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[jealous-sibling]

1/28/19 leg check 🤮

5’6. 129lbs.

im still so fat :(((( i need to lose 5 more inches on my legs and ill be happy :/

#fuck offffffffff #i hate when ppl are like #‘ugh im so fat’ #when theyre literally skinnier than thinspo

[jealous-sibling]

push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

[jealous-sibling]

Honey, honey, honey. Another snack? Another unnecessary meal? An extra slice of cheese or pat of butter? And… what’s that? A full calorie soda?? It’s like you’re new here, doll face. But it’s gonna be more like butterface if you don’t knock it off and do what you need to do. Look at all that fat. Now look at your thinspo. Now back to the fat. You see the difference?

Don’t be a fucking pig, put down the food, and don’t make me come out here again.

[jealous-sibling]

105 FOODS AND THEIR CALORIES

(I worked really really hard on this list, it was originally meant for me, but I thought it could help someone else)

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100ml Coffee…………………………0cal

100ml DietCoke……………………..0cal

100ml Tea……………………………..0cal

100ml Sparkling water…………….0cal

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100g Chard (Acelgas)……………10cal

100g Chinese cabbage…………10cal

100g Cucumber…………………….12cal

100g Celery………………………….15cal

100g Lettuce………………………..15cal

100g Radishes……………………..16cal

100g Zucchini………………………16cal

100g Tomato………………………..18cal

100g Kale…………………………….20cal

100g Asparagus…………………..20cal

100g Green peppers…………….20cal

100g Mushrooms………………….22cal

100g Spinach………………………23cal

100g Eggplant……………………..25cal

100g Cauliflower…………………..25cal

100g Cabbage……………………..25cal

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100g Setas………………………….30cal

100g Lemon/Lime…………………30cal

100g Watermelon…………………30cal

100g Strawberries………………..32cal

100g Melon………………………….35cal

100g Tangerine…………………….37cal

100g Peach…………………………40cal

100ml Milk light……………………40cal

100g Carrot…………………………42cal

100g Grapefruit……………………42cal

100g Onions………………………..42cal

100g Beetroot (betabel)……….43cal

100g Blackberry…………………..43cal

100g Plums (ciruelas)…………..46cal

100g Cranberry……………………46cal

100g Orange………………………..47cal

100g Artichokes……………………47cal

100g Clam (almeja)………………48cal

100g Pineapple……………………48cal

100g Cherries………………………50cal

100g Raspberry……………………52cal

100g Egg whites…………………..52cal

100g Green apple…………………55cal

100g Bean sprouts……………….55cal

100g Blueberry……………………..57cal

100g Pear……………………………58cal

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100g Milk…………………………….60cal

100g Kiwi…………………………….62cal

100g Yogurt…………………………63cal

100g Oysters……………………….65cal

100g Mango………………………..65cal

100g Mussels………………………68cal

100g Octopus………………………70cal

100g Grapes………………………..70cal

100ml Pink wine……………………72cal

100g Green peas………………….77cal

100g Boiled potatoes……………80cal

100g Cod (bacalao)……………..83cal

100g Pomegranate……………….83cal

100ml Red wine……………………85cal

100g Sweet corn………………….86cal

100g Lobster………………………..87cal

100g Banana……………………….90cal

100g Trout (trucha)………………92cal

100g Squid…………………………..92cal

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100g SeaBream………………….100cal

100g Turkey……………………….105cal

100g Fresh tuna………………….108cal

100g Garlic…………………………119cal

100g Crab………………………….125cal

100g Sardines…………………….140cal

100g Rabbit……………………….150cal

100g Whole eggs………………..156cal

100g Avocado…………………….160cal

100g Lentils………………………..165cal

100g Salmon………………………180cal

100ml Sparkling wine………….190cal

100g Wheat bran………………..190cal

(Feel free to add more!)

[jealous-sibling]

anti-binge guide

when you feel a craving coming on:

drink a glass or two of water, slowly

have a piece of fruit, like an apple

make some warm herbal tea with natural sweetener

go for a long walk or hike, put your earphones in and clear your head - walk with a friend if you’d prefer

if you’re still craving the food, have the tiniest bit of it, no more than a bite, and have another glass of water

distractions:

watch a long movie or start a new show

study! complete homework or begin revising for exams

write down your own thinspo imagines

do some online window shopping and look at all the outfits you want to wear at a smaller size

make your own thinspo playlist

do some yoga or meditation

things to keep in mind:

you already know what your favourite foods taste like - you don’t need to eat them again in bulk

imagine the amount of progress you’ll make tomorrow if you exercise self control right now

the shame and guilt that follows a binge is not worth it

the physical pain and exhaustion is not worth it

you’re not just affecting your weight, you’re affecting your overall health, your mental well-being, your skin

binging means you’re wasting your time when you could be doing something much more productive

[jealous-sibling]

Note to self.

[jealous-sibling]

Pretty boys don't eat.

