goldelixirs

[goldelixirs]

hello!! I miss roleplaying but my energy for tumblr is low so--I’m basically using this blog/post as a way to find some new discord rp partners!! I have loads of OCs (including ones listed here, among others) and I’ll literally make new ones ajlksdf heck, I’ve even written some canon muses too. I like writing dark and / or shippy stuff most but mainly I just like creating fun and deep dynamics of any kinds!! so yea...like this and I’ll dm you my discord!!

#discord 1x1 #discord rp #open rp #1x1 rp

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Alex was undeniably stuck in his own head a lot lately, or rather trying very hard to get stuck into somebody else’s. He was good at removing himself, seeing things from the outside---it often made it easier. Not just easier to see and understand, but easier to let it go at the end of the day---to not take it home with him. 

But this was different, he was starting to realize he had to get close. Much closer than he’d like to. Because this killer was different, something here felt different. 

But for now, he had to find a way to shut it off, to stop his brain from endlessly cycling through it all. Courtesy of his friend Reed, who demanded he get out and take a break. Alex wasn’t much the type to go out often anyway, but Reed always had his ways of managing to drag him out somehow regardless.

❝I’m fine,❞ he calls back out to him. He was simply becoming hyperaware that his wardrobe was quite reminiscent of a librarian’s. Paired with his tendency to space out easily, he wasn’t being very timely. ❝I’m also not fully dressed, so I don’t think either of us would be thrilled if you busted in right now.❞

After a moment longer he decides he can’t be bothered with it anymore and throws on the most decent thing he can find in his messy closet. Finally, he emerges. ❝Okay---I’m now ready to be exposed to whatever social torment it is you’ve picked for us tonight.❞

Reed could literally hear the seconds tick by as he waiting for Alex to be ready. There was no clock in the room, and while he had a watch on, the seconds were so loud. He wanted nothing more than to look through the folder that was out on the table. He had a feeling he knew what was inside it. Him. His profile. His everything. But more likely his latest murder. 

Alex was struggling on this case and Reed could hardly blame him. It was hard. Reed didn’t take anything for granted but he wanted his friend Alex to get out of work and have some fun before snuggling into the night with the file and thinking of who could do such horrible things to that person. Those people.  What did they have in common besides the same killer? 

“Alex!” Reed called. “If you’re not dressed in the next minute I’m coming in. I am tired of waiting and I’m worried.” He checked his watch and sighed. “58, 57…” He trailed off. 

@goldelixirs, an open starter for Alex with love from Reed

#holyvalidation #writings ; alex

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Of all the coincidental meetings that could happen, Seojun was probably the least prepared for this one. And probably even less thrilled. Which was hardly an affront to her, but more so a distaste for the look of concern in her eyes. Only he could manage to ghost his own therapist and then bump into her while trying to buy hot cheetos. He offers a light smile and some kind of vague noncommittal gesture, ❝I’ve been okay I guess.❞ He doesn’t really know what else to say, not when he’s well aware that she probably could see through any other cheap excuse he could try to offer her. And ‘okay’ was honestly the nicest way he could think to put it. He’d missed three sessions, mainly because even with how good at deflecting he was---lately, he just didn’t have it in him to sit and talk about himself for an hour at all.  ❝I’m sorry for um, not showing up,❞ he says. He clears his throat, tacking on a: ❝ how have you been?❞  for good measure.

‘ been wondering how you’ve been. hoping things have gotten better. ’ shay’s a baby faces therapist to the stars but this one, this one is always the one that worries her the most. maybe it’s because he’s so good at rerouting their sessions. or maybe it’s because he’s missed his last three. maybe it’s fate, a divine intervention that he’s standing in the snack aisle of the local e-mart. or perhaps he was just hungry. probably the later, but she had decided to ask how he was. it wasn’t usual for him to miss a session, much less three in a row and she was beginning to think maybe he’d fallen into something of a depression. fingers letting go of the bag of honey butter chips she had been holding. the sound of them hitting the bottom of her basket just background noise to her thoughts. 

