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Your glow is beginning to fade.

And I'm so indifferent to that.

What a shame.. Over those two sentences.

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Hades is dead.

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We are now even :)

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I feel betrayed.. And I deserve it..

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March.. Lol.

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There's a heart next to your name.

And I still love you.

But you don't love me.

I still crave you to be the one and only.

I am sad.

I am depressed.

And I feel in your voice when things are close.

I am ready to let go of you again.

But that's a lie.

Be happy.

And I wish to be happy one day with you.

Probably one day will be enough.

To feel that I've had my chance.

Lots of fight in me.. But no arena to fight.

Be happy. Though it'll break my heart.

And I'd still love you with a broken heart..

#Spotify

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To do in case of an emotional emergency :

Listen to only metal music.

Limit online time.

Count to 7.

Scream.

Avoid confrontations.

Avoid interactions.

Avoid getting too much inside your head.

Hit the gym.

Fuck away.

Respect yourself.

Be a man.

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I love you.

Silently I say this.

And I fear daily that this will be again our last day.

Can't go anything about it but to kick the sadness out of me everytime your pretty face is before me.

I'm going to miss you. I'm going to miss you so much.

And I won't tell you that I love you. And that I'll miss you exactly this much that I know i will.

I'll just let you be. Let the words be understood but never spoken.

I could actually cry right now. But what will that do to me or to the outcomes.

I can only hold on to you softly till you're ready to fly.

I'm not your prison anymore.. But

Wish I was your eternal home..

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Rings ring around your beautiful fingers.

Congrats.

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If my words could help me.

I wish to become great.

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Today I danced.

I danced

And danced

And danced

And danced..

As if tomorrow was too far away..

I danced and felt mountains or whatever fall of my shoulders..

I danced.. Screamed

Dance and screamed.. And laughed.

And now I want to sleep.

It was so damn good.

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It's really cruel sometimes. Love is.

And memories of love alike.

Striking in weird times and moments.

And you just want to react.

But ..

It's useless

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An urge to say hi.

Comes knocking at my heart's door. Disguised in warmth and a smile. In memories and love.

My heart opens the door. Welcomes this urge.

My heart tells my brain. Play this film of memories you have. And my brain starts showing this film strip. It's cute. Filled with pretty pictures. Warm smiles. Funny jokes and beautiful words.

This urge softly dissolves into my stomach. And chokes my throat a bit.

My heart closes the door. Rests on it's throne.

And I start typing this. Then post it.

Crank up my music louder and walk my way.

Hi..

#Spotify

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On the street. I saw a girl that looks exactly like you. Her eyes she nose at least did. With a little baby.

Our eyes met. And for some reason we stared at one another and ended our stars with a smile as we passed each other and went our ways.

She looked pretty. With her electric blue eyes in the snow. And her burgandy hair. But your smile looked better.

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I have a feeling. The this is going to be too painful and a waste of a relatively good amount of time. Only thing I hope it doesn't leave a mark.

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Being in need of help or of someone is perhaps the worst thing that could happen to a human being.

When you can't function by yourself. And can't depend on yourself to fix something in your life.

A society that understands the value of an individual is elite. We should be taking care of one another so we never feel weak alone.

22 years old. 83 years old. And 58 years old. Ladies all by themselves in their struggle emotionally. Physically and health wise. I helped them the way I could. I sympathize. I am unhappy. And I understand their problems. I felt alone many times in my struggles.. I wish no one such a feeling. Of being alone fighting for your life and right to live with a smile on your face instead of constant tears. Worries and depression.

Today as a date used to be for me personally a very warm beautiful day. But this year it's just a beautiful number. 12.12.

I am happy though I was able to pile up so many good memories from a beautiful person.

#Spotify

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Some men.

Some men are young and some are old.

Some men are boys and some are young.

Some men are fearless and some are full of fear.

Some men are serious and some are silly.

Some men are joyful and some are grumpy.

Some men are careful for details and some are careless about them.

Some men find it easy to trust others and some men find it hard to trust.

Some men are lost while others are found.

Some men are honest and some men are not.

Some men are selfish and some men are not.

Some men know how to be there. And some are never to be found.

All men share one thing. Y.

We never get to understand why.

Some men makes up the why.

Others find their X... f(x)

And for some the X is always unknown.