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OC X CANON SHIPS ARE VALID AND GOOD LET US S A I L BITCH

#I won't accept defeat; OOC #all ships are good ships as long as theyre between two consenting adults

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Never you mind, silly Christ boy…  I ain’t begged you before, I ain’t gonna start begging now.

Indie selective multifandom multimuse rp blog written by Spooper, featuring Karl Heisenberg from Resident Evil: Village.  18+ only.

#behold my trash children #well okay so only half of them are on this promo but whatever #i am not leaving jiren and will still be here but heisenberg has been in my head screaming for attention for like three weeks now #so y'know if any of you are interested feel free to pop over here

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Hey y’all.  I’m still here...  Life is just dumb.

To sum up, my grandfather has been in the hospital for almost a week now.  He started at a local one, but he needs to have a procedure done that they couldn’t do at our local VA hospital, so they were going to send him to another hospital in town, but they didn’t have any beds.  So now he’s at another VA hospital four hours away...  They got him there and the doctors decided his heart wasn’t strong enough to do the procedure he needs, so they have him on meds to try to strengthen his heart so they can hopefully do the surgery, but in the meantime he’s hanging out in a hospital four hours away and still sick.  My grandmother is up there with him, and their kids have been taking turns going up for a couple days to stay with her and make sure that she’s okay and help her navigate the hospital... But this is very likely the beginning of the end for grandpa and I think we all know it.

So...  Yeah.  I’m here, just...  Lurking mostly because I’ve been in weird moods.

Of course, my weird mental state means I’ve gotten muse for like three more people, so I’m probably going to turn the Heisenberg blog I literally just built into a multi lol.

#I won't accept defeat; OOC #tw: hospitals #tw: health #i'm not the one in the hospital please don't panic if you read the tags before the post

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cursedfortune​:

“You dare order me?”

The witch would not be intimidated by his snarl, by his tantrum. This was why she was here, no? To relinquish him of this stubbornness - to empower him with all he was lacking. Like accepting aid. Connecting to others. Forging bonds.

When he built up a wall she was there to smash it down, when it seemed necessary. Her obsidian gaze could carve a planet in half as it narrowed dangerously as he used witch as an insult. Fortunately (for him) she’d let it slide for now, though it was quite clear it irked some part of her.

“No. You do deserve to be healed, mortal. Punishing yourself is not the answer.” She sternly answered. Calm but equally as fierce as his own rising temper. “You agreed to be mentored by me. This is part of it. You either try now to accept being helped or you continue being the same man that lost the tournament.” Mortem sneered as she leaned over where he laid, daring the warrior to continue acting out. “Decide which is worse.”

The thin line of his lips drew somehow more taut as she spoke, gloved hands flexing as he fought every urge commanding him to let his anger loose, to fire a blast that would leave a crater stretching for miles in every direction, to simply do whatever it took to be rid of the witch once and for all.  He could handle being taught by her, yes, but this?  Being ordered around like a common foot solder, a child who should do her bidding without question?

“I will always be the man who lost the tournament,” he spat.  “Pointless connections or not, nothing will erase my failures!  There is nothing you can offer me that will change that!”

He was locking himself into a battle of wills, and he knew it.  He didn’t know if he had the resolve to actually win, but he was going to go down swinging regardless.

#cursedfortune #Without strength we have nothing; threads #Mortem: you dare order me? #Jiren: Oh yeah? well you dare order ME?!?!?! #surprise surprise he doesn't just need help forming connections #he also needs therapy #mortem you should probably just knock him out and drag him home before this escalates into a full blown tantrum lol

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“We gaze continually at the world and it grows dull in our perceptions. Yet seen from another’s vantage point, as if new, it may still take the breath away.”

An Indie Watchmen Multimuse, featuring canon muses from the graphic novel, film, and HBO series, as well as an original character.

Promo graphic by the wonderful anacommissions 

#Strength is justice; promo #I may or may not have made the impulse decision to bring my Watchmen multi back from the dead #so if any of you are into Watchmen at all you can also catch me here now bc i have no self control

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risingsouls​:

@jiirens​ asked: “  i’m not looking for a friend.  i’m looking for someone just as angry as i am.  ” – to Vegeta (or literally whoever you would like if you aren’t feeling him atm)

Prompts for Emotionally Stunted Idiots || Open!

            “ Tch, who do you think I am? Kakarot? ”

             He relished the excitement that surged through him on the precipice of a truly worthwhile battle. Moments like this made him wonder how he ever considered giving it all up. Forsaking his title–no, his very identity–as a warrior. This. These moments. The punches thrown, the power and energy exuded to defeat an opponent. This is what he lived for.

