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^ just heard someone talking trash about literary classics

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an ask request, jason in comfy clothes! jason stuck in the wayne manor cause he sprained his ankle or something. he's wearing dick's old sweater

BONUS a very tiny roy

BONUS BONUS damian wearing jason's sweater that belongs to dick

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This was a fun one, done for a fellow #mangosquad pal, J.T and D.W. at Red Robins after a night out on patrol #RedHood #Robin #dccomics #CCEE2016

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always thinking about nick robles version of Jason Todd

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Jason had a favorite perch when he was Robin. It was just a statue behind the library, with a wing you could sit under when it was raining, but Dick never paid attention to it and Tim never even knew about it, so it became his place, a symbol of his Robin. 

He didn’t think anything anyone noticed until he came back and found that the statue had been turned into a shrine to the dead Robin by the local kids

#sobbing

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Okay so I’m an actual librarian and the fucking Jason Todd one shot you just published made me giggle with delight. I love the story time idea, but I raise you: librarian reader falls asleep at desk while reading. From personal experience, book reading on your own is instant sleep mode.

- library lover 📚

asldjfaslkdf I don't have enough brewing to make a full story but:

Jason sliding in after patrol and finding you slumped over on the couch, book propped open on your chest and head tilted back against the cushions

He takes a picture of course

He gently takes the book off of and makes sure to locate your bookmark because you would cry if he lost your place

Jason makes a mental note to read the book after you so you could tell him all about it

He slides one arm over your shoulders and the other under your knee before planting a kiss to your forehead and carrying you to bed

That photo totally becomes his home screen picture despite your best efforts of deleting it

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Don’t panic babygirl,just go find Alf.

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the reason for which jason struggles with forgiving bruce specifically is because bruce is the only person he ever had so much hope in. the only person he came to truly rely on.

he has a huge heart. he forgave his parents for not being perfect and neglecting him, he forgave two-face for killing his father (and said he pitied him, even), his last act was a self-sacrificial attempt to save a woman who set him up for torture and death. he can justify nearly every offence toward himself, because he feels for people so deeply.

but perhaps part of the reason for which it came so easily to him was also that he never expected these people to do any better. he was a parentified child, and he grew up watching his neighbours slipping into the life of crime due to the flawed system. he understood survival, self-preservation, and despair. he was not always alone, he might have been loved, yet he could not rely on "charity." everyone had their own burdens. so jay, 12, already had a deep conviction that he could not be a priority for anyone, and in his books, that was okay. he still believed in the world as a whole. he just wasn't sure if anyone in this world could genuinely care for him.

and then bruce came into his life, challenging this idea. bruce chose him. bruce spent years gaining his trust, dedicated so much of his time to training him. bruce, who patiently worked through his insecurities with him in the field, who looked out for him. bruce, with whom jay spent most of his time, his world being so narrow, everything concentrating on the joy of being robin. bruce, who made him feel so protected when out fighting criminals, that jay's reaction to getting snatched and tied up the scarecrow was merely saying: batman will put you away!

and by the age of 15, jay is open to being loved and cared for. in fact, jason can't imagine not having someone to lean on anymore, to the point where a single doubt that bruce expresses leaves him petrified. maybe he never realised that he could be so greedy before, that he could crave safety so much. but that fear of losing the thing he never even suspected he could have until a couple of years before – this is what now leads him to that warehouse in ethiopia.

and even after all of that, this implicit trust is not gone. fresh out of soil, jay's first thought is that of his dad. but to discover that the world he came back into feels so unsafe, that he is so alone, makes him feel betrayed. because there was a time when bruce made him believe that he was his priority. that he was loved. that he was special. bruce was one single person in his life that he grew to have expectations of. and where is bruce now? of course he doesn't know jason is alive, but where is bruce now? why does it seem like that love never really mattered? where is bruce now?

there is, of course, a part of him that is so quick to forgive, or rather a part that doesn't even think there's any blame. but he also had expectations, expectations of no one else, expectations that his father worked so hard for. and bruce taught him how to ask for things.

so he will ask. just this once.

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jason sketch

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I’m forever in favor of him needing glasses

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what if we broke the cycle of violence and got brunch together

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“Before You Embark On A Journey Of Revenge, Dig Two Graves”. what a stupid fucking quote. I’m killing way more than two people idiot

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This is definitely colored by my own experience of domestic abuse, but while there is a case to be made about Bruce being abusive towards Jason in canon (RHATO and that super weird thing were he brought him bavk to Ethiopa...) I think of Bruce more like a failed protector or enabler. To me he iscloser to the other parent, who wasn't physically abusive, but who failed to standup for and pritect the child and neglected their needs.

I see this parallel stronger because that is typically the parent that children of abuse will still defend and still love. Explaining away why their parent couldn't have saved them and still looking fir the love and acceptance of that parent, because that was at least attainable. And Jason is always still looking for Bruce's acceptance. And when he comes back he wants the Joker dead for what he did, but he wants Bruce to finally protect Jason the way he should have. And that speaks to me.