jenanddomo

[jenanddomo]

feb 21. 2024

hiii to whoever comes across this acc! today i do a little me checkup

im still in college thx god im glad i didnt drop out

im with my amazing bf he so handsome i luv sleepin w him n talking otp w him n he so perfect our hug feels perfect

i also puttin my two weeks in at my job lol😭 i hated it i fr wouldnt be a woman no mo cuz that job is so yucky fr😞😞

i miss my long hair… idk if i ever updated when i cut my hair extremely shortshort but i regret it bc i miss my long hair cries

im so focus on gettin out of where i live , i want to move were they have mountains and beautiful site seeing:3 i wouldnt mind a city bc like u wouldnt be as bored uk bc everything is in da city

my style changed again n my music taste changed alot! lmao i do not listen to rap as much as b4 now i listen to rock,alt,punk,etc but honestly i always loved this music genre since i was a kid n the style im goin for is what i wished i had when i was a kid so thats awesome:3

my fav color is still red , i love makeup, i love clothes, im doin so well , i do get thoughts but i try to ignore it as much as i can

the past i dont really think much of it jst pops up n i have to deal w it but rn im tryin to set it aside

i love dgd:3 and kurt travis

i got a new bed finally

today i was off at work n i hate being off bc like theirs nun to do:( beside college work but i hate starin into a screen for so long

well anyways bye!!

#Spotify

[jenanddomo]

feb 10,2024

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

its been awhile since i updated this thing

so lately i won the idgaf war lol i jst do my own thing and the only thing i hate is my weight and face i jst wish i was skinny in my eyes

but overall im doing good, got my nails done today and my bf got a peso pluma haircut but he looks handsome in it:)!

[jenanddomo]

steven pov: jennas dying rn in my bed from alchoh and im taking care of her. i really hope she feels better soon cuz i wm a little worried but she was blowing bubbles with her spit so maybe i should let her go to sleep to get some rest. i love her alot i hope shes okay but she probably gets like this alot when she drinks anyways cuz shes kinda a light weight. shes fallibg askeep right now and im keeping her warm and she thinks im texting someone but im hust typing in her diary

[jenanddomo]

lala

#falling in love

[jenanddomo]

oct 26, 2023

i feel so empty lol

like i fr feel like i tried so hard for no reason

now im back at doing bad habits from b4

n i was doin good but i wasnt good enough

[jenanddomo]

sept 7, 2023

im donating plasma again lolol

but i started college :3 the work is extremely hard im lowkey mentally drained from it

but lately i been drained from everything

i go to sleep tired and wake up tired but i still do what i gotta do like , i go gym, do my work since its online but to finish one assignment it takes like 2-3 hrs mann, but im doing good i feel better i know what to do and everything i feel more confident

i love my bf so much he my pumpkin 🎃 he will be a silly pumpkin tho. like one of those giant silly shaped one idk i love him so much

my mom was sayin like are you gon be with him forever and i said yesss cause my bf is like husband material man ill do anything for him. she always tries to make fun of me everytime i hang out w him. but she said she really does like him that he a nice kid and she still call me cougar.

my whole family likes him n they call him peso pluma

they be like “wheres peso pluma!?”

i think its cutes:3!

[jenanddomo]

aug 19,2023

1:37

currently tryna donate plasma

but overall not doin the best, i feel so like idk alone igz, i hate it cause i went to a college dorm for a week and thats when my mental health went down hill

i just feel so alone and empty, i love my bf but i jst feel like he not putting the effort no more which sucks like ik he got a job and stuff so i understand that i usually do shit when he at work but after work he was like im sorry im busy, he busy playin the damn games. and whenever i try to be otp w him, he still playin w his friends n talkin to them :/ so i fr jst feel like a little side piece whenever he does that shit or he can be playin the game n not text me at all n it jst bothers me cause i dont even do that to him but idk i jst dont wan try anymore wtv happens, happens in this relationship cause it jst makes me frustrated ngl cause it not even jst him it ppl ard me sayin he doesnt love me n stuff sayin im gettin used n stuff n im jst like okay so it jst makes me overthink but

idkk i feel stupid sayin this

i also jst idk as i said i dont feel like tryin w him no more til he sees what he doin

but i also remember him saying he doesnt try as much as his first relationship which hurts me cause i feel like im tryin my hardest and he’s not uk

idkk i jst love him alot it jst the effort and tryin that bothers me i appreciate when he calls me n stuff but atp jst fckin ignore me if u gon be doin all that

idk i feel like im goin crazy ova here

[jenanddomo]

july 15,2023 8:09 pm

update

not pregnant must be sum wrong :3 i took like so many test n they all came back negative so :)