             “ I don’t need friends, but otherwise…I’d say you came to the right place. What is it that has you so angry? Your lack of hair or your giant eyes? ”

If the insults bothered Jiren, he didn’t show it, continuing to stare steadily and calmly down at Vegeta as though he hadn’t said anything at all.

“I am not here to talk about my feelings.  I’m here to fight.  Are you interested, or not?”

He didn’t want to talk about it.  He didn’t want to think about it.  There was rage burning hot in the pit of his stomach, and all he wanted to do was punch it away.  Unfortunately, none of the Pride Troopers could keep up with him.  The warriors of Universe 7 were his best bet, and he wasn’t willing to swallow enough of his pride to seek out Son Goku.

“I will do my best not to injure you too badly,” he added as an afterthought.  Was it an attempt at kindness, or was he mocking the other, egging him on?  It was hard to say.

#risingsouls #Without strength we have nothing; threads #Jiren: *feels a feeling and wants to hit things until it goes away*

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withoutviolence​:

The weight that Gohan carried had always been so heavy. It wasn’t ever something he talked about much. Not since he was a child, at least. His childhood had ended long ago. Sometimes, if he was honest, he envied the way other kids got to grow up. Even Pan. But it was so vastly important to him to give Pan the childhood she deserved and perhaps the one she never got. 

Somewhere, deep inside, he knew that it wasn’t really his father’s fault. How were any of them supposed to know what was coming for them? How were they supposed to know that when they left the house that morning, it would be the last time they would do so as the family they had started as. 

The things Gohan saw… The things he went through. He was more than thankful for the training he received from Piccolo. Jiren was right, everything he went through had shaped him into the man he was today. But, sometimes, he still felt it all. He saw more death and destruction than a kid should ever see. He lost his own father… His mentor… His friends. So many people died around him and because of him. 

But here he was. A grown adult with a family of his own. One that he would give anything to protect, including his own life. It had been a realization that connected him even more to his father than he’d felt growing up. He understood the things his father did for him… For his family and for his friends. He only hoped that he would be half the man his father was. 

Staring off into the sunset, still thinking, Gohan nodded. It was nice, welcome even, that Jiren had simply listened. He hadn’t entirely expected him to, but it was in that response that he understood they shared a similar weight. They knew what it was to bear burdens and to lose everything. 

Gohan kept his eyes averted, still observing the sunset. When he finally spoke, he was able to breathe, the weight loosening in him if only for the moment now. “You’re right. And I found my purpose. I know why I’m here.” He paused, contemplating. “Besides… Life, everything, it doesn’t stop just because bad things happen. You have to keep going. Always.”

Life, everything, it doesn’t stop just because bad things happen.

Jiren knew that all too well.  Even as a child, when his entire world had been dropped out from under him and he had wanted nothing more than for everything around him to just stop and leave him alone with the emptiness and pain, everything and everyone else around him had just kept going.

Gicchin had given him purpose, had given him something to focus on besides the pain and loneliness that had threatened to consume him-- had given him hope that maybe things would be alright after all.  And then that had been ripped away from him too, and the few friends he had thought he had had turned their backs, and the pain and loneliness were back again.  He had embraced the negative emotions then, because honestly what other choice did he have?  He funneled them into his training, into his quest for strength, realizing more and more as time went on that this was his purpose-- to find the strength to keep going, to put one foot in front of the other over and over and over until he was certain that nothing and no one could ever take anything away from him again.

He would protect everyone and everything.  Gicchin had wanted him to become a Pride Trooper, and so that was what he had done, using every ounce of strength he could muster to ensure he was unstoppable, to guarantee that nothing would ever be taken from him again.

And it was exhausting.

“It is sometimes...  Difficult to keep going,” he said finally, after a pause that bordered on too long, forcing himself out of his own head to continue the conversation.  “But we endure, because to drop the weight we carry would bring untold consequences...  And the weight of that is far worse than simply shouldering the weight and carrying on.”

You have to keep going.  Always.

#withoutviolence #Without strength we have nothing; threads #welp there you go have this #tbh sometimes I feel like Jiren is just so goddamned tired of always having to be strong #so enjoy him being vulnerable for a lil bit bc he's determined he's with someone safe #he doesn't even realize he's trusting gohan but he is and i'm so proud i may cry

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@withoutviolence​ asked:

❝  my burdens ,  i can’t erase .   ❞

Repo! The Genetic Opera starters

It was a sentiment that Jiren knew well, even if he would typically admit that fact to no one but himself.  He knew all too well the burden that Son Gohan carried on his shoulders.  In a way, he supposed he could...  Understand.  Was this connection?

