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　HE IS TEETERING ON SELF-CONTROL. Not quite sure what is him and what is the influence. He can sense the nervousness, the telltale giveaways and how this prey did not want to come into conflict with him. It's amusing, Will thinks; to be on the other side for once. Not the one hunted, but the hunter. This is what it must mean to smell the blood in the water. "We tend to live with our regrets." He says and offers a small humorless smile. It's bitter. "Are you scared?"

Whiskey-colored eyes stared dead at Will, fingers playing with a loose button on his shirt nervously. ❝ Sometimes doing anything you want, leads to very regretful actions. ❞ Not once did he look away and he wouldn't if he could help it. ❝ Maybe try taking a deep breath or two? I hear doing that can REALLY help. ❞ Words fell from his lips a mile a minute, barely taking a second to breathe in between them.

#fcrgedinsuffering #&. will graham | dialogue. #( will pls its giving sociopath )

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　AT LEAST SHE UNDERSTANDS HIS MOTIVES. He often worries they might be offending or overbearing or annoying. What made him a good hero was what made him an awful partner at times. He coddles unnecessarily, bears too much responsibility on their well-being, and correlates it to his worth & purpose. What good was he if not to protect the things and people he cares about? What good is he if she gets hurt? Steve knows it isn't fair and he would never put this kind of pressure on anyone else. It just is what it is.

She is wrong though. He will miss her. And he will worry. But he is not someone who wanted to get in the way of what was important to her no matter if it would make him more comfortable. His hero days were retired, too tied into politics for his likely, and from another generation altogether when the public had been far less gracious towards them. He wants the best for her. And he wants what will make her the happiest. So he can wait for her return, baited breath and all. He's endured the end of the world many times. This was just another Sunday evening. "We'll be waiting for your return, dove. Be safe."

Bee finds it sweet that he worries, where others might think it overbearing. It's part of his love language, not unlike learning to cook so she could focus on school or pulling her away for walks with his (re: their) golden retriever when finals threatened to crush her spirit underfoot. Bee's adored Steve since he found her politely brokering peace amongst neighboring squirrels in fluent chitters and took that as a sign to bring her every lost animal in vicinity. He cares so much that she's often astounded; he's not a raw wound at this point. 

"I'd hope so." Amusement, and a flash of a modest wedding band as she reaches up to cup his cheek and catch the corner of his mouth in a kiss, hands still slightly damp and sudsy from dishes. "I appreciate the concern, and I am very much aware it's been a while... But I'm not that out of shape, am I?" Big blue eyes fix on his, and there's clear teasing in them. She and Maxxie are bona fide professionals when it comes to the puppy-dog stare. "I'll be back before dinner tomorrow; you won't even miss me a little." Bee is very much attuned to the words between the lines. It's not that he's unsure of her sisters; it's that he'd blame himself for any potential and inevitable harm. He'd take all the hits for her or the annoying neighbor above them, if necessary. 

@godstrayed (c.)

#platiinums #&. steve rogers | dialogue. #&. connection — steve & bee ╱ i can't stop starin' at those ocean eyes: burning cities & napalm skies.

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open starter ╱ inspired by various songs. non-mutuals welcomed. open to f/m/nb. we can plot it or wing it, idc.

　IT DOESN'T SUIT HIM. At least, not in a way he likes. This terribly fragile feeling makes him all too mortal. Is this what it means to behold humanity and succumb to it? Was Loki victim to the plights of man no more than a fool was to self indulgence? A crime, really. "We complete each other in the nastiest, ugliest possible way." And yet, he could not change it. How he felt about them.

#&. open threads. #indie rp #indie marvel rp #indie 616 rp #indie loki rp #&. loki laufeyson | dialogue.

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open starter ╱ inspired by various songs. non-mutuals welcomed. open to f/m/nb. we can plot it or wing it, idc.

