Chapters: 22/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Presumed Character Death, Violence Descriptions (In This Chapter)
Relationships: Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Simon Hastings/Daphne Bridgerton
Characters: Colin Bridgerton, Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Anthony Featherington, Â Benedict Bridgerton, Â Portia Featherington, Violet Bridgerton, Â Pretty Much Everyone (at points)
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Polin
Summary: Â Unexpected bad news arrives for the Bridgerton Family (and friends) regarding Colin's travels. This will be a series that is set after "The Duke and I" or season one of the show. It is a companion piece to "Goodbyes".
It was a simple affair that lacked the formality and solemnity that such a wedding might have had should it have been performed back home in London. Country weddings, especially elopements werenât exactly known for their stark adherence to the religious doctrines. Â The fact of the matter was that the men who performed such rites were hardly true clergy.
Penelope could hardly believe that this had become her life and that she was indeed marrying Colin. After everything theyâd been through, Â he had deemed her worthy to be his bride and the sentiment wasnât lost on her. Â She couldnât but look back seeking the safety and approval of Anthony and Benedict as she uttered her vows though.
Hearing Colin say the words and knowing that he meant them had been everything that sheâd ever wanted before heâd gone missing and when heâd come back sheâd been so caught up that sheâd failed to really take notice of the fact she wasnât quite the same infatuated girl sheâd been before. She had changed as a person. Â She could hardly ignore the loudness of her thoughts against the quiet of his words and her own.
She certainly didnât intend to regret this though, even if the whole thing felt a bit like an out of body experience. Â She wasnât unhappy but she had imagined that she would feel more joy flittering through her veins, excitement at spending the rest of her life with the man sheâd deemed as her soul mate. Â She felt something deep inside that she couldnât quite explain though and she wasnât quite willing to investigate.
To be perfectly honest she was terrified of what she might find if she did explore it. Â She loved Colin. She always had. Â God knew that she always would but a part of her couldnât help but wonder if maybe she hadnât made the right choice. Maybe they should have taken it slower, maybe they both needed more time to grow before they had their happy ever after if it was meant for them. Â It didnât make sense to her when it felt so right though. Sheâd been so sure moment ago.
The smile sheâd plastered on her face through the aftermath of the ceremony felt like a cover for the sheer and utter panic she was trying to keep down. Â There was something she felt deep down inside that she couldnât quite explain, some feeling like something had to go wrong. Sheâd felt like that most of her life whenever something was going right. It didnât normally take hold of her quite so strongly. She could feel it wrapping around her life a vice.
They were all to walk together to the local inn to eat and celebrate the occasion. Â Her arm was held steadfast by Colin and she was trying desperately not to have him catch on to the fact she was a bit shaky.
âItâs not like you to be so quiet,â Colin finally told her after a moment. His eyes gazed over her appraisingly from the side, his grip on her all the tighter. Â His normal smile was still there, never ceasing but there was concern etched in the depths of his eyes.
âI was just thinking,â Penelope told him though she didnât choose to expand upon it. Â She nodded sympathetically, patting a hand on his arm to provide some sort of reassurance that she was okay but she wasnât sure if it was believable or not. Â âPerhaps, Iâm just a bit hungry.â
âWell⌠weâre going to fix that,â  he insisted.  Whatever skepticism he had over her words didnât seem to last as he went back to smiling, holding conversation with Anthony as they walked.  The words sort of managed to blur together until theyâd found their way to their destination.
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There had been food and dancing. Â It was definitely not the kind of thing that would have gone over as a social event in London but it was comfortable and homey. Penelope did feel full and the dancing did happen to calm her nerves and as the sky began to transition from day to twilight, she felt sure that maybe sheâd simply let her mind get the best of her.
When Colin excused himself to go ensure that they had a proper to sleep on their wedding night, sheâd let herself be left amongst the mix of stranger and Bridgertons. Â Anthony had certainly had allowed himself to partake of the libations to the point where he was a bit sloppy. Â She couldnât help but feel a bit like she was intruding on a bachelorâs night with the way he was carrying on with a random woman.
Benedict for his part was keeping a respectful distance though every so often she would feel his eye on her and know he was more concerned with her safety than finding someone to spend the evening with. Â She was grateful for it honestly.
âYou can actually converse with me, you know?â she told him, decisively moving so that she could sit across from him at a table. Â âYou donât have to go back to ignoring me.â
The fact he couldnât quite meet her eye told her that it might have actually been his plan. Â He forced his gaze up after a minute though.
âI wasnât planning on it,â he lied.
She knew he was lying and she fully intended to call him out on it. She would have if she didnât hear a crack of the door that pulled both of their focuses away.
A tall, broad shouldered man came barreling into the room. Â There was something about the presence of him that commanded everyoneâs attention.
âClara?â he bellowed.
The woman that Anthony had been carrying on with pulled away from Anthony and seemed to practically disappear into the wood of the floors. She paled and it became quite clear who Clara was.
The manâs next actions were to move toward her and raise his fist to strike. Â Anthony, for his part, attempted to stop it. His drinking had made him unsteady and he took the punch himself. Â Like any man of honor, he decided it appropriate to strike back.
Goosebumps formed on Penelopeâs skin as she watched in absolute horror at what was taking place, the world slipping away. Before she could try and stop Benedict, he was up moving to try and get the giant away from his brother.
Anthony was most definitely losing. It wasnât an even or fair fight by any stretch and he was going to be bloodied and bruised come the next day. Â Benedict simply wanted to stop it from being worse than all of that.
What she didnât realize was the man was reaching for a knife and neither did Benedict until he was in the process of trying to get in the middle of them. Â The whole thing happened so abruptly that there was little she could do to stop the blood curling screams that escaped her as Benedictâs eyes widened and he crumpled to the floor.
The man clearly realized his mistake as soon as it happened, taking off running just as heâd came leaving a bloody mess in his wake. Â The woman whoâd caused it all taking one look at everything before following after.
Penelope didnât think, didnât breath as she moved to try and see the extent of the damage. Â Anthony was trying his best to get up and be helpful but he was in no condition to go get a doctor when he needed one himself.
His voice broke as she demanded someone go find a doctor before crumpling to her own knees, accessing the wound. Â She ripped the fabric from her dress, trying to use it to compress the bleeding at his abdomen as if it might be enough to hold him until a physician could arrive.
âHold on,â she demanded.
Benedict was still awake. His eyes were open and he was breathing. Â Those were all things to be hopeful for. He opened his mouth to speak a few times but the words seemed to be a struggle for him, the fact he wasnât speaking only alarmed her all the more.
His hand moved to rest on top of her own, becoming increasingly caked in his blood. Â He didnât have to utter the words for her to know what he was trying to say. Â She knew that he wasnât going to make it but it wasnât something that she could stand for. She wasnât sure if she could live with herself if that was the outcome of this.
âPlease donât,â she begged.
Word had apparently gotten back to Colin about there being a problem. She didnât hear his footsteps but she did know when she heard his horrified voice and saw him there kneeling beside her.
There was so much blood, it wasnât completely clear who was hurt now.
âAre you hurt?â Colin asked her.
âNo, Ben â he was trying to protect Anthony,â she couldnât even finish the words. Â Colin tried to take over her task of holding the wound, trying to order her away with his hands.
âI have this,â he tried to tell her.
She didnât move.
âIâm not leaving him,â she uttered. She was near hysterical anyways. She couldnât unseen what sheâd seen. Â Sheâd never be able to get the imagery out of her head.
âPen, you shouldnât have to - Â Iâll stay with him,â Â Colin insisted, trying to keep a calm exterior but he was far from it. Â The little cracks in the normally calm exterior were on full-display.
âNo,â Benedict uttered, giving Colin a look that made him relent and completely give up on any ideas he might have had about sending Penelope away from the carnage. Â The damage was already done.
--
By the time theyâd actually managed to get a physician there, Â Benedict was already beginning to fade. Â He was going in and out of consciousness. Every time that he went there, it began to feel as though he might not come back.
Anthony had begun to sober up thanks to water and the horror around him. Â If it was possible, he looked worse than Benedict. The guilt was clear on his face. He blamed himself for the whole damn thing.
âNot your fault,â Benedict had told him a few moments of alertness. âIâve always had your back in a fight.â
âYouâre not going anywhere,â Anthony told him solidly as the physician attempted to examine the wound. The grim look on his face made it clear that Benedict wasnât going to be okay.
âThe wound penetrated the spleen,â the physician informed them, Â cleaning the wound with liquor which caused Benedict to writhe in pain. Â He was paler than usually the shirt that heâd been wearing long discarded to be used to help try and stop the bleeding.
Penelope had read enough books that she knew that the odds werenât in favor of anything being able to be done here except provide comfort, drown out the suffering until the brutal end. Â There was a choice to be made here. They could either selfishly keep him alert or allow the physician to allow him to sleep until the end.
One look at his face and she knew the path he wanted.
âWe need to get him to a bed,â she uttered. Colin and Anthony could get it done, especially with a little assistance. Â Benedict deserved a little dignity and not the floor of this place.
