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binge eating is awful. it’s stressful, extremely upsetting, and it can make you feel out of control. but overcoming binge eating is possible. there was a time when i thought i would never beat the binge cycle that i was trapped in, but with hard work and dedication i was able to fully recover. i’ve grown so much through my experience, and i picked up a lot of useful tips and tricks along the way. so i put together a bunch of resources that will hopefully help you get through this too. it’s a long post, so buckle up. let’s get into it…

beat cravings:

drink water

or peppermint tea

chew mint gum

gargle mouthwash

suck on ice cubes

brush your teeth

find healthier alternatives to the foods that you crave. fruit instead of candy, miracle noodles instead of pasta, frozen yogurt instead of ice cream, dark chocolate instead of milk chocolate, popcorn instead of chips… etc.

distract yourself:

study or do homework

meditate

exercise!

clean your room

paint your nails

do your makeup

take a shower or long bath

shave your legs

do a face mask

write a story or in your journal

work on an art project

read a book

make cute diy gifts for your loved ones

organize your closet

go for a walk or run

try on/plan outfits

take a nap

go shopping

run errands

just get out of the house and away from the kitchen

call up a friend

volunteer

binge prevention tips:

tell someone! having a support system can do wonders for your recovery. they can hold you accountable and encourage you.

get rid of all trigger foods. seriously, go through your kitchen and throw out everything you have the tendency to binge on. i used to binge on ice cream every single day until i tossed it out. chocolate, cereal, peanut butter, whatever your vice is… say goodbye. “if it’s there, you’ll eat it.”

tip #1 can be tough if you don’t live alone. opening up to your roommates about your problem can really help them understand the seriousness of it. one thing you can do is keep all of your food in a separate area, and train yourself to eat only from your own stash. in binge eating disorder recovery, i kept my food in an entirely different room from the kitchen (thanks, minifridge) and it helped me so much!

also, don’t buy food products you’ve binged on before. never go to the grocery store hungry, because you’ll be more likely to fill your cart with things that aren’t great for you (or your binging).

crash dieting often results in the development of binge eating. don’t restrict your calories too much if your goal is sustainable fat loss. furthermore, you’re gonna need energy to get through your workouts!

if the urge to eat is strong, make food that requires cooking/baking. i usually toss a sweet potato or some into the oven because it’ll take an hour or so to be ready to eat. by then, the urge to binge has often subsided.

always stock up on high volume foods, like vegetables. one of my favorite binge prevention techniques is to buy giant bags of veggies that i can just throw in the microwave. they’re huge- for a very small amount of calories, so if i eat a lot, it’s totally okay. (i like the ones from greengiant.)

meal prep meal prep meal prep! make your meals beforehand (in cute lil containers if you like) and this can help you stay on track. if you want to take it a step further, you can even buy the ingredients you need day-by-day to completely eliminate any chance of binging. (although this means going to the grocery store every day.)

set alarms for when you eat your meals. i just use an app on my phone for this. it helps because when i get a craving i am able to tell myself, just a little while longer until the next alarm and then i can eat.

include plenty of protein and fiber in your diet. they help keep you full! but it’s also important that your diet includes carbs and fats as well. a lack of any nutrient can cause your brain to send signals to your body that you need to eat. besides, you need all of these things to function!

don’t completely deprive yourself of any food you love. moderation is key.

get proper sleep! you should aim for around 9 hours of sleep per night. not getting enough sleep is linked to overeating, a slowed metabolism, and an increase in appetite.

never skip breakfast! every time i skip breakfast i always end up eating way too much later in the day.

and of course… stay hydrated. 💧

how to make an anti-binge box:

it’s a good idea to keep a stash of helpful items somewhere in the house. i keep mine in my room because i tend to binge at night. here’s some ideas for what to put in your anti-binge box.

gum/mints

bottled water

flavored sparkling water (good for soda cravings).

tea bags

jump rope, dumbbells, or other exercise equipment that you can grab and go

motivational quotes/pictures

journal

low calorie snacks like rice cakes, applesauce, jello, etc. (sometimes the act of chewing/eating will help ease the urge to binge.)

