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Interior of the Dohány Street Synagogue in Budapest, the largest synagogue in Europe, 1986

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can you imagine being dealt this hand

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stupid sketchbook diary, here we go again ♥ Guinea pigs, they will be never the same for me after that lecture.

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One time my rabbi told us, “imagine you had a box with a little bit of god in it. What would you do with the box?”

So we were like ?? “We’d protect it and keep it nice and clean and polished” and he was like “your body’s that box. Stop eating markers”

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Dude why are my pockets so wet (figures out im currently peeing myself) Ohhhhhhhh

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Why are transmascs obsessed with mothman

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me. but with Melbourne

Should I just move back to Chicago or like pick a new place?.. but learning a new city is so embarrassing like hi I’m new here where is food, shelter, and clothing.

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Yeah. I feel you.

Struggling to find a diagnosis is so real. I was diagnosed with such a long list of things over 10+ years, including schizophrenia, schizotypal personality disorder, borderline personality disorder, histrionic personality disorder, autism spectrum disorder, ADHD, Bipolar types 1 and 2, major depression, PTSD, OCD, gender identity disorder, anxiety disorders, eating disorders, substance use disorders. Plus a couple of loaded ones I'm too mad about to mention.

The doctors were clueless. I watched in disbelief as the list of diagnoses I hadn't been given shrunk away, almost into nothingness. It felt like they were just throwing disorders at the wall to see what sticks. Every new psych would blame me for the over-diagnosis of past psychs and then slap a new label on me. It got so ridiculous I stopped listening to them.

But it turns out this is a very common experience among people with DID? No one person is supposed to have the ecceltic range of symptoms that is normal among a DID system.

Despite knowing it's DID now I still cling to some of those diagnoses - PTSD, ADHD and autism especially, though sometimes I still talk about having schizophrenia and OCD. Those disorders were such a huge part of our history, we wore the labels for years as part of our identities and sometimes they fitted like a glove. But it's so complex. Some of my parts reject psychiatry altogether, including DID. Some of us have huge memory/awareness gaps and forget the others were ever diagnosed in the first place.

I still don't talk about the DID openly and will probably not post about it again here. I generally think self-ID is valid, but since it became fashionable to self-ID as plural, people have been giving me The Worst Advice Ever™ about my DID and I just want nothing to do with all the Psychiatry 2.0 shit going on.

After all this we're still working on getting two of our parts to remember the rest of us exist. It's a long, painful and confusing process.

probably my most vulnerable post ever. my story deserves to be told.

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a few days ago i stumbled on a subreddit about intermittent fasting. it was full of gym bros talking about the weight loss benefits of eating 1 meal a week. no eating disorders mentioned. it was almost a competitive "who can starve themselves the longest" vibe. reminded me so much of the bpd girls in my anorexia recovery group in hospital in high school

I’ve been saying this for years 😭

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for those who missed it before it was deleted: the JVP Passover protest banner with the Hebrew written backwards.

they paint a beautiful metaphor

The fact that JVP is organizing an antizionist gathering for PASSOVER is so fucking funny jdfbjhfbkjhqbf yes lets celebrate this very clearly ANTIZIONIST event where Jews left Egypt and roamed the desert to get to uuuuuh Europe? New Zealand? A very mysterious location definitely not in uuuuh Zion.

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it's the backwards Hebrew for me

The fact that JVP is organizing an antizionist gathering for PASSOVER is so fucking funny jdfbjhfbkjhqbf yes lets celebrate this very clearly ANTIZIONIST event where Jews left Egypt and roamed the desert to get to uuuuuh Europe? New Zealand? A very mysterious location definitely not in uuuuh Zion.

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Israel Has Created a New Standard for Urban Warfare. Why Will No One Admit It? | by John Spencer

The Israel Defense Forces conducted an operation at al-Shifa hospital in the Gaza Strip to root out Hamas terrorists recently, once again taking unique precautions as it entered the facility to protect the innocent; Israeli media reported that doctors accompanied the forces to help Palestinian patients if needed. They were also reported to be carrying food, water and medical supplies for the civilians inside.