There was no argument from the two of them either, especially as they moved to help with Anthony taking the feet and Colin taking the torso. There was a room with a bed not far off from there so they made their way, physician in tow.
When they managed to get him there, she moved to help remove his boots and socks. She was trembling but there was a mission to be had here. Â Sheâd spent most of the last year grieving in one way or another and she would spend more of it doing the same but for now she needed to keep it together.
âHelp him with the rest of his clothes,â she ordered to her new husband, turning away to provide him a little modesty.
Colin did precisely as instructed, Anthony fetching extra blankets to keep their brother warm. Â They were far too shell-shocked to offer much argument over what they should be doing.
When she turned around, the physician was mixing some ingredients in a mortar and then pouring it into a drink.
Benedictâs eyes were closed but the shift in the sound of her dress, made him open them again. He nodded through the pain, offering her a silent thank you for taking control of this.
âI want you all to leave me,â he said resolutely after a long moment. Â It was the strongest his voice had been since this whole nightmare had began. Â âHe will let you know when itâs over.â
âI will not,â Penelope said firmly.
âWe will not,â Colin chimed in.
âYou will. You canât deny a manâs last request,â he said trying to offer a weak smile. Â The wince made it clear it was a struggle for him. Â âTake her away from this.â
Colin and Anthony exchanged looks. Â As men, they had no choice but to honor the request.
Penelope wasnât going to go as easily.
âYour last request is denied,â she told him firmly.
âIâm going to miss that fire,â he murmured after the doctor gave him the concoction.  It was already starting to make him feel drowsy. Whatever words he had left would be slurred. His gaze moved between his brothers and then Penelope again. âIâve loved you all.  Take care of each other and⌠the others. Go.â
Bridgeton men were not above overly sentimental moments but Anthony touched a hand to his shoulder and nodded as if to silently say he loved him too. Â He then turned heel and left, following direction.
Colin followed suit, attempting to grab Penelope by hand at first but when she refused, he picked her up and outright carried her while she kicked and screamed to be allowed back down. Â He didnât put her down until they were all outside to where they could get fresh air.
While the men handled this with stoicism, she absolutely fell apart. Â She crumbled into Colinâs arms, crying and screaming until her voice was gone. Â She had known something bad was going to happen and now it had.
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A Different Ending | 8/?
Chapters: 8/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Â Only be forewarned that this is an AU from the Adrift saga but Colin actually died in this one, so if heâs mentioned heâs actually gone.
Relationships: Benedict Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington (past feelings), Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Â Daphne Bridgerton/Simon Hastings
Characters: Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Benedict Bridgerton, Daphne Bridgerton, Anthony Bridgerton
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Penadict (do we have a ship name yet?)
Summary: Â There were some requests for an alternate/Parallel word to "Bridgerton's Adrift" where Benedict and Penelope actually did get married. So this is the result of that peer pressure.
Penelope hadnât had the luxury that most women have of having a mother who would dote on them and fill them in on the mysteries of the world. Â It wasnât that she felt that Portia didnât have the natural maternity of people like Violet Bridgerton. Â Portia had done the best she could to get her children to adulthood and Penelope knew her sisters were simply easier to deal with.
On her wedding night it hadnât been Portia who explained marriage or all that came with it though. It had been Violet Bridgerton who had attempted and then there had been Daphne. Â The information had felt a bit overwhelming, daunting at the time. Â Penelope liked to think sheâd figured out most of it. Â She still found herself with questions though.
Pregnancy ought to have been one of the first things that crossed her mind when she found herself ill but some part of her felt like it ought to be more complex to create a child. There was no denying that she and Benedict had been intimate quite a few times since that first heated tryst in the kitchen in the family home but it seemed foolish to think her malady more than just a little virus that would pass.
She had been wrong though.
Returning home to Benedict had helped. Sheâd slept comfortably in their bed with him once sheâd managed to get herself clean and the nausea tempered down. Â It came back as soon as she awoke that morning though.
She didnât want to trouble Benedict with it but there was no hiding it from him and even if he was supposed to go meet with their contractor and check the progress on their home, he refused.
He simply held red curls back and comforted her in the moments of calmness until enough time had passed that he felt comfortable to assist her back to bed.
She should have known he wasnât going to let it just slide, especially when Violet Bridgerton let herself in. Â Penelope was so exhausted and sickly that she hardly protested as the woman invaded the personal space of their bedroom and brought an older man with her.
âAnthony asked me to escort the physician over,â she overheard Violet explaining to Benedict. Â There was something in the way that it was said that told her that Violet had insisted.
The physician moved toward the bed and began to look Penelope over. Â Penelope wasnât going to protest as anything to help be able to eat something as simple as buttered bread and keep it down would have been delightful. Â It was a bit weird to have someone poke, prod and get in her personal space but it was tolerable.
It was when the questioning began that her cheeks started to burn pink.
âWhen did you last bleed?â the physician asked candidly.
âLast week in the garden, I pricked my finger on a rose,â Â she offered not completely understanding the question at hand.
Benedict covered his mouth to not laugh while his mother nudged him hard with an arm.
âPenelope, dearest, heâs asking about your ⌠womanly bleeding,â Violet attempted to explain in an eloquent way.
It only made Penelope blush all the more brilliantly.
âOh then over a month ago,â she said quietly. âWe hadnât come back to London yet.â
The physician nodded.
âAnd youâve had nausea.  Have had any growth or sensitivity in theâŚchest area?â
Clearly the doctor was trying to be delicate but he was gesturing toward her breasts. Â Penelope nodded to the question. Â Her corsets definitely werenât fitting the way they used to.
âAssuming that you and your husband have consummated your marriage, my assumption is that you have a case of pregnancy,â the physician explained with a nod. Â âWe have no way of confirming for sure for now but you should start to feel better in the coming weeks.
Penelope looked a bit shell-shocked at the prospect of it all.
âAnd what until I feel better?â she asked. âAnd what if Iâm dying?â
Violet was the one to laugh at that.
âDonât worry darling, weâll make sure you get whatever rest you need and I have a few old tricks up my sleeve. You donât have as many kids as me and not know how to get through this,â Violet explained.
âIâll leave a few of my recommendations and Iâll check back in with you but I donât suspect youâre going to be dying, Mrs. Bridgerton,â the physician said, scribbling a few things down and extending them to Benedict. Â He then nodded and departed to see another patient.
âIt seems very unprofessional to just leave someone to die,â Penelope murmured from her bed, giving Benedict a glance that said she probably actually believed that she might.
Violet grabbed her hand, nodded softly.
âI know it feels like you might but youâre in good hands,â she told her simply. âDaphne is due to give birth any day now and then I suppose Iâll turn my efforts to you and grandchild number two. â I really must go since I have to meet Kate for some wedding arrangements. Â Weâd hoped you might join but I will let her know youâre under the weather.â
Violet Bridgerton didnât know how to keep a secret though so there was no question half the Ton was going to be aware she was having another grandchild by the end of the day. Any speculation that might have started at Aubrey Hall was destined to be confirmed.
âIâll walk you out,â Benedict offered before leaning to give his wife a little peck to the forehead. Â âIâll be back in just a moment and maybe weâll try some bread and tea.â
--
Benedict knew his suspicion was probably going to be right. It absolutely thrilled him to have it confirmed, seeing the absolute pride on his motherâs face at the prospect of another grandchild. Â Heâd always pictured himself a father, imagined doting on this small thing that looked the perfect combination of himself and whoever he wed.
Penelope was his wife now and the prospect of a child that looked just like her was enough to make his heart swell with pride. Â He was absolute overcome with joy even if he was admittedly concerned that his child wasnât taking it easy on its mother. Â Â He wasnât going to leave her any longer than necessary until she felt better though. He would figure something out for the day to day supervision of their home getting built.
Anthony was out of the question as he was about to get married and there would be a honeymoon there. Â Gregory was far too young. The Duke had enough to manage between Daphne and the much anticipated arrival of their first child. Â He was going to have to find a suitable proxy. He needed more time to think on it though.
He took the steps two at a time, smiling like an idiot when he came back with some fresh, hot tea and toast heavily slathered in butter and jam. Â He found Penelope just as heâd left her lying in the bed but her hand was on her stomach and he couldnât help but feel like heâd interrupted some private conversation that he couldnât quite hear.
âWeâre going to get your strength back up,â he told her softly, moving to sit near her. Â She offered a small smile, her eyes moving toward the toast. She started to reach for it but he pushed her hand away. âIâm going to feed you.â
âThatâs not necessary,â she insisted though it was too late. Â He was already breaking a piece away for her and moving it toward her mouth. Â The moan that escaped her at the taste of it was almost sexual. Â It had been so long since sheâd eaten and managed to keep something down, sheâd stopped even trying but that was the best bread sheâd ever eaten.
