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honestly, I think it’s very much a Tumblr thing, I still can’t put words to quite how immediate my decision was to download Tumblr to post the previous post – not to how incoherent I can pretty much guarantee the tags are (or were, rather), because of how the tag system works on mobile - and if it cuts me off in in a thought. . . you’d think I would be able to go through the text, right? Select something, backspace, any of that? No, no. Either - I don’t know, there might be some thing I’m missing - but even if there is, that really flies in the face of how user-friendly they try to be.

imo my experiences (well, my repeated experiences) are likely an accurate reflection of how it actually is on mobile and when you try to backspace or select anything and a tag that’s gone over the character limit it just deletes the whole damn thing. aside from the fact that it’s just really fucking irritating (and I imagine it is similarly an irritant to the neurotypical tbqh) do the people here not recall that a fantastic portion of the user base here is neurodivergent in at least one or more ways? Like I don’t know about y’all, but, after the first deleted tag attempt much less the fifth, I was starting to lose track of why i even wanted to make the post, forget the points I was trying to go for in the tags’ shadow talking. Hence, my ramble here now.

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So basically, in a case about him shoving money at someone so they shut up about him. . .he can’t shut the fuck up himself. I would say something clever and funny here, except the sad part is that this is just so normal in current politics that it’s just. . .not hilariously absurd behavior anymore? Not to say that it’s not absurd - it is beyond such, but it is just. . . predictable, I suppose.

I guess this is how I feel about politics lately? Either I get mad at everything or I try to laugh at everything and normally that works because politicians usually aren’t so tragically stupid so very often, but now I just kinda have to chuckle at the particularly eyeroll worthy things like this, and try to ignore everything else or my brain will explode.

#maybe that’s my biggest pet peeve about the current state of politics #Normally I like having discussions with people #of various mindsets and lifestyles and backgrounds #while my personal standpoint about many if not most political things is pretty solid. I also enjoy finding out more about things. #It’s always nice to learn more about things. #when it gets to a point like this or let’s be real-a point like where it got a few months ago when. More like a couple years ago honestly #There’s just so much. Too much. And two try to process all of it especially in a way such that one keeps up with useful discussion? oof. #I know I meant to do something else in these tags – something more specific – but at least on mobile #I just lost like three tags because the one I was working on hit 140 but when I was warned #I didn’t get to backspace or anything. I just kind of deleted the whole thing. #And in my confusion and attempt to undo what I had done #I managed to backspace a couple times and lose the finish tag above that one #and of course my first attempt at explaining that I had lost two tags turned into three tags because #I lost the first attempts that said two tags because it went over and yet again my attempt of not backspace this time #I just lost another two tags and then at this point I don’t even remember where I was going with this train of thought either #tl;dr: I wish I could take as much amusement from this as I want to but I can’t because shit like this is just so fucking normal #but hey it’s better than January 6 or trying to nuke a hurricane so I suppose I can live with it #right so I realize that I got to read all of the things I just typed in the page before this #so I did and while I have a laughable amount of nowhere near the fuck enough spoons #there’s a very good chance I am going to come back to this when I get on my iPad or PC #There’s also a very good chance I’m going to completely forget this post exists if not the app entirely #but given that I finally downloaded this on my actual phone instead of my tablet for the first time in years #And I just lost another fucking tag #this time naturally it had to be one with Contant that I remember as semantically important #but similarly naturally of course I don’t bloody well remember #right so I am going to go back to the stuff I was doing now cause I was doing stuff before I saw a Tumblr notification #which I didn’t actually look at at the time but but I can absolutely be sure that it was a hefty part of the reason why #when I found something that I wanted to post about and a context that had a larger audience and not just individuals #didn’t have FB/Reddit (tho lbr I would probably have a 6 foot nose if I tried to imply they were great social networks) #which goes back to seeing the tumblr notif & still having a big Nostalgia so. hi here i am

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holy shit these israeli propaganda ads lack self-awareness - ‘no country in the world would allow repeated threats to its existence’, huh?

the unholy fuck y’all think you’re doing to palestine?!?