books

important phone numbers in case you need to call someone to help

intermittent fasting for binge prevention:

ah, intermittent fasting… it’s all the rage these days. normally i would roll my eyes at such diet trends, but this is what finally helped me get over my binge cycle!

i use the 16:8 fasting method, which in my opinion is the most effective for binge prevention. you have an 8-hour eating window in which you have all of your meals, and then you don’t eat for 16 hours.

my eating window is from 8am to 4pm, because i am more likely to binge in the evenings. even if i start to compulsively overeat during the day, i am able to stop at 4pm because it’s become a habit to do so.

your personal eating window can be whenever you want it to be, but i highly recommend the majority of your fasting to be during sleep.

intermittent fasting has several other benefits, but it can also cause health issues for some individuals. you should do your own research before determining whether or not intermittent fasting is for you.

what to do after a binge:

don’t panic. it takes 3500 calories over your basal metabolic rate to gain one pound. most people burn around 2000 each day, so if you binged on 4000 calories today, you won’t gain even half a pound! remember this if you step on the scale and it says you’ve gained several pounds overnight. i promise that you have not- the weight gain comes from water retention, food, and waste.

step away from the kitchen. go to a room where you can calm down and recuperate. your bedroom, a cozy den perhaps. just get away from the source of your distress.

find some way to relax. take a shower or soothing bath, watch an episode of your favorite tv show, curl up with a good book, exercise if you feel up to it.

if you are having a panic attack, move to a space where you will be less likely to hurt yourself. make sure there are no sharp things around. then just float along with the panic attack until it subsides; recognize that you are not dying and that this panic attack cannot hurt you, and just roll with it. ride the wave until it’s over instead of fighting it. (and call someone to be with you if you can.)

don’t try to starve yourself the next day, as this will likely only lead to another binge. trust me when i say that binge-starve cycles are the worst. besides, one single binge will barely impact your weight. just accept that it happened and move on.

dealing with the physical pain:

binge eating can be painful and very uncomfortable. it may feel like you’re about to burst. here are a few of my tips, researched and learned from experience, to help with the bloating and other physical symptoms that might occur after a binge.

drink tea. peppermint tea is excellent for soothing a bloated belly, but all teas have benefits. though i would suggest that you avoid caffeine right now, as it can make your anxiety worse.

try a heating pad. this can help with the pain.

sit still, close your eyes. lie down and allow your body to recover from the shock it has just received.

take a hot bath or a warm shower. relax, baby.

drink water. but don’t drink too much too quickly, or you might get nauseated.

do not force yourself to throw up (purge) because binging is already a shock to your body. vomiting is even more of a shock. you can do a lot of damage by purging, and it can be really hard to stop once you start. just don’t do it.

try to do some light yoga/stretching if you can, but don’t do strenuous exercise yet. allow your body to digest the food.

go to sleep. hit the reset button and start fresh tomorrow. sleeping is great for settling your stomach and healing your body.

treatment options:

often times, binge eating is triggered by an emotion or stress. consider talking to a therapist who can give you strategies to combat this. therapy can help you get down to the root of the problem and find out what’s causing that stress. compulsive eating can also be helped with therapy.

work with a dietician or nutritionist. sometimes when another person plans out your foods and meals, it can help you stay on top of things. it can be good motivation too.

if things are really bad, consider seeing a psychiatrist who will prescribe you meds to help you stop binging. some meds can help with impulse control and appetite. it’s totally ok if you need prescriptions to help you out… there’s no shame in taking medicine!

list of international suicide hotlines

binge eating disorder association

national eating disorders association

eating disorder hope

national eating disorders hotline (1-800-931-2237)

national suicide prevention hotline (1-800-273-8255)

chat with a crisis counselor (Text 741-741)

ask me anything | my answered asks

if you’re in eating disorder recovery, you may find that you’ve started binging. relax, breathe, and go with the flow. i know that it’s not fun and it’s emotionally stressful, but your body is very smart and will do anything it takes to keep you alive. it needs nourishment. it needs fuel. and chances are, you need to gain some weight before you’re healthy. your body will know when it’s time to stop eating so much. right now it’s trying to get as much food as it can, because it doesn’t know when it’ll be starved again. when you reach a healthy weight/replenish nutrients you’ve been lacking, you will stop binging. trust me… i’ve been through it myself. it is not forever.

