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[itsjusta]

June 10, 2021

had a hard time sleeping again yesterdayyy uiiieee aishhh almost 2 hrs ayha ka sleep HUKHUK i woke up quarter to 11 na doooeee and then pagka 11 nag work ko remo hehe first time to work dis week doe cos na busy gyd acads man huhu i worked for 1 hr and 30 mins lang heheh then after dat i cooked my lunchhh just a fried chicken and fried rice with iced tea my favorite 😋 everyday na gyd ko ga iced tea doeee blehhh

after lunch i rested for awhile then review na dayon ko for RS exam heheh i wanna get a good score aishhh i took dayon da exam mga 2:45 and i got 47/54 😤😤 ang uban questions ambot asa gikuha ni sir uie wala man sa lesson!!! but das fine na atleast wala nilapas sa 10 ako wrong hehhe after exam nag do ko isa ka activity for philo doooeee heheh dali man ko finish and then edit2 pd sa other outputs!! my snack now just a goya chocolate and mani doeee but aish so smol but so big calories da chocolate 🤦🏻‍♀️

rest na dayon ako doeee and nag play codm wid friends from 5-6:30 ata!! bahog na dayon doggos and rest again heheh nag watch napd ko new anime nooow doeee not sa ko kdrama heheh issa i like animes nga power2 gyd doooeee

after dinner watch ko anime again and mag work unta ko doe but wala available task man!! nahutdan napd remo uiieee aishhh so nag acads nalang ko doe kato activity sa amo RS nga wala buot answer of charyll hmppfff i did na my part and also edit her part hehe wala paman ako uban groupmates hehe after dat nag edit dayon sa concept paper doooeee hehe just minor tingzzz and i made iced milo heheheh

theeen watch na dayon animeee!!! its 1 now and im so sleepy but idk maybe i’ll watch pa cos bsag sleepy ko dugay gyapon ko makatulog aish i will just make use of my time instead nga mag piyong2 lang ko BLEH I AM SMARTER THAN U IDIOT BRAIN WID SLEEPING PROBLEMS

good night doooeee thank u for always listening to my frustations hehehe im always here for u ok dont be shy to tell me things okaaay and if u need help ehhehe bye

[itsjusta]

woke up to my alarm todaaay pa alarm man ko 10:40 and grabe pko ka sleepy doeeee omg if wala ko alarm 11 kapin na gyd ko wake up!!! but im thinking na di nalang ko mag alarm oy mura man gyapon di gyapon ko katulog sayo issa mabitin pa akong tulog 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ but i worked na dayon pagka 11 doeee hehe dapat productive gyapon ko nooow!!! my first task now is to finish my part for da rrl matrix for our research heheh and mao na ako gi do hantod 3pm!!! when i finished it i also finalized my part sa rationale and so mubo raman uy so kadjot ra au nako nahuman heheh then i took da quizzz and got 10/13!!! heheh das fine na kesa 2!!!!

i did a looot doeee omggg and rest na dayon mga quarter to 4!! finally!!! i was so sleepy after doe and try ko sleep but wala gyd 🙄🙄🙄 and i got so gutom cos i only drank milktea and timing nag lugaw mommy issa mao ako snack heheh

pagka 5 pm i babath dayon doeee and aish tugnaw uie cos gkan rain but i was so kapoy to babath kanina 😴 and i feel so icky na cos wala man babath yesterday so need to babath today heheh after babath i did na dayon my chores uieee hehhe para later pag balik nako acads wala na disturbo hehe bahog nako dogs and wash sa mga hugasonon and wipe2 tables heheh then restttt

i went back to doing acads pagka 6:20 doeee heheh just smol stuff like arranging notes for tom’s rs exam huhuhu ako sila iisa sa isa ka pdf para isa ra ka ctrl f!!! but ana rba si sir do ur own research daw mi ugma unsa lugaaar!!! aishhh and so many pajd topics and readings and ipa search2 pajd mi 😤😤 i also proofread klarye’s part saamo paper hehhe das what i did then rest napd dayooon doeee hanggat dayon janica codm doeee aish play mi mga 45 mins lang hehe and nagtiwas dayon ko arrange and make notes doeee!! omgggg dapat big ko score ani kay gagmay kaykog quizzes :// while nag arrange kos notes kay nag watch ko kdrama and grabe ako cry uy kay touching kaayo ang scene huhu bleh mga 9:15 nako nag study doe heheh and i finished 10:30 so tayurd my mind module 1 is so taas one hour gyd ko there the module 2 like 10 mins lang hahahah ugma nako ato uy cos mag review man pd ko before exam heheh rest na gyd koooo!!!