Pretty boys don’t eat they said, so you walk around with a constant headache. Pretty boys don’t eat they said, so your face starts to hurt for no reason. Pretty boys don’t eat they said so you try to breathe between your breakfast cigarette and your lunch cigarette. Pretty boys don’t eat they said, so you run to the bathroom on any chance you get. Your body wants to clean itself from all the horrible stuff you force fed it. Pretty boys don’t eat they said, and you’re not a pretty boy, so you wonder why bother.

[jealous-sibling]

Unless you’ve experienced an eating disorder first hand, you have no freaking clue the amount of torture that is endured. It’s not chic messy buns, trendy black coffee, and politely saying “no” to a slice of pizza. It’s shaking hands from malnourishment, crying at the thought of eating a meal in front of another human being, and watching your hair fall out in clumps because bulimia has stripped you of everything from your nutrients to the long locks everyone once adored and complimented you on. You start seeing the world through fuzzy, hollowed eyes and nothing makes sense anymore. You completely lose who you are and you’re fighting a war against yourself where losing is winning and being sick feels like an accomplishment. 

[jealous-sibling]

💕Princess Bubblegum diet💕

🍬calorie intake LIMIT PER DAY

~ Monday: 600

~ Tuesday: 300

~Wednesday: 500

~ Thursday: 400

~Friday: 200

~Saturday: 300

~Sunday: 300

🥛Beverages allowed:

~ hot tea with or without cream/ milk

~ water ( duh^^)

~ hot chocolate

🍪Food allowed:

~ broth

~ fruit

~ yogurt

~ gum ( teehee)

💗A PRINCESS WOULDN’T BINGE💗

#A !! PRINCESS !!!! #WOULDNT !!!! #BINGE !!!!!

[jealous-sibling]

Ariana Grande’s Diet & Exercise Routine 🏹

♡ BREAKFAST:

- acai bowl/oatmeal with fruit (passionfruit, dragonfruit, or any tropical fruit) with a handful of raw almonds

or

- 1 of 3 smoothies including:

green smoothie:

2 cups spinach leaves, packed

1 ripe pear, peeled, cored, and chopped

15 green or red grapes

2 tablespoons chopped avocado

1 or 2 tablespoons fresh lime juice

red smoothie:

1 cup frozen raspberries

¼ cup frozen blueberries

½ orange, peeled

1 scoop vanilla pea protein powder

1 tablespoon ground flaxseeds (or whole flaxseeds, depending on your blender

white smoothie:

5 raw almonds

1 red apple

1 banana

½ cup vanilla soymilk

¼ teaspoon cinnamon

♡ LUNCH / SNACKS:

- sweet potato with cinnamon

- bell peppers

- zucchini

- spaghetti squash

- daikon root

- blueberries

- protein bars

♡ DINNER:

big plate of veggie stir fry

♡ HYDRATE:

water

coconut water

♡ STARBUCKS DRINKS:

soy lattes, refreshers, tea & lemonade.

♡ DAILY EXERCISE:

12,000 steps

ALTERNATE ONE EACH DAY:

day 1: 150 backwards lunges

day 2: 150 pike planks

day 3: 150 supermans

& repeat !

[jealous-sibling]

my friends:

me: i’m hungry i’m cold i’m tired i’m-

[jealous-sibling]

Apparently I’m not even good enough for regular anorexia so I have knockoff fatass anorexia

[jealous-sibling]

Made this 🖤🖤🖤 Starting tomorrow 🔥 Anyone wanna buddy up? 😇

[jealous-sibling]

yeah you might be tricking the dumb rich family into hiring you and each member of your family but i’ve been living in their basement/bunker for four years and control all the lights in their house. we are not the same

[jealous-sibling]

Some things I think about to motivate me when restricting:

1. How good I’ll look 2 months from now if I just stick it out

2. The time is going to pass anyway so why not spend that time improving myself

3. The food I so desperately crave will still be around once I reach my ugw

4. The! Outfits! I! Can! Finally! Wear!

5. Having people finally be attracted to me and thirsting over how good I look

6. Being able to rock cute hairstyles/colors and not being self conscious of if it’ll make my face look fat

7. Having a sharp ass jawline

8. Running my hands over my body and easily feeling my bones stick out without having to push through a layer of fat to feel them

9. To hear “have you lost weight?” And “you look so good!”

10. People will actually notice me

11. I’ll finally feel worthy of having a boyfriend/girlfriend

[jealous-sibling]

i was talking to my coworker and mentioned my gf offhand and he looks at me and goes "oh well that makes sense" and when i was like whatchu mean, he said "i hope this doesnt come out the wrong way but people of your nature tend to speak about different things than straight ppl"

"???wait what do i talk about?"

"you know. smart things."

"...are you saying straight people are stupider?"

"honestly? yeah"

and when i tell u i fucking screamed

[jealous-sibling]

’i’ll never be able to look like that’

i’ve recently been having this mindset drop. whenever i gain weight/binge/anything like that, i just automatically go into ‘’well whatever you were meant to be a fat bitch and you’ll never be able to look like that’’ -mode and it’s eating away my attempts at restricting etc. does anyone have tips for overcoming it? i’ll appreciate every response a ton!