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this frame from the fallout tv show is so funny i nearly puked watching it

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we dont even get 9/11 off of work. like i guess you were never THAT sad about it

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There’s a fic on fanfiction(.)net that I’ve kept tabs on for years to see if it’s been updated or not. While I’m no longer even in the fandom it’s written for, it just has one of the greatest storylines I’ve ever read. Last time it was updated was 2011.

The other day, I decided to reread the entire thing and leave a very in-depth review of what I thought of each chapter. I also mentioned how I started reading it when I was 13 and am now 21, but always came back to see if it was ever finished because I loved it so dearly.

Today, said author sent me a private message saying that her analytics showed that the story was still getting views even after all these years, but no one ever bothered to leave reviews other than “update soon!!!”, so she never felt motivated enough to finish it. She said that me reviewing every single chapter with lengthy paragraphs made her cry and meant the world to her. She also mentioned that she felt encouraged to write the two remaining chapters needed to complete the story and that she would send me a message the night before she updates the fic.

I’m literally sobbing. I’m so excited :’)

Please always remember to leave a review when reading fanfiction!!! It means a lot to a writer.

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well, i suppose i did just write your name in the stars

#this is truly beautiful #mass effect

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when the body trots on

passed a memorial on my morning trot today. buckaroo about my age, lots of flowers. went to his instagram to learn his way and it was just packed full of photos with buds and good times. you strip away the body and all thats left is love. sad but also very beautiful and important

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thinking about commissioning art of my durge and gale ive truly fallen into madness it seems

#shut up kit #bg3 brainrot is real #it reformed my brain

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I find it interesting to consider what Gortash would have done if he had found Durge right after Orin swirled their frontal lobe like a bad latte. Like, would he decide that Durge getting bested was simply survival of the fittest, and with slight disappointment, finish the job to be rid of a weak link? Would he just have left them to their fate, because if they are worth anything, they will fix themselves (despite seeming dead), while he needs to focus on the greater plan? Would he have decided to take them home and try to nurse them back to health, and if that didn't work, at least give them a proper burial, because in the end this used to be a person he greatly respected? How far did the admiration he had for them extend, if it was ever genuine?

#i like the idea of him “keeping” him with the intention go sculpt and influence him #to see just how much of his friend/lover's strong will remains #idk i think scientifically he might be very facinated by the possible outcomes #maybe he would tell himself it's all for bane #all for their own progression #but that sick little human part of him has the audacity to HOPE #oof i made myself sad #durgetash #bg3 #bg3 spoilers

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You see that you and I are of a different stripe, don’t you? We don’t have to dream that we’re important. We are.

#please no this man would be a fucking terror in this universe #enver gortash

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Lets talk about Stillmaker, Durge’s other canon blade

Okay, so we already know that Durge had the Bloodthirst dagger which was created from Bhaal’s own blood and carried by his chosen.

But there is another dagger in the game you can find that also canonically belonged to Durge, Stillmaker.

We see Stillmaker portrayed in Dark Urge’s official artwork, and it’s also Durge’s blade in Idle Champions, as you can see.

I’ve noticed that Stillmaker matches Bloodthirst in design, but it is conspicuously green, as opposed to every other Bhaalian weapon I’ve seen which are red.

You know who else’s canon weapon has the same green coloring? Gortash. And who is the color green associated with? Bane.

I posit then, that being close to one another as they were, Gortash either made or commissioned Stillmaker to match with Bloodthirst and gifted it to Durge. It’s far more his style in looks, and I feel it’s something he would have done as he describes Durge as his nearest and dearest, and we know they worked very closely together and admired one another.

It truly makes my Durgetash heart flutter!

#imo it also explains why it is more heavily and obviously bhaal themed vs bloodthirst #durgetash #bg3

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he was /srs

#baldur's gate 3 #the dark urge #durge #bg3 spoilers #dark urge spoilers

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btw one of the key components of actually being in a healthy relationship is just asking for things that you want. i keep seeing posts on this website saying 'i really want to do/receive [X] but my partner has never done it'. just ask. 'nobody exchanges love letters anymore' ask. 'i want to have my partner's hair in a locket like the victorians' just ask. 'i want to be bought flowers regularly :((' literally just ask. your partner doesn't know they're being held to these expectations and that you're unhappy unless you tell them. it's so unfair to expect your partner to read your mind. 'it's less special if you have to ask :((' grow up and stop pretending you're the lead in a romcom. when people say communication is crucial they mean it !! just ask !!

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when the autism is being an actual mental health problem instead of making me obsess over fictional characters again:

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GET YOUR BODY OUT OF SURVIVAL MODE SO YOU CAN CREATE FROM YOUR HEART

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You’re telling me this plot has a hole? Is it tight?

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The point of fiction is actually to put that guy in a situation™️, and he might try to tell you the point is to then get him out of the situation, WRONG, second situation

#and this is how i accidentally started writing a durge/gale durge/gortash series rip

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someone rbing a post from me: #oh my goddd this is just like my ocs zapa and trunky

me on their blog now looking for pics of zapa and trunky:

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#this tbh is my biggest struggle #some days it's good some days it's not so good