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i can tear it apart myself i do everything myself anyway

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hope my body falls apart at any second (right now)

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i love how life keeps giving me nothing no matter how hard i try i love waking up everyday for no reason other than to suffer

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why the hell am i so fucking unlovable

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You deserve a warm life, a cozy life, a life free of pain and full of people who genuinely care. A world where, when you experience pain, people are still there for you. You will find a soft future. It will be a slow process, full of missteps and fumbling, but someday you will look around and realize that you were right to keep on going.

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never let being a girl stop you from being a boy

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Reminder!

It's okay:

If you're not currently interested in studying

If you've lost interest in some thing you like/love

If you need a break

If you just need to sleep for the whole day and be lazy

If you just want to watch/binge shows and movies

If you don't feel chirpy sometimes

If you feel sad/angry/or any other emotion

If you feel stressed or pressured because of work

It's okay if you are not okay

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11:11

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The abandonment wound that turns into a deep, never healing "I want someone to take care of me" is just

So

Big sometimes

And so often we become the one who takes care of people - those of us with this wound.

The hard thing is, learning how to take care of yourself really well doesn't heal it. Learning how to ask for help when you need it doesn't heal it. Learning to live with it doesn't heal it.

Nothing really does, when that "step" in your early childhood was either missed, mishandled, or otherwise fumbled spectacularly enough to cause this kind of wound. It's hard in complicated cases too, where you were cared for in many ways but maybe not the one that mattered. Or you were cared for in ever way but inconsistently. Or it was from a source that betrayed or abandoned you, even if you were handed off immediately to someone else that took care of you. There is no wrong way to receive this wound, nor is there a competition for who gets to feel it the hardest or the deepest.

But those who have it recognize each other, I think. We do, even if we don't know what it is we are recognizing. Even if the wounds were caused in different ways, even if our stories look so very different.

"I want someone to take care of me"

It may just always be there, in some way or another. It may even be unwanted, where you can't articulate it or you become hyper independent. It may be desperately wanted and cause clinging and limerance and all those painful things. It may be witnessed and cared for and managed by someone who sees their wound and does all the 'right' things.

But it doesn't really ever leave, does it

And we find each other, don't we?

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this and the nipple grab during the sound

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flirting like "u could make me worse and grosser"

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All weed is slut weed when you're a slut btw

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my first favorite hobby is yapping. second is being extremely quiet and not talking ever at all ever.

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i need to stop being so sad

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anybody know what to do with it all

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You get used to being alone and having no one but omg it’s so boring