　IT WAS AN EMANATION OF DESPERATION. The words that hung in the air between them stagnant and charged. Will is hardly the type for violence. At least, violence that is his own and yet there was a gnawing sadism there. "This is the part of me that'll do anything to get what I want." He realizes his reality was warped and twisted into something unrecognizable and not quite his own. The manipulation had been deeply rooted and festering for a while now. The only thing left to rot was his mind. And now? Will was left entombed in it.

#&. open threads. #indie rp #indie rp starter #indie crime rp #indie horror rp #&. will graham | dialogue. #( dark!will i guessssssss )

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open starter ╱ inspired by various songs. non-mutuals welcomed. open to f/m/nb. we can plot it or wing it, idc.

　THERE IS AMUSEMENT IN HIS BROWN HUES. An arrogant curve to his mouth as he shakes his head some. Prince Damen was a self-assured person, as had his upbringing validated. There was no one in his kingdom that would dare speak ill to his face. Behind his back was another thing. He knew of the cowardly gossip in the courts and that it was out of his control. Those who sought his power, however; would have to take it from him. "Speak your mind even if your voice shakes." He's only toying with them. They must know. But he enjoys it — the uncomfortable tension that made weaker men squirm.

#&. open threads. #indie fantasy rp #indie medieval rp #indie kingdom rp #indie literature rp #indie rp #&. damianos of akielos | dialogue.

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*flirting* i want to bathe in your blood

#&. negan smith | musings. #&. kylo ren | musings. #&. angel kwon | musings. #&. loki laufeyson | musings. #&. heidi | musings. #&. rhysand | musings. #&. laurent vi of vere | musings. #&. damianos of akielos | musings. #&. musings.

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' I'm a strong believer that a good relationship can work, whatever the situation. ' ying nan's portalled in an hour ago. (for steve)

memes. / always accepting.

　IT WASN'T THAT HE DISAGREED. It's just the fleeting hopefulness had not stayed after everything. How often had he tried to hope and plead with the universe for a more kinder, easier to accept reality? Things seldom worked out how he planned no matter the amount of effort he put in. Some things were unchangeable in the face of a greater truth. And yet, Steve persisted because that was just who he was underneath everything. Keenly aware of how naive or foolish it may be he had no other options. When you lost hope, you lost everything - every battle was already done and over with.

"That is a good mindset to have," He says, blue eyes bright. "I try to stay clear of philosophizing my life too much but I like to think we can make anything work. If we try enough."

#gravityslingshot #&. answered. #&. steve rogers | dialogue.

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　Silene's eyes flicker and her head tilts. It seems her opinion was pretty valuable lately. Who would have thought a lowly criminal would eventually be recruited to help put away the people just like her. But not all criminals were made the same. She was by necessity and not by desire which did set her apart from the more nefarious. "What's going on in your pretty mind, Will?"

ᴏᴘᴇɴ.

"I need your opinion." Blue eyes are steadfast despite the bags underneath them; no, he isn't sleeping. The images are too vivid behind his eyelids. Jack Crawford is a slick bastard, but it's no more his fault that Will is in this situation than his own damned penchant for curiosity.

#platiinums #&. silene oliveira | dialogue. #( if she had some cop verse where shes recruited her criminal skills LMAO )

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　Steve would not describe himself as unshakable. There was a lot that got under his skin. He had so many fears they seemed limitless at times. The hungry ache for normalcy and peace was something that was new. After all, with everything he had endured he had only made it out with a few scratches. He was lucky, all things considered. But not everyone had been as lucky as him. And he couldn't help but worry that until things were settled and resolved that some of them might not make it.

"No," He admits honestly. "I used to be a useless dipshit that didn't care about anything but myself. Very naive and fed with a silver spoon. Selfish, prideful, and vain. Resentful and nasty about things outside of my control. It's taken a lot change my perspective. I know what matters now."