@goldelixirs​ liked for a starter xx for choi

#shxyme #writings ; seojun #he's a mess jldksf

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@shxyme​ said:  “ there’s so much light in you “ @ Alex

The words catch him off guard, but even he wasn’t particularly sure why at first. When most people looked at Alex, it was hardly any kind of light that they saw. And although it wasn’t quite a looming darkness either, it was certainly something that kept others at arms length.

Alex knew full well that he wasn’t normal, not by any average person’s standards. He could shut down, often saw things that other people didn’t. It made people uncomfortable. He was always the jagged puzzle piece, the one that never quite fit into the whole picture. 

But Shay never seemed to care about that, or really anything at all at first (aside from maybe the edge of aggravation she’d displayed at their ‘reunion.’) 

He found it amusing, the way she approached him easily and challenged him, and without any hesitation either. Maybe that was why she was slowly becoming one of the few people to truly know him outside of his cold exterior --- the wall he’d always kept up to keep the darkness at bay.

And so the words catch him off guard, they truly do. Because for once someone sees something good. Something else seeping through his cracks and broken edges. He huffs out a quiet laugh, shrugging, ❝I don’t know about that.❞ he says. ❝I spend so much time blocking out the dark...I don’t really know how much light I let in either.❞

#shxyme #asks; #ic asks; #me: writes u a mini novel #ouchies tho #writings ; alex

[goldelixirs]

I owe 7 drafts + 1 starter !! I will try to get to them all soon~ 

#I just went through my activity & likes to double check stuff #so now I have everything saved #ooc;

[goldelixirs]

MULTIMUSE ASK MEME

send in the name of a muse you’re unfamiliar with, and i’ll tell you a few things about them, as well as how i think they’d get along with your muse! BONUS: if you’re also a multimuse, i’ll list some of your muses they might get along with.

#this could be fun / a good icebreaker !! #memes

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midnightmoon​:

aurelia stares at seojun for a few seconds then shrugs, ❝i want to keep the baby. you don’t have to help me take care of them. i just wanted to let you know?❞

she then looks at the ground again, ❝sorry, we won’t be able to have fun for a while. you can also walk out right now. i don’t mind, i know you have a lot on your plate already.❞

aurelia didn’t want to burden the male any longer and she didn’t want to be in pain any further either. the quicker she was able to get a definite answer, the quicker she’ll be able to get her life together.

There’s an almost pang of guilt he feels, because a part of him (the more selfish and cowardly part) knows that he very well could just walk out. It wouldn’t be the first time in his life he’s walked away, refused to take responsibility. ❝Wait, I...❞ He trails off for a moment, hesitating. 

His father did always want him to take more responsibility, though he’s certain it wouldn’t be like this. But Seojun really does care about her---he cares about what happens to her. Knows that she has a life that has now been upturned, partially because of him.

He isn’t entirely certain the choice isn’t at least partially made on impulse but he decides for ONCE, he won’t run. ❝Look, I know I’m kind of a mess. I barely know what I’m doing with my life and I’m kind of terrified.❞ He shakes his head, ❝but---I do want to stay, I want to help you. If you’re okay with that.❞ 

#midnightmoon #writings ; seojun

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midnightmoon​:

aurelia wasn’t sure how to break it him. he’s been a great friend and he’s shown her the life of being free. this was the first time where she wasn’t under the eyes of her parents and all she wanted to do was have fun.

everything was going great and they had fun a few weeks ago but her biggest nightmare came true and she just had no idea how to break it to him. seojun’s the type to not give a care in the world and is a bit chaotic but it’s okay. if she has to take care of it on her own, it’s okay.

❝…i- seojun.. i don’t know if i can say this..here just take a look at this-❞

she hands him the positive pregnancy test and covers her face, looking down.

Out of all the things he expected her to say, it certainly was NOT this. For once in his life, he’s at a loss for words. For a moment he just sits there and stares at it, that little pink plus sign. The sign that signified everything was about to turn completely upside down for them both. Finally he looks back up at her, ❝you’re...pregnant?❞ 

He knows he should say something, anything else. Should offer her something more than those dumbfounded words, should offer her anything at all. But what could he do? Hell, what could he even say? 

