haecien

[haecien]

Phone please stop shutting down

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[haecien]

im sure my phone is broken omfg.........

#im pretty sure i had it since.... before 2018???

[haecien]

@userdramas 2023 secret santa for @namchyoon ♡ weightlifting fairy kim bok joo + kisses inspo

[haecien]

THESE R SO FUNNY HWAHHFHHSDF THANKU MOOTIEEEE!!

Hi ayis😁

I really need some bf!jiwoong texts omg

Also hey were moots now! :D

⸻TEXTS W/ BF!JIWOONG 🫂

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authors note: HI NEW MOOTIE!!! im sorry this is sso late 😭😭 got inspired by some things i saw on pinterest (once again)

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[haecien]

Currently having problems with my phone:(

I'm not sure if I can update for a few weeks for the gyuvin smau I'm so sorry!

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[haecien]

I am not okay i love this lots ara omg

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You look outside your window and lean your head against it, letting the room's quietness consume you. Your eyes follow a group of kids on their bicycles laughing and playing around on the road on the spring morning. It is beautiful actually! The air smells nice with all the flowers, the breeze is cool and the birds are singing but none of that removes the emptiness within you.

The negligence to do anything at all, the knowledge that you will probably mess up even if you try well haunts inside your mind as if it has dug up a hole and peacefully rests there. You look over at the dirty pile of papers you wanted to arrange for your project last night and sigh.

What’s the point? You will probably fail it anyway! The room looks a mess, unlike your mind! Your mind is peaceful. Cool, calm and useless. It has established you are good for nothing, a house of cards which will break with the lightest gush of wind. Or is it working through the torture in its sails? You don’t know.

You would rather not solve anything with this irresponsible and useless self of yours. A creak of your door makes you look up in panic. Did your forgetful self not lock the door? Your eyes widen in fear, breaths shallowing and mind hazed. Something’s severely wrong and you are the cause of it.

Your breath quickens and becomes heavier as your eyes dart frantically across the room until your eyes lock with your roommate Gyuvin and his brown eyes that are filled with concern. “Gyu hey,” you mutter out as cheerfully as possible as Gyuvin’s eyes hold yours and a shudder rakes through your body.

He can’t. He won’t possibly know what is going on with you. Is anything going on with you?

“Are you okay?” he asks, crossing the room with quick strides and gently threading his fingers with yours as you nod. Yes, you are fine, you just feel worthless and that’s realistic. So basically you are fine.

Gyuvin’s eyes go over your features and the past few weeks come crashing back to him- the small amounts of dinner you had, your messy desk, your reluctance to attend classes and so many more issues he had missed. He knew something was wrong and his instinct suffered from the idea while his conscience told him he was overreacting. But today he knew!

He looks at you and whispers, “Hey we’re gonna be okay,” and you snort. You probably want to cry but what is the point? And what does he know? You might never be okay anymore. Your throat constricts and you choke a light sob as you feel Gyuvin’s arm circle around yours. You cannot break down; you have been building it up so well and must use it when needed.

But when Gyuvin puts his head over yours, his arms becoming tighter around your body, your eyes tear up at everything that has happened for so long and worsened over the past few weeks. A small tear runs down your eyes and his fingers hold your hand tighter.

Pressing a light kiss at the top of your head and making a mental note to book an appointment Gyuvin caresses your fingers. He knows he can’t fully help you but he will do whatever he can. Even if it means, holding you and never letting go.

Because you need someone and he will gladly be that someone any day of his life.

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#ara!💾

[haecien]

I might post a gyuvin update tomorrow so stay tuned !

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[haecien]

Baking tmr because crying over men is bad

Unless it's jiwoong

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[haecien]

I love u guys btw if you didn't know

I'm actually being super genuine, I love every single one of you moot or not you guys are the reason why I check this app constantly. I hope what ever happens to you recover, I hope you recover from the things you don't talk about, I hope you heal. I hope you find the right people, I hope you have a good night rest, I hope you have plenty to eat and drink . I hope you know that you're doing a great job even if all you do is stay another day, you're doing great there is nothing wrong with you, there is nothing wrong with the way you look, act, speak or do anything. You're perfect and so loveable

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[haecien]

I'm free now , time to cry and heal

*opens zbtv & gose*

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[haecien]

Please stop texting me.

Quiet literally too late to apologize... the audacity you as my BOYFRIEND talking shit about MY best friend???

[haecien]

Quiet literally too late to apologize... the audacity you as my BOYFRIEND talking shit about MY best friend???

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[haecien]

The audacity to hate on my friend but she's way more smarter, way more behave, not immature, actually has a brain and she's in honors 🤣🤣🤣

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[haecien]

Has the audacity to say he hates my friend but she's way better than him tfff

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[haecien]

"Im in blue"

" YOURE IN BLOOM???? 난 그저 모르는 체 반복해 day after day🗣🗣🗣"

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[haecien]

"Why is it so long"

"Thats what she said"

I love playing minecraft with my pookie fr

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[haecien]

💔💔💔💔 yall I am shorter than expected but shut up

shu calls you cien bean and that is DEVASTATING because ur the tiniest smolest lil beanling i know 😩😩😩

HAJEJNEKEJE

Yall I am not small thats rumors

#shu!💜 #sky!🎵 #ara!💾