“You would not be the person you are now if the burden was not yours to bear,” he offered solemnly, avoiding eye contact with the other warrior.  “To be burdened is to have a purpose.  The heavier the burden you are forced to carry, the more strength you may draw from it.”

He wasn’t sure if the words were meant to comfort Gohan or himself more, if truth be told.

#Without strength we have nothing; threads #withoutviolence #Jiren are you.... Comforting another person? #are you trying to make a friend?

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//So...  I may or may not have had another trash child.

#I won't accept defeat; OOC #idk if any of y'all are intro resident evil or not #but if you are feel free to follow me over there too #it'll probably be pretty low activity but i've had muse for heisenberg for like 3 weeks now #bc i rewatched a re8 playthrough while i was sick

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𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒐! 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄 𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒂 𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔 .

❝   i’ve made my peace ,  i hold no grudge .   ❞ ❝  make it fast !   ❞ ❝  commence your grovelling .   ❞ ❝  i’ll keep those vultures guessing .   ❞ ❝  my legacy is too great to throw away on ingrates .   ❞ ❝  i guess i’ll take it to my death !   ❞ ❝  you never should have left me .  i would’ve given you the world .   ❞ ❝  you cannot be reckless !   ❞ ❝  no ,  i don’t think that i can be fixed .   ❞ ❝  i want to go outside .   ❞ ❝  my burdens ,  i can’t erase .   ❞ ❝  i’m the monster .  i’m the villain !   ❞ ❝  industrialization has crippled the globe .   ❞ ❝  for every market ,  a submarket grows .   ❞ ❝  it’s quick !  it’s clean !  it’s pure ,  it could change your life - rest assured .   ❞ ❝  it’s the twenty - first century cure .   ❞ ❝  what if you could have genetic perfection ?   ❞ ❝  would you change who you are ,  if you could ?   ❞ ❝  where the fuck is [ name ] ?   ❞ ❝  you ain’t got the guts !   ❞ ❝  all bark ,  but no lungs !   ❞ ❝  i can’t feel nothing at all .   ❞ ❝  sometimes ,  i wonder why they need me at all .   ❞ ❝  sometimes ,  i wonder why i even bother .   ❞ ❝  so you think you’ve got heart ?   ❞ ❝  so you think you’ve got balls ?   ❞ ❝  it’s a thankless job ,  but somebody’s got to do it .   ❞ ❝  no one ever thanks me when i’m done .   ❞ ❝  how self - absorbed people can be !   ❞ ❝  with a slice !  or a snip !  eenie - meenie - miney - mo !   ❞ ❝  can i talk to you ?  can you come down please ,  so we can speak ?   ❞ ❝  i thought i’d seen a ghost - your resemblance is striking .   ❞ ❝  state your business .   ❞ ❝  you can learn from all my failures .   ❞ ❝  i’m not supposed to talk to strangers .   ❞ ❝  don’t forget a sheltered rose needs a little room to bloom outside her bedroom .   ❞ ❝  don’t look back ‘til you’re free to chase the morning .   ❞ ❝  [ name ] ,  you’re hurting me !   ❞ ❝  can you forgive me for this ?   ❞ ❝  here’s my prognosis :  will they live ?  doubtful .   ❞ ❝  remember what you did to [ name ] .   ❞ ❝  hope you have my money .   ❞ ❝  i remember every dying whisper ,  every desperate murmur .    ❞ ❝  i’ve always longed for true affection ,  but you compare me to a corpse !   ❞ ❝  you cannot control me ,  [ name ] .   ❞ ❝  you know you want it .   ❞ ❝  didn’t i say the world was cruel ,  didn’t i ?   ❞ ❝  tell me how this happened ,  what i did wrong ?   ❞ ❝  why can’t we just go home  &  forget this dreadful night ?   ❞ ❝  didn’t you say that you were different ,  didn’t you ?   ❞ ❝  say you’re not that person ,  say it .   ❞ ❝  didn’t you say that you’d protect me ,  didn’t you ?   ❞ ❝  someone has replaced you .   ❞ ❝  sometimes i wanted to cry .   ❞ ❝  i didn’t know i love you so much .   ❞ ❝  sometimes i’d stay up all night wishing to god i was the one who died .   ❞ ❝  [ name ] ,  i will not leave you here - you will live .   ❞ ❝  we’ll always have each other in our time of need .   ❞ ❝  you’re the world to me .   ❞