Seojun knows himself, he’s never committed to anything, could barely even take care of himself. He doesn’t know what he could offer her. He takes a deep breath, ❝---what do you wanna do?❞    

#midnightmoon #writings ; seojun

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@midnightmoon​ LIKED for a plotted starter !! ( seojun ft. aurelia )

❝You said you needed to talk to me about something?❞ He sounds hesitant. To be honest, he doesn’t really know what to expect right now. He feels tense, their relationship was hardly a serious one. Just two people fucking around, in more ways than one. He can’t think of anything that would warrant this kind of urgency and it kind of scares him. 

Seojun liked being around her, he couldn’t deny that. He liked seeing her letting loose and having fun and things were always nice when they were together. However, he’s never been good with this kind of thing. So when Aurelia sends him a cryptic text, saying she needed to talk asap, he can’t help but feel nervous.    

❝Is everything okay?❞

#midnightmoon #starter: closed #writings ; seojun

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I can't sleep 😭 does anyone wanna maybe chat or plot or something ?? I have discord too if that helps! just like this and I'll come poke u

#ooc; #( mobile post. )

[goldelixirs]

I should post some opens maybe ... hm

#I suck at those tho ljksdf #ooc;

[goldelixirs]

softer prompts

“  i’m not going anywhere.  ” “  you make me feel safe.  ”   “  i think i might be in love with you.  ” “  i just like seeing you happy.  ” “  just let me take care of you.  ” “  you’re my family.  ” “  i can stay, if you want.  ” “  you make me feel alive.  ” “  you’re captivating.  ” “  i want you to know i’ll always be here for you. whatever you need.  ” “  you don’t have to tell me anything, we can just sit here.  ” “  i trust you. more than anyone else.  ” “  you have a beautiful soul.  ” “  i feel like i could watch you all day. everything you do has a touch of magic to it.  ” “  i hope i see you in my dreams.  ” “  do you trust me?  ” “  you don’t ever have to pretend. not with me. not ever.  ” “  i love you, every part of you. even the parts you don’t like.  ” “  you make everything a little easier.  ” “  will you just…hold me? please.  ” “  just tell me everything’s gonna be okay.  ” “  you’re enough. you’re more than enough.  ” “  you have my heart in your hands. be gentle with it.  ” “  i wanna be the one you go to. the first one you tell when there’s something good. the shoulder to cry on when it’s bad. and every mundane thing in between. i want to share it all with you.  ” “  i have faith in you.  ” “  i’ve never met anyone quite like you.  ” “  knowing you is like…coming home. like i’ve finally found something that’s been missing all this time.  ” “  every hard thing in my life feels worth it. it all led me to you.  ” “  i feel like i could endure anything as long as i have you to come home to.  ” “  i can tell something’s bothering you.  ” “  what can i do to help?  ” “  come on. let’s get out of here.  ” “  i’m taking you somewhere special.  ” “  where are you taking me?  ” “  i don’t need grand gestures or declarations of love. i just need you. all of you.  ” “  you make me feel like i’m worthy.  ” “  you deserve good things.  ” “  i want to be your home.  ” “  loving you is like something holy.  ” “  i made you something.  ” “  come back to bed.  ” “  stay the night with me.  ” “  are you sure you’re okay?  ” “   you wanna talk about it?  ” “  did you wanna tell me something?  ”  “  you’ll always have me.  ” “  i’m proud of you.  ”   “  i need you.  ” “  thank you. for always being there for me.  ” “  don’t ever let anyone make you doubt your worth.  ” “  i’m not leaving you. not ever.  ”   “  you have kind eyes.  ”   “  sleep, my love. i’ll keep the nightmares away.  ”   “  there’s so much light in you.  ” “  i want you here.  ”  

ACTIONS: 

❀ for a forehead kiss ✦ for our muses to hold hands ❉ for one muse to nap against the other ✱ for one muse to surprise the other ✸ for our muses to cuddle  ❄ for our muses to enjoy the first snow of winter  ♛ for my muse to teach yours something new ☂ for our muses to stargaze  ♡ for one muse to wake the other with breakfast in bed ♤ for a kiss on the palm ☁ for our muses to get caught in the rain without an umbrella ☀ for one muse to surprise the other with a home-cooked meal  ☾ for one muse to hug the other without explanation  ♞ for one muse to give the other a massage  ✞ for one muse to give the other flowers ✔ for one muse to caress the other’s face ✚ for our muses to shower/bathe together  ＄for one muse to catch the other staring lovingly 

