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intrepidustm · 10 months

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at this point, marina had the patience of an angel and was taken aback by the sudden hiss in claire’s tone—though she could have just imagined it for all she knew. the woman didn’t judge claire for the bitterness directed toward her ex-husband, he who shall not be named. she may not know the whole story... but claire had her undivided support. marina, too, had been brokenhearted by her previous partners and was able to move on. how? she questions herself every day, but her kids were the sole purpose of becoming a single mom. she didn't need a man. “wait. so you’re telling me he didn’t take the exit and instead was supportive through it all. yet he was the one to cause you pain.” she hated the man, and it pained her to see the tears flowing from her friend’s eyes. the way claire was thinking wasn’t right... though she made a good point. people could just be digging for gossip for all she knew. “you care A LOT about what people think, and society is partly to blame for that,” marina stated with gritted teeth. upon hearing claire admit what she recently had done by BEGGING him back was the last thing she wanted to hear; it took her a while to break the silence between them. “i can see why you think that, but it couldn't have been further from the truth—love makes us do stupid shit and react blindly. on the surface, you’re a talented composer! you’re beautiful, indeed; on the surface, you look fine, but you’re hurt. it’s gonna take time to move on, and you will. okay?” she paused, sighing. “you’re not fucking ugly, claire. you better quit talkin’ like that about yourself. they may not realize it, but men like to do that shit by knocking women’s self-esteem down into the ground.”

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"he gets fucking everything he wanted, it seems then feels the need to post it on the internet?" the woman almost hissed at marina as she could feel something inside her override everything. claire was attempting to try build herself back up - a change of scenery with the hope of reassuming her role as conductor from the leave of absence she still hadn't acknowledged out loud. she'd ended up in the hospital despite her trying for him and it made her incredibly upset. "i asked him whether it was a 'dealbreaker', i gave him a chance for an opt-out option and he did fuck all with it. he was fucking supportive." tears streaming down her face, the woman wiped her eyes then gripped on to the counter top. "people are asking me and we barely speak. that's not checking up on me, that's digging. bet they're really so glad that things have finally caught up to me, i suppose." her self-esteem had plummeted since she'd been told about it all. "marina, i have to be honest with you. i begged him to take me back on multiple occasions, some times recently." claire was so embarrassed by that but she didn't know what else to do. seeing that photo was confirmation it was over - it spoke a thousand words to her. "he's just made me question a lot of things." her ability to be loved, her ability to love, her ability to work, as well as her ability to even take the underground. "i feel like a surface level person. surface level, i'm absolutely fine but underneath, i'm just... ugly."

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#shallowstm #👀 *cough* i rambled big time *cough* 👀

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intrepidustm · 11 months

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“i know exactly how you’re feeling right now. trust me.” to have a deadline and a script to write in a matter of time was always an unnecessary hassle. marina did not like to be rushed at all, but she lived for her job. thank goodness it was rare for her to run out of ideas. “honey, i’d rather have you go to the cinema than do that, so don’t even think about it.” she said as she waved her finger around and toward them.

location: bluebird cafe

status: open! ( @nottinghillstarters )

“i have never struggled with a piece as much as i’ve struggled with what i’m currently working on.” val was clearly defeated, their body practically thrown back into their chair as the waitress sets their food in front of them. their fingers wrapped around their fork, gaze lifting to meet their friend’s. “i swear, i’m ready to pull a van gogh.”

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#urbnlgnds

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intrepidustm · 11 months

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marina was probably in the same situation as the other. it’d been a while since she read something new, different for a change. “i’m afraid i don’t... but if you don’t mind me asking what you’ve read, then maybe i can give you options. all i’ve been reading at the moment is anything supernatural-related, though i’m not too sure if you’d be interested in that.” a soft chuckle escapes from her lips.

open starter for @nottinghillstarters. location: next chapter bookstore

Julian travelled down along the corridor of shelves, they weren't sure what they wanted, a new book that was as far as they knew but now the question was what they wanted to read. They turn to the other." Do you have any recommendations? There's so many option I'm not sure where to begin."

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#saudadexmses #eye contact tw

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“oh no, what happened?” the woman was inquisitive. “i don't trust these dating apps that kids are into nowadays. what kind of person did you run into?” marina air-quoted with the word she emphasized.

badger and boar pub w/ @nottinghillstarters

“the next time i say i should give a dating app a chance, remind me about tonight.”