âI have to keep you from eating too fast,â he said before moving to lift the tea to give her a sip. âThereâs ginger in that. It always helped mother and Daphne is a fan herself.â
Penelope certainly wasnât about to fight anything that might give her a fighting chance of resuming some form of normal life. Â She just wanted to be able to eat food, enjoy her husbandâs company and attend Anthonyâs wedding in a few weeks. She didnât think she was asking for too much.
âIf I werenât already married to you, Iâd do it all over again,â Penelope confessed. âPlease let me have some more.â
âThatâs a good thing since youâre going to be the mother of my child,â he teased quietly, giving her more of the bread. He was pretty sure the fingers holding it were in danger if he didnât move them quickly enough.
âAre you okay with that?â she asked as she awaited another sip of the tea. Benedict could read the anxiety over it all over her face. Â She had no reason for concern there.
âIâm over the moon about it,â he confessed, balancing the plate on his leg long enough to reach a hand to touch her belly. âI canât wait to meet our son or daughter and to teach them how to draw, swim and adventure. Iâm pretty in love with them already.â
It was something she was a little self-conscious about but she did let her hand move to cover his. Â She offered a nod and a light smile. Â âTheyâre going to love you as much as you love them,â she said giving him a glance before her hand moved to reach for his caller, tugging him for a bit of a kiss.
She wasnât sure if it was the tea, the toast or just Benedict but she felt a little better and well if they made an absolute mess in their bed so she could show a little appreciation it wasnât going to be a bit loss.
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Update still isnât ready. I think I just needed more time to recoup to get ready for my work week but God am I ready to get back to my children.
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Still alive. Updates havenât happened lately. Life has just been busy and I recently got my second covid-19 shot and it really knocked me on my ass. God willing. Iâll do at least one update tomorrow. :)
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Bridgertonâs Adrift | 21/?
Chapters: 21/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Presumed Character Death
Relationships: Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Simon Hastings/Daphne Bridgerton
Characters: Colin Bridgerton, Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Anthony Featherington, Â Benedict Bridgerton, Â Portia Featherington, Violet Bridgerton, Â Pretty Much Everyone (at points)
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Polin
Summary: Â Unexpected bad news arrives for the Bridgerton Family (and friends) regarding Colin's travels. This will be a series that is set after "The Duke and I" or season one of the show. It is a companion piece to "Goodbyes".
Anthony almost wished heâd brought a gun with him if only to send a warning shot. Â It wasnât that he didnât love Benedict but he was beginning to regret stopping at Aubrey Hall for reinforcements. Heâd never seen Benedict like this. Â They were barely stopping, barely sleep and when heâd try to get a few more hours heâd get snapped at because they âwerenât going to make itâ.
He had assumed a few things about Benedictâs feelings when heâd promptly left town upon Colinâs return but he hadnât know things were this bad. Â Anthony liked to think that he knew his siblings pretty well considered he was the oldest. Â Heâd always known Benedict to be a bit more emotional than the rest. He wasnât as dramatic as some of the others though.
Benedict tended to suppress and bury things until they could be suppressed no longer. Anthony had seen things bubble up in his younger brother plenty of times over the course of their lives.
Apparently, this was one of those situations.
He knew better than to try and get in the middle of it. Â More than anything he was terrified of what Benedict was going to do when they made it to Scotland. Â There were too many unknown factors here.
For starters, he didnât know if they were going to make it before Colin could successfully elope. Â Second, he didnât know if the suspicion was even correct or if it was that theyâd even find them there. Anthony was honestly terrified to think of what heâd be dealing with if they didnât find them. Â His mother would be the least of his worries.
By the time they reached, Northumberland with a clear view of the River Tweed exhaustion was threatening every moment. Anthony couldnât stop because he knew Benedict would not aside from pausing to interrogate people in passing about where across the bridge people went to wed.
It earned a few curious glances since there wasnât a woman with them. Â Benedict clearly wasnât thinking about how it might be coming off and Anthonyâs insistence that they were brothers seemed to be the only think preventing someone for reporting them for attempting to undertake illegal activities.
The little stone inn on the other side of the bridge looked precisely as they had been informed it would. Â There wasnât much to it. Â It was so unassuming and yet there was something about the structure that made seemed to leave both Bridgerton men silent, terrified.
After riding through England like an absolute mad man, it was Benedict who seemed to completely freeze at the sight of it. Â His tall form locked into place and the color drained from his features.
âWe havenât gone this far for you to just stop now, have we?â Anthony asked, turning on his heel to gaze at his little brother.
Benedict just shook his head lamely.
Anthony couldnât help but feel sorry for him. Â He knew he just had to pause and wait for Benedict to snap out of it.
While he was waiting he saw Benedictâs expression change though and he had no choice but look back toward the structure.
âBen,â a voice called out, followed by a sea of loose red curls moving out of the door. Â The body that the red curls, moved toward them and hugged the frozen boy which was definitely not appropriate but it didnât stop her.
âYou know, Iâm here too,â Anthony said making a face. Â
Penelope laughed at that and turned to greet Anthony with a nod.
âWhat are you two doing here?â Penelope asked gaze moving between them.
âWhere is Colin?â Ben asked finally regaining use of his tongue.
Based on the look on his face, Â Anthony wasnât sure if he was asking this to truly know where their brother was because they didnât see him or because he intended to murder him. If he could have gestured for Penelope to maybe not answer that without Benedict seeing, he very well might have.
âHeâs had to go a ways to collect to a Priest Dickson,â she said before shaking her head. Priest Dickson apparently had a reputation for performing marriage rights and could come join them there for the right price. Â âApparently, heâd decided to enjoy a day of leisure at home since itâs the slow season.â
âSo you fools really are doing this?â Anthony asked.
âThat was our intention. I presume youâre here to try and talk us out of it,â Penelope said with a nod. Â Her gaze moved from Anthony to Benedict who was being remarkably quiet.
âNo,â Benedict replied before Anthony could.
Anthony didnât really plan on stopping it either but he was admittedly surprised to hear that come out after all of this.
Penelope looked conflicted by this information and relieved all at once. Â Anthony couldnât help but see the way her gaze seemed to be trying to pierce the wall that Benedict wasnât letting down.
âI promised to look after you,â Benedict said after a long moment. âYou donât have to have any sort of special wedding but you do have to let me be the one who gives you away.â
Anthony threw a hand up at that, another moving to massage his own temple. Â Heâd been dragged half-way through England, nearly died with exhaustion for that when they could have just gotten there after the deed was done. Â
Blood on a wedding day probably wasnât a good omen, so not murdering Benedict was going to be his wedding gift.
Considering the fact, Penelopeâs response to the words was tears told Anthony that Colin might be the one to commit the Fratricide.
--
Colin did return as expected with a man that even he had been unsure about as priest. He had no choice but to give it as pass if he wanted to do this. He knew that when it came to these things, half the time the âpriestsâ were just simple village people who had the ability to sign legal documents.
It was a bit of a shock to return and see his two brothers there. Â Admittedly there was one that gave him more rise to concern than the other. His mind raced back to the conversation heâd had with Benedict before heâd fled to the country and a part of him feared was there to put a stop to this.
Jealousy raced into him that he couldnât begin to control and irrationally he did wonder if Penelope was going to back out. What if sheâd come to her sense and didnât want to marry him? What if she realized that she preferred his brother?
âI defiled her,â he announced to his brothers in a moment of panic, knowing that if her honor was in question there was absolutely nothing they would do to stop it.
Penelopeâs eyes widened at that, catching the complete change in Benedictâs posture threw herself between them.
âIt was consensual,â she assured, keeping her voice low. âI wouldnât use defile to describe it. Â Your brother is clearly out of mind.â
Anthony debated stepping in before there was actual blood spilled but decided that he was too tired for that and he was just going to stand there and let Penelope handle it. She was doing well enough.
Benedict relented at her request, not pleased to hear that Colin couldnât even constrain himself long enough to make it proper first but it had been her choice.
âOut of my mind in love,â Colin said pointedly.
âJealousy,â Anthony coughed into his hand.
This earned him three glares.
âIf you donât mind, Iâd like to begin the proceedings,â the man whoâd come with him said, so they did.
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Today is one of those days where you just want to write a chapter and you have the general idea of it in your head but youâre just tired and want to curl in your bed. The next Bridgertonâs Adrift chapter is going to be a big one. Itâs just a matter of composing it.
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Colin Bridgerton being sad + giving us for the first time a tiny glimpse of his neck without his cravat đđđ
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A Different Ending |Â 7/?
Chapters: 7/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Â Only be forewarned that this is an AU from the Adrift saga but Colin actually died in this one, so if heâs mentioned heâs actually gone.
Relationships: Benedict Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington (past feelings), Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Â Daphne Bridgerton/Simon Hastings
Characters: Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Benedict Bridgerton, Daphne Bridgerton, Anthony Bridgerton
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Penadict (do we have a ship name yet?)
Summary: Â There were some requests for an alternate/Parallel word to "Bridgerton's Adrift" where Benedict and Penelope actually did get married. So this is the result of that peer pressure.