and if you’re in recovery, try to keep in mind how much your body is healing right now. (if you’re not recovering, you’re dying.) also, your metabolism is returning to normal- which is pretty cool!

binge eating is not your fault. it’s an actual disorder and that means that it’s an illness. you are not a failure or a loser, you are suffering and your pain is very real. what you’re going through is valid. you are such a badass for getting out of bed each day.

i remember feeling so hopeless during the worst of my binge eating. i thought that it would never end and i would never stop gaining weight. i didn’t want to live anymore. fast forward six months later and i’ve never been happier. please stick around kiddo, cuz’ life really does get so much better.

it doesn’t matter if you don’t think you’re sick enough. you deserve treatment, you deserve help and a beautiful life. you’ve got this! stay strong my lil warrior. ❤

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I would like to personally thank everyone who contributed to the promotion of my ED today.

To my mom: thanks for making me feel like shit for not being able to fit into clothes. I know I gained weight. But with you pointing it out, I’m probably going to get depressed, binge, and gain weight again. Then it turns into a vicious cycle.

To my crush: THANK YOU SO MUCH for comparing me to Abby Lee from dance moms today. I totally didn’t want to throw myself off of a bridge. I know you probably bought it was harmless but still.

To myself: WHAT THE FUCK. WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ONLY GAINING WEIGHT AND NOT LOSING IT

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When you’re so depressed you lose your appetite fasting becomes so easy 😍

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I really hate it when my friends touch me.

I don’t think my friends understand how much I hate it when they touch me.

One of them will sneak up behind me and squeeze my waist to try and scare me. And all I can think about is how she probably felt my rolls of fat and how wide my waist was.

Another friend likes to poke my stomach in jest. But all I can think about is how they probably feel their finger sinking into the inches of fat on my belly, and can only feel disgusted by it afterwards.

Another, more comforting friend, likes to give hugs. When I hug him, I can feel his ribs right against me, and his waist thin as anything, and his arms like needles. I just wonder whether he feels the rolls of fat and sausage like arms and chunky waist when he hugs me.

I really hate it when my friends touch me.

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I know there are a lot of posts like “gen z culture is always wanting to die” and like i know the worlds rough but like legit, if you are always feeling like you actually wanna die its not normal, its not a meme, and you should seek help.

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We’re all going to die at one point. I just want to die sooner than most, because my life has been filled with only despair and pain.

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every time something sets me off into a bad mood i literally just don’t eat and don’t want to eat like “fine u wanna piss me off fuck the world and fuck food too”

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How to pump yourself up for a workout you don’t wanna do

Usually I’m working out after an 8 hour day of work/class and sometimes I am just NOT feeling it. But consistency is key and exercise is important!!! So I have a few tricks up my sleeve to get my booty to the gym (so I can grow that booty)

1. Drink water. Hydration is everything!! And sometimes all you need is a big ol bottle of ice water to wake you up and make you feel super refreshed.

2. Splash water on your face. Sometimes I’ll just splash some cold water on my face to invigorate me, so simple but so effective.

3. Have a snack. Preferably some carbs and protein. I like almonds and orange slices, crackers and hummus, banana and almond butter, and my current fav, whole wheat bread with half an avocado, sea salt, and EVOO. Droooling.

4. Do a quick warm up. Sometimes I’ll do some basic calisthenics just to remind my body how good it feels to move. A few minutes of jumping jacks, burpees, or squat jumps can really wake you up and do wonders for your energy levels.

5. Update your playlist. New music always gets me so jazzed to workout!! Spend a few minutes downloading some new jams to get you real hype to go hard at the gym.

6. Have some caffeine. A lot of studies have shown that caffeine before a workout can be really effective. I like to have a cup of green tea, my friends do espresso shots, whatever works for you!! (Dark chocolate works great as well)

7. Remind yourself why you’re working out. Most of us have fitness goals whether that’s running faster, lifting stronger, losing weight, or looking hot in a bikini (or maybe all of the above!!!). Spending a couple minutes meditating on your goal before a workout can really bring about some powerful feelings of intention and focus.

