grumblybabby

[grumblybabby]

I’m just so mad I really have nothing worth saying

[grumblybabby]

I hope one of the boys she stupidly seduces cuts her up and makes her into art just like she does to all those animals I hope in my life time I get to know she is dead and gone I hope that she'll be dead and I'll be okay But it's not her It's me

[grumblybabby]

He's going to keep doing it, and you will continue to torture yourself believing he can be a better person for you but he will only disappoint you throughout your entire relationship until it is finally too much and you will drive yourself insane But for some reason, to you, that's fine

[grumblybabby]

Sometimes I don’t know if I can keep teaching you all the morals I have because you have none You don’t even know how much it hurt me that you would even suggest snuggling araselle I get to snuggle no one I’m alone I feel like crap This isn’t some polygamist family you get to have I’m compromising but as always you’re taking it further before it’s even begun Threesomes are just you being able to do what you have done for years, but with your body instead of words and with my permission Sorry I’m so “unreasonably possessive” I’m so dead inside

[grumblybabby]

You ever just wanna die bc you don’t want to have to find out what you really are inside? Because I sure do

[grumblybabby]

Happy anniversary Michael and Joey! ...waaaait a second

[grumblybabby]

I don't know what to do about this. I would honestly consider leaving you because of this. Then again, it might be the hormones talking. 

Your morals are something I revere, but they're also something that terrify me. What you've just told me is that you, no matter how more love and adoration you have for me, would be cybering with people, unless I hadn't told you not to. That makes me so sick. You could be doing that now if you hadn't shared that chat log with me. Right now. You still might be doing it now. How would I know? I don't know your passwords. I don't try to dig my way into your life. Maybe I should regret that. 

It hurts a lot; I mean, we're long distance, so I hold it in higher regard, since I don't even get to do normal sexual stuff with you. I guess my morals are just too different from yours. I believe in the most binding allegiance to my partners when I love them this much. I wouldn't want to show any affection to anyone else; I don't. I like you being the only one I cyber with. It makes me happy that you're the only one I want to cyber with. In fact, it annoys me when I feel like I need to give anyone friendship and they give me affection, since I like you being the only one to give it to me. 

[grumblybabby]

Sometimes I just sit around like a puppy that’s left home everyday and wait for the attention I deserve because I didn’t shit on the carpet. Get the belly rubs and cuddles and kisses that I had been dreaming about and would give up almost anything to have Don’t worry, I just have to get used to it again. Even if I move there, we won’t spend every single day together. I just need to realize that inside of myself sometimes. I don’t want to be clingy. But it’s my nature. And no matter how much I try to stop myself, it won’t dissipate in the least. I feel so many emotions and sometimes it gets hard to harbor them inside of my soul at one time.

[grumblybabby]

I AM NO MAIL ORDER BRIDE

CRIES INTO INFINITY

[grumblybabby]

I just know when I'm with him , I'm so comfortable.  I'm so happy, I'm so relaxed, and just so content, and I think that is my favorite thing about us. 

[grumblybabby]

It's terrible because this is really detrimental to the way I think

When I don't want to do something normally its the end of the story and I would rather die than go back on that

But I just want to see him happy so its disgusting when I'll say "no" to something that he wants me to do but then I know I'll end up doing it and I hate it I hate that about me its so infuriating 

And I know that when I will end up doing it (this one specific thing which happens to be having a three-some which I hate the idea of it literally makes me nauseous to think about it) I'll probably go along with it and then not want to talk to him for a week and cry everyday until I get it out of my system because yay I'm going to be dysfunctional like that

I can just feel it in my soul I know I should probably let him know in advance before I become a recluse but I also probably won't just to spite him because he knows I don't want to do it and yet he still mentions it every once and a while 

I hate me

[grumblybabby]

I needed this because it is literally me