after study i pahuway na doe so sakit ako likod hmpf i finished na da kdrama huhu its so nice gyd doeee maka heal au sa heart 🥺 then tiktok dayon after hehe then sleep nako pagka 12 uy cos wanna work tom morning sa remo!!! dapat productive day pd ko tom heheh

i realized so kapoy nga 4 subs amo gi take karon summer hagsgaha :’)))))) its kaya raman but daghan gyd i do sa isa ka adlaw doeee issa many hours spent gyd for acads and its kapoy HUHU but its fine doe aishhh para sa 4th year di nami ma stress ug au heheh and free nami pagka 2nd sem doeee cos wala nay thesis so internship nalang and isa ka sub!!!! omgggg!!! but maybe pd busy na sa other things like adulting stuff

good night doeee tenkyuuu cos i can rant to u when im stressed or kulbaan ehhehe i gotchu always too okay!!! goodluck sa work doeee

[itsjusta]

June 8, 2021

soooo dugay ko ka sleep gabii huhuhu sleepy nako since 6pm and 12 kapin baya ko nag sleep but 3 kapin nako ka sleep doe 😭 nag mata man ko mga 1:30 and nag phone 20 mins then sleep again tas aishhh mga quarter to 4 na gyd ko ka sleep dayon huhu balhin pa gyd ko cos idiot dogs again being so saba!!

wake up at 10:30 todaaay cos nag alarm man ko heheh i slept man sa pikas room so i transferred back sa kwarto doeee and prepared my iced coffee cos mag meet mi research group pagka 11!! hehe we met na dayon doeee and it was a productive meeting doeee heheh naka decide nami mag quantitative doeee and nag start napd find rrl and discuss some things and assign tasks hehe cos pasa nami concept paper next week for prelims!! mao na ako gi do until 1 doeee then klase dayon philo pagka 1:30-3 heheh busy aya!!! after dat issa rest dayon doeee just watch2 kdrama and played codm wid friends hehehe then pagka 5 nag quiz ko rs and u know na about how i was so scared about dis huhu and mag reply na unta sir ugma uy cos if di sya sugot doe 2/13 ra gyd ko 😭😭😭😭😭 and i felt so heavy gyd so cry ko a little like 5 tears tulo hehe and i just relax for awhile doeee and then bahog dogs and eat dinner!! after dat i went to work naaa for the filipino cos grabe nag awas2 ang mga gawain aish 3 ka tasks now pa giupload and dl na on sunday 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ so i finished it all today hehehehe

tom dapat mahuman nako sa 2 ka rrl for research and then study for rs exam!!! mag study na gyd ko!!!!!

i got done working 10 kapin na uie so tayurd koooo then watch ko kadjot kdrama and played codm again wid janica and chanlerrr hahahah then tiktok2 hantod 1 am na omg time to sleep wish me luck na maka sleep dali 😭😭

good night doeee im sowiii i vent to u again kanina when i was stressed 😭😭 but thank u doeee cos u always calm me down and not get anger at my idiotness 🥺🥺🥺 i gotchu always too okay!!!

[itsjusta]

June 7, 2021

Today was busy doeee aishhh late napd ko kamata uie 🤦🏻‍♀️ na push back na gyd akong ting mata doe tig 11 naman nuon uyyy and ion like it cos gusto ko start nako work pagka 11!!! maybe alarm nalang ko sunod 10:30 heheh nadisturbo pajd ako sleep doe kay grabe ka saba ang iro saamo silingan!!! like buntag pa gyd kaayo sayo naa 2 dogs nga sgeg awhag nga dugay kaayoooo nihunong 😭 may gani ka sleep rko again huhu (update: ingon mommy nigawas diay sya ganina morning doe cos abi niya gibyaan ang dogs btaw kay sge awhag but aishhh ang big dog diay doe kay saamo silingan nya naay smol dog nga stray nga ga atbang saiya busa sge silag inawhagay idiots 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️)

i had my iced coffee to start my day doee then i proofread my position paper sa fil and forum post sa rs hehe kay ako na sila pasa nooow and im kulbaan pjd nga basin mali ni akong rs!! kay mag post mi about violations of human dignity tas ako gipasa kay kato ako gimake for u sauna ba nga police brutality but more on human rights man to but connected man sila aish basin smol ko score ani pero bahala na si sir uy heheh