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Kyleigh hadn't spoken much, no matter who it was that tried to hear her voice. So when she actually did allow words to fall from her lips sometimes they would surprise even her. But ever since she had met Steve nothing seemed to shock him, even if she was attempting to do so. He was a lot more jaded than he let on, and she couldn't help but wonder if he had always been that way. Very loyal to those he cared about, willing to put his own life on the line for them. But why? Why when so many were set on doing the complete opposite. Chewing on his response in her brain for a few moments the half lycan finally let out a sigh and set down the large ax she had been using to chop up wood.

"Yeah and change is necessary sometimes, blah blah blah. Why do I always get the feeling when I'm around you that nothing surprises you anymore? You always been this way Harrington?"

#lunarruled #&. steve harrington | dialogue.

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trust me, i can handle me a dangerous man. — Bubbles

memes. / always accepting.

　It wasn't that he didn't believe or trust her to know her capabilities. He just knew from experience that how often did they have to bend and break themselves to ensure everyone else was safe? Who made sure they were okay? There was just something so instinctually wrong about letting someone you cared about, no matter their strength and abilities; put themselves in the line of fire. Steve had a difficult time just sitting by and not trying to intervene or help.

Heroes didn't abide by their limits. And no one cared the damage they took, it seemed. The outcomes of their bloodshed, fighting, and will was the only thing that seemed to matter. And Steve is a hypocrite. He'd spilt himself apart to ensure New York City was safe and sound. So he understood he just didn't like it. "I trust you." He says after a moment, blue eyes flickering. "I know you can handle yourself. I just do not like the idea of you potentially getting hurt. Or no one having your back." His worries null and void because she had her sisters. Perhaps he just dislikes it is not him to ensure she would be alright.

#platiinums #&. answered. #&. steve rogers | dialogue. #&. connection — steve & bee ╱ i can't stop starin' at those ocean eyes: burning cities & napalm skies.

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"who's gonna know you, if not me?" (for Steve Rogers)

memes. / always accepting.

　It had been so long and so much time had passed. Steve had thought everyone he knew from before was dead, lost in the many decades that had passed since he had last been conscious. It was disorienting to say the least to wake up with that hallow, uncertain, and unfamiliar feeling lingering. A man stolen from time cast in another altogether unable to recognize what the world had morphed into but also able to understand that things hadn't changed that much to his dismay. There was still war, still conflict, and still only him to do what must be done.

"I've gotten used to being seen as Captain America." He had been wrong in his assessments of what was left behind. Peggy, Bucky... they were here against all the odds. And that was what being seen felt like. "It'll be really nice to be seen as Steve again."

#agentnamed #&. steve rogers | dialogue. #&. answered. #( if this doesn't work i can change it !! ) #( thanks for sending thissss )

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𝐌𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐀𝐋 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐅𝐀𝐑𝐄, 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐅𝐀𝐑𝐄, 𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒

All quotes here have been taken from different sources of media, literature, television, movies and more regarding medieval or period drama quotes in the context of those stories, some might work on more modern setting but these were made with the intention of medieval and fantasy settings. Change names, pronouns and locations as you see fit.

I just wish he'd have the decency to say whatever he came to say in front of his wife.

His wife should track him like a bloodhound.

Let him who knows who he is be no other but himself.

Seduction, as you know by now, for women starts with the ears and for men starts with the eyes.

She is my friend, and there is nothing you can say or do that can stop me from helping her.

You seem a might bit distracted this evening. Is something the matter?

History belongs to those who write it.

But I have never lost faith... even if the world turned upside down I could still find you.

Some mistakes are bound to be repeated.

Do you plan on marrying Charles?

This is a time of change. This is a time of enormous power.

Do you understand the meaning of the soil beneath your feet?

The other Clans will soon arrive. The greatest times of our family are before us. And so are the darkest.

Tonight must be our secret. Swear it.

You pander to her. You spoil her. You make such a fuss over her when she tantrums. This is what happens when you raise a child like that.

I´ve always wanted him to love me the way I loved him. 

We were arrogant and naive, thinking we knew what we felt then was love. 