#to hell with your friendship!; memes #for those who do not want soft things

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Recovering from Trauma

“I don’t feel like I survived.” “I can’t talk about it.” “I need to talk about it.” “You need to talk about this.” “You’ve experienced an unimaginable pain.” “Everyone deals with pain in their own way.” “There is no timestamp on trauma.” “There is no magic trick to get from the horror to be healed.” “Be patient with yourself.” “I need you to be patient with me.” “Real healing is hard; it doesn’t always look pretty.” “I’ll never be whole again.” “You’re here today and you’re a survivor.” “Recovery is a process; it takes time and patience.” “You need to heal from what hurt you.” “So what if it’s all in your head?” “Avoiding your triggers isn’t healing.” “As broken as you may feel, you are still so strong.” “There’s something to be said for how you hold yourself together.” “Healing doesn’t mean the pain never existed.” “Healing means that the damage no longer controls our lives.” “Trauma is a fact of life but it doesn’t have to be a life sentence.” “I can’t get the thought of out my mind; I’m having nightmares about it.” “I can’t eat; I can’t sleep.” “I’m so anxious and afraid all the time.” “You seem really on edge today.” “I don’t even remember it properly but I can’t stop thinking about it.” “You deserve peace.” “You are worthy.” “You’re allowed to talk about it, you’re allowed to struggle with it.” “You are not alone.” “What happened was not your fault and it does not define you.” “You are safe.” “Be kind with yourself; you deserve to heal and feel better.” “You’re allowed to ask for help but it’s okay to not know what you need.” “You deserve to be loved and treated well.”

#to hell with your friendship!; memes #just in case anyone wants soft things

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//if I owe any replies, please let me know! Also, if you want to start a thing, let me know.

#i won't accept defeat; ooc #I'll probably reblog a meme in a little bit but if anyone wants to plot or whatever i will around

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If I don’t win, then all my effort, all I’ve struggled to achieve, all of it will have been pointless!  

I’ll lose everything, just like I did before…  And I absolutely refuse to go through that again!

Indie RP blog for Jiren the Gray of Dragon Ball Super.  Loved by Spooper.

#Strength is justice; promo #holy fuck I'm alive

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//Update: not only am I tired, I'm also sick.

//Y'all I am so fucking tired.

#its probably viral if you get worse go get a covid test #i won't accept defeat; ooc #fuck my life honestly #went to urgent care and they were basically no help #tested me for strep and that was negative so they just said #so im at home with my friends dayquil and nyquil hating everything

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//Y'all I am so fucking tired.

#i won't accept defeat; ooc #surgery went well and we're home #but ive honestly just been vibing on the couch in between getting her meds and food and stuff #hopefully I'll have more energy tomorrow

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90's Lyrics Sentence Meme

Ambition makes you look pretty ugly.

Dear, I fear we’re facing a problem.

Do you ever get lonely playing with your toys?

For a minute there, I lost myself.

Get crazy with the cheese whiz.

I ain’t the sharpest tool in the shed.

I am not the one to sit around and be played.

I just don’t wanna miss you tonight.

I know just what you’re saying, so please stop explaining.

I need some love like I’ve never needed love before.

I promised you I’d never give up.

I say the system got you victim to your own mind.

I want to be someone else or I’ll explode.

I want you to notice when I’m not around.

I’d rather die than live without you.

I’m here to remind you of the mess you left when you went away.

I’m only happy when it’s complicated.

If you want my future, forget my past.

It’s alright to tell me what you think about me, I won’t try to argue or hold it against you.

It’s tearin’ up my heart when I’m with you but when we are apart, I feel it too.

Sometimes I give myself the creeps.

Tell me why I can’t be there where you are.

This whole damn world can fall apart.

We are two worlds apart.

What would an angel say the devil wants to know?

With the lights out, it’s less dangerous.

You can touch, you can play, if you say “I’m always yours.”

You have so many relationships in this life, only one or two will last.

You must be true to your heart.

You’re gonna be the one that saves me.

#To hell with your friendship!; memes #These look fun #time to go wash out the hair dye but i should be able to do these tonight

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“Ice cream is so good! It feels great in your mouth and it makes your tummy chilly!”

AC:NH sentence meme

He stared at the strange substance the other was holding quizzically. "So... It's cold, but what is it exactly? Is it meat? Fruit?"

#withoutviolence #Without strength we have nothing; threads #he is clueless