after dat had lunch doee then acads napd again amo gihuman isa ka group activity with claire and aljane for philo hehe and na finish namo 2:30 and diretso nako pass uy hehehe tas aishhh naa diay klase RS doeee wala mi kabalo kay sa hapon na na post and di baya na nahan si sir ug late nakasulod mi 2:30 gyd sirado!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️ very clutch!!!! ehhehe had class until 3:45 doeee so kapooy and init au huhuhu after dat i took a babath doeee and relax sako uiiieee maybe taman 6 rapd cos mag remo ko HUHUHU naa pajd ko atiman kadjot sa xups but igo lang man nako inform ako assoc head about stuff hehe nakig dula ko codm uban nila abdul and janica mga 2 games lang doeee and omg timing pagka finish nako dula nag chat dayon amo classmate sa 1st sem nga naa na grades sa psy 12!!!!!! KULBAAN KAAYO KOOOO DOOOOEEE 😭😭😭

dali2 ko go slmis and HUHUHUHUHU I GOT A 😭😭😭 92.17 AKONG GRADO NAKATUNGTONG GYD TAWOOONNN YEHEEEY MAKA 3.8 PA ATA KO EHHEHEHEH so i went to da silingan buy ko milktea and tempura heheheh i was duha2 paman ganina to buy cos want ko shawarma also but aish buy nko now uyyy ehhehe yeheeey i got A 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 but also!!! need to not gasto na cos wala nako money hmpf but i received man 100 from u dis is ur libre heheheh tenkyuuu 🥺

and alsooo da past week doe kay di na kyo ko ga gutomon sa hapon doeee like usahay mag snack ko kay 5pm na gyddd and aish ako baya sched sa snack kay 3:30!! but still ga snack gyapon so wala man difference uy aishhh i remo na dayon doeee and did another course but aish i already told u na it got laaag so maybe tom nalang again hehe and grabe pd ko ka sleepy doe sukad 6pm hantod nag gabii na wala nawala aishhh sleep ko early now hehehe watch dayon ko kdrama the rest of the night doeee!! mag take unta ko quiz but super sleepy uyyy 😭😭😭 and hapit na nako mahuman da kdrama last 3 eps omggg i can finish dis tom hehehhe its 12:15 now and mag sleep nako hheheh so early ryttt!!!!

good night doeee thank u for being supportive!!!! im always here to support u too!!!! aish we can do dis summer term!!! heheheh good luck sa work ugmaaa

also!!! remind me to text da dentist!!! i wore my dentures after 2 days and its better na not super painful but aishhh

[itsjusta]

June 6, 2021

woke up so late today doeee cos grabe sd ko kadugay katulog gabii 5 am na 🙄🙄 grabe to ka stressful doeee issa 3 hrs gyd ko nag try ug sleep and sometimes ako na pull ako hair and gusto nako ibton ako brain uy para dili na sge think and maka sleep na aishhh!!!! nag melatonin pa gyd ko but i think nasamotan ra gyd huhu not nako drink again dat melatonin scared nako 😤😤😤

da weather is nice today doeee cos ulan2 and may gani no acads para relax lang heheh just spent the afternoon relaxing doeee and pagka 4:30 i started to work na cos need to work para naa money!!! hehehe my cute income from remo aishhh 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ also got busy looking for other sites doee and daghan2 ko na try but idk uy wala ko sabot ato nila i think need pa i approve application so wait nalang ko and i will tell u ok hehehe

i didnt want to cry again today doeee but tiktok making me emotional :(( many au couple vids doeee and omggg happy au sila tan awon makasuya huuuhhhh!!!! 🥺 but aish im contented with how i am today but hdgahdga its so nice gyd to be inlove uie aish puhon2!!!! naka see pd ko isa ka tiktok nga “drop ur longest relationship and how u broke up” like dat and nag basa2 man gyd ko sa comments busa ka cry ko uiieee cos aish ka remember na nuon ko sa ato break up!!!! and aiiiishhh naa nag comment there nga nag beg daw iya ex nga i let go na sya and i remember that u also begged me doeee and aishhh dat was so sakit gyd doe cos i know i have no choice but to let u go gyd :((( and aish why im crying a lot napd uie idiottttt dapat not nako sgeg tan aw2 ug mga inani hahah das why if makauyab btaw ko again and mag buwag mi i hope bad break up nalang doe kay feel nko mas dili sakit HAHHAHAH grrr

update: its 11:41 and gkan kos tiktok and nasakitan nsad ko huh!!!!!! kaning song nga “i guess you look happier you do, my friends told me one day i’ll feel it too” 🤡🤡 AISH RELATE AF ANSAKET SAKET HUH!!!!! BUT NOT KO GUSTO CRY BUSA EXIT KO DIRETSO AISHHHHH TIKTOK MAPANAKET 😢😢😢

i spent the whole night watching kdrama doeee nice mani ako giwatch doeee grabe ka heartwarming 🥺🥺🥺 issa 18 again ang title and about sya sa isa ka dad nga nibalik pagka 18 doeee tas dili man nice iya relationship saiya wife and kids doe tas pag balik niyag 18 kay gi use niya ang chance nga makipag friends saiya kids and saiya wife :((( and aishhh so touching doeee cos makita gyd iya regrets huhuhu das ol lang

and before i slept issa lablab ko wid the two pangets here doeeee hehehe manya man mi sa each other!!

good night doeee always here for u!!! lets find jobs na ok!!!

