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I might not be able to put this the right way, and maybe others have said this already,

but to me, the main thing about Cloud and Aerith is the way he tries to grow for her and because of her.

In a way, they could be quite similar. Both are incredibly lonely, and they share similar trauma. Both have lost their mothers in tragic, malicious ways. Both are confused about their identity and past. Cloud learns how much just he has forgotten and that something is very wrong with him, just like Aerith keeps finding out how little she actually knows about her ancestry or the circumstances of her mother's death.

Cloud and Aerith both realize this and are able to sympathize with one another. Aerith is incredibly patient with Cloud and him trying to uphold the walls he built around himself at all times.

I think Cloud knows there is a fundamental difference about them, though. And, that is that despite everything that has happened while Cloud has been putting up walls and has become hardened, Aerith has not. While Cloud looks to the past, is angered, shut off, and distant, Aerith has gone the opposite route. She remained soft and hopeful. It's not to say she isn't sad or lonely or angry, which she is, but she isn't faulting the world for this. She wants things to get better, instead of wanting revenge.

Generally, I think there are relationships that make you look to the past or to the future and I don't think there's right or wrong in that if it isn't too extreme.

But I think Aerith makes Cloud look into the future. I think he's always been either checked out about looking either way, or obsessed with the past, about what happened and how to mend it.

Aerith makes him believe in a future because she has been through similar things and she has come out on the other side hopeful. Because she is still good to people and because she still loves, she still cares. And I think this makes Cloud want to grow, too.

And he's showing this in some of Aerith's darkest moments. When she acknowledges her dark thoughts on the beach, he reacts with understanding, and he helps her going forward, supporting her when he can (even without the obligatory merc fee). He encourages her to speak out about her past at the lantern festival. I think as someone being taken in by a stranger as a child, essentially putting her guardian's life at risk and bringing heavy baggage along, she learned to have to be pleasant at all times to be loved. Through Cloud, she learns that this other side of her, the one that is struggling with embracing her difficult past and path forward, is also worthy of love and protection. She says to him on the beach, she is sure, he will love future Aerith, the one she is growing into right at that moment - she, too, is changing because of him.

These moments show he really wants to be there for her the same way she is there for him. He wants to make her happy and support her. He wants to protect her while she protects the world. He feels responsible for her, and it's a role he wants to grow into, and he does.

In a way, Clouds world just gets a lot bigger while Aerith is in it. When she is there, he actually laughs, he smiles like he does with no one else, and finally, he even cries holding her in his arms, when he was on the cusp of being turned into an emotionless weapon just moments before.

This, in turn, makes Aerith open up to him in a way she doesn't do with the others, too. They both see a side of the other person nobody else gets to see.

I think this is amplified in the ending when Cloud is literally the only person who knows what happened to her, that witnessed her death and who's able to see her afterward.

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“It came to me in a dream”

Cloud lifting Aerith up to see Mt. Nibel.

He promises, as a mountain boy to a city girl, to go to the beach with her some day.

That day never comes to pass.

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The most embarrassing thing In my life is whenever I see people and they ask what I’ve been up to . Literally nothing ever . Im like ohh you know this and that …. The usual ..

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guy who says "FUCK!" to every minor inconvenience x guy who says "oopsie daisies" to earth shattering catastrophes

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These are freaking GOLD

FFVII + some of my favorite shitposts, part 8

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A quick Chibi Loid and Bond sketch drawing

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hey dude great pokemon battle. i couldn't help but notice your pokemon was wearing an extremely swag necklace, it reminded me of how lame and swagless me and my pokemon are. I'm gonna give you double the prize money as thanks for the opportunity of getting my ass kicked by an epically swag beast such as yours.

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Cleaned up a sketch of my favorite Orre character 💖 Sorry for the lack of posting!

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Adhd really is like... bedroom is slightly messy it would be nice to tidy it some

bedroom is very messy I really should tidy up

bedroom is chaotic I NEED to tidy but my brain says no. Why. Whyyy.

I guess I’ll just have to watch where I step in here for the rest of my life. The mess is everywhere. I’m one with the mess.

