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Alice turned to face Robert and tried to muffle her wails. "Alan h-hates me," she hiccuped, tears continuing to stream down her cheeks. "He said he's g-going to leave. I said awful things, Robert. I didn't mean them I swear." She turned her tear filled eyes to him and nestled into him, her sobs quieting slightly. Alice rested in Robert's arms for a few minutes as she cried herself out. After she was done crying, she sighed heavily. "Doctor Randalls knows," she murmured. "She's not happy... I don't know what's going to happen, Robert." She raised her fearful gaze to meet his. All of a sudden, a sharp pain, stronger than a cramp shot through her abdomen. Alice gasped loudly, confused. She sat up slowly and placed a hand on her stomach. The pain subsided a bit, into a dull ache instead of a stabbing pain. A perplexed look crossed her face, and her eyes narrowed when she felt a sudden wetness. She brushed her fingers over her inner thigh, the tips coming away bloody. Alice's face turned back to Robert sharply, her expression upset and confused. "Robert?"

Robert.

Robert had gotten off of work, a late night that he was so glad to be over. He knew Alice was miserable at the moment, and all he wanted was to go and lie down in her arms. Before he could go to her he decided to take a quick shower to get the smell of work off him, as well as to change into clean clothes. With a sweatshirt on and blue jeans, wet head as well, he began his journey to his lover’s room. He didn’t bother knocking, because on the other side of the door he heard the sound of his beautiful woman crying. Shit. What had happened in the hours he had been away? Had someone said something to upset her? She didn’t need stress while she was pregnant. It wasn’t good for her or the baby. Robert slid the key she had given him long ago into the knob and opened the door, closing it silently behind himself. “Beautiful, what’s wrong?” He climbed in next to her, pulling her into his arms every so gently. Was she hurt? What was wrong? A thousand and one thoughts went through his mind as his beautiful baby-momma lied there in his arms. Nothing in the world to him would be more perfect, except that she should be all smiles and happy instead of crying and curled up in a ball. 

#merry christmas.... Dx

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Robert.

Alice stared at her phone, her hands shaking. Her vision blurred as her eyes filled with tears, and she gasped for air. The phone dropped from her hands and hit the floor with a hollow thud that sounded a million miles away to her ears. The stress and pain of everything that had happened recently washed over her; finding out she was pregnant, telling Alan, Dr. Randalls finding the books she had gotten from Bettie (and also worrying how Bettie had gotten them), fighting with Alan... it all physically hurt her and she felt her stomach clench. Alice buried her face in her hands cried hard, hiccuping and shaking continuously. She curled onto her side and wrapped her arms around her pillow, unaware of the pain still swirling around her abdomen.

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Silly boy.

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Now no more tears. Or you can’t join me in the bath.

#LAWL

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I love you so much.

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I know you couldn’t. I love you beautiful.

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I could never hate you.

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I am too, but I’m here for you no matter what. Even when you tell me you hate me and that I made you fat.

#that's supposed to be a gif #grrrrrrrrrrr

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I'm scared.

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Well we can just tell her the truth and hope that nothing bad happens.

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I'm pretty sure she does. I don't know what to do.

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Does he know that you’re pregnant?

#MY POOR BB #but yeah same cuz of work and shiz

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My therapist found my pregnancy books.

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It comes and it goes... I'm good for now, I think.

Bleh.

Shall I find you something to soothe your stomach, love?

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For some reason when you're pregnant the baby makes you nauseous a lot. I dunno why it's called morning sickness though, I feel like I'm sick all the time.

Bleh.

-cracking voice- What’s morning sickness?

#Alice

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...Morning sickness.

It's not fun.

Bleh.

What’cha talkin’ ‘bout, Alice?

#Alice

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Bleh.

I thought it was just supposed to be in the morning.

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Try harder. Oh, that's helpful... -sighs-  Should we tell anyone else? I had to tell Bettie, but I dunno.

Are you okay, Robert?

I can’t help it.  Have a baby?

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Good. And that's not nice... So, what are we gonna do?

Are you okay, Robert?

I’m fine. He punches like a girl.

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Are you okay, Robert?

Alan told me he punched you...

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Okay then.

Fuck this shit.

I’m not sorry but I won’t do it again, either.

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Oh, Alan...

Fuck this shit.

You should probably know that I punched Robert when he told me…