Benedict was grateful to have found reasonable contractors who knew the urgency to have his and Penelopeâs new home finished. Â While theyâd managed to make the most of his bachelor home, he wanted to provide more for her. Â That was why he spent the majority of his days in Kensington, watching the progress and ensuring that everything was falling into place.
Despite the fact he didnât want to be without his wife for any extended period of time, his mother had practically begged that Penelope be allowed to join the family at Aubrey Hall. Â The plan was to seal the deal on Anthonyâs match to Edwina Sheffield. Â Benedict had his doubts that it would happen if only because Penelope seemed fairly certain that Anthony was better suited to Kate. He knew better than to bet against his wife.
It made sense for Penelope to help chaperone at Aubrey Hall. Her presence allowed her to stay abreast on the happenings of the parties and he could make sure their home was completed before the worst of the rainy seasons arrived. Â It was only a matter of a week but it felt like a century without her.
Heâd been fully prepared to show her how much he missed her upon her return. Â Heâd planned to have her favorite meal ready for her when she got home. Theyâd be able to sit together and she could tell him about everything heâd missed while they ate.
He knew that Anthony would escort her home but he was not quite prepared for her to him to practically be keeping her up right. Â Heâd known Penelope most of her life and while he hadnât been around her while she was ill, he instinctively knew that her coloring was wrong.
âPen,â he murmured moving to collect her from his brother. Concern creased her features as he moved her inside and to a small sitting room, so he could sit her down.
âIâm okay. Just a little carriage sick,â she said, protest clear in her voice though she wasnât quite in a carriage anymore and she looked as if she was struggling to not retch. âI donât need all this fuss.â
Benedict gave his older brother a look, as if waiting to verify the veracity of that statement. Â If sheâd been fine before departing Aubrey Hall he might could pass it off as carriage sickness. Heâd been in many carriages with her at this point and not once had she been ill though.
âThatâs a lie,â Anthony confirmed. âSheâs been sickly since the last dinner party. She gave us all a bit of a laugh though. Â She apparently tried to excuse herself from that miserable Cressida Cowper and she wouldnât stop talking.â
âYou didnât?â Â Benedict said trying not to laugh at the thought of Cressida covered in vomitus. Â He was actually concerned for his wife but even he wasnât foolish enough to note see the humor in that.
Penelope nodded though when she attempted to open her mouth, her eyes widened and she covered mouth. She was to her feet trying to run and find somewhere to properly retch. Â Benedictâs eyes followed with concern. He really was going to have to go take care of her.
âTrying to upstage my engagement with a baby?â Anthony asked raising an eyebrow.
The two parts hit Benedict with equal force. Â Anthony was engaged and he was going to have a baby? Â Theyâd both seen their mother pregnant so many times that it was almost foolish that it didnât hit him immediately. In a matter of seconds, his face flickered from confusion to excitement to absolute elation.
âDoes she know?â he found himself asking.
âAbout my engagement to Kate? Of course. Theyâre strangely fond of each other. I daresay Kate might like Penelope more than she likes me,â Anthony said.
Kate. Penelope had been right about that one.
He shook his head though. That wasnât what he was inquiring about.
âAs happy as I am that youâve selected a wife. I meant about the baby. Does Penelope think sheâs with child?â he asked again.
âNo. She seems to think sheâs had a bad run of food poisoning and travel sickness,â Anthony said with a laugh. âShould I have a physician stop drop by tomorrow?â
âNo â yes,â Benedict said after a long moment. Â âDoes anyone else share in your suspicion?â
âMother,â Anthony said after a moment. âShe didnât verbalize it to me but I did see her and Mrs. Featherington chatting rather suspiciously in recent days. Theyâve been peddling a âdigestionâ tonic toward her for days.â
âWell thank you for returning her safely home,â he said. âI should probably go take care of her but please forward my congratulations to Kate. Â Weâll have to have you both over for dinner while you plan your wedding.â
Anthony nodded before taking his leave.
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Benedict took the steps to the wash room two at a time. Â Theyâd only ever vaguely discussed children in the sense that they knew that they wanted children to be part of their life and not just because it was what society dictated that children should be a product of marriages.
He hadnât really given much thought to when it would happen. Heâd been so busy focusing on the construction of their home and finding his stride with her that he hadnât imagined it happening so soon. He was honestly thrilled at the prospect of being a father.
âEverything okay?â he asked gently from the doorway when he found her, bent over though no longer retching. The smell let him know that she definitely had been. She was breathing fairly heavily from the effort. Â He crossed the space to lean sit in the floor next to her and rub her back.
âYou shouldnât see me like this,â she told him, embarrassed by the whole thing. Penelope felt dirty. She honestly hadnât planned to be ill upon her return to him. Â God how sheâd missed him while at Aubrey Hall though. Â Her bed felt empty without him. Â Her days were boring without the conversations or the company.
âSorry but youâre stuck with me,â he told her stubbornly. It had been quite a few years since his motherâs last pregnancy and he admittedly tried to block out those memories. It was painful to look back and think of Hyacinth growing in his motherâs belly and the way his father had absolutely doted over her until his death. Â He didnât care if other men chose to be absent. He fully intended to dote over Penelope. âIâve seen worse. If I had known you were ill, I would have come to you.â
She offered a weak smile as she managed to sit up.
âIâm home now,â she told him quietly. âYouâre not going to be mad if I just want to bath and sleep, will you?â
He pressed a soft kiss to the top of her head.
âNo, Iâll even prepare a hot bath for you,â he told her.
âYou really donât have to,â she told protested. âI can do it.â
âNo. Go grab yourself a cup of tea and a biscuit from the kitchen if you can stomach it and Iâll come get you when itâs ready.â
He didnât tend to keep staff here full-time. It wasnât like in the family home. Â He did have people who came and went during the day to ensure cleaning and cooking was done. He had little complaint of handling basic things like starting fires or preparing water on his own.
He stood, rolling up his sleeves before setting into motion, helping her to her feet first before he set off on his task. Â It wasnât quick a quick task but he did manage to heat up water over a fire and fill the movable tub in the washroom until it was at a satisfactory temperature.
He was pleased to see a little color back in her when she came by up to try and help him. Â Heâd been about to go grab her though so there was little left to be done aside from enjoy.
âIâm spoiled,â she told him, curling into him slightly for a moment in gratitude. âI saw the dinner you had prepared. Iâm honestly so sorry for being sickly. Tomorrow when Iâm better, Iâm going to make it up to you.â
He shook his head.
âYou donât have anything to make up to me,â he insisted. He debated telling her of his suspicion but he also didnât want to get ahead of himself. Â If it turned out she was just ill and not carrying his child, he would feel foolish for suggesting it. He turned his head enough so he could lean down and kiss her appreciatively. âIâll leave you to your bath, Mrs. Bridgerton. Â Please do call if you need any further assistance. Iâm pretty good with a wash cloth.â
âDonât go,â she told him when he started to pull and walk away. Her hand reached out to grab his arm in an attempt to stop him. It worked quite effectively. Â âI want to hear about everything Iâve missed in London while I was away.â
Benedict smiled, helping her out of her clothing and into the tub. He couldnât help but envisioned how her form might change if she was carrying his child. He pushed the thought out of his head though so he could comply with her request. He had a lot to tell her and even more he wanted to hear from her.
He loved his wife.
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Swelter Weather | 7/?
Chapters: 7/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: None at this point.
Relationships: Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Marina Thompson/Phillip Crane, Eloise Bridgerton/Phillip Crane, Kate Sheffield/Anthony Bridgerton, Daphne Bridgerton/Simon Hastings
Characters: Colin Bridgerton, Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Phillip Crane, Benedict Bridgerton, Daphne Bridgerton,
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Polin
Summary: Colin Bridgerton is weary from travel and decides to spend the summer at the Aubrey Hall. While his initial plans were to avoid his perfect family, he ends up sharing the house with Eloise and Penelope. This is a Modern AU!
If it werenât for the fact it would have disturbed the warm, soft body curled into to him, Colin wouldnât have hesitated to get up and shut the curtains to stop the sun from filling his room. Â He had zero interest in leaving his room or her though.
It was the strangest thing. Â Heâd never really craved someoneâs company as much as hers. There had been people who had inspired less than gentlemanly thoughts in him. Â There were many times heâd considered giving into those desires but not once had he wanted more than those things with those other women.
He wanted everything with Penelope and that was why heâd forced himself to take a step back, to make sure that he was doing things the right way with her. Â He couldnât possibly be happier than he was to hold her tight or listen to the little sounds she made in her sleep.
Heâd always thought she was beautiful but seeing her at peace, lost in dreams only made him think her more beautiful. He dare say she was the most beautiful person in the world and she was his. The novelty of the thought of it hadnât worn off nor did he think that it ever would.
He was admittedly a little nervous about how Eloise might react to the news that they were together but he knew things would be okay. Eloise would come around. She always did.
He pushed all thoughts of his sister from his mind as he buried his face into Penelopeâs messy red curls, closing his eyes as if to push away the morning and extend this bliss a little longer.