[jenanddomo]

july 15, 2023

11:30 am

im so scared, my bf and i are actually havin a really bad pregnancy scare rn. ik like we have sex safe and we do it unprotected but even then he always pulls out like alwayss.. but im not as scared too bc he said no matter what he will love me and that made me happy. like i do want kids but im not ready and as a sa victim too like i dont want my kid to be unsafe and all that. the town i live in is horrible. im not upset i might be pregnant bc ik it the consequences uk bc like psh yolo, i jst dont want my kid to have the life i did and be messed up by it. im 5 days late everyone tellin me i should wait a whole week and see but when my bf wakes up we gon go cvs n see:3. he said its all up to me and stuff sayinnhe doesnt wan ruin my future, i told him the same. im only 18 but even if im not pregnant i wonder uk! this month sucks i been more emotional but even if i was pregnant i would either be 3 weeks or 1 week cause we didnt do it as often bc i had gotten sick and all that. i really do love him n ik he loves me too. rn he asleep and he such an overthinker too but i comfort him n say its okay n stuff like we gon be okay ik it. plus the state we live in too is horrible w prolife prochoice n all that. by the time ppl find out they pregnant they cant get an abortion. my family too they all dont support abortion, which idk how like im goin to do it when i tell them i am uk. im scared but i atleast have my bf n friends to understand me. im ready for what life throws at me

[jenanddomo]

9:58 am july 12,2023

hii wassupp

i love my bf :3 he my bb my vida my everything my soul my bug. he so perfect

[jenanddomo]

6.28.23

11:39pm

hey, its been a long time since i actually put something!

lets start w love life

so i got w my bf lol in early april! he so sweet n cute. he fr has the best version of me he so lucky

the reason y i say he so lucky bc i fr try my hardest not to be ugly or mean to me, he doesn’t deserve that. me n him r doin well :) prob bc it jst the beginning still but even then i tell him everything lol , i told him my darkest secrets n stuff (i thought he was gon be a stranger) but we always havin convos. i sleep w him once a week sometimes two, he so comfortable to sleep with.! i love to be ard him, we do little cute dates n i drove us to the movies to watch elemental it was so cute! so rn thats good

i treat him super good, im super honest w him n i jst cant lie to him:( i tell him the truth eventually. i only lie to him to mes w him like sum stupidddd

but thats that

mentally

i have been doin great actually! i dont feel miserable or depressed, empty, like im so happy now! life is great, i love everyone ard me :) every1 so great their hasnt been anyone so negative uk? im also very real to myself i accepted n jst found peace within myself

so thats good

pets

my two og cats died my spooky n kingking:(

i miss them very much i miss my black n orange cat they were like ying n yang . i miss their cute little personalities they were the best

but now a general

post

lets talk abt what i think and stuff

so i moved on lol as i said i found peace within myself , lookin at the old posts,, gosh who let me cook,,, i saw old posts, messages, and everything n its so crazy how much i changed in 5 months really. lookin at how immature i was , i was so clueless and stupid and lookin back at it now it likes been there uk? it was never a good thing from the get go:) i accepted that, i also accepted i used to be a bad person to but ik i got so much better, the guy im w he makes me want to be a better person.

eating? i dont eat anymore lol, i still eat below like 1000 cals , like every 2 weeks i will eat above it butttt idk! honestly in only this month i lost 8-9 lbs:) so now im 142 yippe yayayay my goal weight is 120-130 so in total i lost 38 lbs which is crazy. when my bf met me i was above 155 so im pretty happy w that

my life been so peaceful and im jst so glad alot of ppl left my life this year before i graduated, n im thankful for those ppl too without yall i wouldnt be who i am today uk? yes i was mad, childish and everything, that part it jst sum i still need to work on bc i do have anger issues. but even then i dont like arguing anymore or jst fightin in general, yea thats what i learned what to do but its not worth it uk? on my insta reels i see some relatable posts that i relate to so much im jst like awh:3

im glad im jst not how i was before uk? rn im jst so calm, i dont feel empty no more , i actually starting to feel motivation to do sum, i want to do sum w my life and i want to help others ard me.

when it was my last day of school, it was supposed to be “sad” but i was so happy bc i donated blood n my blood helped someone:D i was so happyyy like jst helpin other ppl makes me ecstatic.

i also quit smoking so im proud of myself for that:) i do have moments where i wan do it n stuff but im like no drugs bad n the only bad thing i do is drink, but even then im trying to stop that too bc their was one week were i drank everyday but i told myself i dont wan be like my dad so i kind of stopped.