None of this meant anything to Israel's critics, of course, who immediately pounced. The critics, as usual, didn't call out Hamas for using protected facilities like hospitals for its military activity. Nor did they mention the efforts of the IDF to minimize civilian casualties.

In their criticism, Israel's opponents are erasing a remarkable, historic new standard Israel has set. In my long career studying and advising on urban warfare for the U.S. military, I've never known an army to take such measures to attend to the enemy's civilian population, especially while simultaneously combating the enemy in the very same buildings. In fact, by my analysis, Israel has implemented more precautions to prevent civilian harm than any military in history—above and beyond what international law requires and more than the U.S. did in its wars in Iraq and Afghanistan.

The predominant Western theory of executing wars, called maneuver warfare, seeks to shatter an enemy morally and physically with surprising, overwhelming force and speed, striking at the political and military centers of gravity so that the enemy is destroyed or surrenders quickly. This was the case in the invasions of Panama in 1989, Afghanistan in 2001, Iraq in 2003 and the failed illegal attempt by Russia to take Ukraine in 2022. In all these cases, no warning or time was given to evacuate cities.

In many ways, Israel has had to abandon this established playbook in order to prevent civilian harm. The IDF has telegraphed almost every move ahead of time so civilians can relocate, nearly always ceding the element of surprise. This has allowed Hamas to reposition its senior leaders (and the Israeli hostages) as needed through the dense urban terrain of Gaza and the miles of underground tunnels it's built.

Hamas fighters, who unlike the IDF don't wear uniforms, have also taken the opportunity to blend into civilian populations as they evacuate. The net effect is that Hamas succeeds in its strategy of creating Palestinian suffering and images of destruction to build international pressure on Israel to stop its operations, therefore ensuring Hamas' survival.

Israel gave warning, in some cases for weeks, for civilians to evacuate the major urban areas of northern Gaza before it launched its ground campaign in the fall. The IDF reported dropping over 7 million flyers, but it also deployed technologies never used anywhere in the world, as I witness firsthand on a recent trip to Gaza and southern Israel.

Israel has made over 70,000 direct phones calls, sent over 13 million text messages and left over 15 million pre-recorded voicemails to notify civilians that they should leave combat areas, where they should go, and what route they should take. They deployed drones with speakers and dropped giant speakers by parachute that began broadcasting for civilians to leave combat areas once they hit the ground. They announced and conducted daily pauses of all operations to allow any civilians left in combat areas to evacuate.

These measures were effective. Israel was able to evacuate upwards of 85 percent of the urban areas in northern Gaza before the heaviest fighting began. This is actually consistent with my research on urban warfare history that shows that no matter the effort, about 10 percent of populations stay.

As the war raged on, Israel began giving out its military maps to civilians so they could conduct localized evacuations. This, too, has never been done in war. During my recent visit to Khan Yunis, Gaza, and the IDF civilian harm mitigation unit in southern Israel, I observed as the army began using these maps to communicate each day where the IDF would be operating so civilians in other areas would stay out of harm's way.

I saw that the IDF even tracked the population in real time down to a few-block radius using drone and satellite imagery and cell phone presence and building damage assessments to avoid hitting civilians. The New York Times reported in January that the daily civilian death toll had more than halved in the previous month and was down almost two-thirds from its peak.

Of course, the true number of Gaza civilian deaths is unknown. The current Hamas-supplied estimate of over 31,000 does not acknowledge a single combatant death (nor any deaths due to the misfiring of its own rockets or other friendly fire). The IDF estimates it has killed about 13,000 Hamas operatives, a number I believe credible partly because I believe the armed forces of a democratic American ally over a terrorist regime, but also because of the size of Hamas fighters assigned to areas that were cleared and having observed the weapons used, the state of Hamas' tunnels and other aspects of the combat.

That would mean some 18,000 civilians have died in Gaza, a ratio of roughly 1 combatant to 1.5 civilians. Given Hamas' likely inflation of the death count, the real figure could be closer to 1 to 1. Either way, the number would be historically low for modern urban warfare.

