shouted in unison, teasing the girl beside Ellie.
âDonât do that shit with me,â Ellie glared at her.
âYouâre turning me down?!â The girl asked, offended. âOh, my goodness. No one has ever done that to me! This is so embarrassing. I bet the girl you liked wasnât even pretty!â She yelled, feeling the tears brimming at the corners of her eyes.
âActuallyâŚâ Abby, Jesse, and Dina said in unison.
âThis is so ridiculous,â You said, shaking your head as the tension made you feel uncomfortable. You immediately get up, grabbing your cup full of alcohol to take it with you. The crackling sound of the dried leaves filled the air as you walked away, disappearing into a small part of the forest â not far away from the gleaming lights of the camp.
âY/n?â Ellie asked gently, tailing you.
You stared at her, and part of your brain started swirling as the alcohol slowly consumed you. You leaned into the tree, feeling exhausted at everything as you kept your gaze at her.
âWhy didnât you kiss her?â You asked, challenging her.
âAre you serious?â Ellie laughed sarcastically. âI think I made it clear that you are the only one I like. I still do.â
âThen why didnât you say it earlier?â
Ellie gulped, âI⌠donât want to make you uncomfortable.â
You nodded, taking her reason as a valid one. âWhat if⌠thatâs what I truly want? To hear you shout that you⌠like me.â You said, voice faltering at the last two words.
âYou think I canât do that?â Ellie asked you back. âI like you, Y/n Y/l/n!â She yelled at the top of her lungs, as loud as she could, her words echoing through the silent night, scaring the birds who were resting on their respective nests.
You couldnât stop smiling at that gesture, so you tried to move your head away from her gaze, hiding your face. Ellie felt a warmth surging in her heart as she took a step forward at you. She lifted your chin, wide green eyes staring at yours.
âAlright, hear me out.â She says, making both of your brows lift as you anticipate what sheâll say next. âI know messed up⌠big time and Iâm ready to earn your forgiveness. So, hereâs my proposalâŚâ
You raised a brow, curious to see what Ellie had in mind. The corners of her lips twitched into a playful smile, her eyes glinting with joy as she outlined her plan in her mind. âI propose to dance in front of you.â
âJesus.â You shut your eyes, laughing at her suggestion. âYou might scare the living creatures in here.â You joked.
Ellie danced, however. Making ridiculous moves as she waved her hips, trying to jiggle her butt. You laughed harder as she tried to mimic Michael Jacksonâs moonwalk, but failed as she tripped and fell into a pile of leaves.
âOh godâŚâ You shut your eyes tightly while smiling like an idiot. Even though her moves were not as good, thereâs something about it that you find⌠charming. You sighed, walking nearer to where Ellie was. You offered your hand to help her stand up, and she hesitantly accepted it.
Ellie gently wiped off the leaves and dirt that stuck on her pants before looking at you once again. The moonlight illuminated your face, making her breath hitch as she finally saw you in this proximity. Something that she never thought she would miss. Ellie can finally look at your face and smell your perfume, and her heart warms as she tries not to kiss you right there and then.
âI canât believe that you thought I was going to fall for that.â
âWell, did it work?â
You smiled before gripping his collar and smashing down your lips with hers. âYes, captain.â
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