jinxdiary

[jinxdiary]

THE THINGS I LOVED ABOUT YOU

A list written during the relationship of a past lover ;

1. Even if you sleeping you’ll always feel like I stopped touching you and grab me

2. When you don’t think my joke is funny you kiss me on the forehead for validation

3. Telling me I’m beautiful every morning

4. How excited you get to take videos or tik toks

5. When you just want to take photos of me

6. Always wanting to put me on

7. Everything is us/we and not I/me

8. Being as sexual or trying for me

9. If anything happens in a movie that I didn’t see you will describe the scene and rewind just for me to see

10. You never go off and watch anything without the intention of restarting when I’m there

11. How you kiss me and touch me

12. How you blush and smile when you look at me

13. Random I love you’s

14. If I’m sleeping when you saw something cool you’ll save it or send it to show me when I’m up

15. How touchy and attached you are

16. You can’t do anything without me

17. When you kiss my face

18. When you talk dirty to me

19. How understanding you are of my feelings

20. How you look at me

21. I love how you let me grab and touch your bum

22. When we fight you always remain calm and listen

23. How you never want to make me feel uncomfortable or hurt me and if you do you fix it.

24. When I tell you my feelings on something you don’t fight me. You fix it

25. The way you listen

26. How observant you are of everything I like and don’t like

27. How you always ask me if what you doing feels good for me

28. I love sitting naked and talking to you

29. How normal and natural it is to speak to you about anything on my mind

30. You never make me feel awkward or weird for talking too much

31. How you always trying to push me to be better and work on things I love

32. Your smell

33. The way that you make love to me and fuck me at the same time

34. When you roll for me and not allow me to hold anything.

35. Fighting about fits

36. When you kiss my face while I’m sleeping

37. The way you hold me

38. When you use my lingo

39. How you react to things

40. When you secretly put your friends on speaker so I can hear what they saying

41. When you translate everything your friends say your native language so I’m caught up and understand.

42. The way you dance

43. When you randomly make songs about me

44. Never letting anything be left unsaid

45. How you compliment how amazing my pussy is.

46. Saying that you’ve never had a relationship or sex like this

47. How serious you are about being with me

48. How you always remind me and make sure that I know your love is real and that you only want me

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On my mind

I’ve been thinking about you day n night

You’ve always been the thing my mind likes

I even dream of you at night

Since the day I held you

You’ve taken my soul

Bearing your past and what you use to do on your lonely nights

I’ve been on your mind

You’ve been waiting for me too

You’ve always said that you loved me

But I never believed you

But I feel it now

No matter how far you are

I feel you.

I love you

Jinx

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My lover has no heart

Magic moving blood around that body

He's cool to the touch

I don't see him much

But when I do, he does nothing for me

Persona-driven pleasure

And that's how he gets around

He placed me right before the fire

But I didn't want to

I knew how quickly my skin would burn

Fire on stone versus fire on flesh

My lover wins the contest

Can you imagine trying to get

Some satisfaction out of a stone?

One would have to wait their whole life and

I resent you for that

A swing and a miss

I weighed all the risks

When I agreed to this charade in the night

My lover, the time has come

I hate to break it to you in this way

Don't ask me

Stop snooping around

Spare me any talk of your future life

I don't know what I'll do without you

Take up worship at some mile's end?

But you said betrayal and pride

And then you took your time

And now I gotta spell it out for you

O, I'll only say this once

V, I'm very sensitive

E, everything's a mess

R, I'm repenting that L 'cause, 'cause it's over

My lover, it's over because

Early is early, late is late

My lover, I got no faith

Can you imagine trying to get

Some satisfaction out of a stone?

One would have to wait their whole life and

I don't got time for that

A swing and a miss

I tried for the hit

I got my thrill

Now get me off of this ride

To you my cold

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Burn

You are imprinted in my mind

I’m fighting a war against myself to stop thinking about your eyes.

I’m fighting the urge to confess to you

I’m fighting the urge to love you

I wanna burn the thought of you out of my head forever

You weren’t good for me then and I don’t think you ever will

I want to see the fire start at the burning of you

I want to watch your body turn into nothingness

As your screams are all that’s left behind

But my mind does not want to kill you

She wants to keep you safe

You are one of my safest memories

You are my happiest memory

And why would she want to forget that?

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Don’t mourn me when I’m dead

Stop grieving my death

as soon as the gloomy sound of the church bells

stops ringing to announce my departure from this lowly world,

which is full of disgusting worms.

No, if you read this, don't think of me, since I

love you so much that I would rather be forgotten than cause you any sadness in my absence.

Oh, if, hypothetically speaking, you read this

poem when I am, for instance, surrounded by dirt,

don't even utter my name.

Instead; let your love for me perish like I have perished.

Otherwise, the living world will notice your sorrow and will taunt you with the reminder that I'm gone.

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My dream girl

I hope he ain’t treating you right

I hope you think about me on the lonely nights

I don’t want you back but I don’t want you to ever stop loving me

I don’t want you to even stop thinking about me

I want you to yearn me even if I don’t love you

I don’t want you to be happy with anyone else

Even though you’ll never be happy with me

I’m a bad person but these are my feelings

I only feel this way about you.

-jinx

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Grim

She loves me more than she loves her taken children

She holds me on the lonely nights

She kisses my lips

She takes my breath away for only seconds

Then brings me back

Kiss me again

But for longer

Until I’m in your collection of souls

I wanna be with you forever