He smiled when he saw her eyes flicker open and her own tired smile form across her face. Â Penelope wasnât shy about snuggling into him all the more. Â It was funny how intimate they could be despite the fact he hadnât let them complete intimacy.
âDo you think Eloise would buy me still feeling ill and us needing to stay in here all day?â she murmured quietly.
âNot a chance,â he told her with a laugh. Â Eloise definitely wouldnât just leave them be unless she was explicitly told to.
Neither of them were any particular hurry to get up. Â Colin knew his stomach would eventually betray him and demand breakfast would strike but for now, he just wanted to savor the moment.
In fact, he was pretty sure he could smell bacon permeating from the kitchen. Normally that would have sent him wandering down to try and get first dibs but times were changing. Â His desire to keep cuddling Penelope trumped any food craving.
âI canât believe sheâs already up,â Penelope murmured, apparently smelling the bacon too. She sighed at the thought they were probably going to have to get up and show their face downstairs. âSheâs not even a morning person.â
âI could always go down and make a big plate,â Colin said after a moment. Â âBreakfast in bed?... All day in bed with me.â
âIâd be crazy to say no to that,â Â she murmured leaning to steal a kiss before he could get up, which honestly made him not want to get up. He pushed himself up and out from under the comforter with a sigh.
Eloise was going to have to deal with him coming down in pajama bottoms and no shirt. Â This was as dressed as he was going to get.
âYou just stay right there,â he said with a grin. âIâll deal with Eloise.â
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Colin fully intended to grab a plate of food and tell Eloise to find something else to do today. Â He had the whole thing prepared in his head, carefully crafted to deal and then escape back to his blissful little bubble.
His mind went blank when he made it down the kitchen and didnât just fine his sister. Â His eyes widened slightly at the sight of Phillip helping her make breakfast.
He watched for a long moment, trying to make sure he wasnât hallucinating things. Phillip was a little bit too comfortable for his liking and the protective older brother in him debated whether he ought to punch his friend or start asking questions.
He cleared his throat loudly, an act he hoped to split up whatever was happening. Â Eloise didnât even have the modesty to look embarrassed by this whole thing though.
âHowâs Pen?â she asked a little too casually. âStill feeling under the weather?â
The mention of Penelope did bring his mission back to mind. He was supposed to be grabbing plates and heading back up stairs. Â His mind was flailing trying to figure out what exactly he was supposed to be doing at this point.
â- I was coming to get her a plate,â Â Colin said, eyeing Eloise and Phillip suspiciously. Â âClearly it was too late last night and you offered Phillip one of the other guest rooms.â
âNot exactly,â Â Eloise said sheepishly.
Colin knew that look. Heâd seen it on their older brothers plenty of times after theyâd brought random girls back in the past. Â He clenched his fist. He was going to murder Phillip Crane.
âWhat do you mean by that?â he asked despite the fact he had zero business doing it.
âWell, you could say that he was ill and I took care of him,â Eloise said crossing her arms. She definitely knew that Penelope hadnât been ill and she definitely knew Penelope was in his bed at the moment.
âI didnât - Â we literally slept,â Colin said defensive over his own actions.
âI really should get going,â Phillip said clearly not wanting to get in the middle of family drama. Â âIt seems like you two have things to talk about.â
Both Bridgerton heads turned and said ânoâ in unison. This really did have to stop becoming a thing. Â They didnât wait to see that he was staying though as they were busy squaring off.
âYou invited him to distract me so you could fuck my best friend,â Eloise said in an accusatory voice.
âIâm still here,â Phillip felt a need to interject.
âOh dear,â a fourth voice said from the doorway. Penelope had apparently heard the voices and decided to come mediate. She raised an eyebrow at the presence of Phillip. Â That was a turn.
She moved closer to Phillip and shook her head, giving a consolatory smile. Â âThere is really no getting in the middle of these things. You just have to let them fight it out. Youâll learn.â
âI didnât fuck her,â Colin argued. âWe are together though, no thanks to you and your constant need to get in the middle.â
âYouâre a liar and a hypocrite,â Eloise said right back.
âIâm neither. But you have no business sleeping with people that you donât even know, especially not when youâre ââ
âI wasnât,â Â Eloise said shaking her head. âIâm not a child. Â I have just as much right as you do to invite whoever I want here. I like Phillip.â
âHeâs literally years older than you and he has kids,â Colin argued.
Phillip wasnât sure whether he should be offended or not but Penelope gave him a sympathetic glance, Â reached to grab a filled plate handing him one so they could at least eat breakfast while watching and making sure blood wasnât drawn in this fight.
âYouâre a few years older than Penelope,â Eloise argued.
âThatâs different.â
âHow is it different?â
âBecause I love her,â he said talking with his hands. âIâve literally been in denial for years and youâre really going to falsely equate hooking up with some guy youâve known all of two seconds to me wanting to be with Penelope.â
âYou what?â Penelope interjected, nearly choking on her bacon. Phillip had to give her a pat on the back to stop the coughing.
âI thought you said we werenât to interject,â Phillip murmured.
âWell when people say they love you get to interject,â Penelope murmured.
Eloise shook her head, narrowed her eyes. Â âI donât need to travel the world to figure out what I want,â she said pointedly. Â âDonât try to get in the middle of it with this big brother nonsense and Iâll get out of your way.â
âReally?â Colin asked after a long moment, slightly unsure whether heâd won this argument or not, especially since Eloise was going to let him be with Penelope without trying to stop it, if he got out of her way.
âI mean, sheâs still my best friend and I will hurt you if you hurt her but sheâs also an adult and clearly she is a willing victim.â
âI wouldnât really go with victim,â Colin said after a moment, remembering there was food now that things were at least semi-decided. His gaze finally moved over to where Penelope and Phillip had been standing, eating and watching. Â He offered a small smile. âGirlfriend is the term weâre going with these days. Speaking of which, weâre going back upstairs.â
Eloise made a face at that.
âAt least me and Phillip will be able to keep our breakfast down,â she said to their retreating backs as they disappeared just as easily as theyâd interrupted her morning.
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Things that havenât happened this weekend:
Any updates...Â
I am trying to at least get up one before bed tonight.
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@brielyse95
Iâm sensing a new fic, I fully support and look forward to you wringing more Pen and Ben
Maybe after I finish the current stuff.  Iâm definitely not sure I will ever have Sophie muse though so... no one hate me if she is never part of any story. I know that sheâs beloved in the fandom but sheâs not for me.
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Iâm currently working on book 3 and like Sophie interrupting Benedict thinking about how much he actually likes Penelope while about to ask her to dance didnât endear me to her. At least Colin ended up dancing with her instead but ... like fuck you, Sophie Beckett and your broke ass Cinderella storyline.
Also, fuck Portia Featherington for the family fruit costumes but making Penelope be a leprechaun. Like why would you not have just made her the orange or even a banana.Â
This book is a travesty.
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Bridgertonâs Adrift | 20/?
Chapters: 20/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Presumed Character Death
Relationships: Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Simon Hastings/Daphne Bridgerton
Characters: Colin Bridgerton, Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Anthony Featherington, Â Benedict Bridgerton, Â Portia Featherington, Violet Bridgerton, Â Pretty Much Everyone (at points)
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Polin
Summary: Â Unexpected bad news arrives for the Bridgerton Family (and friends) regarding Colin's travels. This will be a series that is set after "The Duke and I" or season one of the show. It is a companion piece to "Goodbyes".
Eloise didnât know what it was like to fall in love.
Everything that she knew about the concept came from books or the relationships of people around her. Â She only had a vague recollection of her parents prior to her fatherâs death. Half the time, it felt more like other peopleâs memories than her own. Â She hated the fact that with every passing day she remembered her own father less and less. Â Aubrey Hall had been her first home and yet it always felt strange to be there. London always felt more like home but that was where sheâd spent the majority of her formative years. Â Sheâd returned there out of love for her brother though.
Benedict hadnât been himself since Colin returned. Â She dared not speculate his feelings at first but she had known he was running away from something. Sheâd always been particularly close to him. Even though he didnât tend to have many secrets, she usually was the family member to figure them out. Â Just like heâd treated her cuts and bruises as a child, she wanted to fix whatever ailed him. That was why she followed him to Aubrey Hall.
She assumed that like all the past moments where theyâd experienced an upset or difficulty theyâd be able to fix it. Â It was a bit of an egotistical notion to think that she could be the one to help him find his way back to the family but it was truly what sheâd thought.
She had assumed it would be easy. Â It wasnât.
The brother that she found at Aubrey Hall looked like Benedict but there was something very hollow, sad about his presence. He was there but he might as well have not been. It had been weeks and despite having plenty of opportunity, he kept every conversation succinct and impersonal. He hadnât once confided in her how he was feeling when sheâd ask how he was. A simple âfineâ was his go-to reply and she knew he was far from it.