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#pullumtendies

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intrepidustm · 11 months

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knowing full well what a piece of shit claire’s ex-husband was, there has to be a way to get claire back on her feet... however, marina didn’t know how to yet. “there’s one sole thing that i don’t want you to do, and you know what that is.” the woman didn’t even give her a second to answer. “you are NOT going to blame yourself, that’s what; and NO, you didn't blow it.” she knew how hurt claire was and wanted to do everything in her power to stop it—though time will only tell. at the end of the day, no matter how long her pain would last, it was never going to be her fault. marina also stood up and followed claire to the counter. it was frustrating seeing her like this. if there was an ounce of integrity in the man, then maybe claire wouldn’t be feeling this way. “you’re gonna have to deal with it at some point. even if it feels like you’re drowning—there’s nothing wrong with having people check in and see how you’re doing, claire. it may seem like a shit show now, but the man isn’t worth mentioning.” she sighed, taking a breath. “it’s out there, but do you want me to go harley quinn on him?” marina asked jokingly, trying to make her feel better or change the subject.

he had got what he had 'wanted'. seeing that photograph of the three of them on her feed without warning made her see red but hurt quickly followed. "he could have just-" the man didn't even tell her the truth when they were married so she felt she was foolish to thing he'd give her the courtesy of telling her when he was going public with it. straightening her back with her hands making their way to her thighs, claire shook her head before standing up. "i blew it." begging him not to leave, to come up with solutions for them to get past it wasn't her weakest moment and she had thought she'd been over it until she'd seen that photograph. "and people are coming to my messages and texting me about it, that they had no idea, if i'm okay and i don't want to deal with it." leaning against the counter, claire shook her head once more. "it's a fucking shit show and it's got to me." that was the second time she'd admitted it to anyone, that the situation was causing her a lot more hurt than she was letting on. "you can't do anything. it's out there, now."

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#shallowsfm

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intrepidustm · 11 months

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“believe me when i say this, but if i used to do snowboarding, then you can most likely skateboard.” marina had an encouraging smile on her face as she spoke to the younger woman. “maybe a bright, glittery pink skateboard would do the trick.” the older woman stated as she raised a brow.

open starter / location: skate me out tonight (@nottinghillstarters)

pari looks up at the wall of skateboards in front of her, "could you see me skating?" she asks the other. "maybe i'd get into it, if i could have a pink skateboard" pari had always been a girly girl, with pink being her favourite colour.

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#backpockct

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the other’s remark made her assume that she was missing out on something... special? peeking through her sunglasses, it was evident that she’d only been in certain areas of the market. “honestly, i’ve skipped out on fridays —- so what’s good about the antiques? are they meh or quality worth buying?”

open starter for @nottinghillstarters location: portobello market

"I love seeing all the stuff people have here," Davis peered through his sunglasses, the sun relentless. "Have you ever been here on Fridays when they sell antiques?"

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#drcamland

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whenever marina was giving someone company, she ALWAYS made sure to sit next to them. she doesn’t know why but it was a way to say: you’re not alone. in the corner of her eye, she had a hint that something or someone was bothering claire, but she hadn’t seen the tears yet. at this point, marina mindlessly scrolled through her phone and only looked up when claire spat and forcefully placed the phone on the coffee table and took that as a signal to take a look... so she did. softly grabbing claire’s phone, having a look-see, and not a single word escaped from her mouth yet. that shithead, she thought. “honey,” marina whispered, “if i could do anything for you right now, what would it be?” this was quite possibly a failed attempt to make her think of something else.

@intrepidustm / claire's apartment with marina

it was rare that claire cried in front of anyone but marina being with her when she'd seen the photo wasn't something that could be avoided. the woman stared at the screen, unable to take her eyes off it even though she felt the upset building. there they were, the three of them, announcing it on social media stating how happy and grateful they were when it came to their newly found family. the woman went pale as tears welled in her eyes; the tears fell when she'd seen her direct messages were full of sympathy messages, or people being angry that she hadn't mentioned it. "what is this shit?" she spat as she forcefully placed her phone on the coffee table so marina could see. of course, it wasn't a post directed at her but when she was hurt, claire would take things personally.

#。 * ♡ ◜ ˚ 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐙 ┊ scenarios.#shallowsfm

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⸻ have you heard of SWEET DREAMS (ARE MADE OF THIS) by eurythmics, well, it describes MARINA HEINZ to a tee! the fifty-three year old, and SCREENWRITER & PRODUCER was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say SHE is more WORRISOME or more UNORTHODOX instead? anyway, they remind me of sleepless nights, blazers worn with a pair of jeans, fringe hair with colorful highlights every now and then, lone trips to the cinema, and frequently traveling on their own, maybe you’ll bump into them soon! [ FRANKIE / SHE/HER / 26 / CST / INSECTS LOL ]

» BASICS.

𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄. marina christiane heinz

𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄(𝐒). ina, mari, mina, ri & rina

𝐀𝐆𝐄. fifty-three ( 53 )

𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇. 18th of february, 1970

𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍. aquarius

𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇. los angeles, california

𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄��𝐎𝐖𝐍. stuttgart, germany

𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. bisexual + demi-romantic

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 + 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒. cis woman + she ┊ her ┊ hers

𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘. american ╱ german ╱ british

𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐓𝐘. white european — ( german )

𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐈𝐎𝐍. monotheistic ╱ roman catholic ( raised & agnostic )

𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐔𝐀𝐆𝐄(𝐒) 𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍. german & english

𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒. single

𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. london, england

𝐎𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. film producer & screenwriter

𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒. ❝ wealthy ❞

𝐄𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐋. high school diploma + bachelor’s degree in english & film studies

» APPEARANCE.

𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌. constance zimmer

𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓. 5 feet, 6 inches ┊ 156.2 centimeters

𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐑 + 𝐄𝐘𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐑. dark brown & green

𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐎𝐎𝐒. n/a

𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐑𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒. earlobes + cartilage

» FAMILIAL DETAILS.

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒. aurik & franziska heinz ( née voigt )

𝐒𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒. two sisters & three brothers

𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐍. two adult kids in their 20’s

𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐒. yes. tba.

𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒. maybe, maybe not.

» PERSONALITY.

𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐒. unorthodox, reliable, independent, humorous, hard-working, adaptable, magnanimous, optimistic, confident & enthusiastic.

𝐍𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐒. worrisome, blunt, hesitant, insecure, fickle, self-deprecating, sarcastic, judgmental, superstitious & impatient.

» BACKSTORY. TRIGGER WARNINGS: N/A

despite being born in the united states, MARINA WAS RAISED IN GERMANY since her early adolescent years. the heinz’s decision to move to europe wasn’t spontaneous. her parents just missed their hometown and decided to return to their home country. so, therefore, marina was enabled to learn german before she could even talk.

THROUGHOUT THE YEARS OF LIVING IN STUTTGART, any vernacular of the english language she knew had vanished from her memory since all she and her family spoke was german. she did take english courses in school... because why not? her extended family still lived in california while she was living life in europe. to get around, she had to know basic english and she wanted to become fluent... AGAIN.

MARINA HAD ALWAYS LOVED WATCHING MOVIES GROWING UP and desired to have a career in the film industry. she was an aspiring writer and made an effort in making her dreams become reality. after graduating from secondary school, she left for los angeles to study at the university of southern california.

prior to completing her degree and graduating from USC, marina had been an INTERN for a production company and a PERSONAL ASSISTANT for a couple of film productions—all while being a WAITRESS at a classy italian restaurant and a DOG WALKER for just about anyone within her proximity, in addition to the filthy rich. after all, she needed the money to be able to pay her tuition and piling debt that never got as bad as she thought it did. as a responsible adult, marina always paid on time ( for just about everything ), worked, and has worked through blood sweat & tears non-stop since she could remember.

although living in the united states, she settled in well because of her family in los angeles. for someone being constantly surrounded by them (cause let’s be honest, she’s a family-oriented woman 99.9% of the time) marina was independent [then and now] and hung out with cousins/friends/etc when she had free time... but that was almost a rare occurrence. always and forever a busy bee.

if she wasn’t working, marina would most likely be traveling on her own... maybe dragging friends with her so she isn’t too lonely. but she works 60+ hours/week, and working requires traveling. she’s always writing scripts that she sees all sorts of potential for, be it animation or not. camaraderie and trustworthiness are very important in collaborations... especially with imaginative/talented people.

in her mid-twenties, she was a first-time mother to a baby (gender tbd). juggling a career in the film industry and motherhood was never too easy. always being hard on herself and admitting she needed help, marina would leave them to two people she trusted to babysit with a weekly paycheck, or with as much money as she was able to because of bills, bills, bills; expenses, et cetera. a few years later and she’d give birth to her second; having two kiddos were enough for her... —— hence she tied her tubes asap but no one knows that.

diagnosed with an overthinking b*tch disorder ( jk! ), she has had a difficult time sleeping as of late, or the past few years if she was being honest with herself. she has relied on CBD and sometimes... melatonin... and has become dependent on sound machines to help her knock out for at least 6 hours.

when her kids were younger than ~ ten years old, marina made the decision to move her family of 3 to london in the early 2000s. the “MAN” that impregnated her with two kids was out of the picture... as a deadbeat dad obvs ( !!!! ) but that came as no surprise whatsoever. she didn’t mind being a SINGLE MOTHER but they did drive her mad at times.

i don’t know about you, local londoners, but she LOVES the rain, cloudy days (ftw!) and hates the heat despite having lived in california for a very, very long time. prefers cold weather to anything else... grew up snowboarding & almost became an olympian.

#nottinghillintro #eye contact tw

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