Understanding the End of Hedwig
I have read, in a lot of places on the internet, people saying they donât get the ending of Hedwig and the Angry Inch. Which is fair, itâs quite odd and confusing but I also think itâs worth understanding, because I think the message is truly beautiful. As with all art, itâs open for interpretation, and Hedwig is very layered so you can either skim the surface or dive in deep.
So the ending. You have a choice â the short version (brief, vague) or the long version (where I delve into the storyline, the songs and the parallel that is Yitzhak).
The short version of it is:
The play is about identity and self-acceptance. Hedwig spends the musical searching for his literal other half, the person who will complete him, make him whole. What he is actually searching for is acceptance, love and identity. (He says early on that âitâs the geography of human contact. The triangulation of a pair of eyes on my face, the latitude and longitude of a hand on my body, these are the only clue I have to my place in the world.â) Hedwigâs struggle with his identity comes of a climax (bud-dum-shh!) when he accepts himself, without the wig, or the heels, just him. The metaphor of him morphing into Tommy is that Tommy is a representation to us the audience as the other half of himself that he was trying to find and in accepting himself he becomes whole. In the musical, Tommy & Hedwig are played by the same actor forming a visual representation to the audience that he was whole the entire time. Taking this further, you could argue the part of himself he wasnât accepting was the male part of himself.
So, Tommy represents the other half of himself that he wasnât accepting, so in taking on Tommyâs appearance but still being Hedwig we see him accept himself as a whole.
The long version:
I repeat. As with all art, itâs open for interpretation. And for clarity, I have seen the original off-Broadway bootleg, the feature film, the new Broadway production with Neil Patrick Harris, JCM & Darren Criss. I have not however read the book.
For me, the musical is about identity and self-acceptance. One of the most important songs to the plot is âOrigin of Loveâ it lays out Hedwigâs whole underlying belief system through out the narrative of his life. Throughout his story he is searching for his âother halfâ the one that was taken from him âwhen the earth was still flat and the clouds made of fireâ and Zeus âsplit them right down the middle⊠cut them right up in halfâ. He sees his other half as someone who would understand him completely expressed in the lyric âthe pain down in your soul/Was the same as the one down in mineâ, so his search for his other half is his search for acceptance.
You may have noticed I use the pronouns âhim/hisâ as opposed to âshe/herâ. Obviously, this is a tricky issue and could I have a chat, Iâd ask, however my reasoning is as follows: From the play we know Hedwig was born Hansel Schmitt, a biological male and forced to have a sex change in order to escape East Berlin. John Cameron Mitchell has said in an interview that Hedwig never identified as female, he is not in fact a transgender female â though biologically he is. So, in desperation to find his other half he sacrifices a large part of his own identity and embraces a female identity, however his still identifies as male hence I use âhe/hisâ.
One of my favourite songs of the musical is âWig in a Boxâ and I really love the performance aspect the Broadway Production added, particularly Darren Crissâ interpretation. The key line in the song is:
âAnd pull the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly Iâm Miss Beehive 1963
Until I wake up
And turn back to myselfâ
(Wig in a Box)
The important thing to get from this song, is he puts on a lot of wigs in his life but itâs only when he removes the wigs, when heâs putting himself to bed, is he truly himself. Hedwig â a stunningly well picked name â is a character, a persona he hides behind because he struggles to accept who he is. All that in your face attitude, itâs an aggressive way of hiding.
Now, this post is about explaining the end of the play, Iâm getting there. But there is another significant character in the musical â Yitzhak. Yitzhakâs story runs both as a parallel and a contrast to Hedwigâs.
The parallel comes as both Hedwig and Yitzhak, in order to escape oppression, they had to give up a part of themselves â a part of their identity. For Yitzhak, it was the female part, the drag queen persona. In the musical, Hedwig is played by a biologically male actor, whilst Yitzhak is played by a biologically female actress. This is very, very important as even though both characters are born biologically male â deep down what they identify as is reflected by their actor. Hedwig looses his penis â the physical representation of his male identity, whilst Yitzhak looses the wigs, the female part of his identity. The Contrast.
Now, the parallel of Yitzhakâs story obviously means the end of his story is a reflection of the end of Hedwigâs. Which is why I think itâs important.
(On a side note: Yitzhakâs whole story is shown much better in the onstage musical, particularly the revival. When I saw the feature film, which is the first version of Hedwig I saw, Yitzhakâs whole story was lost on me. I was completely bemused and confused when he was auditioning for Rent or something? Itâs just one of the layers that I think it was difficult to replicate in the film.)
So in âExquisite Corpseâ, Hedwig goes nuts, everything goes a bit ballistic, heâs confused, frustrated and angry. In the original onstage production he physically tears his dress off removing the wig and fake boobs. Then we move in to âWicked Little Town â Repriseâ. (This is my favourite song.) And it is so frustrating that in the feature film because Tommy Gnosis is cast as a different actor to Hedwig it doesnât quite capture the same meaning as the onstage production. I understand why it was necessary though.