She had thought that if she brought up home, that might encourage him to speak about it. Â Every time she received a letter from Penelope or an entry from Whistledown, heâd read it aloud. Â He looked uncomfortable at the latest mentions of Colin and Penelope but the way he looked when sheâd get a new article from Whistledown was much worst. Â Even on a good day, those things would cause him to make an excuse and lock himself away. She usually wouldnât see him until days later.
The first time heâd skipped a meal, sheâd thought he might be ill and sheâd even gone as far as to take it to his room for him. Â The door was locked though and when she knocked he didnât let her in to deliver it. Â When he finally did emerge the next day, he looked tired and older but he acted as if he hadnât been a ghost.
Sheâd had never seen him like this and she was beginning to worry. Â It did cross her mind that Benedict might never return to the family. She didnât want to meddle and make things worse but she didnât like the state of things. She didnât want to see her favorite brother unhappy but she also didnât quite know what the solution was.
She had thought a solution could be found in non-familial companionship. He also didnât seem to want to discuss that either. Sheâd casually suggested he reconnect with the Modiste or literally find anyone to be less gloomy. Sheâd mentally prepared herself for him to say no but she hadnât been prepared for an absolute meltdown.
Benedict was always the quietest and the gentlest of her brothers. The bottled up emotions exploded at that suggestion though. He destroyed one of their motherâs favorite vases with fist. When he realized what heâd done, he cried and Eloise couldnât remember ever seeing him cry. She knew it wasnât about the vase or the fact heâd managed to hurt his hand. He didnât say it but somehow she knew: his heart was broken.
If this was what love was like, Eloise was more certain than ever that she wanted nothing to do with it.
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Even though Eloise didnât tell him that she pitied him. Benedict knew it. He hadnât asked her to come. He hadnât wanted anyone to be there with him. He needed time to mourn in peace without anyone in the Ton judging him. Â Penelope Featherington might not have been dead but she might as well have been. Â She was going to marry Colin.
A few months ago, it wouldnât have been a problem. He would have been thrilled at the choice and welcomed her into the family. Â He didnât think he could stomach it now. He couldnât bear to put on a smile and watch her marry Colin. He couldnât handle seeing them at family dinners and seeing her smile or laugh at the things Colin could say. He couldnât handle thinking of them sharing a marital bed or her stomach swelling with his nieces and nephews.
He wasnât foolish enough to try and stop it nor did he want to. He wanted nothing more than for her to be happy and he knew that she would be. He knew Colin would actually treat her well.
It was selfish but he intended to never return to London. If heâd been less of a coward he would have bought a ticket to America or France and slipped beyond his motherâs grasp. Aubrey Hall was his stepping stone. Â He needed to go so far away that no one in the family could question why he didnât return home for holidays or weddings. Â Â
Eloise wasnât letting him.
The morning after heâd cried in front of her, he debated leaving at first dawn. Â She wasnât a morning person so she wouldnât hear him slip out and by the time she saw his letter informing her of his plans heâd be too far gone.
When he started to write the letter, he couldnât bring himself to compose it so things continued on as they had been.
--
Mothers rarely interrupted the solitude of bachelor quarters but most men didnât have Violet Bridgerton as their mother. Â Anthony had been sleeping off a hangover when he heard his motherâs huff as she pushed back the curtains to the room. Â The sunlight was appalling and he attempted to pull his pillow over his head.
âWhere is your brother?â she demanded of him.
He grumbled in his sleep.
âAt his place or⌠wherever Penelope is,â he said.
âThatâs to be assumed. She told me she was visiting her family but Portia Featherington says she hasnât seen her in weeks,â Violet said.
He lifted the pillow away, dark hair shaggy from bed head. His gaze moved to his mother and he realized she was worried and not actually mad. His brain caught up to the moment.
âIâm sure theyâre fine,â he said after a moment.
âColin was supposed to be with you at a match,â she said after a moment. âI can only imagine that there wasnât one.â
Anthony debated covering for his little brother there but he knew better than to do that in this moment. Violet was a force and even if they were okay, he was going to have to go and find them.
âI was at the club until hours ago,â he confessed. Â âIf youâll be so kind to give me some privacy Iâll get dressed and go find them.â
Violet crossed her arms, narrowing her eyes.
âI gave birth to you. Thereâs nothing I havenât seen,â she uttered before complying and headed toward the door. Â âYou better find them before I do.â
--
Anthony checked every place he knew to search and came up empty handed as far as the city went. Â Heâd thought he would find them easily but there was no sign of them anywhere. Â He begrudgingly called upon the Duke of Hastings for assistance.
Simon had far more resources in the city to operate from.
It was dusk before they learned from a servant who had heard from a footman that Colin had taken to sneaking away with Penelope for romantic time. Â Theyâd apparently last been seen leaving the city in a carriage.
His theories went salacious but it was Daphne who suggested that perhaps there was nothing salacious happening at all. Â It was possible that they were headed to Scotland to wed.
Anthony did the math in his head. Â It would take 4-5 days if they traveled 12 hours at a time. Â They had a good lead on him but if he traveled on horse instead of carriage, he might be able to catch up. Â He didnât necessary intend to stop them. Â Perhaps if they wed, the family could finally have a little peace.
He took off immediately only stopping to rest the first time when he reached Aubrey Hall because he was famished and exhausted. Â He knew he could find Eloise and Benedict there and if there was anyone whoâd know how to find them it would be that pair.
He found them in the drawing room.
Eloise was face first in a book and Benedict was drawing.  He briefly caught sight of it and found it a bit⌠somber but now wasnât the time to focus on that.
âWhat are you doing here?â Â Eloise asked.
âI own this home,â Anthony said after a moment. âBesides, I needed rest and reinforcements. Â Colin and Penelope have gone missing and my top suspicion is that theyâre headed to Scotland.â
Benedict stiffened, struggling to keep his face impassable while Eloise looked alarmed at the news from London.
âYou should just let them go,â Benedict said after a moment.
âIâm not planning to stop them,â he said with a sigh. âIâm mostly planning to drag them back home so our mother can murder them for not having the decency to inform someone of their intent as my wedding gift.â
âColdstream Bridge,â Eloise said after a long moment. âLady Whistledown mentioned it recently. Â She was talking about â well, it was an elopement for a young Earl who fell in love with someone and couldnât bear to await a special dispensation.â
Benedict was on his feet, grabbing his coast before there could additional discussion of it. Â Anthony exchanged a glance with Eloise before shrugging.
âSo much for rest,â Â he grumbled before following him.
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When youâre home sick and decide you didnât write enough angst over the weekend. We all have characters who love to hurt us and apparently I have mine. Â
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A Different Ending |Â 6/?
Chapters: 6/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Â Only be forewarned that this is an AU from the Adrift saga but Colin actually died in this one, so if heâs mentioned heâs actually gone.
Relationships: Benedict Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington (past feelings), Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Â Daphne Bridgerton/Simon Hastings
Characters: Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Benedict Bridgerton, Daphne Bridgerton, Anthony Bridgerton
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Penadict (do we have a ship name yet?)
Summary: Â There were some requests for an alternate/Parallel word to "Bridgerton's Adrift" where Benedict and Penelope actually did get married. So this is the result of that peer pressure.
It had been a touch mortifying for the entire family to be aware of his private marriage life but at least they werenât questioning that Penelope was happy anymore. He felt semi-smug in the fact that heâd actually been able to draw that side of Penelope out. He was thankful that in the heat of the moment his brother had been the least of his thoughts. Â Based on the fact it had been his name of her lips, he was pretty sure that he hadnât been on hers either.
It hadnât just been a satisfactory or okay experience for him either. It had been good; So good in fact that he nearly scandalized his mother by apologizing off shortly after the biscuits were returned, saying that they were tired from their travels and needed to depart so that they could rest. Benedict had very little intent of letting her rest.
While he did take the time to show her the modest space theyâd spend the next few months of their marriage while they awaited their forever home to be built, he wasted little time excusing her to their bedroom and stealing her away from the bloody gowns that sheâd been tormenting him in for weeks. He spent every single second of the night making up for the fact heâd deflowered her in his motherâs kitchen by exploring every single inch of her flesh multiple times over.
He was somewhere between a nap and worshipping her creamy thighs when the knocking began. Â He was bleary eyed, gaze seeing the first hints of sunlight coming in through the curtains.
âBen,â she murmured.
âThey should know better,â he muttered, pressing a delicate kiss there. He sounded half-asleep and gruff. He could very well kill whoever thought this was an appropriate time to call. Â âTheyâll go away.â
They didnât go away though and the pounding seemed to get louder, more incessant. He was pretty sure that he heard screaming â
âThatâs Anthony,â Penelope said sitting up, concern displayed across her flushed features. âSomethingâs wrong.â
Benedict hated the fact that she was probably right. Anthony certainly knew better than to come bother him. Â Heâd teased him after all about married life certainly making him for fun. Â He pushed himself up, stumbling a bit to tug on some trousers. He was still tugging a shirt over his head as he opened the door.