my music taste is different then it was 5 months ago.

i have 2 new cats gizmo n walter.

im jst so happy rn lol i dont know what to say:3

but im glad for what happened to me , im glad i went through stuff when i was a kid, im glad i finally even opened up abt it to someone im jst so glad everything happened bc i jst wouldnt be who i am now

i guess

im just tryin to be a bigger better person

i dont want to be childish no more i dont want to fight i dont want to hit or argue or cause shit on purpose

lately i been emotional but i think

i jst need it bc im jst so glad how open i am w all that stuff rn

i also finished king of the hill lol i dont know if i put that

#Spotify

[jenanddomo]

3.22.23

heyy,, i know i dont update, i try to not use this app to spill the most , life rn tho is like so great

me n my luver boy confessed our feelings like 3 days agoninbfckijnpersojninnmy housee!! like what i never told any1 i likebthem in person so now we just talkin but like we already did the uk 🙀!1!1! yea lately i just been yoloing life nobody controlling me no more and i feel like im actually myself uk ! so i feel likee eeverydsy im doin better uk,

weight im 149 now , im eatting pretty gooddd but my moma wantsbto send me to the doctor bc she thinks i have a ed bc i throw up everytime i eat now, its bad but fck i cant control it , but shit today was wing wednesday n omfg i fcked up those wings

im so sorry if i sound so dumb i barely woke up

my sleeping schedule been screwed by my friends n luver boy , i frr like him so much bruh like we already sleep together n cuddle n everything n then for him to be like “i like you alot” like i was just being myself n that made me cry n then he kissed my head goodnight yea i fr be living in a lil movie fr!

i sneak out now sometimes to go see him n my friends and we just go to the park or sumwhere its so dumb💀💀

also like last month was the end of my other era like

im doin better without them uk, i feel much brighter and happier, ion feel depressed or anything, i dont fight everyday,

i got a new cat

[jenanddomo]

2.22.23

hey its been awhile :)

uh may i say i feel so much happier bruh like ahhh everyone in my life rn is just the best. me n that dude we got close to the point we sneakin eachother out n just goin to get blizzards n to the park. he so kdhdjs sweet:( but my mom found out abt him n i was tryna gatekeep bruh:/ but we are just friends:) im glad we set our boundaries n he so cool bru we just match energies uk:) but alsoo like i lost 2lbs :p i nun crazy but i stopped eating n my mom starting to question if im depressed or not, but she being a total b word lately:/ bc now i dont wan hug or nun n she was like oh but u would let ur ex n im like bruh bffr i hate him.

i dont hate him but i just want to forget him bruh like he left me traumatized n shit. like i would always defend him n our toxic ass relationship n like these past days all i remember are the bad things ,that i couldn’t even remember when we were arguin.

im glad thats over, it made me miserable.

but this new era im in i love it so much ish

im happier thats forsure

but the only thing that sucks is that like

i dont eat and i have no motivation for nun n im just stuck in my room but before ill love to go out n stuff.

but uh speaking abt dude we would give him the name domo:p

well i snuck into domo house yesterday LOLOL but it was so bad we almost got caught bc his mom like came outta no where . i had to hide behind his washer n shit bruh like it was scaryy i was shitting bricks but when his mom left after ages talkin to him , his mom so sweet:( like she was wonderin where was he at n stuff n then she questioned my car n then like told him she loved himmn stuff. so then shee left n go into his room nnhe was so embarrassed but i like reassured him bruh i felt so baddd bc i just wanted a room tour :p but he showed me his dumb jerm the worm scarf💀 idk it was so dumbb

anyways idk what else to talk abt so bloop byee

[jenanddomo]

1.28.23

i miss him

he at work:(

but shawty be working out

i lost 35 lbs in total

so rn im 155

before i was 180

but im losin weight in the most unhealthy way ever

so now i have a problem with eatin , which sucks bc i just wan fuck up the food frr like i can see mcd n im like scrumptious food n then stare at it n pooke at it n wont eat it:(

i just wan eat normally bc i hate i hatetetetetetet this

i also wan get high asf

also im soooo excited me n him are going to the mercedes carnival:)

so thats cool!!!

he so handsome n sweet

we relate alottt tooo n just so much in common

idc if it work out or not

tbh im just livin life

im in peace with myself:)

yea rn im fuckin dying with the food prob bc i lost 2 lbs in 2 days:(

n im eating below 800 cals so rn

ima try to eat rnnnn

n wait for him to get out work:D

it was soo cooll thooo we was usin voice meessages n everything:) n his voice is soooo dihaisbdu hot