[itsjusta]

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[itsjusta]

June 5, 2021

I woke up almost 11 na gyd today doeee i had a long sleep cos dali raman ko katulog gabii doeee hehe 2 asleep na ata ko but my head was not feeling when i woke up doeee idk why aishhh das why i was not in da mood to work 🤦🏻‍♀️ and mag acads unta ko pagka 11 uie cos naa ko humanon isa ka activity sa philo then mag remo dayon but my mind and body not in the right mood ehhehe so i just rested doeee and then had lunchhh mom cooked yummy crispy lechon kawala cos i requested man heheh then i stayed in my old room and just scroll2 sa tiktok doeee!! wala ko watch kdrama cos ion know what to watch 🤦🏻‍♀️ i didnt tiwas na gyd what i watched gabii cos bleh pangit sila man heheh nag nap dayon ko pagka 3 doe and i think naka sleep ko mga 30-40 mins doeee tas when i woke up so sleepy pko but cannot sleep na hehe so i took a bath na doeee para ma refresh ko heheh then ordered chingkee!!! hehhe dis my snack langgg todayyy

pagka 6 i bahog na the dogs doeee and i proceeded to remo naaa hehe 30 tasks lang ako goal and mga 1 hour na doee or like 1 hour and 15 mins nga work hehhe i will work bahala kapoy cos need money bahala ginagmay lang heheh anddd while taking a break from work my emotions got triggered doeee 👁👄👁 aishhh i saw lang something then my fault man pd uy tas i tried so hard gyd not to cry doeee but ka cry ko uyyyy :((( i felt very sad doeee and i went to bed and cried cos aishhh dis healing process is taking so long doeee and its really up and down but when there are times na like ma sampal ko sa reality aish maka cry gyd ko doeee hagshashgsha 😭 i just want to be happy lang gyd doeee and ion wanna be sad whenever maka see ko ug things or maka remember ko ug things lyk dat btaaaw i want to be happy lang uiiieee but then again its my fault man pd also cos im letting my mind wander hahah ako nalang try butterfly method doe like i close nimo imo eyes and cross arms tas i tap nimo imo shoulders but naka cry ko samot uyyyy wala buooot ahahah i just wish the world will reward me with happiness soon doeee 🥺 bahala dili happiness sa lovelife but just life or career lang doeee but i hope lovelife also!!!! wanna be happy and inspired na i want to feel loved again doeee now i feel like an idiot hahah and u know i like gyd having someone to talk to always and i like lambinging someone and also being lambing but now i dont have someone to do dat wid doeee its so mingaw hahah so excited to graduate gyd doeee wanna leave cdo i hope maka leave gyd ko uy bahala to a different city lang 😩🤞🏼

but nevertheless, to make myself better, i will think nalang of what i have achieved this week doeee ion want nga tungod lang naka cry napd ko becos of dat i will be sad na cos this week, i was productive sa remo doeee and sa acads and yesterday and today i had less than 1000 calories!!! heheh those are achievements na uie and aishhhh dapat not na nako down ako self tungod kay nag emote ko HMPF NO NA AYA!!! but aish bleh its okay to cry doe im still affected by things paman gyd :((( and i hope i will feel better later pag sleep doe dont wanna cry again 😭

the rest of the night i watched kdrama doeee hehe and alsooo after i cried diay kay nibalik ko remo and naka do ko 40 which is higher than my goal hehe aishhh negativity and sadness go away pleaseeee i hate feeling sad and crying doeee 😭😭😭 bsag unsa nalang ako ma think and i think lowly of myself gyd basta mag maoy2 na dayon ko ☹️☹️☹️ anywaaay im so proud of u doeee cos daghan na kaayo ka money sauna dream2 paka maka get inana nga money now its a reality naaa heheh continue to work hard okaaay cos many pa kyka maabot doeee and i will always be proud of u gyddd sa tanan nimo ma achieve heheh ibog ko huuuh but das fine puhon2 bawi rakog save pag naa najd big incomeee hhehhe cos now nag huna2 ko ganina if work ko 10 hrs a week das like 450 doeee and in a month maka get ko 1800!!! so cute rytttt 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

good night doeee im happy for uuuu and continue living a happy life doeee heheh

[itsjusta]

