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Hey everyone. Just a reminder I'm back into my main account @imafatmannnnnnnn Please follow me there too! Thats where I am most active!

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My main account is back up and running please follow me @imafatmannnnnnnn

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still locked out of og account.....

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another 2 favorites

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I wonder how many celebrities do drugs to keep their figure????

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What the fuck. It's always something. Always. Fucking. Something. Swear to God I felt myself age today.

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I found my people!!!!!

there’s so many teens on here (heartbreaking), where are all my fellow oldies at? (I’m 25 lol)

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Feeling like a heifer. Idk who else struggles like this but here goes.....

I came back to edblr bc I was gaining a lot and fast. Then I was like all ana and dropped 10 lbs quick. Great. Loved it. Wanted more. Made the proclamations of what I was going to do. Did now of that but binged and started a horrible shame cycle. Also the short 5 week period made me anemic. To were my cheeks would hurt really bad. So now I'm all conflicted. I want to loose wt. But I don't want my health to suffer. So I'm really trying to eat 3 small meals a day to maintain my health. But I am finding I am over eating eating more often then not. This is were realistic fasting helps me. Bc if it's not too long of a fast I don't binge and my eating window is small so I don't eat as much but then I get the health problems. But I am getting health problems from being over wt too. Like sob and god only knows what else I can't see. It's a yo yo of insanity. I don't even know if any of this makes sense. I just miss my ortho but something gets in the way of me wanting to eat healthy and take care of myself. I think I know what it is but I guess time will tell.

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I love Nicole richie *Nikki Fresh* she's everything I want to be

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This is a really good point. I don’t think libraries have ever been more important to protect and support. As a very popular post out there somewhere once pointed out, can you imagine if libraries were proposed today? They’d be tossed away as “social garbage.”

So yeah, support them and actually USE your card too. Most library systems have apps for ebook borrowing so you don’t even have to go in.

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Fucking migraines

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Well I shopped and didn't but junk food. The urges are real but nothing changes if nothing changes and I have my meals planned for tomorrow and there's plenty of fruit and vegetables.

I had very real dreams last nights. About need a break but my break cause me to get gross. Where a dressing, feeling fat but slutty (and liking it?!!!!, the slut part). Getting shoes and them breaking. Needing a mom but mine unavailable. Being on a school field trip, getting separated from the group, being depressed af, and then trying to find them before they. Oh and the trip was at a mall, I was there before. Great. Oh and wanting to loose wt so bad and wanting to do it in an unhealthy way but loosing my hair (this part is actually really transparent with where I am at today). And now I feel just blah.

I wake up, wanting to cry. Wanting to be healthy, and loose the wt in a healthy way. Which I have done before and not upstanding why I can't have that now. Getting made at it. Then I want to starve but I getting getting hit with negative consequences. In particular hair. And I'm like, I want to be skinny. Not bald. Idk. So I will try to be healthy today which is really hard with my fuck it attitude. Then I'm like one last time of junk. But I couldn't tell yall the amount of last suppers I have had. Only good thing is I am meal planning today for the week and at least I'll load up on fruit and veggies. The plus is I did it more fruit this week. For me, it's a win.

Idk. Then I get mad I'm maintaining. But yet I don't know how I can be mad when I am maintaining. That's huge for me. But I want to loose. And I'm like, JUST. FEED. YOUR. BED. WITH. FRUITS. AND. VEGETABLES. Why is it so fucking hard. I've done it before. Twice. Felt fucking amazing. Amazing yall. Never hungry. Never counted calories. Never fasted. If I was hungry, I ate. But it's a hard core life style. May I read my health book more today.

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I had very real dreams last nights. About need a break but my break cause me to get gross. Where a dressing, feeling fat but slutty (and liking it?!!!!, the slut part). Getting shoes and them breaking. Needing a mom but mine unavailable. Being on a school field trip, getting separated from the group, being depressed af, and then trying to find them before they. Oh and the trip was at a mall, I was there before. Great. Oh and wanting to loose wt so bad and wanting to do it in an unhealthy way but loosing my hair (this part is actually really transparent with where I am at today). And now I feel just blah.

I wake up, wanting to cry. Wanting to be healthy, and loose the wt in a healthy way. Which I have done before and not upstanding why I can't have that now. Getting made at it. Then I want to starve but I getting getting hit with negative consequences. In particular hair. And I'm like, I want to be skinny. Not bald. Idk. So I will try to be healthy today which is really hard with my fuck it attitude. Then I'm like one last time of junk. But I couldn't tell yall the amount of last suppers I have had. Only good thing is I am meal planning today for the week and at least I'll load up on fruit and veggies. The plus is I did it more fruit this week. For me, it's a win.

Idk. Then I get mad I'm maintaining. But yet I don't know how I can be mad when I am maintaining. That's huge for me. But I want to loose. And I'm like, JUST. FEED. YOUR. BED. WITH. FRUITS. AND. VEGETABLES. Why is it so fucking hard. I've done it before. Twice. Felt fucking amazing. Amazing yall. Never hungry. Never counted calories. Never fasted. If I was hungry, I ate. But it's a hard core life style. May I read my health book more today.

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I had very real dreams last nights. About need a break but my break cause me to get gross. Where a dressing, feeling fat but slutty (and liking it?!!!!, the slut part). Getting shoes and them breaking. Needing a mom but mine unavailable. Being on a school field trip, getting separated from the group, being depressed af, and then trying to find them before they. Oh and the trip was at a mall, I was there before. Great. Oh and wanting to loose wt so bad and wanting to do it in an unhealthy way but loosing my hair (this part is actually really transparent with where I am at today). And now I feel just blah.

I wake up, wanting to cry. Wanting to be healthy, and loose the wt in a healthy way. Which I have done before and not upstanding why I can't have that now. Getting made at it. Then I want to starve but I getting getting hit with negative consequences. In particular hair. And I'm like, I want to be skinny. Not bald. Idk. So I will try to be healthy today which is really hard with my fuck it attitude. Then I'm like one last time of junk. But I couldn't tell yall the amount of last suppers I have had. Only good thing is I am meal planning today for the week and at least I'll load up on fruit and veggies. The plus is I did it more fruit this week. For me, it's a win.

Idk. Then I get mad I'm maintaining. But yet I don't know how I can be mad when I am maintaining. That's huge for me. But I want to loose. And I'm like, JUST. FEED. YOUR. BED. WITH. FRUITS. AND. VEGETABLES. Why is it so fucking hard. I've done it before. Twice. Felt fucking amazing. Amazing yall. Never hungry. Never counted calories. Never fasted. If I was hungry, I ate. But it's a hard core life style. May I read my health book more today.

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ok now I'm onto new moon. And besides a world of plot holes. Like how is it that this vampire family looses their shit when Bella gets a paper cut but yet their "kids" ( the ones that lost there shit) never loose it at school when girls be menstruating.

Just want everyone to know I am home sick watching twilight for the first time ever

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Just want everyone to know I am home sick watching twilight for the first time ever