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im just trying to have fun with my OCs okay why does the trauma in my brain keep trying to stick its nasty grubby little hands all over everything🙄 you werent invited!!!!! not everything needs to be about you!!!!!!!!

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the old daydream scenario that’s been lying dormant in my brain since i was 14 years old coming back to life when the right song plays

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

oh yeah it’s real simple actually, i can create imaginary people who love me but i can’t actually love myself because um becaus that wou- it’d be uh mmm i don.flkshhhhbk,,

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[howitchewstofeel5gum]

daydreaming is no longer a thing that i do it’s just a thing that happens to me

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

friendly reminder that YOU 🫵 can make even the most relaxing innocuous activities into high stress situations if you’re mentally ill enough. always believe in yourself and your incapacity to conquer catastrophic thinking!

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

*girl who's never spent an entire consecutive hour completely grounded in reality voice* but why am i insane

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

but maybe if i consume enough scenarios the scenarios will stop consuming me :)

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[howitchewstofeel5gum]

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

but if i don’t daydream so hard that i forget i’m real at least once a day i’ll die

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

"i need to daydream to keep from going insane :)" <- is going insane because of the daydreaming

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

like actually for real how do I continue on for the rest of my life

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

is anyone else feeling stuck and waiting for something that will never come in order to start living or is it just me?

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

i'm heartbroken over someone i made up in my head but it's fine i'm basically eating myself alive and like it hurts to breathe and stuff and absolutely no one takes it seriously at all but i'm FINE!!!!!!

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

sorry my family didn’t teach me that i have a place among others so now i’m weird . sorry

[howitchewstofeel5gum]

do not leave me alone with my thoughts... i will create a man that is so baby girl and so deranged

#maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #zeph.txt

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im not ""projecting"". the character is the exact same person as me. sorry you just dont know them like i do.

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people will bring up the fictional murder as if i had anything to do with it or could stop it. like i’m not aware. “you know this freak KILLS people right?” man what do you want me do about that. i’m not his keeper. he’s funny to observe. and also not real