June 4, 2021

i woke up at 10:09 today doe and my alarm was 10:10 omg my body knows huuuh!!! hehe i had dayon iced coffee doe while attend ko class pagka 10:30 heheh i was kulbaan to speak uie but it went good doe and chill raman au si maam cha and my classmates pd hehhe after dat issa wala nakoy gi do doeee kay grabe jd ko ka sleepyyy huhuhu nag go ko old room doe cos igang in my room and nag try ko sleep 12 kapin i think i slept mga 15 mins lang?? 😢 huhu and grabeee gyd ko ka sleepy tibuok hapon doeeee and sge ko try2 ug sleep piyong2 but aishhh dili gyd doeee 😭😭😭😭 and it makes me so tired if not ko makasleep imbis sleepy kyko huhu nanghanggat man dayon codm si janica and kyla pagka 4 doeee so we played nalanggg 1 hour kapin para pd mawala ako pagka sleepy heheh

but after codm sleepy gyapon ko uie aishhhh das why i took a half bath nalangggg and then remo na dayon cos wa gyd koy gibuhat today 😤😤😤 30 tasks raman unta ako goal but i did 50 yeheeey heheheh then after work nag codm napd mi again ni janica kyla and abdul doeee hehe we played 9-10:30 aish idjot friends!!!

after codm issa kdrama time na dayooon but ion like what im watching now doe cos ganahan kyko sa second lead so gwapo and ganahan ko saiya personality doeee and ion like to finish it cos di gyapon sya ang pilion sa girl :((( and di ko ganahan sa lead nga laki doe cos mura robot wala emotions doeee!!!! grrrr busa nag stop ko watch doeee hahahaha but nag tiktok pa dayon ko mga 1 hour kapin so its 1 na now bleh and y head starting to hurt na need to sleep na ehheheh tomorrow dapat work ko but 1 hour lang doe hehe tayurd man koooo!!!

i hope u will not feel sick na tom doeeee have a fun saturdayyy!!!! 🤗

[itsjusta]

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[itsjusta]

June 3, 2021

quarter to 11 nako ka wake up today doeee and mayra pd cos 3 naman ko ka sleep 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ 1 nag piyong2 naman ko doe but idk wid dis idiot brain gyd doeee active kaayo basta tingtulog na doe and ion sleep raba gyd in da hapon but so hard for me to sleep at night aishhh im jealous of people like u na sleep at hapon tas sayo ka sleep sa gabii :(((

i rest lang dayon for around 45 mins doe then pagka 11:30 nag work nko heheh remo againnn!!!! and until 1:15 ko work doeee do ko 35 tasks hehe wanna do 50 today so maybe tiwas ko unya gabii hehe nibaba pajd ako accuracy imbis 100 to na 87 nalang now idjooot hahahshhsha and i was so sleepy gyd doe pagka 1:30 and ka absenton kyko sa RS and nag b-out pajd so ka absent gyd ko!!! hehehe no na school cos late nako scared ko suko sir but wala nako attendance aishhhh but das fineeee

pagka 3:30 doe nag cook ko meal sa dogs aish ako na gyd ni work doe and its so kapoy gydddd huhuhu da squash so gahi and hard to panit 😭😭😭 i gamit a sundang to divide the big squash issa there ko sa semento sa gawas issa dali ra na gamay2!!! ehhehe but still so hard to panit doeee making me singot huhu igang raba gyd au doeee my lolok always singoting!!! i then attended fil pagka 4:30 hehe and i like our teacher cos so bubbly and cute doeee heheh take dayon quiz nga na wrongan ko isa HMPFPFPFPD 😭 and bahog na dayon dodogs and aish im so kapoy uiiieee!!!!! and grabe gyd ka igang doeeee as innn issa ga topless rako here sa room!!!