Anthonyâs hand nearly met his fist. Â Once glance at his older brother and he knew something was very wrong and he tried to not let his mind go to worst case scenarios. Something was wrong with Daphne and the baby or maybe it was their mother. Â They had a strange scared experience with death and he just knew from the countenance on his face that someone was.
âThey found him,â Anthony said sounding shell-shocked.
Benedict nearly the previous last nightâs supper at those words, instantly knowing what that meant for his family and for him. Â He had to put a hand on the door to keep himself up right.
âFound who?â a voice said from behind him.
Anthony and Benedict exchanged glances before their gaze moved back to Penelope who was wrapped in a robe. This was menâs talk. It wasnât something that either particularly wanted to drag her into. Â Benedict also knew that he couldnât lie and yet he felt mute.
âColin,â Anthony said after a long moment, the word shaky. Â Heâd been presumed dead for months. Â Whatever was there probably didnât resemble Colin at all. Â They had gone through all the processes. Theyâd mourned, theyâd gone through the necessary funeral rights and theyâd assumed whatever was left of him remain at the bottom of the sea. Â Theyâd been wrong.
Her mouth opened slightly but she didnât speak at that. The way she curled her arms around herself, stepped away from them made all those fears that had kept Benedict from acting on his growing feelings come racing up to the forefront and there was little he could do about it.
âThey need me to identify the â him,â Anthony said trying to keep it together. It was pretty clear that the news hadnât just arrived. When it had arrived in the night, Benedict couldnât be sure but he was fairly sure that this unnerved Anthony was what heâd managed to come up with after being armed with several drinks. Â He desperately wanted one himself at this point.
It was clear why he was there now. Anthony didnât have to verbalize it for Benedict to know. He couldnât go and do that alone. Â Theyâd been through too much when theyâd lost their father. Â This was a trauma too far for the eldest Bridgerton. Benedict wasnât sure he could handle this either but there wasnât much choice in it.
âWeâll go then,â he told him simply.
He silently left Anthony standing there, long enough to find his boots and a jacket. Â He quietly gave Penelope a kiss to the top of her head, almost afraid of what the state of his marriage would be when he returned.
In an instant, he was at Anthonyâs side and off they went to handle the task no one was interested in.
--
The body had been kept boxed away at the harbor. Â Theyâd been warned that it would be shocking to their systems but theyâd been unprepared. Benedict was certain the smell of death was never going to leave his nostrils. Decomposition had already started in on what flesh hadnât been eaten by sea creatures. Anthony openly retched at the sight and he wasnât far behind him.
The task was done though. It looked nothing like Colin. Â It was mostly skeletal at this point but there was some skin that had been protected by the cold water and the winter months. Â They had found a birthmark in some it and that was the thing that they pointed out, to see if it was familiar. Â It had been. There was no question who had they had.
Colin, or what remained of him, would be sent to the family tomb without much adieu since everything that could be done had been done. Â All this meant was that he could finally be at rest. Â Somehow, it didnât feel like rest though. Â It all seemed unfair.
Anthony was in no state to be alone after identifying their brother so they went to the club and shared a few drinks like they always had when they were all bachelors together. Before there had been ABC there had been AB. Â Anthony had always been the one who kept it together, lead without fear but Benedict had seen just how vulnerable his brother was.
âWhen I die, keep it simple,â Anthony told him over. The words were a bit slurred but Benedict knew he meant it. Â Anthony had spent the greater part of an hour going over his plans and requests for a day that Benedict prayed to never experience much less soon to occur. Benedict let him.
âWeâre planning on going to Aubrey Hall soon,â he had added. Â âMother wants to make sure that I close the deal on a marriage. Â I always thought that you and Colin would provide potential heirs to everything so I wouldnât have to. Â Eloise said things werenât going well â you and Penelope seem to be doing fine though. I worried though-â
Benedict was pretty sure he needed to cut Anthony off now.
âI thought that Eloise said that there was a potential match,â he said choosing to redirect the conversation away from his marriage and his potential to produce a Bridgerton heir all together. Â
âEdwina Sheffield,â he announced with none of the enthusiasm that should be anticipated at the prospect of a marriage match.
Benedict half-expected him to go into detail on her finer assets and why she was going to be a great bride but he didnât. Â It wasnât someone he was familiar with since heâd been away and missed the start of the season. Â He could only assume heâd meet his brotherâs future bride soon enough.
âYou do know that youâre allowed to be happy right?â Â Benedict asked after a long moment. Â Perhaps, it was something that he should have been willing to hear himself.
Anthony didnât exactly respond to that. Â The brooding only intensified.
It was going to be a long night.
--
Benedict could barely walk straight by the time he departed his brother who said he could find his own way home. Â He had a sneaking suspicion he was going to find his way to one of this many flings. Â He was so tired he was nearly delirious.
It was dark when he let himself in. Â He moved toward his bedroom, prepared to check on his wife before slipping to try and get the stench of death, sex and booze off him. Â The sound of Penelope sobbing startled him. The sight of her curled on her side of the bed, clutching her pillow hit him hard.
He kicked off his shoes before climbing in, arms curling around her from behind in hope that he might ease distress. She hadnât apparently heard him come in through since she froze.
âIâm here,â he told her quietly, prepared to stroke her hair and hold her as long as was necessary to help her be okay again. Â He was surprised when it only made her cry all the harder.
It took everything within him to not cry right along with her after the day that heâd had but he knew someone had to keep it together.
âI thought you werenât going to come back,â she said after a long moment as if he deserved an explanation for it.
He couldnât help but laugh when she said it. Heâd thought she was crying about Colin being found or maybe because she regretted consummating their marriage. Â The fact that she thought for a second that he was going to leave and not come back hurt him though.
âIâm sorry,â he said once he caught himself. She was in distress after all and laughing wasnât the right way to go. Â âIâm not leaving you though not as long as itâs within my power.â
âI didnât mean to react the way I did this morning,â she said as if to offer some explanation. âI saw the look on your face and then it was getting late and I â I didnât think you were coming back.â
Benedict pressed a kiss into her hair.
âI was worried about you,â he told her. Heâd promised to always be honest and he supposed he owed her to be as much.  âI wasnât sure what today would mean for us.  Not just what Anthony and I had to do but ⌠everything that came before it.  It didnât change the way I feel about you.â
She turned around slightly at that. Â Her eyes were red-rimmed but he was grateful to see that she wasnât actually still sobbing.
âIt didnât change how I feel about you either,â she told him softly. Â There was a pause and a sniff that followed and she made a face.
âSuch harsh criticism,â he said with a laugh, pecking at her lips before releasing her and climbing back to his feet. âIâll be back after my hygiene is back up to your high standards.â
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Omg đđđđ I let out a giggle that I havenât heard since I was 15 lol
These fools had me clutching my pearls and then laughing at them. Iâm glad you enjoyed it.Â
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A Different Ending |Â 5/?
Chapters: 5/?
Fandom: Bridgerton
Rating: M
Warnings: Â Only be forewarned that this is an AU from the Adrift saga but Colin actually died in this one, so if heâs mentioned heâs actually gone.
Relationships: Benedict Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington, Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington (past feelings), Â Eloise Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington(besties), Â Bridgerton Family Dynamics, Â Daphne Bridgerton/Simon Hastings
Characters: Â Penelope Featherington, Eloise Bridgerton, Benedict Bridgerton, Daphne Bridgerton,
Additional Tags: Â Bridgerton, Penadict (do we have a ship name yet?)
Summary: Â There were some requests for an alternate/Parallel word to "Bridgerton's Adrift" where Benedict and Penelope actually did get married. So this is the result of that peer pressure.
Eloise had always been the kind of sister who didnât hesitate to tell him precisely how it was and apparently Penelope had sought advice on their marriage from her. Benedict couldnât help but cringe as he read the latest from his sister, addressed strictly to him where she railed on him for mistreatment of her very best friend and sister. It actually hurt his feelings a bit to think that Eloise would question his devotion or loyalty. Â It hurt even more to think that Penelope might think that the time he spent away, discussing the construction of their home and dealing with the bank was spent in the arms of some other woman. Â
They couldnât possibly understand where he was coming from with this. Â He had kept his promises. He literally wouldnât have been with another person even if the opportunity presented itself. He didnât want to be with anyone else either. He couldnât allow himself to be with Penelope in that way either though. Not yet. Â It was illogical but some part of him was afraid that if he let things progress beyond tentative kisses sheâd be picturing his brother. Â The thought was enough to keep him dodging advances that would have progressed their marriage.
He balled the letter from his sister in his hand, tossing it into a fire and watched it burn before moving from his study down the hall to where he knew he would find Penelope reading. Â It took some measure of strength to force down his feelings of inadequacy and keep a level head about him. Â Theyâd been married for weeks at this point and he had thought things were going well. Â He didnât want to inspire another letter from sister or worse his mother. Â That would be who came for him next.