#every time i see that shit my brain short circuits #i was just reading a perfectly good manhwa serial #then from the commercial break on the bob ross channel of all places that acts as my bg noise specifically cos it’s calming #‘oh no we’re getting attacked poor us’ #i swear it’s an instant fuckin rage spiral #maybe if you didn’t epitomize being given an inch and taking a mile since day one of us being allowed haven (which was problematic enough) #the rest of the region wouldn’t be so goddamn hostile #war in the middle east #israel #save palestine #jewish antizionism

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no idea but i both want to be their friend and am somewhat convinced that if that happened we’d manage to blow up a small country accidentally (but ofc both survive)

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come to think of it i volunteered at the nyc museum of natural history for a kids’ science day once and it was one of the most enjoyable and fulfilling experiences i can recall, i’m kind of stunned at how personally applicable this feels right now and very tempted to look into potential openings

so tyvm for this post cos while i identify it now as such an experience, i hadn’t recalled it in years til just now and now that i have, i feel very hope adjacent about the idea

I think the only person I've met in real life with 100% career satisfaction was this gal I knew who was a presenter at a children's science museum and delivered every line like she was running a WWE match. Every time you passed the room where she was giving a presentation, you'd hear something like "WHO'S READY FOR CEPHALOPODS?!?" and the kids would go absolutely nuts cheering.

#and i was about to exit the tumblr app too #this is why we scroll for our lives people

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it’s like i always say: fuck

#& on that note #i was actually doing things before i turned my ipad on for what shoulda been seconds to two step verify icloud on my new phone #before going /right back outside/ #i should do that now #(i’m totally betting with myself if i’ll be back in a couple hours or a couple years)

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reading this post didn’t exactly incline me to listen to the audio but for some reason I did anyway and holy shit was it worth it

“Call Me Maybe” with every other beat removed

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cannot watch the return of the king without thinking of that bad bootleg with the fucked up subtitles that said “this will be the end of Gender as we know it” instead of “this will be the end of Gondor as we know it”

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absolutely criminal how falling into bad habits is the easiest thing in the world while developing positive habits feels like fighting a literal war

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ok these are stupidly fuckin cute and you’re also really good with not only the my little pony style but making it into your own without wrecking the essence of it

[Stardew Valley] felt compelled to draw some ponies..

#stardew valley #my little pony

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jesus fuck i’ve thought about trying it so many times but always figured nahhhhh it can’t be all that. . .i’m about to hop on a bus to the nearest open pharmacy ngl

I'm taking st john's wort and it's drastically improved my mood and I'm annoyed because like. wow I've hated my life for a year tryign to summon energy to battle doctors and I could hjave just eated a pretty flower? well that's dumb how was I supposed to know that?

footnote if you try to eat the pretty flower check drug interactions: it's especially incompatible with hormonal contraceptives. this is not medical advice for anyone other than past me. maybe even then not, who knows how this will pan out.

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maybe the catfish got their fins on some of the last batch

demetrius: can someone do something about the catfish having nasty reproductive sex in the lake :(

pam: oughg i wannab get FFUCKEDD up on them potaters

#stardew valley

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i got here today because i had to unearth my ipad to sign into icloud on my new phone, and i now realize that i rly kinda missed tumblr.

but i honestly can’t decide if i missed it enough to install it on the phone i regularly use so i actually remember it exists since now i have the storage to spare, or i missed it enough that i should stay the fuck away at all costs

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friendly reminder that YOU 🫵 can make even the most relaxing innocuous activities into high stress situations if you’re mentally ill enough. always believe in yourself and your incapacity to conquer catastrophic thinking!

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tiktok is such an awful app, it's almost designed to feed you misinformation and expose you to insane discourse. unlike beloved tumblr, the app that feeds me misinformation and exposes me to insane discourse

#honestly not sure what’s better #charcuterie board of unhinged mutuals #or fair trade horseshit #either way #i’m deceased

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tumblr why would you do this to me i’ve been successfully staying off this game

#pokémon go