This is where things become very open to interpretation. Has Hedwig become Tommy? Have they reformed to become one? Actually put themselves back together? Is it just a symbol of Tommy finally understanding Hedwig?
Potentially, all of the above.
For me, itâs a metaphor. The reworded song lyrics show Tommy is trying tell Hedwig that he understands what Hedwigâs gone through, he realises how hard his lifeâs been and how much heâs had taken from him in life. At the same time itâs Hedwig coming to terms with everything heâs gone through.
âAnd thereâs no mystical design
No cosmic lover preassigned.
Thereâs nothing you can find
That can not be found.
âCause with all the changes
Youâve been through
It seems the strangerâs always you
Alone again in some new
Wicked Little Town.â
(Wicked Little Town - Reprise)
Hedwig has finally accepted himself. Heâs been searching for somewhere to belong all his life but everywhere he goes he gives up parts of himself to not recieve the acceptance he desires in return. His mother never cared for him, his husband left him after him giving up his penis, Tommy left him after taking away his music.
âKnow in you soul
Like your blood knows the way
From you heart to your brain
Know that youâre wholeâ
(Midnight Radio)
He has accepted he isnât half of a whole but is whole himself. He doesnât need anything else, be it the wigs, the heels, the make up or even another person.
The metaphor of him morphing in to Tommy is that Tommy is a visual representation of the other half of himself, the half he was trying to find and in the end it was him that actually needs to accept himself. Tommy is the symbol of the missing part of himself, he needed to accept.
So finally, in Midnight Radio he gives Yitzhak the wig that Yitzhak has been craving the entire play (âIâm bearing my soul here and youâre masturbating with acrylic hair!â) Yitzhak is allowed to embrace his true self just as Hedwig learns to embrace himself. Hedwig leaves the stage as Hedwig but looking like Tommy.
The play is about identity and self-acceptance. I think itâs beautiful because itâs something so many people struggle with. Be it your gender, orientation, body image or even if youâre a heterosexual, cis-person simply trying to accept yourself in your own skin. As I said, not everyoneâs going to interpret it the same way as me, but hopefully this might help one person get Hedwig.
(Just as a last note: pronouns for Yitzhak are tricky as its never resolved if he/she identifies as female in a drag queen sense, or a transgender way. I went with male pronouns as theyâre used in the musical.)
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my entire life i was told that boys are violent but girls are worse because weâre âcatty.â i was told that a catty girl was my enemy, that they used whip tongues in place of fists to start things i couldnât erase of out my skin. i saw this cattiness wherever i was told it would live. it was in pretty girls with nice lipstick and it was in the girls who studied too much to ever come to the parties and it was in my own group of friends. when i came home crying about something, i was often reminded that girls are catty bitches and if we were boys weâd just punch each other and be done with it.Â
but it was boys who first started making fun of how i looked, of what mess my face was like, of the fat on my thighs. and it was girls who showed me how to apply makeup, patiently waiting with me in the bathroom mirror to show how not to cry while i applied it to the waterline. they agreed to go on diets with me even when they hated salad. they agreed to scoop buckets of ice cream into our bellies at midnight when i was upset about something minor.
it was boys who were snippy about my grades, it was a man who first said that because i was a girl i was bad at math and iâd stay that way. it was boys who started making fun of the one time i got a 34 on a math test when my mother had been in the hospital the night before. it was girls who held my hand during this, who stayed with me through hours of library studies, who explained over and over in gel pens and pretty handwriting exactly what i was missing. it was girls who taught me to color-code and to highlight and how to stay up all night, it was girls who cheered with me when i got nothing lower than a B.Â
it was a boy who taught my friend that she could talk down to me like i was trash. it was a boy who started drama between us. it was a boy who wouldnât listen or talk it out or find a solution. heâd say angry hurtful things and expect us to listen. it was girls who fixed me after this. they taught me how to make good and positive friends. how to stay away from the girls who really are toxic ones. how to be proud of others and not competitive. how to give genuine compliments, how to accept them, how to be comfortable with who i am and what has happened.
i was told all my life that there was a âtypeâ of girl to avoid. she was probably wearing ugg boots and shorts or drinking a latte or picking out lush products or doing literally anything that girls like to do for themselves, she was catty. girls are catty. when they fight, itâs a catfight. (the majority of fights i saw were either physical or two girls sobbing while apologizing. the speaking beforehand was just the standoff because nobody was ready to take the gloves off).Â
girls, i find, are defensive. we wear our hands up, waiting for the hit. girls who are sick of getting hit get âbitchy.â they are fierce, they take what they want, theyâll mess you up for saying the wrong thing about their friend. and girls, who are unwilling to simply take insults without lashing back with something: theyâre catty. and when boys bully others and spread nasty gossip and start drama: well, theyâre just boys. theyâll fight it out, or something.Â
how much i regret believing that girls werenât my safety net. how many friends i was scared to make because i was intimated by them. so many loving people. out of fear of what? of a tongue someone else has tattooed on them?Â
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