and u knooow wa na baya nko gi wear ako dentures since gitanggal nko yesterday cos gahapon pag suot nako grabe ka sakit doeee hapit ko kahilak huhuhu but nag class man mi and mag introduce sa self so gi wear nako again and sakit gyapon kaayo doeee wthhhh 😭😭😭😭 issa pirme man gd maigo ang isa ka part sa gums sa front teeth doeee wth doc 😭😭 my previous dentures walay inani doee busa di gyd to sakit itaod huhuhu karon kay murag gahubag na ako gums sakit au itanggal and taod huhu so maybe di sa nako pirme tanggalon and taod doe ipa heal sa ni nako :(((( but if not gyd ma okay i will pa adjust na this uiiieeee

at night tan awa rako kdrama doeee new naman pd ni heheh and nag play ko codm mga 2 hrs with my friends hehehe then binge watch kdrama again omg why i always watch na kdrama every night and hantod kadlawon na doeeee huhuhu its almost 1:30 now and i hipos na everything and will sleep naaa i hope dali rako ka sleep uie cos have to mata at 10 tom!!! wish me luuuck sa ako pag present sa topic namo heheh

thank u for everything doeee and so hardworking na gyd ka now doeee tell me ok how rev is hehhe maybe try pd ko again ana cos i think naka try na gyd ko ana before heheh babyeee

[itsjusta]

June 2, 2021

woke up at 10 today and maka sleep pa unta ko longer pero ga sunod-sunod ang mga ga ayo kanang mga ga ask if magpabasok btaw mi huhuhu and its so samok gyd doe cos dugay kaayo na sila gaundang and very loud voices 😭😭😭 gusto nako put signage there nga dili mag ayo if dili important cos disturbing my sleep man :((((

after i woke up issa relax2 lang ko doeee but mga 11 i bakod na and had my iced coffee cos gonna do my position paper for fil todayy hehehe and i worked na on dat doeee tas pagka 12:30 das when i went to da kitchen and got sapot 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ and i dropped pajd my cheese sandwich 2 pajd kabuok huhu sapot ko samot uiiieee ako throw man sa trashcan cos didto natagak sa basa nga part sa tiles :/// and i cried dayon cos i got so frustrated doeee huhu ion like gyd hugaw doe labaw na ang kitchen it makes me so stressed gyd huhu das why i wanna live alone na gyd doeee para clean ko smol space lang and wala jd lain hugaw2!!! cos so samok doeee na ikaw clean and lain mag hugaw2 grrrr

after i cried i worked back sa ako position paper doeee hehhe and i finished it yeheey but need pa to proofread that maybe tomorrow na cos monday paman deadline heheh i then made another cheese sandwich but one nalang cos mao nalang nabilin bread hmpf and then took a babath hehe momot nako doeee!!! the rest of the afternoon just chill2 lang doe and eat snacks heheh and then pagka 6pm ata to i started na watching kdrama lahos na ala una bleh!!!! but aishhh ako gina watch kay ongoing pa doeee need to huwat episodes again 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ after pa dayon kdrama di pako sleepy so nag social media napd doeee hehehe tig 2 na gyd ko sleep uyyy :(((

alsooo nag backread ko saato convo doeee sa messenger like i tan aw lang ur bday greetings to me da previous years hehe we so cute sauna doeee very inlove and happy and just enjoying lang gyd our relationship hehe and i also saw my greeting to u last year and aishhh ka cry ko doe cos nag send ka vid ato nga ga cry doe 🥺 ako play and ka cry ko :((( the break up was so fresh pa ato and ma feel nako ang love and pain sa ato mga chats doeee :((( and now a year later u have been healed and you’re now very happy naaaa i’m so happy for u doe 🥺 i dont see pics or vids of u and ur gf but i know nga happy gyd ka doeee hehe i avoid looking at things lyk dat man but i know ure happyyy hehe last year i know it was very painful for u also but now just be happy na okaaay heheh me also im better naman pd just not like u lang gyd na happy heheh but das fineee hehehe

we walk very different paths na gyd in life now doeee and i think we will walk further away na if mugraduate nata doeee aishhh asa kaha ta ipang put uiiieee hehe but i’m still always a chat away okay!!! even if wala nako cdo or pinas just call me doeee if u have problems or if u want to share something or if u just want to talk to me!!!! ok!!!!

good night doeee good luck sa work and have fun!

[itsjusta]

morning cuddles!!

[itsjusta]

June 1, 2021

dugay napd au ko ka sleep gabii huhu slept at 1 but daghan kaayo gi huna2 doe grabe ka active ako mind huhu 2:30 na guro ka sleep or almost 3 na gyd huhuhhu and my tulog was putol2 doeee cos daghan kayo saba pagka morning huhuhu i woke up 10:30 na and diretso dayon meeting with thesis group doeee heheh nahuman mi 12 na doe but atleast naka come up nami topic hehehe

