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MY SKIN IS CLEAR AND IDC IF IT ONLY LASTS ONE DAY I AM TAKING THE W

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That said I am still having outbreaks constantly. I have stopped taking medication in the interest of my kidneys but I am still seeing improvements in the way my body is handling the outbreaks

Slowly getting easier, most days I forget anything's different

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Pretty certain I have hsv1 & hsv2

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Slowly getting easier, most days I forget anything's different

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Y'all I got invited to an orgy so sad I have to pass 😅

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This shit has me praying to god

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TW SA, negative

I realized the last two people who had unprotected sex with me were both people who did so without my permission. Both people who complained until I agreed to go without a condom. And now I won't be able to have unprotected sex again. I'm glad I have one person I'm glad I did it with, but fuck I just wish we could do it again.

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I've found someone who genuinely doesn't care about my herpes and we've spent a few lovely nights together ❤️ unfortunately she's moving, so it's back to square one

#damn #sadboi

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In a few weeks it'll have been one full year of outbreaks

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May have accidentally spread to someone 🙃

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May 2023 be the year this finally clears up 🥲

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Birthday retrospective

I'm turning 25 soon, and my outlook on the herpes has changed a lot. I've been having recurrent episodes non-stop for 9 months now, which has given me a lot of time to get acquainted with it. Ive worked through the trauma of being infected now, but I have contamination ocd which makes it stressful to eat around other people (oral sores ugh) and Ive gotten to the point where hugging people stresses me out. I wouldn't call the person I've mentioned previously my partner anymore, since our relationship has decayed with my mental state and not having physical contact.

I've been trying to look at the bright side and still let myself grieve. For example, it's made me reevaluate what I think is important in a relationship, and as a multiple time SA victim it gives me some peace of mind knowing I have some immediate karma in store for anyone who tries anything. However, I want to date again, and the neverending episodes mean I can't because what if my date tries to kiss me, and I have to reject them because of this?

I'm going out Saturday to celebrate, but I don't really want to. I guess I'm depressed. I really wanted things to clear up by now, at least long enough to help me get over my new touch aversion. I know I'll have it forever, but I deserve a break for my birthday.

It is improving with the birth control, but the late delivery this month really sabotaged me, I think. That, or menstrual issues related to the covid booster (get vaxxed, y'all) have just made my hormones even worse. I'm just tired.

One day I'll catch a break, I just wish that was a week ago.

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There was a problem shipping my birth control and it came 5 days late. My period started, and now that I have the bc in I'm getting tingling again. What even can I do...

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I just wish somebody could see my body and touch my skin without worrying

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I feel like I'm failing my partner with this. Im lucky to have someone who's so understanding of my condition, but not being able to have intercourse, kiss her, or let her touch my body has really taken a toll on me emotionally. At least I can still touch her and she can kiss my cheeks.

I want our relationship to become more serious, but she's not sure yet. I can't help but think it's because of my herpes and she doesn't want to call things off completely in order not to hurt my feelings. Sometimes she jokes about me having a disease, and I know she doesn't realize how hard this has been on me. It's really not a big deal physically but socially I'm crushed.

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If PositiveSingles was more lgbt inclusive I wouldn't mind using it. Unfortunately they only have man/woman gender options, which is frustratingly behind the times. At least they let you choose same sex dating (but everyone hides their face, so like....)

Maybe if they worked to create less stigma around herpes the platform would be usable. Run ads with the statistics, help people feel less alone. My particular case has been extremely frustrating, which I know isn't good to help the stigma either, but I run a vent blog. A company can run PSAs.

#herpes #hsv2 #positive singles #genital herpes #hsv #lgbt

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I have to say that the most difficult part of all of this is my newfound repulsion to someone touching my body. It can be difficult for me to, even. Whereas I used to be extremely sexually active, send nudes to my partners, and be a complete tease with them, now I get so anxious I start having panic attacks. I started exercising as a way to feel pleasure in my body again, I really love how my muscles feel after I've worked out, so at least I have that. I really hope I can enjoy sex again in time.