indecisivemoron

[indecisivemoron]

This is... Strange for me. I don't post... Basically at all. But I need somewhere to get this out of my system.

TW: MENTIONS OF SA/R@PE

It happened four days ago, on 14-12-2023.

I was at work. We were having an office braai (BBQ if you're not south African) and there was alcohol involved. Naturally, not wanting to stay out of the festivities, I had a few drinks.

Two drinks in and I already felt drunk.

This guy kept pouring and handing me drink after drink.

It's important to note that he had been harassing me/flirting with me/getting touchy with me since I started working there. I'm not the only one. There's another girl in the office - well just call her j - who frequently complained that he doesn't want to leave her alone. We have reported him a few times, but little was done about the situation.

Now, at the braai, he was feeding me drinks like I said, kept getting very touchy, standing by me. Usually I can handle my alcohol well, but I got blackout drunk. I think he may have been spiking my drinks.

Since I'm so drunk, I don't want to walk home alone like I usually do. He offers me a ride home and I accept.

He didn't take me home.

He took me to some secluded place in the bush... And raped me.

He took me home afterwards.

I passed out on the bed when I got home. I only realized what happened when I woke up sore and bleeding.

I don't remember most of it, just bits and pieces. Asked him what happened and I got comfirmation.

The bastard had the audacity to say it was the best sex he ever had. Told me not to worry, because he didn't come in me.

I took almost a full day to process what happened. I sent a message to my mom, explaining what happened.

She rushed from work and took me to the police station. We opened a case, went to the hospital and got a rape kit done (which was the most humiliating, dehumanizing experience other than the actual rape I've ever had). It took 3 hours.

When I was done, I heard from the officers that escorted us to the hospital that he was put in a holding cell.

He has his hearing today.

And now I'm here... At work. I never realised that after something like this happens you just... Go on with life? It feels like all I want to do is lay down and cry until I can't anymore, but I'm still expected to function like I did before.

I had to post this, get my story out and get it out of my system. Maybe find other people who've been through this hell, I don't know.

But yeah... That's pretty much it.

#sa survivor #Sa #R@pe survivor #R@pe