8. Get a workout buddy. Working out with someone and having a schedule really holds you accountable. It’s easier to let yourself down and not go to the gym than to let your friend down and not show up, you know.

9. Do an at home workout instead. There’s soooo many awesome videos out there on the internet so if you really don’t want to go to the gym, you can easily find a killer workout video of your choice on the web.

10. Take a warm up walk outside. Fresh air and nature are really quite powerful. When I’m feeling sleepy, I find that just being outside and breathing in fresh air for a few minutes really does wake me up and make me feel more energized for my work out.

11. And of course, take a rest day and listen to your body. If you’ve been going hard for weeks and you’re feeling tired, just take a day off and don’t beat yourself up over it!!!! The gym will always be there tomorrow and your body will be grateful for the break.

Xoxo

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If you are concerned that something’s wrong, you should see a doctor immediately. Your health is not something you should ignore, and most of these problems can be reversible if treated in time (although many can be permanent). I hope you will consider recovery before you are faced with medical complications or even death. Eating disorders can do a lot of damage to your body. Recovery is always an option. ❤ I love you lil bean.

heart palpitations

slow or irregular heartbeat (brachycardia)

fast heartbeat (tachycardia)

cold/icy hands and feet

fainting

chest pain, burning or tightness (angina)

bruising very easily

pain in your shoulders, back, neck, or jaw

red spots on the insides of your arms and legs

blue tint to nailbeds, lips, and skin

tingling in your limbs

blood clots

swelling of your ankles, feet, or abdomen

sweating

weakness or dizziness

coughing up white sputum

cramps or pain in your legs

fullness/choking feeling

shortness of breath

yellow looking skin (jaundice)

yellow eyes

pale, bloody or tar-like stool

swollen or tender abdomen

dark/foul smelling urine

skin rashes

diarrhea

persistent nausea

loss of appetite

exhaustion

bruising easily

excessive or constant sweating

sudden weight gain and high cholesterol

low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)

metabolism slows down

pale or foamy/bubbly urine

urinating very often or very rarely

swelling of your legs, ankles, and feet

shortness of breath

exteme fatigue or drowsiness

nausea that doesn’t go away

feeling cold (anemia)

swollen, puffy face

food tastes like metal

your breath smells like ammonia/fish

brown, red, or purple urine

pressure when urinating

fever

chronic constipation

cramping

pain or difficulty when going to the bathroom

bloody or black stools

foul smelling stools

persistent gas

anal hemmorhoids

sudden extreme urge to go to the bathroom

seizures

mental fuzziness/lack of concentration

memory problems

nightmares

anxiety, depression and paranoia

insomnia and other sleep issues

development of binge eating

suicidal thoughts or thoughts of self harm

compulsive behaviors/rituals

hysteria

feeling restless

impaired or worsening vision and hearing

speech difficulty

irregular breathing

physical numbness

mood swings

bleeding from your ears

stomach pain or cramps

pain when pressing down on stomach

burning sensation in stomach

acid reflux

coughing or vomiting blood

ulcer(s)

coughing white or pink mucus

headaches

chills or fever

diarrhea or bloody stools

bloating

sensitivity to cold

nausea and vomiting

loss of menstrual cycle (amenorrhea) can point to infertility

tooth decay, gum disease

swollen glands in neck

excess hair growth all over your body and face (linugo)

dry, blotchy skin

bones easily fracture and break (osteopenia/osteoperosis)

hair loss

brittle nails

painful esophagus can be a sign of rupture

loss of sex drive

erectile dysfunction

thyroid disorders

getting sick very often (immune system)

dehydration

weak muscles

These are not all of the symptoms and medical complications that can occur because of an eating disorder. It’s important to recognize that an eating disorder can lead to death if left untreated. Please take care of yourself. Recovery is always an option, and you deserve to be healthy and happy. Check out my help page for info on where to start with your recovery. Text 741-741 to chat with a crisis counselor.

My backup blog is @thefitnessdiarist!

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