i feel so tired today doe and sakit au ako back pa gyddd aishhh but ako goal now kay maka write isa ka forum and start sa position paper but i think forum ra ako ma do heheh cos so tayurddd and da weather is niceee hehhee also got a little disappointed wid myself today cos i fed my addiction!!! i read man in a post sauna pa na everytime daw u look at their social media, look if they’re online or not, you’re feeding your addiction to them and i try so hard gyd not to feed mine doeee but now i fed it!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 i also let myself think of things doeee and ion like it cos it makes me feel bad i scolded myself uyyy but dapat not nako upset cos i’ve been better naman pd at not feeding my addiction doeee hehe just sumtyms idiot hands lihoking on their own!! 🤦🏻‍♀️

thank u forrr calling meee yehey issa nakantahan tka happy birthdayyy 🥺🥺🥺 heheh im sowi always ko so hard to call bleh dis house man!!! u text or chat me doeee basta hard to call ko para maka go ko outside heheh

i just feel so tired today doe and same as always i feel so samok cos sleepy but not maka sleep and it makes me tired and feel bad doe but ion know what to wid dis but to just tiis it but im kapoy with my sleeping problems gyd hmmppp in da hapon i atiman some acads but smol lang uie dapat tom maka finish ko position paper cos wanna get done wid dis na hehe i then watch2 kdrama and also got busy with the prulife meeting!! u get na ur insurance here also okay!!!! dont delay naaa!!! aishhh

after dat i played codm with friends doeee heheh just 3 gamesss and it was nice hehhe then spent the rest of the night watching kdrama hehe im going to sleep at 2am today blepblop

habaduuu again idiooot chipmunk!!!! when man ka maka visit uy hatag na gyd ni nako sa lain imo gift 😤😤😤 enjoy ur day off amping pleaseeee

[itsjusta]

May 31, 2021

dugay kayko ka sleep gabii doeee aishhh 12:15 nag sleep nako but ala una na gyapon ko ka sleep cos so active ako mind think2 ko about my future 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ and ako na sya scold cos labad na au ako head want to sleep na but very badlungon mind!!!!

daghan kyko damgo napd doeee huhu scary au ang first oneeee like naay tao nga ga transform into like a bat but scarier ang ichura mura chanak and gakakita daw nako sya doeee like gapakita sya saako kanang mag sleep ko and ga text sya saako kay gusto ko niya kwaon doeee 😭 and scary gyd au to grabe ako hilaka sa ako damgo huhuhu and then sunod napd nag grocery daw mi ni kyla doeeee sa mall man to and buy sya meds and iya gi malditahan kyla issa nisukol ko doeee hahahahhaah ako sya tubag doeee and nag lalis mi!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️ after dat meet up mi janica jhenize and juna tas nag buy ug food doeee aishh idjot damgo uiiieee heheh and my last damgo pa kay nag trabaho ko ila dogie nga bootcamp HAHSHAHA gikuha ko mura treasurer doeee idioooottt wala buot 🤦🏻‍♀️ i woke up 10 na doe so busy ko sa ako damgo but ion like it cos gusto ko deep sleep doe huhu kana no damgo

and many pa gyd kaayo ga ayo doeee huhu disturb au but di ko gagawas so sleepy kooo!!! and maybe sa silingan rapd to aish

i was so luya in da morning doeee dugay au ko bakod but i forced myself to bakod at 11:30 and nag read ko 3 ka lessons doeee just read2 not man study gyddd heheh i was not in da mood to eat rice so i only ate bread doeee hehe and iced coffee!! then had babath tapos class at 1:30 heheh after da class i was so sleepyyy and i took melatonin but naka sleep ko murag 20 mins raman guro uy 🤦🏻‍♀️ and so sleepy gyd ko after doeee i was so luya to get snacks gani but i also pugos myself to bakod mga 5 heheh i ate bread with egg!! heheh

at 6 pm i worked at remo agaaaain cos wala man ko doooo but mga 1 hr and 10 mins lang doeee and i did 30 na so i stopped na hehhe mga 70 na unta ni uy huhuhu

the rest of the night i spent lang watch2 kdrama doeee heheh and happy bday idiooottt its 12 nooow and i said na everything in da letter heheh i just wrote that a few hours before ur bdaaay doeee hehe enjoy tomorrow okaaay!!! i wish i could be there but aishhh das not pwede doee hehe so i will be here celebrating with u lang doe heheh im very happy for everything and everyone u have now 🥺 i just wish u happiness lang gyd uiiieee and success 🥺🥺🥺 see u soon doeee and amping always pls!!!! know that even when the world turns its back at you, i will always be here to have your back doe.

may has been fast lang doeee i remember the first week was hard doeee i had a lot of bad days and cried a looot but i also got to spend a lot of time with friends dis monthhh ehhe and im welcoming june with a happy heart because the first day is ur bdayyy doeeee 🤗🤗🤗 hehhe let’s wish for a happy and productive june!!!