âWeâre returning to London today,â he said after a moment, using the door frame to hold up himself up. âI feel as though youâll have more to do there and weâll be closer to our families. Â The construction is set to begin anyways and itâll mean less time away from you while I monitor the progress.â
She looked up at him, nodded quietly as she closed her book. Â Her lips pursed and it was clear that her mind was working over something. Â She let out a hint of a sigh, giving him a glance that Benedict could swear was her looking right through him.
âEloise had no right to meddle,â she said after a long moment confirming his suspicion that she really could read him. Â He hadnât planned to mention the fact heâd just been scolded by his sister but there she was saying it. Â âIâm happy with you. Â I was just â well, I understand completely that I might have overstepped.â
Benedict shook his head. Â Penelope clearly didnât see everything and a part of him was grateful for it. He wasnât quite sure he could handle her knowing all his inner workings and feelings, especially if she didnât return them. Â He was a romantic at the end of the day and the unconventional life that heâd always wanted stood before him. Â He was absolutely terrified of allowing himself to love her only to find out she didnât love him back.
âItâs not that at all,â he said pushing himself forward enough so to allow himself to place his hands over hers. Â âItâs much more complicated than all of that.â Â He didnât know how to explain it without exposing himself completely though. Â Once he spoke his heart, there would be absolutely no walking it back. Â âEloise is just looking out for you. Â She know that youâre not fully happy that youâd much rather have been married to ââ
Penelope did not let him finish that season.
âDonât you dare suggest that,â she said in a tone he hadnât heard before. Â Sure, sheâd had her moments when he was trying to get her to accept his proposal but sheâd never used this angry-hurt tone at him before. Â It felt like a punch to the gut. Â The fact that Colin had been dead for months now and factored into every little aspect of their lives, even what was distinctly starting to feel like a fight, infuriated him in a way that he felt wrong for feeling at all.
âBut we both know itâs true,â Benedict said before he could stop himself. âIf Colin hadnât run away instead of dealing with his feelings, we wouldnât be right here. You wouldnât have even remotely considered a proposal from me.â
âYou wouldnât have made one,â she said right back as if it were fact.
Benedict wanted to argue that she wasnât right but he didnât know. He couldnât possibly know if he would eventually grown as close to her as he had even with Colinâs presence. Â It didnât matter when he just knew who she would have chosen.
âI donât knowâ thatâs not fair,â he said after a long silent moment.
âItâs the truth and we both know it,â she said barely holding back suppressed tears that made him want to draw into a hole. Benedict had not sought to make her cry. The fact she removed her hands from his didnât help. âYou only did this because of pity and because I was the lesser of all the evils your mother would have pushed on you. Iâm certainly better than Cressida Cowper but you can barely kiss me. Â Thatâs fine but at least admit it and donât insult me by suggesting that Iâm the one who wouldnât have chosen you.â
Benedict didnât care about how he had felt before. The only thing that mattered to him was where heâd ended up and he had wanted to marry her. Not because she was the lesser of a bunch of evils or because he wanted to save her from a cruel world where she there was a solid chance sheâd be a spinster. Â He had developed feelings and the fact that theyâd spent nearly every waking moment together for weeks until he panicked because it was becoming too real.
âIâm sorry,â he murmured.
He wanted to pull her close and tell her the truth but he just shook his head, left her alone in their room. Â He wasnât normally the sort of violence but he needed to scream, to break something and if he didnât leave now he was going to do it in front of her. He wasnât even mad at her. He was mad at himself and his grief and resentment over his brother was pulling out needing release.
--
Things werenât okay. That much was clear in the fact that she wouldnât look at him and barely spoke to him in their travels back to London. Â Theyâd never had a true fight before and he didnât like it one bit. Â It felt like there was a crater between them. There was going to be no hiding it away until he figured out how to fix it either.
His mother had all but insisted that they join the family for dinner when that night instead of sorting it out at his former bachelor pad. Â Truth be told he didnât have much of an appetite, especially since he knew he was going to be raked over the coals by the females of the household. He felt certain that theyâd pick up on the fact Penelope was keeping him at armâs length.
They didnât though. It was kind of funny how he braced himself to be attacked for being the worst husband in the history of the Ton only to have Penelope put on the performance of the lifetime. Â He watched waiting for a crack between the friendly catch up with Eloise and the stories of unsuitable suitors that his mother had attempted to introduce combined with the stories of eligible women practically throwing themselves at Anthony who apparently had decided to court someone.
After dinner when everyone was winding down with their drinks or desserts, he felt his breath catch when his mother casually suggested that she could certainly go for another round of knotted orange biscuits from the kitchen and Penelope said sheâd do it. Â All eyes immediately went on him and he knew what the suggestion was.
âIâll come help,â he said following behind her dutifully.
He trailed behind her until they were in the abandoned kitchens. The staff always left plenty of extras to be had just in case someone desired a late night snack. Â There was usually someone trying to find an extra nibble of sweets into the late night hour.
âGrab a plate then,â she said sneaking the first four words directly to him since their little argument earlier in the day.
He dutifully grabbed one and watched as she grabbed enough biscuits for the whole crew of present Bridgertons to snack on. Â He then moved behind to attempt to grab it from her but when she turned around, there he was and there wasnât that much space between them and the counter.
In her surprise at the proximity, the plate of biscuits went spiraling to the floor. The fine porcelain shattered into a million pieces, causing quite a clattered. Â Their eyes locked and Benedict knew he was done for right then and there. Â He couldnât even remember how or why theyâd fought to begin with. All he knew was that his hands were on her hips, pulling her up to sit on a counter as if it was nothing and his mouth was on hers in seconds.
He knew that things were going to be alright when she was returning the kiss, legs wrapping around him to pull him closer. Â Her hands clutched into made quick work of removing his jacket and he didnât exactly stop her, especially when his own need felt so urgent.
Benedict really hoped that no one was foolish enough to come see what had delayed them because it wouldnât end pleasant.
âIâm sorry,â he managed against her lips. Â He wasnât sure if he was sorry for the fact theyâd fought or the fact that he was definitely going to be having his wife in the family kitchen while his family sat wondering what was keeping the biscuits. Â Heâd certainly imagined that when and if this did happen, heâd take his time with her but there would be other times for that.
Penelope wasnât exactly dissuading this course of action either, especially not when she was clearly pushing at his suspenders and tugging his shirt loose of his trousers. No, it only encouraged him to push the various layers of fabric that made up her dress until he found some skin and then welcoming warmth that he hardly stopped himself from exploring with his hands.
The sound that came out of Penelope at the introduction of a single digit nearly made him come undone. Even if it was muffled against his mouth, he was fairly sure that that if there was anyone in proximity to the kitchens theyâd have heard it. Heâd never quite noticed the echo of the room before. Â He wasnât quite coherent enough to think when was so warm and tight there.
His older hand found hers, leading it to the buttons of his trousers. Â He could certainly do it himself but sheâd been doing a decent enough job of leading him down this path so she might as well be responsible for getting them the rest of the way. Â He openly groaned when he felt the fabric give away and the cold air touch him and her hand curl around him like she almost knew what she was going. Â Yeah, he definitely wasnât going to last long. Â
âIâll stop if it hurts,â he murmured against her lips, moving to her neck for a moment as he removed his hand and used his other hand to position himself. Â He forced himself to take it slow, mindful that she wasnât as experienced as him and she was his wife. Â He did actually want to think about her pleasure and not just his own.
âDonât you dare,â Â Penelope warned him and he couldnât help but laugh, especially when he pushed the rest of the way and she let out a noise so loud that he could only prayer the rest of the family didnât hear. Â For now, he was going to have to muffle her mouth with his own.
One hand was set gripped firmly at her hip the other, the other moved between them touching her as he if his life depended on bringing her over the edge with him. Â If their first time together was to be frantic and quick, he still felt obligated to make sure it was good for her. The urgent way her name had taken to her lips made it clear he was succeeding at that.
When he felt her stiffen against him, her hands clutching him slightly that was all he needed to let go himself his hips jutting several more before his release. The tension heâd been feeling melted away. Â He found himself smiling despite himself and he leaned it to press less needy kiss against her lips then her forehead.
âWeâre going to be okay, yeah?â he asked breathlessly.
âI hope so,â she told him honestly.
He decided to help her down to reconfigure her clothing, mindful of the broken porcelain before he decided to try his luck for a round tree. Â He sheepishly pieced himself back together after cleaning himself up. Â Â What a mess theyâd made.
Aside from a few lose curls, Penelope looked shockingly less suspicious than him, especially when she took to cleaning up the mess of biscuits and broken pieces with a broom. Â He helped her maneuver it to the bin before they could wash their hands.
They grabbed another plate, refilled it with what was left of untarnished biscuits. Â Benedict tried to keep a straight face as they entered back to the family after an inappropriately long trip the kitchen.
âI hope we didnât keep you waiting too long,â Penelope said in her kindest voice toward Violet as she set them down.
The fact that literally no one in the room could meet their eye made it clear they knew what the delay had been. Â Benedict wasnât sure who was more pink him or his wife.
âNewlyweds,â Hyacinth said making a face.
That only served to set off a chain of laughter.
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