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None pills this weekend. It was nice to really eat, even be able to overeat a bit. Monday I did take one. Was planning on taking two yesterday but one was enough. I was dehydrated as fuck though but thats more because we only got one break in 4 hours. I don’t have a blatter that big so drinking wasn’t an option. 

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All jokings aside, writing this really fucking helps me not to accidentally take two pills because I forgot whether or not I took one. I already put my bottle in a larger bottle, but that didn't help 100% of the time either. I hope this keeps working.

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Took none pills yesterday. So proud. Not really, got nothing done.

Today one pill, AND EARLY. Rest of the days 1 pill

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Shit. This has been a week. Took 2 pills on both thursday and friday. Rest of the week 1 pill. Saturday nothing. Today 1 pill Tryin to average this to 1 pill a day. Not sure if I wanna skip tomorrw or not

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Saturday was pretty heavy, had a fight, took 1 pill, had some exercise but not as much as I wanted

Yesterday was much better. Didn’t need to take a pill. Cleaned a lot of my clutter. Ended up with two empty boxes, 1 trashbag, and 2 bags of stuff to give away :)

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Today I did little work, had lots of anxiety and took no pill. I did, however, eat half a pound of beef, drank some apple cider and lay in bed for half an hour to ride it out. Then I actually started on my work. For half an hour. Next I took a walk in the snow to conquer my fear of being stuck in the house because it's slippery as FUCK

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So much harder to work at home. It’s like two in the morning and all I did was move around triangles in powerpoint. Granted, they are very important triangles.

1 pill today even tho I feel I should be able to do without. Today. Somehow.

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Today I’ve used my pill in the most efficient way: right at the start of my post lunch dip (around 2).

While it is tempting to use it right away, using energy drink first is far more efficient since that provides only a temporary boost. However, combined with bread I won’t notice the sugar crash as much. While using dex as early as possible will reduce overal anxiety, it’s not very efficient when I’m trying to work

And not getting my work done gives me MOUNTAINS of anxiety. So I guess its worth it?

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great day yesterday, 1 pill but got a lot dehydrated. I need to learn to recognize it. I’m not too good recognizing thirst normally but on dex it's kinda critical to.

Apparently, my eyes get sunk? My eyes also hurt and my head hurts and I feel tired. It's just so stupid that my body can’t work normally.

Today no dex. I feel fine. Maybe a little hungrier than normal but not by much.

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The ginger & tumeric thing is actually okay tea. Turns out I still had an old teabag in the previous pot. Take it from me, have more than 1 flavor is extremely nauseating, even if they’re variants with the same base. 1 pill for me today. Time to enjoy the positive effect of amphetamines that include reduced hunger.

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In other news I am finaly wear a vest that isnt the one I’ve been wearing for the last months. It is so tight. Does it even fit? I know the other vest was way too big but jesuschrist I dont even have a bra on.

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Great, now I have anxiety ABOUT taking medicine that causes anxiety. But taking it early in the day reduces the amount of anxiety I eventually get from it

YOU SEE MY PROBLEM?

ho well tehregoes 1 pill

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Today was okay

Obsessively cleaned the vacuum cleaner. Actually finished my work. Wish it wouldntrain so hard tomorrow so I could work somewhere else than at home

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Didnt actually have to take two yesterday yay. So today I can take one instead of none.

#dexpills

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One animal: I AM TRAPPED IN A NEVERENDING LOOP NAD MUST ESCAPE AT ALL COSTS. I WILL CHECK ALL THE CORNERS BECAUSE I CAME IN AT A CORNER --> fucking annoying to analyze

Other animal: lmao fuck this shit am sitting still for 20 minutes and will be transported by the TUBE willingly --> no fucking test data These are all wild animals btw.

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My tea tastes like toilet spray smells. TF is Or­ga­nic gin­ger & tur­me­ric. WHERE IS THE GINGER

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No actually all domesticated animals look liek someones OC. Like fuck u you arent so special just because your momma’s womb decides your super special spots all over your fucking fat body.

Have a decent fuyckingpattern just like normal animals jesus crhist