A man´s desire is a powerful thing. It can reduce a strong man to nothing. When he sees a woman who fascinates him, he will give up everything for her.

 You are like a golden rose, a rare bloom but no less lovely.

So, you see, you're not the only ones who have lost someone. War doesn't discriminate, Petra. 

What you think is indecent, I do to my wife every morning before breakfast. There is no such thing as indecent between a husband and a wife. The only thing indecent is a cold marriage bed. 

The earl and I...We were... not intimate.

He fought in the war. He might fall apart, fly off the handle, go off the rails.

Mr. Russell, don’t you think I’m too young for you?

To be humiliated so publicly. I don't know. I never wished him ill.

He wasn’t quite what you’d hoped for, was he, Mother dear?

It is easier to start a war than to end it.

All I am guilty of is surviving, and for that, I will not apologize.

There is no law that gods must be fair, Achilles.

How many times can a heart be shattered and still be pieced back together? 

She succeeds because she is loved and respected. 

I have waited to see you again when none believed that you should ever return; I would have waited for ever.

Your lips are calling for me.

This is your home now. You're one of us, and we take care of our own.

You have a spine of steel and fire in your eyes, Rosalie. 

I've never met anyone as kind as you are.

A little taste before the wedding, Jayden?

God’s given you to me, and as soon as He allows, I’ll claim you as my own.

I brought you something. It gets cold in Nashville in the wintertime.

It seems you want me at your mercy, Princess. The question is why?

I am a slave in your palace.

To speak my truth, even if my voice shakes.

What would you say if I asked to kiss you?

Will you allow me to kiss you?

Do I have a choice? Doesn’t it happen with or without our consent? Falling in love, that is.

I have the power, and you will obey me.

You’re a lady. It’s written all over you.

It is amazing what a woman can do if only she ignores what men tell her she can't.

I am not a besotted fool. If you think to jilt me, think again.

It's all my fault. He was trying to save me.

All things in Fiji are paid for in blood.

I have not forgotten that I am a Norman, nor the responsibilities that I bear.

I swear I will be a lady worthy of our family name, worthy of England, and worthy of my conscience.

Being set apart is lonely, until you find purpose.

My faith has promised me to me to my king.

I want your reputation... I want everything you have.

Remember when I told you I would marry none but a warrior, Collector?

I want you to be the father of my child, yes, more than any other man in the world. 

I am the flesh of your flesh, and you are the heart of my heart.

My father fought against the infidels during the last crusade. It cost him his life. 

Grace saves us, but is not grace beautiful? I think it must be full womanly, even, to draw men in, and to give us a second birth.

Marriage is less about love and more about who is right.

A woman's life is never a fairy tale ... neither is war.

You're not made of kings, boy, but of common clay.

I'm Uther's daughter and sole heir: Morgan Pendragon.

Who better than you, King Lot, my father's strongest opponent.

If we forge a union, we'd have the strength to unite the realm. As King and Queen.

Ambition for its own sake is worthless.

Uther's daughter, Arthur's sister. You can't be defined by others. People need to know you for yourself.

The past doesn't matter. Define yourself in the present, and you might rule in the future.

We are going to build a land full of hope and honor where fear is extinguished, to which people will flock from far and wide, seeking out our beacon of light.

With a little luck, in time, you might fall in love with him. And if you don't, before you know it,he'll give you children, and then you'll love them.

Well, the most enticing aspect for any man is the forbidden. But you'll just have to forego the looks from men other than your husband.

What exactly do you think I'm capable of?

To forget myself. To lose the world for a moment.

One rumour of my death, and you proclaim a new leader! A king could get offended.

If she takes the crown, I'll tell you what you get. Fear!

You have no rights in this kingdom anymore.

#&. memes. ( specify muse ! ) #( ... i know i owe a shit ton of memes but )

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i am sleepy so i will slink to discord for plotting & chit chat. 👉👈 mutuals feel free to add: villainarcsupremacy !!