[jenanddomo]

1.24.23

my stomach still turns yes.

but i met someone n he so dihsia perfect he so amazing idk, i hope me n him get closer fr bc like ufgisfushsuahs hevso idhshfjd

he buff n everything n he works😁😁 like gosh idiis i wan kiss him fr mwahmwah, but im so mad bc last night i couldve gone with him at 12 am to get frappes bc we was craving it but i had tsi today:(

im so madd tf tsi had to be today

but im going to give him an origami:)

[jenanddomo]

1.19.23

today the day i finally move on. im glad he block me on here unless i did idk. i blocked him everywhere. phone number to roblox . i finally deleted every picture of us. well what used to be “us”

i actually cherish the moments we had from beginning to end. i remember when we used to send selfies to eachother n how we would fight who would do what more in the beginning. i remember just being over heels for u , i even thought we werent even gon get together or last for a month. but we grew up for basically 3 years together n saw us become adults .

it sad it had to end like this. it ended in the most heart wrenching way for me. maybe not for u. but then in a way realization hit. this was for the best.

n my gut was right. i remember the time we would just smile after every kiss we did,every hug, even dumb arguments in person we would smile. i remember our dumb inside jokes with miss ***** and dont go to the restroom youll die type beat. i remember the time in december 2019 how we huddled together to stay warm infront of the gym and we just laughed and smile abt it. the first time we kissed n u didnt realize it til i kissed u the third time n we were watching helen keller i think lol. i remember when i used to write u love notes n little drawings for u to keep. n i remember the letter u gave me n how u said u had to write a in a fancy way lol. i regret throwin that away . i only remember some of what it said.

their were up n downs, mostly down lol . but we did have alot of love to give to eachother everytime we saw eachother. i remember just loving to be in his arms n fighting over one spot on the couch just so one of us can lay. or the time ill try to be big spoon n we would just fight. or when we would be ghost together in blankets n just cuddle . i remember we woudlnt even pay attention to movies bc all we will do is make fun of eachother n focus on eachother. lol i remember pretending to be alll sad n depressed everytime he left my house.

i remember our fights . we were both so jealous. so controllin too. im sorry for being so controlling and jealous at the time. now i realize we were being dumb n we needed to trust eachother. but it all started to go downhill when we both lied to eachother.

this is my realization that the relationship was so bad. im startin to remember all the bad things me n him did. i dont wan remember bc i just regret fighting n just arguing. i regret slapping him at school. i regret just being so ugly ard him. all i ever was to be just his n just his. i fell in love so hard for him that i just wanted him n only him. even if he didnt believe me i would say it.

that was my problem, i overthought everything bc how madly in love i was . for me, he was my everything, my world, n at the time i would die for him. do anything for him, but at the same time i would atleast have control over myself n try to do wtv even tho i wouldnt let him do wtv. it so weird not talkin to guys for atleast 3 years . when i blocked him i realize i had freedom . for the first time i didnt know what to do. it like a baby comin out of a womb n just cryin n not knowin wtf to do. it was so weird first time in ever i see nothing abt, tryin so hard not to think abt him . n this week i been trying to do self care n workout but i fucked up my sleepin schedule n diet bc since i dont eat as much -below 1000 cals-

since i eat below 1000 cals i lost most of my energy n just tryna make money made it worse.

it was so weird when his bsf started to follow everything n jst like my stuff. like he a hoe no cap

but lol

idk i can’t speak on things.

i can’t speak abt this no more.

i just hope she makes him happier n not miserable like i did. n i hope he finally loves himself n do better for him. but i really hope he can be happy with n without someone n just be a better bf for someone else n hopefully learn from our mistakes.

ill like to describe this relationship as

karmic

“A karmic relationship is one that's filled with all-consuming passion but is extremely difficult to maintain,”

we loved eachother so much but our personalities were always so different eversince the beginning.

hopefully we can talk again in the future. maybe in the future ? maybe when i finally get over over u. i cant bare to see u rn bc ik ill just fall in love again , i just wan see u as sum1 i used to know.

its so funny how i tried to atleast make him jealous lolllollol :p i was so dumb n childish

i dont like nobody

i love to lie so ppl dont think im weak

i only loved him

but he doesn’t love me

anyways

im glad i didnt cry makin this post:) girlboss

hopefully i do the things i wan today bc i just got 100 bucks:) also may never post again

[jenanddomo]

fuck me all my friends have jobs which means they have no time to play toys with me and its fuycking ruining my life