#memes

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@redemptioninterlude​ LIKED for a starter !! ( Ren ft. ??? )

❝I think I made a bad impression earlier,❞ she says softly. Ren could be uptight, abrasive too. Her personality was --- a lot to say the least. Not many people could handle it, at least not all at once. And when she’d first ran into the other before, she KNOWS she must’ve come off in all the wrong ways. ❝I promise I’m not mean or stuck up, the timing was just really bad.❞

#redemptioninterlude #starter: closed #writings ; ren #hopefully this works!! wasn't sure if you'd want me to specify a muse on your end #it's also kinda vague so if anything needs changing just lmk !!

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breakingdawned​:

“You’re trying to get me in trouble with Alec, aren’t you? The last time I spent a whole day out-” The last time was when she was still in a relationship. She shook her head. She enjoyed Seojun pestering her, it was kind of a nice normal thing. She missed normal. “Alright, fine. I want to get in trouble, maybe. My brother’s younger, he can’t do anything but scold me a little.” Eden laughed. “We can go anywhere you want, just let me feed you first.”

❝Well, if you want to get into a little bit of trouble I can definitely help with that,❞ he says with a little wink. He was definitely the poster child for being up to no good, though he’s decided he won’t go too wild---this time. He beams at her, ❝that sounds like a deal to me! And don’t worry, if you get scolded I can defend your honor. I think any sane person would believe it’s my fault over yours anyways.❞

#breakingdawned #writings ; seojun

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breakingdawned​:

“Yeah, I guess that’s fair. Everyone’s on their own time, yeah?” Mikey shrugs, another sip of coffee. “There’s got to be a type, though? I mean, give me a celebrity then. If you’re not inclined to dating, there’s gotta be at least somebody that you’d look at and think ‘yes, I’d date them. They’re my ideal human being.’”

❝Oh, I mean...❞ he trails off a bit. He honestly hadn’t given it much thought. He shrugs, ❝I’m not too sure.❞ He’d always been so caught up in his own head, in his life. ❝I just want someone...nice, honestly. God, I sound depressing---maybe I should date more.❞

#breakingdawned #writings ; sanghoon #pls save him jasd

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❝I, uh...Don’t think I’m really suited for dating,❞ he laughs awkwardly. In any other circumstances, a classical musician with a rich father might claim otherwise. However, Sanghoon has had more than enough stress and eyes on him to last a lifetime. He shakes his head, ❝thanks, but no thanks.❞

“So, what’s your ideal type?” Mikey raises an eyebrow as he puts down his coffee cup. “I know a lot of people, I could absolutely set you up on a blind date, yeah? It’s not a big deal. Would you want to do that?”

Open to anyone. Muse: Mikey, leader and co-CEO of Sky House, a “influencer house” with somewhere around 10M subscribers currently.

#breakingdawned #writings ; sanghoon #in which u get the emotionally damaged pianist

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She grins at the other, shrugging just a bit. ❝I saw you sat here in your little corner and I got curious.❞ Akina was hardly one to shy away from something or  someone---especially in the case that they even remotely piqued her interests. And it certainly didn’t hurt that this stranger was kind of cute. She leans forward, a slight smirk on her lips, ❝you can ask me to leave if you want. But---if you let me stay, I’ll buy you a coffee.❞

open to f/enby/m. suggested connections: someone she’s spoke with in the passing, friend of a friend, crush, etc

kurai was not the type of person who people felt comfortable coming up to, she’s seen people who were clearly lost and looking for help go out of their way to avoid her. hell, even some of her friends seemed to be uncomfortable being around her for too long. so imagine her surprise when the other took a seat across from her seat in the corner of the cafe she was perched in. there were plenty of other seats. the blonde’s eyes stare towards the other, as if waiting for some explanation before she spoke, “can i . . help you?”

#femmebeaut #writings ; akina #I hope this works! #akina has no fear or impulse control.....she only knows knives and pretty women <333