jestjames

[jestjames]

#musings. #sl: musings. #sl.

[jestjames]

365 DAYS OF GLEE ||| Day 130

#musings.

[jestjames]

sms: st.anderson

BLAINE: I just didn't want to surprise you.

JESSE: I think we should talk. About everything.

JESSE: We shouldn't tiptoe around each other in our own home.

JESSE: I plan on moving out soon-ish but even so. I don't think we need to manufacture more awkwardness than there already is.

#ba. #ba: sms.

[jestjames]

texts 📲 st. evans

SAM: i mean, not like.. romantically, man. i'm the kinda personality that i have to like, force myself onto people with jokes and crap before they realize i'm kinda boring

SAM: telling in a good or bad way?

SAM: i think you're right. i think words kinda fail in a situation like this, but if i've never felt anything that's not kissing kurt, there's really nothing for me to compare it to

SAM: which makes me think that kurt Has to be my soulmate, just bc that's what makes the most sense in my head

JESSE: You're hot, you're funny, and you're generous. I don't think you're going to have any trouble finding people.

JESSE: A bad way.

JESSE: I think that's the hard thing. It's easy to think you know because you have nothing to compare it to. I thought Quinn was my soulmate for two years, and it was very easy to ignore the doubt because it was all I knew.

JESSE: You and Kurt don't have a noticeable Bond yet, right?

#se. #se: sms.

[jestjames]

sms 💬 ( st. hudson. )

FINN: good for you, man.

FINN: what have you been up to lately? didn't really get to talk to you at the party.

JESSE: Mostly rehearsals, assignments, charity work, and spending time with Rachel.

JESSE: I know it's messy, but I'm pretty happy.

JESSE: Have you spoken to Santana yet?

#fh. #fh: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: k but i thinjk everyojn has made it clear 2 her that shes being a crazy bitch nd needs to stop so i think it's like SUPER ovr now

AUBREY: ✌️✌️✌️

JESSE: Let's hope so.

#aw. #aw: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: i mean... i think it's pretty solidyl ovr

AUBREY: nuh uh

AUBREY: u can tell him tht if ur so concerned

JESSE: I thought the same until Santana's party.

JESSE: Whatever. Be an asshole. That's your prerogative.

#aw. #aw: sms.

[jestjames]

sms 💬 ( st. hudson. )

FINN: right, I forgot that happened. I'm sorry about that, man.

JESSE:Yeah. At least I don't have to regret breaking up with her. Best decision of my life.

#fh. #fh: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: idk it depends on if he was a badass otherwise

AUBREY: hitting u was garbage lmao u wouldv'e been perfectly jusftief calling the cops on ehr

AUBREY: but that dosnrt suddnelhy erase her other qulaities

AUBREY: what?? drinking??? no we can def do that again. she put som uch of it on ehr tab it was great

AUBREY: if irep ly hes just gona reply again what the point? he doetnt get the hint that i dont wanbta talk apparently

JESSE: I'm not going to call the cops. I just want this situation to be over.

JESSE: Uh huh, sure.

JESSE: Just tell him you're safe and you'll talk when you're ready.

#aw. #aw: sms.

[jestjames]

sms: st.anderson

BLAINE: Hi, Jesse.

BLAINE: I just wanted to let you know that I intend on moving back to the apartment. If that's okay with you. I don't want to bother Sam and Finn for any longer than I already have.

JESSE: Hey.

JESSE: That's totally okay. It's your place, too.

#ba. #ba: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: oh so ur providing a publc service/ ? how charitabel of u

AUBREY: hitting u was outta line but she's a bad bitch otherwise.

AUBREY: wdym???????

AUBREY: thx. new york isnt the palce for me rn

AUBREY: tbh dunno if it ever was

AUBREY: i shoulda stayed in-state for school :/

AUBREY: they can go do u yoga or smth to destress it's not my business im not gonna police my feeligsn

JESSE: You're welcome.

JESSE: Would you call a guy a badass after he'd hit an ex-girlfriend in public?

JESSE: You and Quinn. I assume it was a one time thing since you've left the city now.

JESSE: Let's not get into a discussion about fate.

JESSE: You don't have to police your feelings, but you could respond to a text. Like I said. Basic human decency. Like it or not, you have a direct line to somebody else now. You can't absolve yourself and pretend you can't feel how they feel.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: good 2 know the gossiop chain never fuckign stops w u guys

AUBREY: whatever u think u know u diont

AUBREY: go fukc urself

AUBREY: nt to flex on quinn (who i lvoe) but do u think amybe the reason i left is so i wldnt make stuff worse

JESSE: Somebody has to keep track of what's going on around here.

JESSE: The gossip chain suggested to me exactly how much you love Quinn.

JESSE: Was hooking up with someone right after finding your soulmate part of not making it worse strategy?

JESSE: I will admit that you raise a valid point. I'm glad you're not taking the Quinn route. But I still think you could just let them know you're okay.

JESSE: They also feel how you feel. They'll know you're distressed and they're probably worried along with everything else.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: [READ]

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AUBREY: [READ]

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AUBREY: fuck u jesse

AUBREY: u dont know jack shit abt me or how i feel

AUBREY: i dont owe anyone anything jst bc the univeres says so

JESSE: No, you don't owe anyone anything. But you can have basic human empathy. It's not even empathy, you don't have to empathise because you can literally feel how they feel.

JESSE: It's not like you've told politely them no and then left it at that. You've told them to fuck off, run away, and then ignored their texts. You don't owe them a relationship or a wedding, but you could give them the decency of a text back to be put out of their misery.

JESSE: You don't have to make it better but you could stop making it worse.

#aw. #aw: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: do what?

JESSE: Just not care about the hurt you're inflicting. You can feel how they feel. It's not like you can just pretend that you aren't hurting someone because you can physically feel it. I don't understand how you can do that to someone and just not care.

#aw. #aw: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: lol im a fkcing delight

AUBREY: whoever they are can go do whatever lmfao

AUBREY: im not makin them do shit

JESSE: [unsent: Except bleed.]

JESSE: I honestly don't understand how you can do it.

#aw. #aw : sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: context cluez bitch. what othre core beldifs of mine do u have issues w/ lol

AUBREY: bc capitlism still suckz too

AUBREY: and celbrity culture is bad for soceity so get fucked

AUBREY: hope u step on an armyhbv of legos

AUBREY: also ftr ur hair sucks

JESSE: You're so pleasant, your soulmate is truly so lucky.

#aw. #aw: sms.

[jestjames]

text || st. weston

AUBREY: peer pressure rules

AUBREY: not true

AUBREY: sou*lmates are still bullshit lol

JESSE: So this is about soulmates?

JESSE: If I didn't know better, I'd say you've found yours.

JESSE: Congratulations!

#aw. #aw: sms.