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i'm so fucking lonely

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new year, no me. *vanishes into thin air*

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why am i never good enough for anyone?

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This shit ABSOLUTELY BOGGLES MY MOTHERFUCKIN MIND

the fact that there’s people out there that go through life without feeling depressed or anxious all the time blows my mind. like what do you mean you’ve never contemplated jumping off of a roof or slitting your wrists until you bleed out????

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“how am i supposed to be ready for the future, when i am not even ready to get up in the morning?”

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I work at a daycare with infants.

One of our baby girls is fat, in the 99th percentile for her age. She is super cute and sweet. Lately, she has been sick with various breathing issues, so she has been reluctant to take her bottles. Normally, she’ll take 4 ounces of formula at lunch and 8 ounces in the afternoon. Today, I was lucky to get to her take 5 all day.

There was a substitute covering a lunch break in my classroom today. We emphasized to her that we need to keep trying to get the baby to drink her bottle until she finished it. She said, “Why are you guys so worried about taking her bottle?”

My coworker replied, “That’s where all her nutrients are. She needs the nutrients and the water.”

To which the substitute replied, “But she’s so fat. She doesn’t need it.”

Thin privilege is a small, pretty baby getting better childcare because the caretaker doesn’t think she’s too fat to be allowed to eat.

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Carrie is a champion for all, you HAVE to see her excellent work and check these tattoos out! (X)

Carrie’s Instagram

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Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

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I just want to leave like I never existed.

I don’t want anyone to remember me,

I don’t want to hurt anyone.

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The hurt of remembering. The hurt of my memories coming back to life, the ice around them melting. It’s starting to feel real, it’s starting to feel like me. Torture is all I’ve ever known and it continues to this day. My arms say everything you need to know