#&. ooc. #( the mood today too sadly ) #( just eepy )

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ʙᴇᴇ ‘ʙᴜʙʙʟᴇꜱ’ ᴜᴛᴏɴɪᴜᴍ + ꜱᴛᴇᴠᴇ ‘ᴄᴀᴘ’ ʀᴏɢᴇʀꜱ

ꜰᴇᴀᴛ. ᴍᴀxɪᴍᴜꜱ ‘ᴍᴀxɪᴇ’ ʀᴏɢᴇʀꜱ-ᴜᴛᴏɴɪᴜᴍ

@godstrayed + @platiinums

“ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴀ ꜱᴜᴘᴇʀʜᴇʀᴏ ᴛᴏᴏ ʜᴜʜ? ꜱᴍᴀʟʟ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ.” ♡

#platiinums #&. steve rogers | visuals. #&. connection — steve & bee ╱ i can't stop starin' at those ocean eyes: burning cities & napalm skies. #( STILL YELLING !! ) #( i love thissss )

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you're leaving? / thor @ loki

memes. / always accepting.

　The purse of his lips is subtle but disapproving almost immediately. Contentious, uncertain, and rocky; his relationship with his brother. Loki had, after all, tried to take over the entire universe on many occasions. He could not blame if the bad blood he had stirred and uprooted with his actions and ploys for power had soured his relations with Thor & his little friends. He had no intention in being kept prisoner and was not anyone's puppet to control.

"Dear brother, you do not think there is a spot in the Avengers waiting for me?" The sarcasm is bright and feverish, dripping from his tone in askance. Thor ought to know better. "It will be better if I am gone and out of sight. There is no home on earth for me as well. This place is well occupied and quite crowded, if you ask me."

#leagueofdccm #&. answered. #&. loki laufeyson | dialogue.

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❛ i am fire. i am hatred. i am consuming. ❜ / maggie @ negan

memes. / always accepting.

　She was a lot of things but most pressin' she was the damn reason there was so much hesitation in people accepting him. They would always side with her. Negan didn't even fuckin' blame them. But to pretend they weren't the same if put in the same choices. This group had always been self-righteous. Who had killed first? Just because they hadn't seen the crying broken families of his men did not mean there was not a widow or two heartbroken from their loss. It was frustrating as fuck. Her hatred justified but her holier-than-thou mindset was what was wrong.

"You're a lot of things, Maggie. But right now you're the thorn in my side. You don't think bygones can be bygones and we can move onto something more productive than hate? Trust me, it gets old."

#leagueofdccm #&. answered. #&. negan smith | dialogue.

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　There was no denying truth echoed through her words. How many times had he died? Even his variants shared his fate, it seemed. Loki does not understand fully how far he's fallen but he knows he would be utterly and tragically unrecognizable back in his own timeline. Forlorn & lost, such a pity. It's strange how one's actions come back to haunt them when in the moment they had been remorseless. Mercy has done something terrible to his resolve.

"What would you say it the difference between them? Humanity & mortality? Is it all not just some struggle for survival one way or another? We all seek to take what we need, what we want, and hope to live another day." There is a slight pause, green eyes bright and contemplating. "This is not me. This is the ensemble I dress in for the mortals."

❝ Conflating humanity with mortality is a mistake, my love. I've met humans who would not die, and Gods who were only happy to. ❞ The human spirit was indomitable beyond the boundaries ascribed to the word 'indomitable'. Even with their coils shuffled, death was only a stopgap... but that wasn't why she was here.

The proselytizing of the Human Existence was such a passion project of hers, but it could come at a later date. After she got what she needed here, of course.

❝ I feel as if I've only just said that my nature IS that of a Human. No matter what my form may be, this? ❞ With a gesture toward her chosen, chaotic human dress. ❝ This is me. ❞

Previously on Apothekosm, featuring @godstrayed

#apothekosm #&. loki laufeyson | dialogue.