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I love that thing hawk does where you think he's stopped laughing. and then he falls back. . . and the honking starts

#hawkeye pierce #squids bullshit

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Its like there's a conspiracy where every single one of my doctor who mutuals has been possesed by an entity that makes them listen to the Monkees and then they spread it to other people

#i was like but im not rly into any 60s/70s music #but they rly got me w the who-mash.....

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Sketch of Klinger, again! We'll see if I ever finish this one.

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Well, I guess I keep looking.

#god tier hawkmarg scene #<< real

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scenes that fix me a bit.

#his laugh.....

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hawk....feels........

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i think the reason i’ll always be so attached to henry blake is because i’ll always be a little insane over the position he was written into . like it’s different with potter . potter obviously had a softer , more human side , but when you think potter you think military man first . and to an extent it’s supposed to be like that . they introduce him like that , despite the fact that at the end of the first episode he’s in it shows him drinking with hawkeye and bj to say “ hey , he’s not completely like the other army crazy officers that have been in the show “ . but at the same time , there’s a constant reminder , in his mannerisms , in the way he’s addressed , in the way he just knows the army … he’s a military man first .

and , god , we all know it was never like that with henry , but i don’t think we ever realize the extent to which it was never really like that . from the get - go , he’s seen being more lax with the members of the 4077th . his first scene is him opening a bottle of champagne with a nurse . the way hawkeye talks about him in his letter to his dad … he refers to him as henry , cracks a few jokes about him , immediately the impression the audience gets is that this is the opposite of a military man . you’re supposed to be surprised that he’s in charge .

and maybe that’s why i find him so tragic , because he’s everything and he’s nothing . we have the expectation for him to be a colonel , but while he has the title , he’s just … not . and at the same time , he’s expected to be a friend . hawkeye and trapper always take for granted that henry is their friend , i mean , hell , they even get annoyed with him when he puts his foot down over something they do ( because he’s supposed to , he’s a colonel after all , remember ? ) . he’s expected to be a friend , but at the same time … he can’t .

and it’s even WORSE when you think about his role as a doctor because he’s supposed to be a caretaker and a commander … he’s supposed to save lives but at the same time he has to decide if they’re worth saving more often than hawk and trap do … and in episodes like aid station or the rainbow bridge he had to decide who’s life he had to put on the line even though he’s just not cut out for that . he has to care but at the same time he can’t care too much because he has to keep his composure … he can’t care in the same way that trapper and hawkeye do , even if it’s obvious that he does . he can’t , the military won’t let him . because he can’t just be a doctor , he has to a commander as well . 

not even to mention his relationship with radar . like , henry was so obviously a father figure to him , he obviously loved him , yet over and over again he keeps his distance from him ( and while i think this partially is a result of the fact i just think henry has a hard time voicing how much he cares about people … if i loved you less maybe i could talk about it more , etc etc … , that’s a whole different conversation ) , and i definitely think that is because of his position too . he can’t be a family member . he has to be a leader , he has to follow the guidelines that the military has set for him . he has to treat radar the same way he treats everyone else under his command .

it’s so absurd and maybe that just adds to the comedy of it but it’s also like … he truly was just never supposed to be there . they tried to make him tougher and to an extent they tried to make him a fighter and there’s a reason it just never worked , because henry was always supposed to be a lover . making him colonel blake was like putting a round peg in a square hole and i’m pretty sure it killed him way before that plane ever crashed into the ocean . it’s just not fucking fair .

#he had to be the bad guy so hawk and trap could be the good guys #but he could never be the bad guy #and itd break him a little bit everytime he had to #he wants to be helping hawk steal a latrine or whatever #but he has frank writing him uo every 2 seconds #and he has to be the one to tell them they have a supply shortage #or that theres nothing they can do to stop the friendly fire #or whatever fucked up tragedy of the week is happening #he doesn't get the luxury of rebelling #because if he rebelled hed be replaced by a real army man #so he just has to let the army use him #even if it goes against everything he is #(you have made me insane) #❤️‍🩹

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waking him up is a crime punishable by electric chair

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listened to this verse and thought about them because of course i did <3

#WHAT IN THE EVERLOVING FUCK #god #cool so i have to think abt this for 3-5 business days before being able to sleep again #good lord. #❤️‍🩹

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blacked out and when i came to and there were tears on my face and this was on my screen

i’m SORRY if you’ve sent me a request they’re either in progress or on my to do list i’m just insanely unwell over them <3

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raaadaaarrrrr. radar wake up its 3:29 am. can yuo call the president of france.we have something to say to him. While youre at it we have this great idea for a prank can you get us some flammable liquids for it. dont worry about it

#LOOVEEE #❤️‍🩹

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some mash doodles I forgotten to post on here!

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mashmarggender part 28

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god i Need to tear him apart

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what if i loved you so much it drove me to betray the thesis of our show

from the unfilmed script for Hawkeye on the Double

#rbing every time i see it #because im normal abt it

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I <3 my blog theme. I usually get bored of them but never this one