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Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else, but just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.

The Winter of the Air  (via fuckinq)

#I'm going to queue this for when I'm 23

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i hate that im sensitive and jealous and stupid and quiet and ugly and annoying 

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me: I’m so cute

me 15 mins later: I hate myself

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(f0r-you)

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just a glimpse

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| Discovery | White Sands, New Mexico.

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i wonder how many times we forgive someone just because we don’t want to lose them even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.

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i learned that people leave. Even if they have promised a thousand times that they won’t

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one of the most toxic things i’ve ever done is ignore the bad in someone because i love them

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I always get attached to everyone and no one gets attached to me so I always just feel dumb

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Sunrise In Purple Tones

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Maybe I deserve someone else, but I always wanted you.

(via queenxkimberly)