A sudden Need to Clean™ makes you get the room looking like some fancy homes magazine cover, and you think “I’ll never ever let it get that bad again, and then...

bedroom is slightly messy (uh oh)

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By Yash Pandit

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I’ve been trying this out and it’s been quite helpful 🤗

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Executive Dysfunction Strategy: Prepare an Action

With my type of executive dysfunction, often the biggest problem is just starting things. I know the floor needs to be vacuumed. I know the recycling needs to be taken out. I know I need to start cooking the stew so I can eat it later. But I just can’t seem to start it.

On the other hand, If the cat asks me for food, it’s easy to get up and feed him. If someone asks me to do something or just says “do it now”, I can usually do it. I just need that trigger. 

So here’s a strategy lifted from Dungeons and Dragons: preparing an action. During combat, a player can, instead of taking an action on their turn, prepare a specific action to be taken when a specific trigger happens (ie, the character is hiding behind a door and if an enemy walks through the door, they’ll attack).

So I know a task needs to be done, but I can’t start doing it. I choose a trigger I know will happen soon, and I prepare my action. Examples:

The next time I get up to go to the bathroom, I’ll also wash the dishes.

The next time the cat asks me to feed him, I’ll clean the kitchen floor first.

When this video I’m watching ends, I’ll start writing that article.

When the clock hits 12:30 (I can even set an alarm), I’ll start cooking lunch.

Just about any combination of triggers and activities can work. It’s not 100% effective, but it definitely helps. Maybe it will help some of you as well.

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sometimes i see posts with advice and tips for mental illness and the comments are a lot of “if only i could keep it going” or “i tried once and liked it but couldn’t do it every day so I gave up.” i feel like there’s a pressure to do self care “perfectly” or “correctly” and that if you don’t you’re supposed to give up?

it’s okay if you don’t do the thing every day! i love journaling, but i’ll journal every day for a week and then won’t pick it up for months. that doesn’t mean i don’t still like it the times i do pick it up. just cause i’m not able to do it every day doesn’t mean it’s not helpful!

or like with to do lists- i RARELY actually finish one. i’ll usually get the first two items done and then call it a day. but it’s so nice to have my tasks planned out and not cluttering up my head! even if i don’t accomplish all my goals i’m way less stressed

i’m also terrible about not packing lunches and then skipping meals. that doesn’t mean i should give up trying cause i don’t do it every day! it just means that i should continue to do it when i can, cause some packed lunches are better than none

self care and management isn’t all or nothing. do it at your own pace in a way that works for you. there isn’t one right way to self care. there’s only your right way

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real adult™ tip from a real adult™ with executive dysfunction

do stuff while waiting for other stuff

like that sounds intuitive and vague but so much of the day is spent in a period of wait and if you struggle to motivate yourself to do things then this is the best time

waiting for your water to boil? bag up your garbage. waiting for your coffee to drip? wipe down your counters. roommate taking up the bathroom? scoop the cat box. waiting for your food to cook in the microwave? do however many dishes you can while it’s in there. 

waiting is the perfect time to do a limited amount of something for yourself where you would be otherwise just standing around doing fuck-all

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Dealing With Executive Dysfunction - A Masterpost

The “getting it done in an unconventional way” method.

The “it’s not cheating to do it the easy way” method.

The “fuck what you’re supposed to do” method.

The “get stuff done while you wait” method.

The “you don’t have to do everything at once” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be permanent to be helpful” method.

The “break the task into smaller steps” method.

The “treat yourself like a pet” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be all or nothing” method.

The “put on a persona” method.

The “act like you’re filming a tutorial” method.

The “you don’t have to do it perfectly” method.

The “wait for a trigger” method.

The “do it for your future self” method.

The “might as well” method.

The “when self discipline doesn’t cut it” method.

The “taking care of yourself to take care of your pet” method.

The “make it easy” method.

The “junebugging” method.

The “just show up” method.

The “accept when you need help” method.

The “make it into a game” method.

The “everything worth doing is worth doing poorly” method.

The “trick yourself” method.

The “break it into even smaller steps” method.

The “let go of should” method.

The “your body is an animal you have to take care of” method.

The “fork theory” method.

The “effectivity over aesthetics” method.