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remember when Glee had Santana get a boob job for no reason and it was a weird cruel way to make fun of Naya for getting one but she was always like fuck you these are the best things I ever bought I still look in the mirror and love them and when clips of her stripping on that show came out she was just like yeah I was young dumb and broke but at least I was hot and about her dumbass star tattoo I call it my the more you know star and I got when I was 17 I don't hate it but every time I see it I think oh Naya and when she performed I Don't Fuck With You on lip sync battle

we should all aspire to treat the things people try and shame us for like that

#naya rivera #wifey #this

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If you’re sad, that’s okay.

If you’re tired, that’s okay.

If you’re angry, that’s okay.

If you’re stressed, that’s okay.

If you’re anxious, that’s okay.

If you’re okay, that’s okay.

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I vividly remember being told to watch Glee when it aired. I refused. A year later, Oxygen played a marathon and I let it play in the background as I folded clothes with my mom. I was 16. I was watching Mattress and I thought to myself, “I’m never gonna watch this show seriously”. A few months went by and I had a friend tell me to watch the episode that was premiering after the superbowl - I said no. Then I did bc I wanted to tease her about it. I realized I had known Kevin from liking NLT before their split. I realized I knew Heather from also being a dancer (she was on one of my dance magazines and I knew she danced for Beyonce) and my interest was piqued. Then as I continued to watch the episode, Thriller/Heads Will Roll came up and although she wasn’t the main vocals on that song, Naya stuck out to me. Captivated me, almost, actually.

From that day forward, I decided to binge the show. Admittedly at first, I did not like Santana but there was just something so captivating about Naya. I continued to binge the show and the first episode that I watched live after that was “Sexy”. That episode touched me in a way because I had honestly been struggling with my sexuality at that time. The “friend” who had suggested I watched the super bowl episode was my first “girl friend”. I was so in denial at that time and insisted we be friends instead, and even when we were dating (it lasted about 6 months), I kept telling her I was “straight”. 

Santana was so real and raw in that episode and seeing the struggle that she had to come to terms with her sexuality really resonated with me. I always think back to that day when the shift happened and I went from disliking Santana to honestly seeing myself in her. I was a young teen woman in high school, struggling to come to terms with my sexuality, mad at the world and scared of what people would think of me because it was instilled in me that it wasn’t “right”. 

I don’t want to go into too much but from that day forward, but ever since that one episode on March 8. 2011, Santana had become my comfort character and Naya had become the one and only celebrity that I had latched on to or rather “stanned”, as they say. I watched every interview, knew about every pap shoot that got released, kept up with her social media - the list is infinite. I began to come to terms with who I was, accepted it and realized it was okay because of her. I met my first “real” girlfriend about 2 years later because of her. I made some of the closest friends that I’m still friends with to this day from “stan tumblr” because of her. When I turned 18, I got a shooting star on my foot (different variation), and a bow on the back of my neck because of her. I strongly believe I wouldn’t be the person that I am today, without her (or with what she and Heather brought to Brittana). I’m now 26 and as far removed as I had been from Glee since it ended (though I did feel so nostalgic over the past few months and watched her performances here and there), I found comfort in coming back on Tumblr and reminiscing on the good old days. I came back to Tumblr because it was the one place where I vividly remember being able to be a gleek and have a sense of belonging for so many years, and I found the same comfort now seeing some of the same people I’ve followed for years feel the same as I do. 

To Naya, it’s taken me days to come to terms that you’re no longer here. I remember seeing a tweet last Wednesday night when the news broke and my heart dropped. I thought it was a hoax. Oh, how I wish it was. As someone who likes to pride herself on being “emotionless”, and also considering the fact that I didn’t know you personally, it all feels so very personal. I’ve struggled for days trying to make sense of it all but I can’t. I went from denial, to acceptance to finally allowing myself to feel and grieve once we got the confirmation. You deserved so much better but I will always hold you close. Until next time, rest easy, Naya. 

#naya rivera #wifey #yeah i'm still tagging her as that #personal

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“keep watering yourself until you feel like you again.”

— iambrillyant

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“[Naya’s] like the funny ring leader. She’s sorta the one that’s always standing in the center of the group, making people laugh. People love her.” - Jonathan Groff

#naya rivera #wifey #aww im nostalgic

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Naya Marie Rivera (1987-2020) 🕊️

“When tomorrow starts without me and I’m not here to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today; While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me as much as I love you; And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.

When tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart; For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.” – David M. Romano.

Rest in peace, sweet angel. My heart and thoughts are with your family and friends, and all those fans you helped and touched with your art. May you rest in heaven. 

Hasta siempre, Naya.

#naya rivera #wifey #i will miss you terribly

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Don’t insult other women as a way to compliment me. I don’t like that.

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brighten!

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alex manes + color palettes — dreamless sleep

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Alice asked the Cheshire Cat, who was sitting in a tree, “What road do I take?” The cat asked, “Where do you want to go?” “I don’t know,” Alice answered. “Then,” said the cat, “it really doesn’t matter, does it?”

Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland (via bl-ossomed)

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Beyoncé & popular black dances in her performances.