[itsjusta]

very corny ang music pero bleh :P HBD!!!!!

recycle na tanan clips cos we dont have new ones naman duuuh

[itsjusta]

Happy birthday, idiot.

I’ve witnessed and been with you for four of your birthdays although for the last two, friends nalang ta. But that’s fine because I’m happy to see you celebrate another year and I wish that you celebrate more birthdays even if one day, I will only be a distant friend.

Thank you for letting me stay in your life and thank you also for staying in mine. The past year has been tough and complicated but we’ve both remained strong. Thank you because a year ago, you chose yourself over me. Thank you for choosing yourself because now you’ve found happiness again and I’m very happy for you. You know that I only have the best intentions and wishes for you. And you know that I’ll always cherish you because you are my bestfriend!!!

You are such a blessing to everyone around you. To your family, your girlfriend, your friends, and to me. I know these people are very happy to have you and that you’re also happy to have them. I hope that you’re living a good and happy life now because that’s all I want for you and I hope God gives that to you. May He bless you with more moments with the people you love and may He give you happiness above everything. I pray that you become successful and that you can achieve your dreams. I hope you become rich and live a good life! And I hope that God blesses you with more people who will love you and support you. When I will be gone soon, I know God will replace me with more people that will also cherish you. And I hope that these people can equal the love and support I have for you but I think not :P

You have been such a blessing to me. The past years of my life with you were the happiest and I’m glad that I got to spend them with you. You know how much you made happy and I will always tell you that you are an amazing person. I will always look up to you because you are so strong and you know when to let go and I wish I was as strong as you 😂

I know the past year has been very hard and I’m sorry if I made you feel negative feelings. I’m very thankful that you made me stay, but I’m also sorry for staying because I think your life would be much simpler if I did not stay. Who knows, maybe I’ll be strong enough in the next months or maybe in a year?!?! 😂😂 But I hope that when I become strong enough, you will still view me as a friend. And I will always be a friend who will listen to you, support you, and comfort you. Because I made a promise that I will love you always and forever and I’m not going to break that. I will always have love for you and a part of me will always be yours.

Sorry that this letter is so long 😂😂😂 This may be the last birthday that I can give u letters like this so i will sulit it na!!!! Don’t cry na okay be happy becos u are 22 na <333

Enjoy your birthday with your family and your gf and your friends! 🥰

- a

[itsjusta]

May 30, 2021

u were in my damgo today doeeee nag visit daw ka sa house and naa ako whole family!! maypa sa ako damgo visit ka huuuh heheh

so nice the weather todaaay doeee no inittt but dapat not na rain hard cos hassle and luoy many people uy!!! i woke up almost 10 na doeee and i started remo 10:45 and i finished mga 1:30 hehe but break2 in between issa just want to get atleast 150 uyyy huhuhu no money naman ko!!

after daaat issa relax na ako doeee i wanted to sleep but di man ko ka sleep uy 🤦🏻‍♀️ so nice gyd weather doeee and my mood is nice nooow! issa i feel so contented todaaay doeee like idkkkk my life is mingaw and wala gyd koy ka storya doe ga storya man ta but not baya always and sometimes i get so bored with that but now im happy doeee with where i am 🥰 im just enjoying my day doeee and having all the time to myselfff just resting and watching movies and series heheh i like the peace and loneliness today doeee! i may not be inlove and happy with someone and i always get bored but das fineee hahaha after college and after covid i will go out and explore and bawi the 2 years na so mingaw ako life!!!! hehehe i like good days like this doeee i want to have more but i also know that i cant always have good days cos aishh bad days are inevitable!!! and das fineee i just need to survive bad days!!!!

da rest of my hapon just relax doeeee i ate like mashed kamote with butter and condense btaw mommy made man hehe and also noodles!! and gihatdan pajd mi nang consep ug macaroni omggg she making me lapas calories 🤦🏻‍♀️ but aish kapoy na dayon ko cos lung ag pako bahog dogs and cook sko sud an huhuhu tayurd aya!!!! i also cooked na apil ugma lunch doe kay basin kapoyon ko mag cook hehehe

after dinner watch lang ako kdrama doeee and nilabad gyd samot ako head uy kato gikapoy ko ganina huhu sayo ko sleep now 12 palang sleep nako!!! hehehe cry man ko kanina sa kdrama nga ako watch uy kay na dead iya mom 😭😭😭 but also kilig cos bagay au sila man uyyy ehheh but aish my head hurts a lot na good night!!!! work well and im always here for u!!! 🥰 almost naka 22 omg so old!!!! bleh