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got too piss and fucking stabbed a Scooby Doo plush lol

This is mental as fuck tho

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my undiagnosed mental illness is probably gonna get worse and has been getting worse but no one irl seem to notice or care. But something is wrong and I need to fix it otherwise I'm gonna keep being self destructive and get even worse. I'm almost killed myself multiple times in the last few months alone so I need help. I wanna get diagnosed so I can find out what is wrong with me.

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“Are you okay” thinking about killing someone is comforting to me

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Tbh I think I should just stop hiding my causal homicidal ideation tbh. Like it's been like this quite a while you know? I mean for Christ sakes.

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Me after anything happens : my tumblr.com will be hearing about this

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I need the people I don't like to die. Life would be pretty chill if that happened ngl

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blade reveal!!! (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)

Also ignore my hand LMAO

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guess who gets homicidal easily? Me <3

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i fucking hate my god damn family. They can go die in a god damn hole. My parents are fucking stoners, my sibling is a stupid whore and my little sister is a brat. FUCK YOU ALL!!

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when I was little I remember realizing that every second a new person was born and I felt happy. I felt happy that someone new got to live. Now I hope no one is born and I feel sad for babies. They have to live here and was brought here without their consent and now Will have to suffer.

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tbh I was born to give and receive affection. Like when I looked back when I was little I showed so much emotion openly and all I wanted was love and to enjoy things. But why do I have to live like this? I don't like being like this. I wanna go back to when I was little where I enjoyed things and felt happy to be alive.

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getting dismembered would fix me i think

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i can be energetic cheerful and fun when I'm allowed to. I'm always in a state of agony but there's a few moments when I feel like I can act how I want. I like being loud and proud and feeling human. I just wish I could always get to act like that. Maybe one day. I hope when I die if there's something after I can act like that. Just a silly funny person.

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we played Mario kart in class today and I won!! ^_^

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my mother and sibling just try to tell me that there's nothing wrong with me and it's normal. But they don't know what I'm truly going through. I wish I could explain what it's really like. Please let me just get diagnosed with something so I know what the hell is wrong with me

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lol what if I took my scalpel to school? Then again I might just "accidentally" stab the stupid girl I don't like LMAO