The UN, EU and other sources estimate that civilians usually account for 80 percent to 90 percent of casualties, or a 1:9 ratio, in modern war (though this does mix all types of wars). In the 2016-2017 Battle of Mosul, a battle supervised by the U.S. that used the world's most powerful airpower resources, some 10,000 civilians were killed compared to roughly 4,000 ISIS terrorists.

And yet, analysts who should know better are still engaging in condemnation of the IDF based on the level of destruction that's still occurred—destruction that is unavoidable against an enemy that embeds in a vast tunnel system under civilian sites in dense urban terrain. This effects-based condemnation or criticism is not how the laws of war work, or violations determined. These and other analysts say the destruction and civilian causalities must either stop or be avoided in an alternative form of warfare.

Ironically, the careful approach Israel has taken may have actually led to more destruction; since the IDF giving warnings and conducting evacuations help Hamas survive, it ultimately prolongs the war and, with it, its devastation.

Israel has not created a gold standard in civilian harm mitigation in war. That implies there is a standard in civilian casualties in war that is acceptable or not acceptable; that zero civilian deaths in war is remotely possible and should be the goal; that there is a set civilian-to-combatant ratio in war no matter the context or tactics of the enemy. But all available evidence shows that Israel has followed the laws of war, legal obligations, best practices in civilian harm mitigation and still found a way to reduce civilian casualties to historically low levels.

Those calling for Israel to find an alternative to inflicting civilian casualties to lower amounts (like zero) should be honest that this alternative would leave the Israeli hostages in captivity and allow Hamas to survive the war. The alternative to a nation's survival cannot be a path to extinction.

John Spencer is chair of urban warfare studies at the Modern War Institute (MWI) at West Point, codirector of MWI's Urban Warfare Project and host of the "Urban Warfare Project Podcast." He served for 25 years as an infantry soldier, which included two combat tours in Iraq. He is the author of the book "Connected Soldiers: Life, Leadership, and Social Connection in Modern War" and co-author of "Understanding Urban Warfare."

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Yeah we been knew

Try explaining this away, pal-anoners

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By the way. While many people are now cheering for Iran for attacking Israel, people who like to think of themselves as a spokesperson for justice. Do you still remember Mahsa Amini? Or any of the other countless women in Iran killed, or living in fear, or fighting for freedom? Do you all have short memory, or do you just refuse to acknowledge who it is you're supporting as long as they keep killing Jewish people?

This is a rhetorical question. I do not want an answer. I want you to take a hard look in the mirror and think about what you're doing.

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Russia, 1881: We’re gonna kill any Jew that doesn’t flee Russia. We’re restricting Jewish emigration to Europe, but permitting emigration to the Middle East.

Germany, Austria, Italy, Hungary, Romania, Bulgaria, Finland, Slovakia, Croatia, France, and others, 1933-1945: We’re gonna kill every Jew in Europe. Flee to the US or Palestine, or die trying.

The US, 1927-1952: Yeah sorry we’re restricting Jewish immigrants to like. 300 people per country. So good luck getting in. We recommend that Jews go to Palestine instead. Btw we are looking to take in Nazi scientists if you know any

Egypt, 1947-1950: We’re rounding up all our Jews and deporting them to Israel

Iraq, 1951-1952: We’re rounding up all our Jews and deporting them to Israel

Algeria, 1962-1965: We’re pressuring and intimidating Jews in the hopes that they’ll all leave the country and go to Israel

Egypt, 1956: We’re rounding up all our Jews and deporting them to Israel (again)

Egypt and Libya, 1967: We’re rounding up, torturing, and killing all our Jews. The ones that survive can flee to Israel

Poland, 1968: The Jews in our country are already loyal to Israel. They will face dire consequences if they don’t leave our country and go to Israel

Ethiopia, 1974-1985: We’re going to marginalize and eventually try to kill all our Jews, and the only way they can escape is by being airlifted out of the country by Israeli helicopters

The US, 2023: Why can’t the Israeli Jews just go back to where they came from? Don’t they all have dual citizenship or whatever?

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